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  1. So I went to the hospital at 2:30 AM. They gave me a 30mg shot of Toradol. That only reduced it a bit. They sent me home. I took 2 Tylenol 1 and got in bed at 5:45. I woke up before 7:30 screaming in pain. My husband took me back to the hospital. This time it was another dr. He said he is sure I have Trigeminal Neuralgia and gave me another shot of Toradol 60mg. He gave me 200 mg of carbamazepine . I have to take 400 mg a day. It is an anti seizure medication that will relax the nerve. And he have me hydromorhone 2 mg for pain. They have me lined up to see a specialist. Sorry I am not making much sense I am taking 2 medications which make you very very sleepy and confused.
  2. On the weekend of mother's day, we went shopping for his mom's gift for when we would see her on Mother's day. We had a great time at her place. As we were leaving, she hugged each of us and told us she loved us. She told him he looked like he was doing better than ever. I had the same thought, about our relationship, that in this point in time we were doing better than we ever had. Didn't know it'd all change in a few short days. Spent Monday telling each other happy we were. Tuesday was spent talking about our goals and plans for the future, all involving bettering ourselves. We were seemingly on the same page with everything. And then Wednesday morning.. We both work from home for the same company. Some days are slow for him, and he spent that day cleaning...doing things outside in the yard...and I was working when he walked in the room looking worried, like he had something to say but couldn't. I joked with him and told him to spit it out, he could tell me anything. He almost looked like he wanted to cry and then he told me he'd been talking to his ex girlfriend from 7 years ago. They dated a little over a year. When they broke up, we spent 3 years casually seeing each other (while he healed himself from the fallout of that relationship) and then we made things official. Would have been 4 years living together this October. I looked at him with tears in my eyes and asked if he told her about us. No. So I said I have to focus on work, let's talk about it later. Later comes and he shows me his phone history logs. I notice only one number he was texting at odd hours of the night and ask if that was her. He said yes. Later found out, it was not, it's his mom's number. Then he says he maybe didn't even msg her and was just tripping and read her name. So with his blessing, I messaged her directly..she's in a happy relationship and hasn't spoken to him in years according to her. I try to brush it off and we enjoy the rest of our afternoon and evening alright. We talk about starting a garden and go look at supplies. He's extra lovey and passionate. I think to myself we can maybe work past this.. But as the night comes on, things get really weird.. We spend most the night laying in bed together. He's holding me, kissing me, saying everything about how much he loves me and doesn't want to lose me. We talk about our plans to marry in the next couple years. And then I have a moment of hesitation (thinking about earlier) and pull away. He notices. And things shift. He says how can I act like I love him and then act so cold. I explain I'm just in my head and hurt. He walks away and I follow. He tells me I need to leave and asks how can I do that? I asked what? What did I do? And he insists that I know. I explain that I do not. And he says that I put a hit out on him. WHAT? I grab my phone and walk down the street. Call my mom. Concerned, not sure where this is coming from or what to do about it. Also unsure of his state of mind at this point. I finally come back, still talking to her and my step dad. My ex comes in the room I'm in and I end the convo. They call back and he answers. My stepdad tells him to give me my phone. Things calm back down...we go back into the bedroom and he's back to being loving for a while. Then he switches again and tells me he loves his ex 50 and me 50. He says her body is perfect but my mind is WOW. I apologize for not being good enough. He tells me I am pretty and says he maybe he needs to just learn that he doesn't need to everything that looks good. I ask if he things we are meant to be together and he says he knows we are. Then he tells me how we are experiencing two different realities. Not really sure what he's thinking but this is the point I really start to think he's on something. He starts talking about he's trying to save my dad and boss. Next minute, he's offering me an edible and when I decline, he begins accusing me of trying to poison him. Next, he's in the hallway, laying on the floor with his unloaded gun. Bullets laying all around him..building snot and spitting everywhere. Comes back to the room, and spits at me. Tells me he his pants. I leave the room...and he follows, Then says he is an A.I. that I (Elon Musk) has created. That's it, before he grabs his car keys and our ferret and leaves the house. He comes back a few minutes later and as I hear him pull up, I go outside to hopefully stop him from leaving again, or at least grab the ferret. He sees me and flies into reverse, leaving again. I'm scared for them both at this point. I start walking down the road, hoping to see them. I see his car parked and walk over. They're both gone. I search around the area and nowhere to be seen. I go back to the car and to my surprise it's unlocked, keys inside. I get in and drive around town searching. Nothing. I pull over and call his sister and explain what's happened before driving home, hoping to see them there. Instead, a cop car. I pull into my driveway and two cops come up to me. Ask me if I live there and my relation to him. Explain that he's claiming to be on shrooms, that he also claimed to give the ferret shrooms. Claimed he was saying the government was out for him and he threw the ferret like a rag doll at them. They asked me whether I knew if he was under the influence of any drugs. I said I suspected it but had not seen him take anything. They then tell me the ferret was with animal control and my ex was sent to the hospital for evaluation. He also told them the car was stolen and he was supposed to meet someone there...not sure who that person would have been. One of his sisters stop by and we go get the ferret first and then go to the hospital. Due to covid, we were not allowed in to see him but answered their questions. He was there for a day or two before being transferred to have his heart evaluated. During his time at the hospital, I tried many times to speak with him but any time I tried, he would either hang up or tell them he didn't want to talk to me. I couldn't get any updates from the hospital so I was pretty much at his family's mercy. His mom was awesome...let me know all going on, and even let me come over once. We were all a wreck. When he was finally released, I expected to see him or at least hear from him. It didn't happen, and his mom told me he wanted to be with her for a week and wanted to be left alone. I said I respected that and gave him his space. Couple days later he called. Conversation went terrible..he spent 30 minutes accusing me of everything under the sun...asking why I didn't sound like myself, asking why I was breathing heavy, what had I been doing, had I been cleaning? How much had I been driving his car? Had I been doing drugs? Where was his phone and how could I leave him stranded at the hospital without it? I explained I didn't know where it was but offered to look if he wanted. I found it and he asked me to leave it with his wallet, which he had also left behind. Couple days later, he messaged me from a texting app and asked if we could chat. I said sure. Conversation went much better, mostly positive but not relationship talk at all. He said hearing from me was the highlight of his week and reminded me I am amazing and he's lucky I'm in his life. I again thought maybe we could get past all this. Two days later, Friday, I'm hoping he'll be back for the weekend and I get a call asking.me to leave the door unlocked so he can come get some stuff. Devastated me..when he walker through the door, sick of waiting around, I demanded some sort of answer. He doesn't want to talk. I say just answer me three questions...did you ever love me? Yes. Do you love me? No. Are we done? Yes. I tell him that I need to leave then, he has his family supporting him but I have no one there. He doesn't like that and tells me I should stay, to use his car and move my sister out there (she lives in Arkansae, with a daughter and a job). I explain that's just not logical and not going to work and I'd be calling my mom. His only response is he has a doctor's appt Tuesday and maybe we can talk then and he'd maybe text me before then. He does not text me over the weekend and Sunday morning, I leave with my mom. I let him know where the spare key is to the house and lock everything up. Never hear from him til I'm over halfway into the drive. His question then is if I actually left. I said yes. And he states that I need to help him with my half of everything. I am open to it, but we get into it a bit. Things calm down and he tells me he will call me Tuesday when things are calmer and we can talk about it then. Tuesday comes and goes and I never hear from him. Wednesday morning, I shoot him a text and he responds that he doesn't want my help and he'd handle it himself. I reach out a few times after that, offering to help.. Never hear anything back. And to date, now over a month later, that's the last I've heard from him. Well, last Monday after work, I hear from his sister on fb. She's asking me for our landlords number. I give her what info I have. Little bit later, she's asking me if I have any idea who he's continued to talk to or where he might be. He's missing again. Long story shortened, hes found a couple days later about 4 hours from home. Mental break down and possible drugs. He's sent to the hospital and held there again. Been out a few days now, and I've not heard anything from him despite my numerous (pathetic) attempts. I've literally never experienced anything like this in my life. I remember it so vividly and I've replayed it hundreds of times since then and can't make any sense of it. I don't know what happened. How do things go from so good to totally lost? How does he love me and then totally ghost me without a second thought? How can he put his family through this too? I don't know how to even being to heal without closure, but none of it makes sense and I'm starting to feel like I'll never get the answers to my questions...
  3. So where do I start. I was with my ex for 7 years we had 3 kids . Our relationship was never really perfect and was on and off . Things were crap and to top it off I was pregnant with our 3rd child and in hospital with our 2nd because he had been hit by a car. I spent 6 weeks living at the hospital he turnt up mabey 10 times .we had a row one night and that was it never saw him again . Untill now . One morning I went to my friends house and there he she had hired him to do her garden not knowing it was him. (What is the chance in that ) . Any way I got his number and had a go I had so much hate and anger .Y did he leave like that ? How could he do that to our kids ?( he had never meet our youngest). He asked to have contact with the kids . Wich I agreed on but now he's telling me how he regrets wat he done he can't get me out his head . I'm so confused . My head says no but my heart melts wen I see him he's aslo a liar and a cheat and I have no trust for him . But how do I no he will stick around
  4. So I recently came out of hospital from a minor operation, and it got me asking a big question; what if I came out of the hospital having to adjust to the new life of not being able to control my body from waist down? I have been with my boyfriend since high school and we've grown up a lot together. We have become very serious and at times talked about marriage and kids and our future together wherever it may be. When I asked him "what if I got into a freak accident and lost my legs or became paralysed babe, what would you do?" after not much thought, he answered "I don't think you can expect me to stay in a relationship with you. I would be there for you and wouldn't just leave you, but I can't commit to stay in a relationship with you. I have my happiness to think about and the same would apply to you if the situation was the other way around. Though this would be different if we were married because of the "in sickness and in health" thing." After hearing that my heart honestly dropped. I thought it was fair for him to say that because in that situation you really cannot blame someone for leaving you because the life of taking care of someone like that would be miserable; you cannot expect someone to care and love you in that situation and you have to put yourself in their shoe too. Their days would be so heavily focused on taking care of you in almost every way and it would be exhausting both mentally and physically. This would become a form of codependency and it could potentially drag the mental wellbeing of the carer down to a toxic level. If they decided to leave because of these reasons, I can't and wouldn't blame them at all. While that is the case, at the same time, this really made me question my relationship and now I am faced with doubt and confusion. My heart dropped because it made our relationship seem superficial. I thought how can you tell me that you would be there for me but at the same time you could one day be with someone new and the only reason why and how you were able to do that was from me becoming paralysed from a freak accident? It fkn sucks and really hurts to hear that. Also, forget the "in sickness and in health" part of the marriage, how does marriage make the difference in this? If you only stay with me because of the stupid vows you made at the altar but not actually be emotionally involved with me, then what is the point? Should we even get married one day if that was the case? Should I even stay with him knowing his answer? I have always been that girl who believes if he doesn't want to be with me then I won't stop him from leaving; I would rather be alone than force a relationship no matter how serious it was. Now talking about my side, how I would feel if this was reversed, I would not know what to do. I don't want to place a definite answer that "yes, I will stay no matter what" because its easier said than done to be with someone like that. Though when the moment the question was asked my way, I told him his answer was fair and I would probably be the same, but I had a warm feeling in my heart and it whispered "yes, I want to stay with you no matter what". I didn't end up telling him how I may have truly felt because I was taken back by his answer. I'm now really torn between both sides and if anyone could give some advice that would be greatly appreciated. :smug:
  5. Hi everyone. I am just here to post to try and make myself feel a bit better as i've been very low recently and going through a lot. If you have read my last post I have explained how I have been under investigation for some medical problems and I am still going through tests due to a misdiagnosis and I am going into hospital on monday for a bone biopsy which was cancelled last month. I was with a "man" for the last year or so. I have posted about him before. I have finally managed to leave him, but this was only because he ended up blocking me after I left him so I have been able to move forward without going back to him this time. I have left around 7-8 times before with no success, but this time I feel strong. I feel like I have to be strong for the medical things that are going on in my life. I am a 24 year old female and I am at medical school, he was (still is) in the british military and has been since he was 16. Everything bad started around 1 month into the relationship when he had his phone contract cut off due to lack of payments. I found this out by finding letters in his room addressed to him from the mobile company. He always told me it was due to the payment not coming out and a mix up with the bank and I believed him because I was in fantasy land and was at that honey-moon stage where you believe everything they say and do because they treat you like a queen. He used to buy me presents and take me out for fancy dinners and help me with petrol money to visit him (he lived 2 hours away). He then got deployed for 5 months where we kept in contact every day, he told me he loved me just before he left and wanted to be together (this was after 4 weeks of knowing each other) and couldn't wait to see each other when he got back. Sometimes he was quiet out there and then all of a sudden he got very unresponsive during the last few weeks of being there and he started to like other female's pictures on instagram, while ignoring me. When i asked what was wrong, he then broke up with me and ignored me for a few days, ignored my pleas to make it work and see me when he got home....so I gave up. He said he didn't want the type of relationship where he has to speak to me all the time, which is fair enough and I resepcted that although I was mad for waiting so long. I was devastated after waiting so long for him to return, but I moved on from this after a week and started going back to normal. Then he returned. Apologising that he made a huge mistake and after a few days I stupidly took him back. The first few weeks after he came back were amazing and I was so in love with him. Completley obsessed and pretty much spent my whole summer with him. Then, we arranged to go on holdiday which I had saved £2000 pound for while he had been away which I was looking forward too. Just as we were about to book it he said he didn't want to go away any more and spent time with his child from a previous marriage and went to his mum's house for weeks on end over the other side of the country. I thought this was odd behaviour but ignored it again. I then saw emails and calls pop up on his phone from debt collection companies, and one day I googled the number to find out it was his car finance company. They had sent e-mails and letters saying he had missed payments and he owed hundreds. He lives in a military camp so they cannot gain access to these premesis. When i confronted him he said it was a misunderstanding and it had all been payed off. He then admitted he had some debts so I helped call up the companies to re-arrange missed payments and helped him through the summer financially. We eventually got it all payed off and returned to normal and completley in love again..... I had a strange feeling in my stomach something wasn't right..he was lying in bed a lot...refusing to go out...and seemed very depressed. So I supported him through this and understood he may be a bit depressed after his deployment. Until i found messages from his ex wife (I felt suspicious about something, like stuff didn't add up or seem noraml) saying she cannot believe what he had asked her and he needed to show some respect. When I asked him what this was he said it was a private matter between him and her and it was a family illness and I must respect that. I didn't believe him so I called her, she told me he asked her to move to Canada with him on a new military posting to make their family work again. I was in so much shock I left him for a few days. He then text me saying he was sorry and it was all a mix up, she'd made it up because she is trying to destroy the relationship. Stupidly I believed him after a couple of weeks of convincing and apology letters, and him coming to visit me for a change and everything returned to normal.... I was then confused because he started voluntarily deploying to germany......and he said it was to save money up so he could be with me...but in germany I found out he was asking friends, his ex wife and me for money...hundreds of pounds...when they dont need to spend any money out there. He would also dissapear on the weekends with his male friends and switch his phone off for days on end when I know they were off on the weekends so he could go out drinking! It absolutley broke me, and I got upset naturally. Then over christmas we patched things up.......and he bought me a christmas present in January and we went away for the weekend to an air b n b and he cooked me dinner. But he would always ask who i'm texting, try to see my phone, always ask why I hide my phone from him and why I'm always on my phone (I wasn't). He then said he was depressed due to one of his friends in the military trying to kill himself, and him having to spend time in hospital with him, and he wanted time alone for a week or two....so I respected that and gave that to him.....then after 2 weeks he turned around and said he was sorry and he loves me, and invited me to this military ball to which i attended with him and things seemed perfect again. Then this week I found out through mutual friends (the weekends he asked me not to come and see him because he was depressed and wanted to be alone) that he was in fact with another girl who he is friends with from the army....they went to walk his dog....and for food.....when the whole time he told me he was alone.....when I questioned him about it he said she was just a friend and he wanted a break from me.....and lied to me because he thought I would be jealous! I am so upset and hurt by this because he honestly told me he wanted time on his own!!!! I felt physically sick when I found out. I do not know what happened apart from they spent the whole day on Saturday together, and then went for lunch on the Sunday. He then called me after this lunch saying he decided he does want to be with me and he was sorry for being depressed and wanted to be alone!! He literally begged me to come and see him the next weekend and was absolutley lovely all week (which makes it seem like there was some guilt there I don't know)......BEFORE I knew this I offered to drive him to see his child because his car got TOWED!! By police!!! He wasn't paying insurance for 6 months and then he didnt get his car out of the compound within 7 days so the finance company took posession of the car and they are selling/ destroying it!!!! He then decided that it wasnt his fault and he cancelled his direct debit without informing the car finance company even though he still owes money on it (they said they may sell it at auction and any money he owes will have to be paid off by him) ...... so he will be in even more trouble for that....and a £300 fine for the police and 6 points for driving without insurance on top of everything! And even then he was looking at new cars on facebook marketplace and trying to hide it from me!! (RANGE ROVERS) ... he is also on around £30k a year so no idea where all his money is going (GAMBLING) probably!! WHICH HE LIES ABOUT AS WELL!!!!!! I then found out that I had to go into hospital for tests because some scans found a bone tumour which looked canerous. So I told him and asked him to come and see me.....i assumed he would of naturally came to see me anyway! But I had to ask! And when I asked he told me that I was probably making it all up for his attention because I couldn't cope with him being away!! (NOT TRUE) - My mum took me to all of my appointments and tests are still going on to this day due to a miss diagnosis. I am going into hospital on Monday as some scans have showed changes as I have had to have constant monitoring and the surgeons want to biopsy it under general anesthetic. He refused to come and see me or even call me to ask if I was okay..... he said he was busy at work this week and would see me on the weekend but I have to drive down and see him as he hasn't got a car and wasn't going to help with petrol money because HE BOUGHT ME SOME FOOD FROM A RESTAURANT LAST WEEKEND. He was on an exercise this week 30 minutes from my home and refused to come and see me!!! Then when I found out about the weekends with this girl (even though nothing may have happend its still a LIE) I told him I didnt want to be with him anymore because of what's going on and I need supportive people...not distractions e.g. his petty LIES about being with another girl...and your car being towed............and I still wanted to be friends... He then called me a psychopath and told me to 'bore off' and he didnt tell me because I would of got jealous and he wanted to AVOID the conversation to make his life easier. And to please me it was easier to say he was on his own than with another girl. He said he didn't want me now anyway because I CANNOT TRUST HIM and that's my problem!! And if that's how I justify to msyelf why the relationship ended then I have to crack on and do that but the real reason the relationship ended is because I didn't trust him!!!?!??! which makes absolutley no sense. He told me to off, but then preceded to tell me not to block him on whatsapp because he wants to know how I get on in hospital!! But he didnt want to be with me anymore either and I should probably go and other guys to make myself feel better!! I blocked him straight after this conversation!! It's like he had no argument back to being caught out on his lies so he found it easier to say to me that he didn't want me anymore either.....and im crazy........ :'( I am so upset...this has been nearly a year and a half of my life wasted and invested on his daughter!!! And I am about go back into hospital now :'( all he does is drink and gamble and LIE!!!! I am just wondering how I move on FULLY from this relationship..........he still wanted to keep in contact about next week (or said he did so didn't look like a complete arsehole) and that I needed to grow up....I am just wondering why people act like this when they get caught? it just seems like he is a master maniuplator...has no feelings of empathy towards me at all...even though a few days ago he was saying how much he loved me..........I feel like I just wasted my life believing everything he said and I cannot even imagine the stuff I did not manage to find out on the days when he dissapeared. And he also told his ex wife that I had a historectomy and i could never have children.........and when I asked him about that he said it was a lie and he'd never say that..even though I had it in writing in front of me......he still denied it. I am not a jealous person...but I got upset at the lies...if he was open with me I would of been fine with him spending time with other females.......I never stop him going out drinking or anything I always say have fun! And never accuse him of cheating on me during these times....it all fell apart....Can someone tell me what I did wrong for someone to do this to me? Was it me or are these people just like that and do it to anyone? I assume now he'll just pick another female to move onto and do the same to him.....and maybe choose someone this time who is less inclined to investigate his lies...he said that he never liked how much I look into things when I have suspcions!! Well turns out that feeling was always there for a reason..... :( Someone shed some advice please! Im just scared of the hospital situation and now feel completley alone! Even though I was before lets be honest! I always had this faint bit of belief he'd be by my side if something like this happened......it's scary now I am actually fully alone. It's like I always felt as him being with me but not being supportive was better than him not being there at all..... Someone please give me some advice, nothing harsh please as I am very upset for monday!! xxx
  6. So I'll give a little background on the EX first. According to my GF he was abusive (once choked her) and a drug addict (cocaine). He also had a uncontrollable temper, probably due to the drug use. He also got her quite addicted to the cocaine as well. I know that's not his fault but I thought it was worth mentioning. Basically a horrible relationship that by no means ended on good terms. When she broke up with him I let her stay with me. 6 years later we are still together, she isn't involved with any drugs and last year we bought a house together. So a few days ago she finds out from a friend that her EX got stabbed by his drug dealer (their drug dealer when they were together). This was obviously a dispute over drugs. He is in the hospital but they say he is going to be alright. Anyways yesterday the EX's mom text my GF and tells her that the EX was stabbed but will be OK and that he would like visitors in the hospital. So she went to visit him without telling me about it at all. I'm really pissed off about this and don't understand why she felt the need to see him. I can understand if the ex got into a car accident of got sick but the reason he is in the hospital is because hes a drug addict and can't control his temper, the main reasons she left him. I don't think in this situation it's right for her to visit him and a insult to me. Are my reactions/feelings justified or am I over reacting. I need a second opinion.
  7. I am 37 weeks pregnant and this whole time MIL and FIL agreed to watch 2.5 yo DD while we deliver the baby. -On Christmas we had an argument which basically entailed MIL boundary stomping. We agreed to a break no babysitting in -January but still they would watch DD when we are at the hospital. -3 weeks ago MIL had a bad fall and bruised her chest. She is bedridden and cannot eat solids. -Yesterray during one of my husbands check up calls FIL said he doesn’t feel comfortable to watch DD bc MIL mainly did the caretaking and she can’t right now. Basically, told us to find some other child care options for Daughter during delivery. We have NO ONE in the area that can watch DD overnight for 2-3 days when I’m in the hospital. I asked husband why FIL feels uncomfortable watching DD and his reasons were that he never changed a diaper, and that he can’t keep up with DD and afraid she will get hurt or in trouble. As much as I want to be sympathetic I am also sooo stressed bc we baby could come any day and we have no other child care options! I am frustrated at FIL for waiting until NOW to tell us. I am mad at FIL but don’t know if this is justified or if I should cut him slack.
  8. I've had to see my boyfriend in secret for 3 and half months because of work (there is a thread on here) but now we are public. He has told me about his medical issues with his arms, He has had attacks of pain (he spasms and wants to scream in pain) at work and I know what to do in an emergency (I've had to help on a date we had) He has a GP doctors appointment, followed by a Hospital consultation and a brain scan coming up. I want to ask him to come, sit in the waiting room so he isn't alone when he gets there and comes out, if he wants to talk he can talk if not we can just head back. I'm scared of hospitals, I'm not sure if my boyfriend is but with everything going on he might not be too keen on them. So I'd like to go and support him. Is it too soon in our relationship? I don't want to go in to the consultation room, I'll wait outside. I just don't want him being alone.
  9. Hi everyone! I hope everyone is doing okay. My story begins with my ex leaving me on this past NY Eve. He moved out all of his belongings on the day of and after. We were together for a year, and lived with each other for half a year. It's good that it happened since it needed to but the way it was went about was absolutely terrible which he has since apologized. This was my first serious relationship and his second. It was a year, but it was an amazing first 8 months, with the last 4 going up and down as I hit depression and he ended up becoming depressed too. It affected us financially, emotionally and physically. We were fighting like children with little EQ. My ex and I miss each other, and of course it took a harder toll on me since I've never gone through a breakup and that he initiated it in an awful way (texted me over the phone he was coming over to talk about the lease and things moving forward, when I was out of town, and he ended up moving out his belongings when I wasn't there. I called and he admitted he was breaking up with me over the phone, I had to ask twice because he was hesitating.) For the past week, I have initiated a no-contact during the day. We only limit to talking an hour over the phone or texting, sometimes face timing at night. It is at night because we are both night-owls and that's when we are relaxed so we would summarize the day to each other. It was for me, since I was blowing up his phone being pathetic and heartbroken. I have a feeling this no-contact thing is a bit rough on him, but because there is something else going on - his uncle. His uncle is very close to death after 40+ years of heavy drug abuse, alcoholism, chain smoking, diabetes, failing kidneys and poor diet. The guy is in and out of the hospital, and recently went back in around the time I initiated no-contact during the day and his uncle will be in the hospital for the rest of this week. His condition is very poor, he is unable to talk. Decision makers have been placed and papers have been filled regarding life support. etc. He isn't very close to his uncle, but it's his Mom's brother, so he is very concerned about his mom, and his Uncle's son whom he is close to and sees as a little brother. I have reached out occasionally to ask, because when I was with him and his uncle was in the hospital, he would wait for me to ask rather than him updating me right away. He relapsed 4 days ago calling me old nick names, looking at our old photos and videos, admitting he felt very lonely. He admitted to feeling lost and lacking motivation for anything. He asked if we could do activities together to go on hikes and biking. I said if I have time I'll let him know. The past two days he didn't initiate night-time contact, but that's when I reached out briefly regarding his uncle. He would respond to say thanks, and I wouldn't say more, only for him to re-initiate. This is my first heartbreak, I don't know what to do with this situation. I have to put myself first, and his uncle's situation is not my obligation. But I am human. Also, I'm still young (23). My heart wants him back, but I am nowhere near ready. I miss him dearly of course, and wish I could be there but I can't especially through this situation where he's sometimes crying on the phone. We did say time will tell..... Am I doing the right thing? Should I contact less?
  10. >Be me >Some 18yo HS student >Have 2 best friends >Known the female for 2-3 years and the male for 4-5 years Well , I've never thought I'd see myself in this situation. To begin with, I've lived in these apartments 5 years ago and became best friends with my neighbor who lived below me. I lived there for about a year until a University bought it and kicked everyone out. We'll refer to this best friend as "Bugz". He went to some other complex and my family decided to rent a house. We pretty much had this nomadic set since I was young where we'd move every year (it didn't help with my school and I wasn't very thrilled about making friends all the time). Well, about 2.5 years ago (around March of 2015) I met his girlfriend who we can refer to as "Red" and I thought that he was lucky to have someone who cares about him. They have a bond that I consider something to be beyond "Boyfriend and Girlfriend" they have saved each others life. Bugz saved Red when she didn't care for herself and would cut herself (I didn't know her when this happened) and Red saved Bugz life when he was slowly "dying" in a SUV with parents who smoke like a chimney and have cats up the ass so the air quality wasn't up to par. Now you'd think it was a match made in heaven but Bugz is abusive and Red cheated on him and hates herself for it. Him being abusive was the reason why she cheated. To give the middle finger to everyone, the dude was 14 when he said he was 17 almost 18. That caused the whole relationship to fall apart and Bugz claimed once that he never had romantic feelings for Red in the first place (even though I don't believe him, I never confronted him about it). They are still best friends live with each other and are in an open relationship and do things (I believe it's just life support to a dead relationship). Now to get into my dilemma. About 2 months ago, my grandmother was in a hospital after a stroke. At the time, I didn't even know what happened and the docs thought she had a brain tumor (She played a mother figure when I was growing up). Red, my best friend, came to the hospital even though I said she didn't have to (I'm used to crying by myself). What she did was nicest thing someone has ever done for me. She was there when I needed someone the most and after a while I started to have feelings for her. I didn't think much about it at first until I stayed the weekend. I kissed her while Bugz is out of the room and started a hidden relationship (I never knew why though, it was a open relationship they were in). Bugz found out and we were both pretty scared, he said he was fine so me wanting to be with made cliff jump gave myself two choices, A) get with her or B) it was curiosity and we should remain friends. I picked A, I even knew that I would fall pretty hard if I did. She invited me over and we talked about it, I even asked Bugz face to face to show that I wasn't backing down easily. He agreed and I asked her how she felt. She said she'll try it but was scared that I might fall faster than she might (I never told her that I was already slipping or anything). I stayed the weekends continuously one after the other. About 2 weeks in she called it off because she was scared that I was falling too fast and didn't want to hurt me. So I sucked up and tried to play it cool because she almost wanted to cry. But even after calling it off we still talked and kissed each other. Another 2 weeks and Bugz said "It makes me uncomfortable but as long as you're not doing it near me I'm fine with it". Now, this is recently, she said that it might be better if we went back to being friends but I know her more than she thinks. I know she likes me and was hurt when she said it. She blames herself for what happened. Now as of this post, this is all that has happened up until recently, I've never made it this far in an relationship and I'm not sure what to do and I thought asking for advice would be the best thing to do. Especially asking someone who doesn't know us very well since there really won't be much of a bias. But yeah, I'm at an impass and I I don't know what to do. I'm just going with what I know and it isn't much to be honest...
  11. I’ve been with my boyfriend for a couple years now. We are very much in love and usually get along great. There was a girl before I came along who would text him lots and really liked him but as he was married previously nothing happened with her, the most that would happen he says is that he texted her back if she messaged him. So now a few years later he is divorced and he and I are together. We’ve lived together for over a year Too. He gives me no reason to think anything is going on other than I recently looked at his phone and over the course of 3 days he was texting this girl I mentioned. It was just about her dad as he is good friends with her dad and he has been sick in the hospital. I left it alone since nothing harmful was said. But I drove us home from Christmas drinks the other night. It was quite late and he was texting someone. He had been drinking too. I was curious who he was texting and once we got home and he had gone to bed I snooped and it was her. He texted that he had been thinking about her lots and then asked if she was still in the city (that’s where her dad is in the hospital). She just said no she was at Home with her kids and they haven’t texted the last couple days since. I’m not sure if I should be worried and bring it up or not. I feel ticked off at him and I’ve been acting grumpy towards him bc he knows I know she used to like him and don’t like them talking. Then he says “I’ve been thinking about you lots” to Her. Maybe he just meant I’ve been thinking about your family since it was Christmas and her dads stuck in the hospital. I don’t know but it’s really bothering me and I don’t know what to think. I don’t want him to know I was snooping on his phone either. Should I ask him about it or just assume he was thinking about her family and not just her?
  12. My ex-girlfriend is abusive. I won't get into how she is abusive because I could write a book about that this post is going to be long enough as it is. Outside of that she has broken up with me several times just to come back with me within 24 hours. The last time I actually didn't take her back but on valentines day she surprised me with many romantic gestures and wooed me back in. The next day she was right back to her old abusive self. soon after, for the first time, I broke up with her and so it stands to this moment. I get a call from the metal hospital a week later. Apparently her co-workers learned of her plans to kill herself and had her committed. The mental hospital thinks she will be there for a very long time as they have since diagnosed her with seemingly every mental illness known to man. Here is the problem. At this moment I don't want to get back together with her. I can't say that when she is released I won't reconsider but currently I don't see us reconciling. I have three ways to go: 1. Keep my distance knowing it will devastate her in a weak time and find a dead body in the bathtub when I get home. (yes we live together) 2. Stay together. Start over from the beginning. This will be more realistic as the time apart will allow us to work on ourselves and take a break from the cycle. Only this whole starting at the beginning and ended up here. Who's to say we won't end here again and I end up with a dead body in the bathtub. 3. Be there for her as a friend. Get her through this time without further emotional investment. Truthfully I can take a lot of abuse if it from someone who doesn't have unlimited access to my emotions but what happens when I meet someone new, want to start a relationship and she is the jealous ex I still talk to. I don't think this would be good for any new woman that comes along and it could prove worse for my ex's mental state in the long run watching me slowly drift away from her and into another relationship. and I find a dead body in the bathtub. I don't want to be with her anymore. I have killed almost all the feelings I have for the sake of my own sanity. It would be relatively easy for me to move on but I have always felt a responsibility to leave my ex in the best mental state possible and I'm not sure how to do that now. A lot can happen in a couple of months. Even if we manage to work it out over the course of the time she is away should I even give her another chance? If she gets help maybe we have a chance. If so, is it even worth chancing? She was a horrible person the majority of our relationship and I feel like if that is who she is should I even consider putting myself at risk again? If more info on her abusive behavior is helpful for answering my question I can volunteer more details. I just figured it would take up unnecessary space.
  13. Hello People My Name is shaun and i just created an account im only 13 years old and i need help-My Real brother Breaks my nose and Bends my toes making me in pain i try to go to my mums boy friends house but his son has drug problems and beats me up and brings all his drug friends to My mums boyfriends house i lock myself therw a door where they cant see me in the office where he is not allowed and i wait there for 9-15 hrs doing nothing just sitting there i have no friends well i do but i cant go out my mum is alway busy and i got to go to places she works i come to my mums boy friends my best friend is selby my chihuahua she comes with me into my room when my step brother is home so far i have been in hospital 3 times and been asleep for 1 hospital time getting a operation on my face i walk around city and everyone looks at me coz of mu face and bruses i tried killing my self when i was 9 but it did not work and im afraid of death coz it will hurt i dont know anymore life is to hard should i kill myself because i dont want to live with other people ? or should i put up with for rest of my life :sad: thx for the site.
  14. Saturday in April: 6:00AM I got up early Saturday morning to take a friend to her clinical at the local hospital. Take her there and come back. 7:00: Arrive back at dorm. Go back to sleep. 9:00: Wake up and eat something. 9:45: Start talking on IM. AC: Did you hear about Lovely Lady(name has be changed) Me: No what happened AC: She was in a car accident Me: She wasn't hurt was she AC: She was killed Me: Oh my gosh, this isn't true. Tell me its not true! AC: I'm sorry, I wish it were true : ( AC: Just wanted to let you know, sorry I for giving you the news. Me: It's ok. AC: I gotta go now. Will you be ok. Me: Yeah, I just need to call my parents 10:00: Call parents. Dad's the pastor so he was at the hospital all night. 10:45: Get off of phone. And cry, normally something I don't do. Just broken hearted over her death. 2:30: Go and pick up friend from hospital and she helps me grieve. I am wondering why the driver in the other vehicle didn't stop at the stop light and stop sign. Why did he have to just keep on going. He wasn't drunk so he had plenty of reaction time to stop. It has been a year and a half since Lovely Lady's death, and I still cannot believe she is gone. She always had a smile on her face, never said a bad word about anyone. Always kind, always went out of her way to talk to people. She was so gentle and sweet. God blessed the earth when He sent her. Loving and faithful wife, great mother to her children, lovely grandmother. She helped make this world a better place. Now she is blessing the citizens of Heaven.
  15. Today, my boyfriend of almost three years went into hospital. He'd been feeling very ill, weak and dehydrated for around 2 weeks. I wasn't really worried about him, just thought it was a winter bug, yet over the past two days, he'd been finding it increasingly hard to get up and walk around, due to night time cramping in his leg muscles (that he'd had over the two weeks) I researched these symptoms on google, and it came up with diabetes. I've had no contact with him since half eight this morning, when he was admitted. his mum phoned me around lunch time, saying he's definitely got diabetes and will be staying overnight, if not a few days in hospital. I'm going to see him tomorrow. How did this just develop? He's only 19, I always associated this condition with older people. Will this affect our everyday life much? I don't know much about diabetes at all.
  16. So my best friend of 10 years who works with me told several people on Friday that she thought I was classless. She doesn't go out with the staff for dinner/drinks ever. I did on Thursday night and bought people a drink (shot). She heard about it and made a big deal of it at work on Friday when I wasn't there. A way bigger deal than should have been made. It was one drink to say goodbye to a client we had lost of toast our future. She was invited and chose not to attend. We were supposed to go do something yesterday and I called twice. She didn't answer but finally her BF did. He was nice but weird so I know she told him something. I was letting them know that my son was sick and I couldn't attend. Before I could get anything out, he started talking over me and asking if I was at the hospital. If I needed to go to the hospital. If my husband was home. Weird. We had talked about a late lunch today and I want to call her but everything in me says not to. BUT I WANT TO! Just to see if she'll answer and what she'll say. I know she won't go. I feel so obsessed with her when she treats me like this like I want everything to be right and if I just talk to her I can make it that way. I don't know what to do. I don't feel like I did anything wrong but I feel guilty just the same. She's so opinionated and judgmental with me in my actions. Then she does the thing that she knows hurts me most, she cuts me off. What do I do?
  17. I've had to let go of my 16 yr old son! I can't control him anymore. He barely goes to school. He lies about where he is. He's more loyal to his friends than to his family lately. I try to remember what it was like being a teen. Tough years and wouldn't go back for all the money in the world....He left for school on Friday, I thought he went to his father's after school but he just now called to say he's been at the hospital with his sick friend & her baby! He has no gas in his car and no money. When I said I was on my way, he said NO, he was staying there! I don't even know what hospital they're at......I do know this baby has been ill off an on since she was born.....I'm thankful my son is not the father!....I provide him with a car, I pay the insurance, I give him a tank of gas weekly, I pay for private school! I work TWO jobs to do this....He has no respect for me what so ever....I fear he's using drugs.....I don't trust him anymore...I've punished, I've praised. I've given, I've taken away...I've done all I know to do...My heart is breaking, but I have to let go and take care of me now........That may sound terrible coming from a mother but I'm at the end of my rope with him. I can not change him, thereforeeee it's time to protect myself....Thoughts and prayers are gladly accepted. :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad:
  18. Alot of you might know my story, or at least bits and pieces of it, but my fiance is in the Army and he got in a bad car wreck and was severley hurt at the beginning of august. He came home and ended up going through multiple surguries do to negligence at the hospital he was recovering at before. Now he's back at his base and is hating it. They won't let him do anything, so he's bored out of his mind and just wants to come home. Now he's stuck with having to wait to find out if he can stay in or not. For some reason he told me it'd be his choice whether he stayed in or took a medical discharge. That dosen't really make sense to me, isn't it the Army's choice? But anywayz, he asked me what I wanted him to do... stay in or get out. I told him that I didn't want to tell him that because my answer was semi-selfish. I don't WANT to have to be away from him for 6 months to a year at a time, especially when we have children, but I knew what I was getting into when I said I'd marry him. I knew things wouldn't be easy. A part of me also thinks that maybe he got into that accident for a reason. Maybe God almost killed him, to save his life. Maybe him getting hurt will keep him from going to Iraq or Afghanistan or wherever. Maybe he was supposed to get into the army so he could get back in touch with me. If it wern't for him being in the army we would have never re-met (long story) I know not everyone believes in "fate" but I believe that everything happens for a reason and that people are put in certain places at certain times... So, is it right for me to tell him to get out? I know alot of my reasoning is selfish and I wouldn't want to keep him from doing something he really wants. He says part of his reasoning for wanting to stay in is a) he'll have stability for a family and b) he says that every guy has this little childish dream of wanting to shoot stuff and blow stuff up and in the army you get to do that... I'm just so lost... right now it looks like we'll get married in december, and then he'll have to go back to Georgia to wait it out to see if he gets discharged or not... if he dosen't I"ll move out there, if he does he'll move back here. He was told it could be until mid feburary until he finds out... which means he'd be gone for my birthday AND our first valentines day image removed I knew this would be hard, but I guess I just wasn't prepared for all of this uncertainty... no one knows anything, and I don't know why it would take that long for them to decide whether he is of any use to them or not...
  19. I think I feel a cold coming on. I know many of you will say to suck it up and let it run it's course, and normally that's what I'd do. However, I have a son who is a preemie, and if I have the particular strain of "cold" called RSV, and he catches it, it's very, very dangerous for him. So, what are all of your tricks for shortening the span of a cold? I'm drinking tons of water and taking as much vitamin C as I can without turning into an orange. My mom suggested gargling Listerine or salt water to kill any germs lingering around. What else ya got? I'm on my way to the grocery store in a little while, so I'm taking suggestions. As far as protecting my son goes, I'm already washing my hands obsessively and taking the herculean effort to avoid kissing his chubby little cheeks. Also, he's had a shot that's supposed to prevent him from contracting RSV, but it's definitely not 100% fool-proof. I'm terrified of my son getting sick. He already spent 2 dang months in the hospital (he was 3 months early) and I really don't want to do it again. Thanks in advance!
  20. I am 27 and for the last 10years plus I've wanted to kill myself. This was simply because I feel there is no point to life. I think it started when I was about 14. That was when I took my first overdose ‘just to see what would happen’. Nothing did, was sick for a few days but was fine after a while and never told anyone about it. Finally about 5 years ago I was so depressed with the pointlessness of everything – and don’t get me wrong, I had a boyfriend, family, friends, was in uni, everything was ‘great’ – but was ill so much and I knew it was because of the depression, then I took an overdose that did leave me in hospital for some days. I couldn’t even do that right; I was told I didn’t take enough to even require stomach pumping! Anyway when I came out of hospital, my mum talked to me about it and she cried. That’s the only thing that stuck – ‘I made my mum cry!’ and that was – and still is - the only reason why I didn’t try to get it right. After that I tried to get on with my life but always at the back of my head – and quite often at the front – I just think ‘when can I do it?’ The funny thing is I’ve never considered myself as being suicidal but I guess I am. And now having recently been dumped by somebody I felt really loved me and who I really loved, it feels worse than ever. To make matters worse I’ve moved to a country where I don’t know anyone and don’t have any friends so I have a lot of time on my hands to think about the pointlessness of life – not just mine but generally. I guess maybe someone could see this as a ‘cry for help’ and can try and ‘save’ me but me I see it as ‘we’re born so we can die anyway, so what’s the point?’
  21. Posted this here recently but didn't get any reply. Its about my GF. Hmm.. We are having this very strong relationship, we are both committed and so much into ourselves, we both cant seem to get enough of eachother, as the man i'm in control of the relationship, and get to decide what happen or not and i try so much not to dictate to her... All im trying to say in bomb-shell is that we are both in love, we really do love eachother so very much. Ad we both realise that we are both down for eachother.. i can even tell she cant be herself if she didn't hear from me for two-three days... But the problem actually started somehow along the way that i cant really describe, I cant really say per-say where the problem arises from. We seem not to get in touch more often like before and so on... I do call her once in a while and she does returns my call too not always though... I started noticing changes in her, i feel she is not that down with me anymore, really dont know what the problem was... so she traveled lately and came back after a week and i did call her twice when she was away.. she came looking for me the day she came into town but i was very busy with very important things like my "education, exams and so" so we hooked up the next day, we didn't actually get to see till sometimes 7ish or so.. we actually was together all thru that day and had a nice time chatting and talking.. and all of a sudden she came up with a question asking me maybe i have done anything little bad or met someone else when are still going out together and I told her the answer which is NO.. coz i was really down with this gurl so we continue talking and i asked her to answer the same question she asked me... And she wasn't going to really answer it.. and i told her its okay if she can tell me, that it will be better not to tell me if she is going to lie, so she didn't say anything... for some couple of mins she asked if i really would love to know and i said yes if she is going to tell me nothing but the TRUTH and she said yes that she is done something little bad in my back... and i was like okay like what, trying to know what it was.. i was like okay..kissing, smooching?? she didn't talk at first and later said yes even more... meaning she had sex with someone else... obviously she is feeling bad already and she said she wonder how im gonna be feeling since she is feeling so bad and guilty about it all... I didn't really say anything coz it was little more of confession thing so i couldn't do a thing, couldn't even yell which is usual of me to do.. i told her if she could stop doing that then everything'll be fine and if she cant then i wouldn't know whats going to happen... To cut the story short, she wasn't doing okay today so we went to the hospital together.. after getting her treatment and drugs, i was going to go drop her home to have some rest and what happened was that someone called on her and she was talking in a low voice with the person, obviously male.. probably asking her to come over or something.. i just dont know... i love this girl so much but i wouldn't want to be a fool in any relationship with any girl. I could really do with some little advise now. Ps: in terms of her look, she is let say 8 1/2, 9, she is used to be a good gurl and we re just very opened to eachother, i dont keep things from her and she doesn't too... and thats why i see she is able to tell me about what she did at my back and she said she wants to stop it, thats why she is telling me in the first place.
  22. Hmm.. We are having this very strong relationship, we are both committed and so much into ourselves, we both cant seem to get enough of eachother, as the man i'm in control of the relationship, and get to decide what happen or not and i try so much not to dictate to her... All im trying to say in bomb-shell is that we are both in love, we really do love eachother so very much. Ad we both realise that we are both down for eachother.. i can even tell she cant be herself if she didn't hear from me for two-three days... But the problem actually started somehow along the way that i cant really describe, I cant really say per-say where the problem arises from. We seem not to get in touch more often like before and so on... I do call her once in a while and she does returns my call too not always though... I started noticing changes in her, i feel she is not that down with me anymore, really dont know what the problem was... so she traveled lately and came back after a week and i did call her twice when she was away.. she came looking for me the day she came into town but i was very busy with very important things like my "education, exams and so" so we hooked up the next day, we didn't actually get to see till sometimes 7ish or so.. we actually was together all thru that day and had a nice time chatting and talking.. and all of a sudden she came up with a question asking me maybe i have done anything little bad or met someone else when are still going out together and I told her the answer which is NO.. coz i was really down with this gurl so we continue talking and i asked her to answer the same question she asked me... And she wasn't going to really answer it.. and i told her its okay if she can tell me, that it will be better not to tell me if she is going to lie, so she didn't say anything... for some couple of mins she asked if i really would love to know and i said yes if she is going to tell me nothing but the TRUTH and she said yes that she is done something little bad in my back... and i was like okay like what, trying to know what it was.. i was like okay..kissing, smooching?? she didn't talk at first and later said yes even more... meaning she had sex with someone else... obviously she is feeling bad already and she said she wonder how im gonna be feeling since she is feeling so bad and guilty about it all... I didn't really say anything coz it was little more of confession thing so i couldn't do a thing, couldn't even yell which is usual of me to do.. i told her if she could stop doing that then everything'll be fine and if she cant then i wouldn't know whats going to happen... To cut the story short, she wasn't doing okay today so we went to the hospital together.. after getting her treatment and drugs, i was going to go drop her home to have some rest and what happened was that someone called on her and she was talking in a low voice with the person, obviously male.. probably asking her to come over or something.. i just dont know... i love this girl so much but i wouldn't want to be a fool in any relationship with any girl. I could really do with some little advise now. Ps: in terms of her look, she is let say 8 1/2, 9, she is used to be a good gurl and we re just very opened to eachother, i dont keep things from her and she doesn't too... and thats why i see she is able to tell me about what she did at my back and she said she wants to stop it, thats why she is telling me in the first place.
  23. sokolm

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    Well, I don't know how to start. I am for about 8 years with my boyfriend and the situation is really horrible now. I must say that I still love him, but I can't stand his behaviour anymore. He is jelous and controlling etc. That means that I am not allowed to speak with other male person and he also dislike some women (that would mean that I am homosexual too, BUT I AM NOT). I had a work that includes some traveling. And I payed for each travel with a lot of quarrel, I heard a lot of bad words on my account and I was always accused of cheating him (I NEVER DID). Somehow I realized that I must say to him that it's awful on the journey (EVEN THOUGH I LIKE IT)... that way I was excused, and my firm was guilty of everything. He also did the things with cloths...what to wear and what not. Each time I bought something for me, he protested. How could I be so selfish. And for everything that went wrong I was guilty. EVERYTHING. He is also controlling my phonecalls, regularly checking my e-mail, SMS and everything that he can. He don't trust me at all. Recently I was ill, with a rather bad prognosis, but somehow I was lucky and everything is OK now. And after all this months of suffering I want to give my self a holiday somewhere near the sea with my sister and her husband. His last accusation is: if you go on this holidays, I will break up with you. He was nasty and he even hit me and made me feel guilty (for holidays and a lot of other things) and he told me that I am selfish....He said that he felt terrible as long as I was in Hospital, but he didn't come to visit me until now (is't one month since I came out the hospital). Since he lives in another town now, he expect that I should go with him now and not to the holidays that i want. Sometimes I want to break up with him (I am affraid of the anger of saying that to him). But after every single quarrel I end up examining myself: Am I right, am I selfish, What if he is right .... The last sentence drives me crazy and I don't know what to do or think anymore. I need help!!!!
  24. Well your charity case filed bankruptcy At the tender age of fourteen Wearing tears to your sleave Did it burn as much as it did for me? You played your part with patience The learning child turning wild Dropped out, gave up on what you knew What sort of inspiration are you? And I followed the seams of your eyes As the ink stained flesh tissue Dejected before you had even knew I love it when your mascara runs You waited too long, dear You're the organism crawling wild The screaming change, a season's child You set out to find reason, true Crashed and burned - Dead before you even knew Hospitals don't home degenerates Intuition broke retribution You repeated the mistakes over time Fraying seams; plagued dreams Pummelled the church walls, careless Discovering and recovering You fought the tears head-on Did it burn as much as it did for me? The sweet suspect of disrespect A news alert calls for you tonight The charity case founded bankruptcy Black tears to your sleeve Did it burn as much as it did for me? Overboard before you knew Declaration of a warrant notice: Your charity filed bankruptcy Hospitals don't home degenerates Out of control, tell me - Did it burn as much as it did for me?
  25. Please help me. My mom keeps lieing to me about her drinking. I want her to stop. I don't want her to stay like my grandfather; in the hospital, with a * * * *ed up liver, with alzheimer and lung problems, and soon going to die. I can't get my mother to say the truth. It's like she is possessed my an evil spirit and it doesnt want to get out. It becoming more hard for me to get her out of it. And worst of all is that I can't do anything, without her admiting it. Anyone is/was in this possition - wanting to help so much but being unable? My mom lives in madeira, and I in lisbon, and so I don't see her a lot. What can I do? Please help me on this one. thanks
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