QTpie87

yeah I'd stop hinting so much on it, just tell him, you can be firm telling him but be nice at the same time (that would work the best, it would leave a stronge impression, without hurting his feelings too much). but I wouldn't break up with him because of it. He wont get over it over night (the clingy thing) it'll take some time to get him not to be so clingy, but the same as your interests (wanting him not to cling on you) you should look after his a little too ( wanting to cuddle) and cuddle sometimes. good luck. Qtpie87

mk, well I don't know if they are really something anyone here will like, but i like them. i just shared them with my cousin on aol, and she got kicked off or soemthing so i don't know if she likes them, but whatever. black butterfly- A rose without sun will surely wilt away As my heat with no love will turn black as the night sky left with no stars to light my way Let us burn these black roses and watch them burst into a million flaming fairies to dance upon my hollow grave. Old wounds re-open and scream a blood red cry. My nightmares come alive clawing their way inside my pain filled mind Reaching out for a dear friends hand they pull away leaving me to fall into a confusing bloody heartache. Blue sapphire eyes remind me of the ocean I once loved. Look deeper at the hungry shark waiting to rip my heart apart. I'll wake before the sun can rise in fear nightmares taking me away. Your once warm embrace is now a distant spark of faith. Lying out in midnight air, waiting for a glimpse of my purple fireflies in the sky. Praying that the stars would sing their sweet lullaby just one last time and take me away to never wake. I wish I could show you my soul inside and out. Past my fake grin I've learned to show so well. Take a while and look deep into my eyes. You'll find a wounded butterfly trying to fly. Tell me…could you ever love this black tattered butterfly? I love so much about you and want to know more. Trying so hard to forget you, but I can't anymore. There's a lot in that one that doesn't really go well, but it only makes sense to me lol. No title- Feelings so deep under my skin, too hard to hide with nothing but a childish grin. Rag doll hearts are hard to mend…especially when they've been broken over and over again. Days go by with only my broken guitar to sooth the pain. Then I see your face and all the hurt is washed away. Content just sitting by your side. My happiness too much to keep inside. Can you tell when I get nervous, knots in my stomach pulling tight? There's something in your eyes I love. The way you talk and the way you hug. I love how you confuse me, yet it's the thing I hate the most. Everyday I pray you'd stay, don't leave me standing here alone with nothing left to say. With out you here my world is just a cold empty space. Screaming my lungs out, at the top of my voice. Maybe you'll turn to look with a bewildered look upon your face. I would wait for you forever and only you alone. Trying hard to make clear what I want so much to say, yet I know you'll ask me to explain anyway. Can you open your eyes just for a moment, try to recognize my face? The audience is silent, and I'm center stage. Trying not to mess up, but I forgot my part anyway. Reciting in my head what I know I should have said. Hoping no one noticed, wishing I could just run away. I'm feeling down and useless, until I see the smile spread accross your face. I know as long as you're here with me everything will be ok. Ok so that one was lame too, but o well lol No title- I've just started on this one and have a whole lot to go on it so it's only like prob a 4th of what it will be lol, so it's really short. This dagger is my medicine…….My friend…….My love…..My only escape. Cure this pain, take my heartache. Leave me here dead and empty. No different then I am now. Death and life are too much the same.

well I totally agree with DN. However, why do you want him to be jealous? I think that if they aren't jealous (yes and if they are jealous too) that they really love you, or at least care for you, because that means they have trust for you. About the friends thing. Well maybe he just wanted to talk to his friends you know? He could have wanted to talk to you too, but sometimes a person just needs to chat with their friends for a while. good luck, and maybe think about talking to him calmly about this and see what he has to say. good luck. Qtpie87

ahh sorry this has nothing to do with this post but hey CORNFLAKEGIRL, YOUR SIGN IN IS AWESOME. LOL.

Well first I do have to say that I think because he is happy you need to let him be happy and not get jealous. If he is your friend then you should be happy he is happy. Unless of course you just realized that you may just like him as more then just a friend . That's what it sounds like to me. But what would you do if you fround out that was the case??? cause you don't want bess to get mad at you, that could possibly take andy away more too. you know??? Um well it is also possible that you are jealous because you don't have him to yourself as much (even if you only like him as a friend) I mean when someone starts dating usually they end up spending a little less time with just their other friends. they are either dragging along their new bf/gf, or just spendign time with them alone, and not as much with their old friends. If that's the case, maybe you should tell him, well hey I know you are dating but it feels like we aren't good friends anymore, and could we hang out more. you need to include bess in the hangouts or at least invite her though so she doesn't feel like you are trying to take her bf, you know. other then that I don't know what to say. good luck. Qtpie87

im very sorry to hear about your losses. I can't say that I feel exactally the same as you do because I haven't lost as many people so fast. but I did lose one of my best friends and one of my cousins a year apart. I didn't know my cousin very well so it wasn't really hard on me, but the friend dang, I know how you feel. It'll be 2 years this july 16th and I can honestly say it hasn't gotten any easier. Im sorry about what you are going through, you will always love those people and miss them, the only thing that really seems to get better is that you don't think about it as much after time. If you ever need to talk you can pm me. I hope you start to feel a little better, spend your time doing somethign you like, that always helps. good luck. Qtpie87

if you love her enough then you can wait for a little over 2 weeks. it's not like she'll be gone forever hun. I know how you feel though, eh, I had the same problem with my ex, I hated it when he would leave, even for a few days. it really makes the relationship harder on the both of you to do that though. just hang out with friends, make plans for a few nights each week. and when she gets back, you'll be happy to see her and well Idk, it's nice when you don't see them 24-7 because then you apprietiate it more. at least that's how it works for me. good luck. hang in there. Qtpie87

she needs her own space for a while. lol.

I don't think it was bad for your first one. I don't think it was bad if you had written lots of them. it was good. Lots of people write poems, and they all write them differently. there is no right or wrong way to do it. it's for you and your feelings and thoughts. I don't think that there really is a bad poem out there, because they are all so different, we all have so many different tastes that who are we to say weither one is bad or perfect. they are all beautiful. ok I'll shut up with my little speach there, lol, sorry. anyways, good job. Qtpie87

im past puberty and i am always thinkign about sex. it's hard not to, I know what you mean. I don't want to always be wanting it and thinkign about it but dang. lol.

if you are on a break, then you are collecting yourself and figuring out if you are ready for that relationship. It's not cheating.

thanks guys. yeah I think i'll end up going back to the hospital. I don't know why but the last time I came home I was like a totally different person when I got out. I guess I just had a lot of thinking time, and a lot of help along the way. I think I need more of that. thanks you all for listening to me, it's a lot more then people do at my house.

Well I don't know where to start. There are so many different things wrong with me and I don't know how to fix any of them. I have totally given up changing, cause I can't seem to change. I am so messed up I can't even think about it. I guess I'll do the easiest thing possible and just make a list of my problems. 1- I am and always will be depressed anti depressants only help for a little while then it just gets worse. 2- Im paroniod about EVERYTHING. 3-I am not an easy person to get along with and have trouble not fighting. 4-I have anger issues. 5- I lie about everything, the dumbest things and I don't know why and then when I think hey why did I lie about that, that was dumb, Im too ashamed to go back and fix it. 6-Im suicial. 7-Im carless, about everything, I can't seem to care about anything. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried to change, and then when nothing happens, or if someone doesn't believe in me and tells me I can't do something, I let it control me and believe it, thus nothing happens. My mom wants me to be a certin person. Getting close won't even be good enough. And I can't change that much. She doesn't treat me like she does other people. She is contsintly disapointed in me and has to make herself even act like she loves me. I've taken my anti depressants and they helped for a whilebut then they stopped like always. so I stop takign them, whats the point of takign something that wont help me at all? When I got out of the hospital for suicide I felt like a different person. everything was ok, and I could reason with myself. I kept my room clean, I didn't lie, and It was all cause I felt good, I felt normal. but now I feel like I did then, I want to start cutting again, I want to feel better, I want to kill myself. I think maybe I should go back to a hospital, but im afraid of going. Im afraid because of what my family already thinks of me, I am afraid of being like my father. Im scared that im turning into him, just a huge depressed crazy mess. I felt almost like people were lookign down on me when I got out of the hospital, and I don't want that. but I need help. What am I supost to do.

I have had huge and total revenge. I'm lucky it didn't come back on me though, and Im really lucky we both got over the situation (after a long year and a half or so) and can be friends now with out that odd feeling. My ex lied to me about a girl who he cheated on me with and ended up breaking up with me for her. Im not going to go into huge detail, but lets just say both their lives were hell for a long long time. mostly hers, because she swore to me up and down that they were just friends, she acted like she was my friend, and then when they started going out, she messed with my reputation and was a totally beep. she still hates me, Im pretty much neutral, don't love her, but don't hate her either. but her bf (my ex) and I are still friends and she hates it. I stopped making her life hell because I believe in karma, I thought Im gonna stop now before it comes back on me, and plus im sure it'll jump on her butt sooner or later. but im really lucky that we can still be friends, cause we both did some pretty messed up stuff. so I would think about it before you took out for revenge, it doesn't feel good enough after to be worth hurting someone, in the matter of fact, it hurts to hurt someone you once cared about. DON'T EVER FORGET KARMA, EVER, CAUSE IT WILL COME BACK AND BITE YOU HARD IN THE BUTT.

ok well this might not be easy to do, but tell your bf, or whoever you are doing this to that you don't have a lot, or any experiance in it, and want them to tell you if you are doing something they do or don't like. if you are doing that for him, and don't have a lot of experiance, then it's the least they could do for you, really. Im sure you'll be fine, just don't tense up and just well do what comes naturally. good luck. Qtpie87

Tell him how it makes you feel.

whoa wait... Im not calling her chubby. she calls herself chubby. Im just saying what she says. I think she is gourgeus. I love her to death.

It's not the same for every girl. Some girls have spazms, some cum, some make a lot of noise, and some don't make any at all. some girls have combinations of different things. and sometimes one (from the same girl) can be different from her last one. but I think you'll definitly know it. It's like the best thing you'll feel during sex or masterbation, and well you'll know.

well lol, I feel better about it now. I felt kinda bad about it, but jee guys thanks. lol. Qtpie87

im in a LDR right now, and I think that if you love/like the person enough that you need to search your heart and decide if you trust them or not, if you do then don't worry so much.

Ok well you know how some girls cum when they orgasm? well is it normal to cum a lot, and more then once before you orgasm, like a long time before you orgasm? I do, I cum a lot, and a few times, before and after I orgasm, and want to know if thats normal.

you could use something not as feminen (spelling?). Um when you say lip baum it just reminds me of colorful flavored lip stuff for girls. Do you mean like chap stick? I agree, if it's not colored then you shouldn't have a problem really, id rather kiss a guy with kiwi flavored lips then chapped lips. lol. um Id try to get it unflavored though. try using blistex (the kind in the white tube that comes out like lotion sorta).

hey. well i don't think it is a bad thing that you feel this way at your age. I went through a huge break up (we are going back out now) with my bf because I felt like that. I felt like omg, just him, and i have college dating to do and all that. well don't worry so much about it right now hun. You don't have to worry about settlign down any time soon. and when you find the right person, you wont want to be with anyone else and it wont scare you anymore. good luck. Qtpie87

sure she will act like she believes you (maybe she will) and you will get away with a guilty feeling of lieing yet getting away with it. Im sorry im not trying to sound mean, really, just being as honest as possible. but anyway I still think you should tell her the truth. really!!! You owe her that, and yourself, when you lie to others, you are really only lieing to yourself. good luck in coming up with a decision. Qtpie87

I think that's awesome that you are and can admitt to likeing guys, really. I am bi, and am very atracted to other women a lot of the time. It's not a big deal at least i dont' think so, My cousin is also bi and her mom has no clue because my cousin wont say anything in fear that she will disown her, and that is so wrong. sure she might, but parents need to except and love us for who we are. yeah sure in the bible is says it's a sin, but the bible also says that all man kind sin and it's unavoidable, we are human beings, it's ok to like the same sex. If there are people out there that don't like you because of it, then don't take it too personaly, people are afraid of what they don't know. And I personally say (and yes I am bi so this is for people who don't like gay and bi people) hate the sin, not the person. peace out. Qtpie87