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  1. lostlove
    yeah, i'm having a similar dilemma. the majority of people at school hate me...it's terrible knowing that there's often going to be someone flicking me off or insulting me behind my back. it's a hard thing to deal with...you just want to escape, to find some new solution, a new start. you could switch schools, if your parents let you. if not, then maybe you could do some teen volunteering thingy or find some meetup group of interest to meet people outside of school. if you have any other questions, or just wanna talk, i'm here...pm me anytime. good luck.......
  2. lostlove
    you're playing with fire here...if you want my opinion, i'd say that you should probably leave it be...he's married. you could really, really be hurting someone else if you pursued it. good luck.
  3. lostlove
    try writing when you're feeling inspired...when you want to write. i'm a singer/songwriter/guitar player as well. i often write songs and poetry when i am having a really intense emotion. that's when i get my best material. don't try to force it. do it when it feels natural. write about things that you are passionate, experiences that are very close to you. the best writing advice i've ever had is write what you know. when you write about your personal experiences, feelings, etc., people can more easily relate to your songs, because they are honest, real, portrayals of life. good luck!
  4. lostlove
    if you love him, then tell him that, and if he says it back without being hesitant, he probably loves you or feels very strongly towards you.
  5. lostlove
    telling somebody that they really suck at something that they love to do, or targetting them and insulting them about the things that they are most self conscious about.
  6. lostlove
    you could try writing songs with your guitar...
  7. lostlove
    Okay. First of all, stop cutting. You'll regret it. I know I have. For now, here's what you should stock up on: 1. Neosporin-- helps keep scars from appearing 2. Long sleeves-- if it's warm, maybe just a light long sleeve 3. Liquid foundation, powder, concealer-- to hide the scars it's too late to prevent from showing 4. If you wear t-shirts or tanks then wear a sweatjacket, sweatshirt, wrist warmers, or coat. good luck!!!!
  8. lostlove
    I think that when guys have "skills", girls tend to see them as having more personality, focus, individuality, etc. Of course, it depends on the "skill", and the person who you are trying to impress with it. Personaly, music is i gigantic part of my life, and I think it's hot when a guy plays guitar or sings. I would suggest taking up something that you think you'll really enjoy a lot and be able to stick to. Once you're good at it, someone who is interested in the same thing will probably be drawn to you. If your chose something you don't like, you may end up with someone you don't like. good luck!
  9. lostlove
    well, look at the bright side; work hard in school, only three more years until college. just know that there are tons of people here who understand what you're going through. maybe you can find one thing to that you can look forwards to regularly. music is what gets me through every day alive and well. i have started having band practice about every week, and that has given me a weekly thing to look forwards too. perhaps if you find your 'music', it'll be easier to get by until you really can move out. i guess enotalone is kind of like a different kind of music for some people...i don't know about you, but i personally like helping people, partially because it makes me feel like i'm not "the screwed up one" for once. you can do it finch!
  10. lostlove
    I feel exactly the same way. I just want to escape it all...i want to be free, and my parents don't understand that...they're just tying me down and imprisoning me. Have you ever considered boarding school? I, personaly, could probably not afford it, but maybe you can. Confronting your parents and telling them that you can't be yourself around them could really hurt them a lot. If you went to boarding school, it would be kinda like moving out, except for you wouldn't have to make a living for yourself. good luck...
  11. lostlove
    Hey. I guess I was in a similar situation last year. My parents had been married for about fifteen years. My mom has depression, and because of this had been in the hospital two times in the previous four years. My parents actually didn't fight much...and definitely not around me and my sister. I sobbed and sobbed for a couple hours, and then I kind of got over it. My parents were so badly matched, and sometimes my dad can be such a selfish jerk. I mean, sometimes I've just gotta love him, cause' he's my dad, but he can also just make me so horribly angry. The hardest part of it all was people always telling me how sorry they were about it. I just wanted to be able to act normal, and they were imparing my ability to do so. So here ya go; just try to act normal at school, and avoid pity at all costs...it'll just make you feel worse. Look at the bright side of things, for you, no more fighting. If you can find somebody to talk to about it who really understands the situation, that would be great. You may also want to try channeling some of your worse feelings into something artistic...maybe poetry or songwriting, an instument, painting, drawing, any artistic outlet that you may enjoy. If you want any further advice or anything, just pm me and i'll reply. good luck!
  12. lostlove
    perhaps you could request to have yours done alone. if not, then maybe you could lie about what the scars are from...you could say they're from skateboarding or something. yeah, people here may say that that's not a good thing to do, but the truth is, sometimes it's necessary. people are idiots for bullying cutters...i'm sorry that you have to go through that stuff.
  13. lostlove
    yeah, i've had the same problem. i used to cut, don't anymore. when i did, i would cut on my thighs, so that nobody would see it. ever since then, if somebody pats me on the thigh or i get hit with a ball while playing sports in that area, it hurts A LOT. even if it isn't very hard. i haven't cut for about five months...it's weird.
  14. lostlove
    i'm not an expert or anything on this, but here's my suggestion. use a shampoo that is not something like volumizing or extra shine or anything like that. i would reccomend head and shoulders, the classic clean kind. make sure you wash it out VERY thoroughly. do not use conditioner, because that will probably make your hair more oily. try blowdrying your hair afterwards; even if it doesn't help with this issue, it will make your hair look a lot shinier and healthier. good luck!
  15. lostlove
    it depends on the severity of your "shyness". some people are so afraid of social contact that they have actual physical side affects to it, or find it hard to leave their homes. If you feel that you are overly shy, and need help with this in order to maintain your daily life, please consult a professional.
  16. lostlove
    okay, i just wrote this, because i'm in a bloody rage right now...you see, somebody just posted some mean stuff in my weblog, and i guess i thought it was all over, but it isn't. sorry if it's bad, i just really needed to vent. thanks. I've been forgotten, I don't matter, They don't care, You don't care, Enemies all around me, Hidden killers, I'm a disturbance, And they say that they don't care, That you don't care. Laugh at me, Laugh at my tears, Tell me I'm a fake, I'm just plastic with no heart, Tell me that you hate me, Just like everybody, Hating me is trendy, Hating me is fun, Everybody's doing it, It makes them belong, Gives them a common ground, A connection, Something to make them happy, Grinning at my tears, I'm a clown, In the middle of the ring, Crying, Sobbing, And they taunt me, And they hurt me, Throwing bad remarks, Bruising the only skin I have, It'll heal, But I'll still have the memories, And it'll happen again, So go ahead, Spit on me, Shove me aside, Slash at my skin, Tell me I'm alone, Tell me I'm a wreck, Tell me I'm a b****, Tell me that everybody hates me, And that they love hating me, Because I'm stupid, Because I'm ugly, Then walk along, And someday you'll be back, They'll be back, Hitting me, Hurting me, Killing me, You'll be back, Just when I think I'm happy again, Just when I think I've healed, You be back, casting me down, Kicking my face into the mud, The rain, Leaving me alone to bleed into the earth, Leaving me alone to cry, You killed me, And everybody loves you, Can't they see? Can't you see? You killed me, YOU F***ING KILLED ME!!!!!!!!!!
  17. lostlove
    ask her how she's feeling about her situation, and her boyfriend...don't just tell her how you feel about it. even if in a subtle way. maybe she's afraid that her life is a big jenga tower....you pull one block out, the whole thing might fall down. maybe her boyfriend is just another block in the tower, and the tower is already becoming wobbly and unstable, and if the block that is her boyfriend is taken away...crash. it's an overwhelming pile of the building blocks of her life. i'm not saying that this is what will happen, i'm saying that maybe this is what she's afraid of, even if subconsciously. good luck.
  18. lostlove
    try looking at the website of the medicine. it'll probably list the side affects, so you can see if the ones that you are feeling are the same as what the usual side affects are. good luck!
  19. lostlove
    i don't think that anybody can really know the purpose of life. it's something that i've wondered about a lot before. people can say that it is some specific thing, like helping others or something, but that proposes another question; why? in my opinion, nobody really knows. a lot of people just decide to make the purpose of life, or human life at least, something specific on this earth, or just don't think about it at all to avoid confusion. it is confusing though. when i think about it, it completely blows my mind. what are we? where are we? why are we existant? the truth is, human beings are just about completely ignorant when it comes to things bigger than our galaxy, our physical being and habitat. what is reality but a word created to describe the world we live in? this is the only real truly known to human kind, and thereforeeee our existence is the only "real" there is. the world real has not been created to describe something other than life, and our life. it's hard to think about something that there aren't words for. it's even harder to put it down in words. so yeah, this is basically why i am athiest. because there's really no way of knowing what's out there. i suppose that someday we may find out, like if there's an afterlife, or something similar. hopefully there will be, and hopefully someday we shall find out the answers to all of our questions like such, and on the springing of this occasion(if there is so), more questions shall possibly arise. so in an answer to your question, we'll just have to wait and see.
  20. lostlove
    1. i would often cry before it , and usually stop when i starting cutting. i suppose i was so concentrated on the blade that i just stopped crying. 2. no, never.
  21. lostlove
    yes it "counts". it isn't really the action its self that makes it "count", it is the fact that there is enough emotional pain inside of someone that they will reserve to causing themself physical pain. any kind of self injury could possibly lead one to an even more destructive method of SI, and/or suicide. although suicide may sound ridiculous and out of the question for some who are cutting, later they may change their mind. cutting does help you feel better for a bit. it clears your mind and calms you– and yeah, i know, it feels great. it kinda feels as if everything will be okay someday. but the next day there are scabs, and later there are scars, forever reminding you of your sorrow and pain. it's not a good road to go down, so try to turn around while you still can. good luck!
  22. lostlove
    it's just a theory so far, but apparently scientists are saying that the earthquake may have permanently accelorated the earth's rotation. scary, huh?
  23. lostlove
    god it's horrible.. completely horrible...so many innocent people gone so easily...jeez i was sobbing when i found out...so yes, i send my deepest regrets and sympathy to all who have died or been injured throughout it, all who are still stuck out there, and all who have loved ones dead or injured by cause of this.
  24. lostlove
    i kinda know how you feel. i got a 69 on a depression test i just did. yeah, you should probably go see a doctor. to get the proper medications, you have to consult a psychiatrist. psychiatrists know what kind of medications there are out there, and they often can decide acurately which medication/s is/are best for you. also, a psychiatrist can prescibe medicines. a prescription medicine is the best way to go with this. there are illegal ways to get medication without a prescription, but trust me, you don't want to go down that road. you could really get in trouble. as for the problem with people thinking things if you go see a doctor, here's the solution; just don't tell anyone. if you feel obligated to or if you feel that you for some reason have to, just try, try, try not to. you have the right to keep that information to yourself. it's okay to have secrets. i hope you do go see a doctor. good luck.
  25. lostlove
    perhaps you could use some kind of hair removal treatment. i guess that being a guy you may feel a bit uncomforatable with the whole idea of that anywhere else than your face. normally i would just sugest for somebody to be happy with the way their body looked currently, because it could be so very much worse, but obviously you are, no offense of course, extremely self-conscious and you do care about what others think of you a lot. you could either use a hair removal treatment, like waxing or shaving, or you could just decide to be happy with the way you look naturally. I personally am very self-conscious about my weight. this summer i was constantly trying to eat as little as possible without somebody noticing. I am currently ninety-seven and a half pounds and 5'3". The numbers look fine to me, but when I look at myself in the mirror, I am often disgusted by how heavy I think I look. Perhaps this is how it is with you. Maybe your mind's eye blows up the proportions of the hair on your body. Perhaps you're really perfectly average in that manor, or maybe just a bit north of average, and you think that you look horrid. Self consciousness can do horrible things to the human brain. You can either give in or not– it's your choice. good luck!
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