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1. punish myself for what I thought was wrong 2. did it to feel the pain 3. watch myself bleed (I know it sounds insane)

All of the above exept the intercourse last weekend.

Just break up with her, if you have to, lie about something. Just get rid of her. You don't seem you will have much trouble with it anyway.

I know how this feels, before I had a girlfriend just walking in the hallways at school killed me because everyone usually had someone to give them a sweet hug or peck on the cheek. Just something sweet. I have that now but I never get the long hugs I want either because I'm never around or because she doesn't like long hugs. All I can say is I know how you feel and I'm with you on it. Don't feel too lonely about it, lots of people are in on it with you.

Thanks to the both of you for your advice and such. I'll see how it goes.

Okay so let me explain, There are two girls that are my girlfriends best friend right? Well my problem is that girl#1: My girlfriend practically lives there due to school issues, she needs a place to stay in order to go to school. Well thats fine and dandy but it's like now days both of them are clones... Girl 1 is practically saying the same things she does, does everything together, takes all my girlfriends attention away from me and I'm jelous of this and I don't know why. IT REALLY IRITAITS ME. I've talked to the both of them about this but it's still the same, nothing changed I feel like there is nothing I can do about it. I feel like I'm dating two people or something. Then girl # 2: I'm jelous of her because she takes up my girlfriends attention by taking her to raves all the time, and my girl doesn't bother to invite me so I feel like they are doing something behind my back and it makes me feel like crap. Not to mention every time something goes wrong between them girl # 2 uses my girlfriend and always ask's for things and really doesn't do anything with her for days then all of a sudden something comes up. Just lately I feel like my attention is being sucked away and I don't get any of it from my girl due to the fact of other people. I do try and put myself out and talk but for some reason others seem to ignore me or take it away. So if anyone can please help me out or give advice I'd really like it. Thank you so much.

I know what you mean. I was talking about it earlier. It's just gross. I stumble upon nasty sites once in a blue moon. I seem to ask those questions to myself alot. I really can't answer your questions but I can sure go with you on that. I'm female and I'd NEVER do that. I couldn't pose my body out in the open like that or anything, my girlfriend sure in hell wouldn't either.

Well, I know how to turn someone on but what I need is maybe more tips about it? What other things I can do to my girlfriend... etc. Lately it's just been getting old and doing the same things over. It feels good and all but something new would be nice. Maybe tell me what you others do that might be helpful? -- Though I do know that it all depends on what her turn on spots are but it's a little hard to find them if she won't tell me or anything... either I already know or they are just being over used or something along that line. So if anyone could help me out that would be great thanks.

Well, girls are always clingy over other girls. Hugs, pecks on cheeks... I don't do this myself but I see it happen and they are just normal girls. I am infact a lesbian but what your saying really doesn't seem to describe much of someone acting gay-ish or anything. Explain more and I could probably tell you about it more.

They sound like great people. You should figure out whats best for your son if your planning on getting married that is, other wise I'm flat out of sugguestions. Then again your hearing this from a 16 year old aswell. Does he know about this? I'm just saying that because sometimes it's a heartache for a parent to put out and do something with another guy after a marriage or something but... do whats best for yourself. Just thought I'd note some things that might come to mind later on. Good luck

Thats so awful. I'm so sorry to hear this. I have lost many family members but it's true I don't know how you are feeling and everyones feelings are much different. All I can say is be strong and live life the best you can.

Thanks, I'll take your word for it, but we have been dating for nearly 3 months ... then again that isn't really much of a long time, but we act as if we have been dating for a longer amount than it really is. But thats not the problem. Your right and I'll try my best to keep those words silent and see if anything changes after a good amount of time.

Have you had a boyfriend before? This happened to me with a boy. Though... my situation was different. I dated him and felt disgusted and freaked out. After that I realized I was lesbian. Not sure that's your situation though but what I can tell you is you look like you have been rushed in too far. Usually people slow down when it comes to dating, or maybe you aren't attracted to that actual person.

Thank you, hopefully I can try to break through. It is hard but I have to do it sometime. I guess a little guidence will pull someone through.

It happened to me once.