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Because I'm prettier, I lost weight.

Now it makes no sense. This is the 2nd Valentines where I get nothing and am alone, but still I'm feeling good today. I plan to go to the courthouse after work to see if I can file an appeal on the custody without the attorney, mainly because I cannot afford the attorney even after trying to save. I'm really after normal visitation which I'm sure they'll grant. I'm being proactive which I think is why I'm feeling better. I hate to wait for things to happen. I was such a mess I just didn't know what to do about anything. I still really regret divorcing. I'm holding out hope he returns to me, since he's not the most attractive guy in the world and really not a catch by normal standards. I just hate having a ripped apart family, and well I kind of consider him my family. Maybe I'll get over it soon. No one ever thought of us as a couple. We were an odd match and the only common link is our daughter and they're kind of holding her hostage IMO. Who takes a child from their mother!? It's legalized kidnapping, I don't think the attorney even believes they really went through with it. She sent me a letter saying I could appeal. Oh I auditioned for a band, don't think I made it, and well I think it's time to put my music dreams to rest. Since I'm a natural at writing I'm thinking of submitting some poems to be published, perhaps that's my legacy. I have one that got published already (entered a contest). It was called Divine Love. Now I'm really trying to figure out a real job, and join a choir so I can get my singing out. Real Estate just isn't right for my personality although I totally hate to give it up. I didn't keep up with the classes and don't really have the funding to continue pursuing it. So I need a real job, one that will actually provide me a descent life. Any suggestions? I'm an introvert but love all the extroverted stuff. Considering a degree in Marketing but I'm not marketing material (just not outgoing enough), so what can I do? I looked into music production, and am reconsidering it. I mean now that I've made piece with not being at the mic maybe it is something I could do. Well I'm not really technical but it kind of interests me. Previous major was Music Education transferred for Music Management. So music has been a part of my life forever, except in the actual income part, it's a whole side of me I wanted to use now I think I should find a new career, but I can't seem to. Any suggestions?

It doesn't have to be hard to find a soulmate, but generally they are souls we have had experiences with and thereforeeee karma to work through in some cases. So once you meet said soulmate then stuff begins to happen. They aren't necessarily your ideal partner either. So you can look for your ideal or you can look for a soulmate. Neither is going to be bliss.

Ah, it's the too shy thing. Well you're just gonna have to push through. Practice flirting. You'll build up your confidence with that, and if you blush they'll just find it cute. Go in with an I don't care attitude and that usually makes taking rejection easier (this is so you can approach those girls you're interested in).

Get back in speech class and about the "Who am I" speech it's easy. Find one aspect of yourself to discuss and write about it. You're a college student, you could talk about that. You're employed, discuss your job. Do you have a hobby, talk about it. Ask others if your stuck on a subject, don't just quit. We all have to work to support ourselves so find something you halfway enjoy doing and get at it. Do you think I want to work, heck no but I want to have a place to live and be able to eat so I work. You just might not be at the right college. I know I made friends easily at one school and not easily at another. You're not motivated because you have realized what motivates you. I know for me having a descent car is motivational (for example). A car represents freedom. What thing motivates you? That will lead you to overcoming your depression and lack of motivation.

Have eat ginger snaps or add fresh ginger to tea. Ginger calms the stomach down.

You must give off an air or something. I think you're cute, so it's not the looks dept. that's bad. You need to approach woman you are interested in. What do you do exactly to involve yourself with the opposite sex? I mean are you trying and failing or just thinking she'll come to you? Because woman usually don't approach men but give off signals of interest.

Your girlfriend cannot handle a long distance relationship at all. Her mom negatively influenced her when it came to you. Now if you want this to work, which I think you do, you must get her to relocate to where you are. Get her on meds for her bipolar, and watch her turn back into the woman you love. Otherwise cut your ties and move on.

I doubt your marriage will be like your parents, I wish mine were like my parents. My mom's marriage wasn't like her parents abusive marriage. Mine wasn't like my parents loving marriage. Choose wisely and if you have a partner rather than a controller you'll be fine.

My thinking is very similar to yours. You like jui jitzu so keep at it and find other things that bring you joy. Nothing has a true point but the experiences are valuable spiritually. I believe in life beyond death, and often wonder what the point of that is as well. What is it you want to experience in this life? You are the only you there is, so what mark do you want to leave upon this world? Check out this website it might be of interest to you. link removed

Well I've been there. And I've learned that no matter how much you want to quit living life keeps going. It's up to us to create the kind of life we want, don't expect it to come to you. Meds help and if yours aren't working you may need to try a different kind. I know when I found one that worked for me it was like wow this is the one. Meds don't heal everything, a change in attitude is necessary for me and may be for you. Stop whinning and start acting.

Siraf - It's true you will always be you. It took me hitting rock bottem in every sense of the word to realize a lot of things I wish I would have realized a year ago. Like I didn't appreciate a lot of things I had, still don't sadly. My mom says I didn't hit rock bottem and I don't know what it is so as you can it's a matter of perspective.

I was you once. Don't settle, focus on college, you'll be happier.

When I was younger I had a list of things I wanted to experience before I died, on that list was a boyfriend, having sex, childbirth, etc. Well I've experienced all that so I opted to create a new list. Needless to say it I didn't want to die without having that experience, but having that experience has nearly killed me (the emotional trama of it all). Looking back I'd be fine if I were to have died before experiencing those things, but then I would susequently erase two lives. That I wouldn't be fine with.

I think you need to meet with a counselor. Quitting school is a red flag. Something is going on with you, and you may have devle deeper to figure it out.

Oh take the class. It'll be fun. Photography is really a do it yourself business. You love black and white, well that's your niche. Create a website, and start it in addition to your regular job (if you want to pursue it as a career). Advertise yourself, check out local photographer rates so you can set yourself comprably. Get options of your work so you'll know how you appear (too amateur, looks professional, etc.). Good luck.

Transfer to the community college. Now I was a snob and thought I was too good to go to a community college whereas my friends went to a community college and one transferred to a 4 year college and has had her degree for years. I still don't. I was going to take some time off because I was completely stressed and planned on returning the next semester. Well 10 years after I should have graduated I'm still floundering. I came from a professional family. I never expected to struggled the way I have, and withdrawing from college was a HUGE mistake. Don't do it! Transfer to a college that's not as challeging for you, get therapy, and then you'll be fine.

I say follow your passion. Go study producing at a local college. I mean there are tons of artists out there that you can produce. You're still young if it doesn't work out (and I'm sure it will) you could always go back to school for something else.

I think buffing up will help and most are too self involved to be noticing you at the gym. Maybe you just haven't hit your final growth spurt yet. I know my brother grew around age 20 to his final height of 6'3". You'll become a man in the physical soon enough, enjoy the fact you don't have to watch your weight like others do. Was there a stressor that caused you to lose weight? Have you worked through that emotionally yet? What changed can you make that will help you be the man you want to be? Can you eat heartier meals for example? Maybe even try drinking protein shakes (they're good for muscle building) and high in calories.

Some ideas for careers with children. You can become a social worker, you can work in daycare centers, or become a school teacher. I'm sure there are more but those are what came to mind for me.

If both parties are willing to work at a relationship, yes of course there is hope. As far as the spark, you have to work through the muck to get back to it, yes it is possible. Good luck to you both.

I married a man I wasn't in love with. I thought I would grow to love him, didn't happen. We had a lot of problems and I basically wanted to run away, which I did and created more problems.

Good luck!

Do you know what triggered the not eating? What incident started you on this self destructive behavior?

How long have you been fasting/starving? Do you have a plan for how long you plan to starve/fast or is it indefinitely? It's not harmful if done for a short period of time. It can be healthy and beneficial. Are you concerned about doing this or returning to eating? Start with fruits when you return from a fast it's easier on your body. I'm really not sure what you're looking for by posting but there are safe ways to return to eating, if that's a concern.