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If You Have Something to Say to Your Ex. . .
MewSkitty replied to Chibby33's topic in Healing After Break Up or Divorce
I don't see how people could turn from love to hate. Once I love someone, I could never hate them. Well, here's what I'd say if I had the chance: Monica, I know you thought I was the perfect guy when we met, I only wish today I could still be the perfect one for you. You were not perfect for me, but perfection dose not matter when you love someone. I would have tried my best to keep you happy, I never would have hurt you. I'm sorry for not talking to you after the breakup, if I'd known it would be the last time we ever spoke to each other I would have talked much longer than the 2 hours we did on the phone. I miss you so much, I tried to be perfect for you. What happened over the 2 years we were together? Wasn't I good enough for you? I should have seen the signs over the years. You never talked about future plans together with me, you said you didn't feel ready to do so. I was too caught up in my own world to see you didn't want me. There's something I never planned to tell you. When you first said you loved me, I only thought of you as a friend. I wasn't interested in girls yet. But being with you over the next two weeks made me change my mind. Then during the next 3 months when we were separated, I grew to love you, and when I got you back I wanted to keep you forever. Over time, my love for you only grew, while you lost your love for me. Now that we went our separate ways, my only regret is choosing NC once we broke up. If I didn't do that we could still be friends at least. I'd do anything to hear your sweet vioce one last time. Goodbye Monica, you will be in my heart forever. Well, what'd y'all think? I plan on finding Monica again once I move out of my families house. I'll even hire a PI to find her, just so I can have closer so I can finally move on. I just want to tell her she made a big difference in my life. If it wasn't for her meeting me the same week I planned to kill myself, I wouldn't be alive today and I wouldn't have Jesse. -
I know so many ways this can go wrong, I just hope for the best. If worse comes to pass and I'm not granted emancipation, I'll only have to wait 8 months before I turn 18 and can move out whenever I want.
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I would never cheat. If I liked someone else more than the person I'm currently with, I'd break up with them before doing anything with the other person.
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The only other family member who isn't as bad as my parents is my gandmother, and she's going to be moving in with my mother because she's the only one who visits her nowadays. I go to her house every day after school. When I do move away, I'm going to miss my gandmother, she's the only one in my family I love.
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My birthday is July 20th, so it'll be a long time befgore I'm 18. I just can't stand being with my fanily another second, the stress is killing me. Also, my parent don't like me talking to people online, they'd never let me move in with my friend even though I've known her for years.
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Hello. I haven't mentioned it here yet, but my family is horible. My parents are separated, but due to finacail problems, my dad is going to be moving back in with my mom, and I won't be able to take it anymore. Both my parents are alcoholics, they drink almost every night. They fight over the stupidist things, but mainly they fight because of something I did. Like last night when my dad was visiting they fought about him being lazy because I didn't do the dishes. My dad smokes pot every day, and he even said he'd force me to do it when I turn 18. I am totaly against all illegal use of drugs, I hate him for doing this. My mother said that she dose it too on occasion. Also, my parents do a lot of things that I don't agree with moraly. I hope the judge grant me this, I've been wanting it for so long. As for fending myself, I have a friend who lives in Indiana who'll let me live with them until I finish school and can get my own house. I would like to know more about what I have to do to help ensure I get emancipated. Please help me do this, it's for my own good.
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I used to look at pron, but not anymore. I respect the female body, and I find it disrespectful to pose for everyone to see. I only think the right way to show your body off is only to your friends and family, but never to strangers.
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I would say I'm average at 7 inches, in magazines I always reading about how good it is to have a big thing, but when I talk to real people they always say size makes little difference. I'm still a virgin, and will be until I'am alone with my GF for the first time. My GF is a virgin too, so we'll both have a great time tegether. My GF dosen't care that I'm not lange, but average.
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I doubt you can get pregnant without the sperm actualy entering the vagina.
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If you're both shy about this, than it'll be hard to come by. Show her you can break through your shyness by breaking through your own. When I talk with girls about sex and stuff like that online, I'm very shy, and usualy are the other person. But when they see my efforts to break through my shyness, most of the time they do too.
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Sad news about Leah (celticghirl)
MewSkitty replied to Fallout's topic in Grief Loss and Bereavement
If I could die to bring her back to life I would. It's not possible, but at least you know how much I care. -
Sad news about Leah (celticghirl)
MewSkitty replied to Fallout's topic in Grief Loss and Bereavement
Why do people have to die in such horible ways? I would I could die to save the lives of more worthy people. I'm crying now so I'll take a break from the computer. -
If it was me in this situation, I'd tell her that he may cheat on her. If you care that she get's hurt or not you should do this. She may get mad at you for doing it, but it's to protect her feelings from getting hurt.
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I was depressed since I was 8 years old. For the past year I was on antdepressents. I recently got off of them and now I'm feeling depressed again. I doubt I'll ever be able to not feel depressed without medication.
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I usualy help people who feel bad by relating to them somehow. I have a great looking fiance, I don't work out, and I recently got better from being suicidal. All I can say is keep trying, there's a lot of people who care about you. Also, that one girl is 17! It won't be long until it's legal to date her and stuff. Just try your best to stay alive until you can date her if you really care about her. As for living with your parents still, don't worry about it too much. I am the type to live at home for a long time, but I hate my parents to death and can't stand being around them so I plan on moving out the day I turn 18. You are still young, life will get better, but only if you look at the good and not the bad. Bad stuff happens to everyone, only those who look at the bad let it get to them. If you only look at the good life will seem so much better. I care if you live or die, it would make me sad to know I tried to save your life and my efforts were in vien. Please, don't make others sad by killing yourself, you'll only end up hurting other people.
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Jesse's parents don't like the idea of her being in a relationship. So, we have to kinda keep our relationship a secret from her parents. They'd never even let me talk to her if they found out we were engaged. Anyways, because of this she isn't allowed to call or send letter to me. I love hand writing and would gladly accept letters from anyone to keep. I have a few old letters from Jesse back when we just started being BF and GF.....I just reread my last post, it's out of date already. Well, the day after I made that post I got another email from Jesse and she said she got her computer fixed and has a new screen name for AIM. Well, I can't wait to talk to her again. She said it kinda makes her sad not being able to talk to me as much as we used to. Well, if things keep going this way I'll be better in no time. Well, since I'm no longer suicidal this thread is meaningless to me. If you'd like to know how I'm doing just check out my journal here.
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I hope I too can be of help. Don't worry if you get sent to a hospital, I come and go from them all the time. They make me feel better when I go to them, and they make me feel like someone truly cares. If it was my choice I'd live in one my whole life and try to help others in need. So, if you ever do get sent to one, you have my word that if the one you go to isn't run by people who just care about making money, that in the end you will feel better. But also know that once you get out, it's up to you to continue to feel better. Myself, due to mental disorders I'm very unstable and can go from happy to suicidal in less than a day. I'm lucky to have found this forum because it's filled with people who care. Before this forum, the other forum I went to for help everyone just put me down and made me feel worse whenever I made topics searching for help. If you can't find help in one place, try another.
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This is a reason why I plan on never doing the gross act of sex.
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Please don't harm yourself, because I care about every living human. I know what it's like to be suicaidal, I get that way every few months or so. You have reasons to not want to live, but think of reasons to live. If I was you I'd move into a mental hospital until I get back on my feet. They can help you feel better, give you food and shelter, and you can make caring friends. I'm too young to check myself into a center, but I plan to once I turn 18 and still have problems. I've been in a metal hospital due to my schozophrenia a couple times, and I always had fun in them. Please, think of the kind people like me who care about you, don't think of your fmaily. I hate my family, and have good reason to. Both my parents are alcoholics and drug users and they both swear all the time. I hate seeing people do such bad things, even to myself, but it's no reason to end your life. I wish I could meet you in person to help you, but that won't be possible. The only help I can offer is my words, and I hope they're powerful enough to make you feel better. You see, I have a couple mental disorders that make people feel uncomfertable around me, but the few who do stick around will say I'm the kindest person they know. Please, if you end your life you'll miss out on a lot of fun later on. Just give it one last chance and try to meet more people. I'm sure you'll find someone who'll be able to help you.
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I'm glad we were able to help you. I'm always needing help, and I found out this place is a great place for any kind of help. So, to return the favour, I try my best to help people out here as well.
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Hello. I'm what you'd call a "geek" or "nerd" because I'm very smart, but due to ADD I get poor grades in school. I have never had a real life friend, all of mine have been online. My fieance Jesse lives in Tennessee and I live in Colorado. It will be a few more years before we can meet, and that's what keeps me alive. I am very unstable, I could go from happy to suicaidal in less than a day. I too, am what you'd call "ugly" but I don't care. I want a girl who'll like me for who I am, not what I look like. Sure a lot of things will go bad in your life, but try to look at the good things too. When you're suicaidal, you can only look at the bad. I know you want to live, or else you wouldn't have posted here asking for help. I know I'm a nobody and you'll probably not care what I have to say, but please, try to find something to keep you happy. All my childhood I had savere depression, and the only thing that kept me from wanting to die was a cartoon called Pokemon. To this day my relationship with it has been discribed as beyond obsessive, but I don't care. Pokemon is what I care about, and no one can take that away from me. Now, you should find something you care about and make that your reason to live. As for girls, I'm asexual, so I don't lust for them. I can't stand the thought of me ever having sex and I never want to do it. But I love Jesse for who she is, not that she's a good looking girl. (Jesse is the most beautiful girl I know) I want her to by the mother of my future kids, and I know she'll make a great one. As for you, it may take a long time to find the right girl, but don't give up. If you kill yourself, you'll never have the chance to meet another girl. If you want to have a GF, try meeting one online like I did. If you go to the right places you'll find one easy. Please, don't give up. I know life seems hard right now but it'll get better. Yah, it might even get worse in the future, but if you look at the bad instead of the good you'll want to live. I want you to live. I hate seeing people go through what I went through and so I dedicate my time helping those in need. I see you've only made one post, so you'll be unable to send PMs until you make 10 posts. So, if you want to contact me either reply to this thread or email me at email removed but either way please do it. I want to help you. I have never actualy helped another person in this situation, I want to do it at least once in my life. So, can I save your's today?
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I have plans for when I'm out of school. I plan on going to college for computers and getting married to Jesse. We plan on getting a house of our own around her family so she can be near them. As for my family, I hate them so I'd be happy to move away from them. I just hope our plans work out, cause if they don't.....I don't know what I'll do. Life is a gamble, so you have to take risks. Anyways I almost forgot why I came to post. I came here to let you know that I got an email (finally) from Jesse. I'm not sure if she fixed her computer or was just at a friends, but as long as she can talk to me it dosen't matter. She mentioned how her friends complain when their BFs are gone for just a week. I told her that she should be happy that she's strong enough to handle a long-distance relationship. I just hope everything works out so I can be with her. Jesse's happiness is all that matters to me.
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I see my docter about getting put back on antidepressents this Friday. I'm thinking that I'll have to be on them to keep my happy for many years to come.
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I talked with some people irl today and I'm feeling a little better. It'll take a long time to recover from this, if I ever do. Just to let y'all know, I'm a very unstable person, I have many problems that come and go and when too much comes at once I get very depressed and most of the time suicaidal. I will be starting to see a tharapist in a few weeks to help me, I wish to never be this way again. Also, unlike my usual luck, I was able to sort this out without my mother knowing and I even have a great cover story for why I'll be seeing a tharepist. Things are starting to look better, but without help I'll likely be suicaidal again and again until I either try to kill myself again or I get perfessional help. Oh, and one of you guys mentioned about me might not wanting to grow up. Well, it's true, I don't want to ever grow up, but I don't want to act like a little kid. I want to keep the innocence of a child, but be able to live life like a normal person. It'll very confusing for me, but only time will tell who will win this battle.
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I was expecting people to reply and try to help me, but in the time I made the topic until now only one person replied and they didn't care, I guess no one here cares about me after all. I have to go now, I doubt I'll ever be back online.