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tmp0620

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  1. I'm not gonna give up on life or anything like that (though it's been tempting at times - never attempted suicide or anything). Although you're right in that I'm early on in my life, being me right now hurts and there's no way for me to get around it. Being in the position I'm in I end up asking questions of myself wondering what it is about me, exactly, that repels people and relationships from me. Relationships can create drama and pain... but they can also create joy and happiness... (right?). Both options are better than being completely lonely and not feeling either. Let me put it this way: I would rather 5 people hate my guts and let me know everyday than have no interaction with anyone. As it is it seems I'm not even worth hating.
  2. I'm so jealous of all of you people and your relationships. I don't really know a single human being aside from my parents. I'm not exaggerating. I can't start relationships of any kind. I can usually keep myself occupied enough to not worry about it, but sometimes reality hits me like a ton of bricks (and it really hurts): I realize that I will, in all likelihood, live out the rest of my life alone. I have no idea how or why this has happened to me but it's ridiculous and no one should live this way. There are people I can call and do things with but, for whatever reason, I'm not even remotely interested in hanging out with or talking to other guys for the most part.
  3. Though I don't really have any advice for you, I can tell you that you're not the only person that feels that way. You've got to keep on going. I know first hand how hard that can be, but you just gotta do it. There's always the possibility (actually it's a probability) that things will change. It'll happen even more quickly if you help things to change. I understand also that you're in a catch 22 (like I said I'm in a similar position). You're depressed and complain (or at least talk abouty our problems) and that can push people away because they don't know what to do. You need someone to be close to in order to feel better but the only way anyone can get close to you is if you get over your problems. It's very frustrating but you need to find something(s) that keep you occupied and happy enough to where people don't consider you desperately lonely and in pain.
  4. Seems like that's what he's saying. First of all... posing as someone else probably isn't a good idea unless you're only messing around with it for one or two conversations or something, and then revealing who you are. I'd say start talking to her more with the the account that she'll know you with or preferably... in person and after a little while tell her that you were the other guy she was talking to and apologize for it.
  5. Thanks very much for that. Kinda what I needed to hear.
  6. It's possible that he figured your support for him was "obvious" and when you said that you would support him even if "his boss doesn't" it was as though you were saying it wouldn't be unreasonable for you not to support him... if that makes sense. It's hard to explain, I hope you know what I'm trying to say.
  7. Honestly, I wanted no part in all of it. I just wanted to get on with my night. I do feel bad for not going out and telling the police what happened, but at the same time I just wanted to pretend like nothing had happened. If I hadn't gone outside this wouldn't have happened, and if I hadn't been drinking I probably would've told the police.
  8. I really couldn't do a thing to help the police at this point. He didn't exactly give me any information that would be useful to the police. I'm 20 years old... this kid was older and bigger than me... how am I supposed to make a "citizens arrest"? I know I could've done differently, but I guess I'm actually here to get some sympathy, if I don't get any I realize I don't deserve it, but I have to say... I am a moral human being, but at the time I was also a drunk human being that could get in trouble for doing the right thing. I was in no shape to make a serious decision. And no offense, but that part about "God giving us guilt" offends me.
  9. Actually, I didn't do anything wrong. I was minding my own business, though I heard someone behind my house, went to investigate. I didn't expect him to see me, was only standing there for a second. He saw me, was considerably bigger than me, so I asked him what he had done, and he made something up (I'm assuming now that he did, in fact, hit someone with his car, but I don't know that for certain). I told him to talk to the cops, knew that he was going to be caught because they found his car (and his liecense plate number). That of course could be denial/rationalization, if I deserve some kind of reprimand, please don't hesitate to "tear me a new one". Perhaps I deserve it.
  10. I wasn't at all ready to make serious decisions at the time. Fate is cruel. My naivity got the better of me, and I assumed he was innocent.
  11. I feel so horrible right now. I was watching TV, drinking some wine, and all of a sudden I heard loads of sirens at the apartments below my house. I went out into my backyard to see what was going on... and I heard someone talking on their cell phone on a wooded hill behind my house... so I walked over to go see what he was doing. But he saw me, so I asked him what happened, cause he was obviously hiding from the cops. He said he was scared because he'd go to jail if the cops saw that he was drunk, but that he didn't do anything wrong, although I had heard him say on the phone "my friend is telling the cops that I hit someone." Anyway, the cops show up on my street, looking for someone. I didn't know what to do... I was a little drunk. I realized after a couple of minutes that this kid kept lying to me... about where he lived... what he was driving, where he had parked his car... He said he had gotten a flat tire while driving through the apartments below my house beacuse he hit a curb. Said he was driving a 7 series BMW, but then said he was driving an SUV. I went in my house, he was waiting outside out of view of the cops, and I looked out my front window, saw the cops examining a Beamer that was parked on my street. I told the kid that he should go out and talk to the cops and that he was going to get in more trouble if he ran from them. He said he wouldn't do it cause he was drunk and if the cops saw him drunk they would put him in jail. So he left my house, ran down the hill in my backyard. I sat at my front window for 20 minutes wondering if I should go out front and tell the cops what had happened. I know now that I should've told them that he had just run down my hill so that they could catch him, but I took too long to decide and I was afraid because I was drunk and underage. I feel aweful. Really horrible.
  12. He cheated on you. Should you trust him? You can't control what he does, you just need to accept that. If he ever cheats on you again tell him goodbye.
  13. I made a joke guys. Didn't anyone notice? Four words: Morning after Pill HAR HAR HAR! No but seriously go get a morning after pill and 99.9% of your worries will be washed away even if my joke was unfunny.
  14. Duuuuude four words: morning after pill.
  15. First of all... you don't need to flip out yet... second... morning after pill... Of course you know that chances are that she will NOT get pregnant, but it is possible. If she's on the patch... that will help, and if she's take a morning after pill that will help even more, and then I don't think you'll have much to worry about at all. Don't freak out yet my friend.
  16. Why would you be thinking about being with another girl while you are going out with someone you've been with for four and a half years? (I'd give you advice on what you're asking but I have 0 experience)
  17. Any foreign accent is great for me. Latin accents are probably my favorites... mostly spanish and italian, but I've heard some very attractive german accents too (I know that might seem weird).
  18. I can't say I wouldn't date a model, but the though of it bothers me... someone who gets money because they were born lucky... get a life (not you Skyblue...models).
  19. If you ask me... you're a virgin until you have sex. You didn't have sex with your first boyfriend. I think most would agree. You almost lost your virginity though.
  20. "I tend to stay away from the religiously toned words such as "good" and "evil", but I am not a relativist, and I firmly believe that there is a difference and a choice between right and wrong actions." Things aren't black and white. One mans good is another's evil. The nazis didn't think they were being evil. I wouldn't call them evil. I don't like them at all...don't get me wrong, but I think "good" and "evil" aren't very intelligent words to use.
  21. What a coincidance... I was just looking information about this up on the internet because I am now certain that I have avoidant personality disorder... here's some information on it: link removed It's horrible really, because you want closeness to other people but you have no way to get to know people that well because you're too preoccupied with other things when you're around people (things like the environment around you, everyone's reactions to you, overthinking what you've said and what you might say, wondering if you'll embaress yourself...etc.). It's a really bad way to live, I can say that from experience. I end up having to come here to get social interaction usually. I have no close friends, never had a girlfriend, and even feel like I'm around strangers when I'm around my family.
  22. I used to look a little hunched over myself... but if you just look in a mirror every once in a while and get used to how it feels to be all straightened out you can undo it pretty easily.
  23. You should work on that... try meditation, it's really refreshing.
  24. Hmmm. I try my hardest not to think about that.
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