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hey guys..i havent posted in here in a LONG LONG time, but now id like to say that, with the help of my gorgeous girlfriend Melissa, i have stopped cutting. no more razors, no more blood, no more depression, none of it. i've been cutting for about a year on and off, but now i'm through. i never really wanted to do it, i just was tricked into thinking that. now i know better and i am confident that, as long as i have Melissa, i will not have to resort to that awful behavior again. im getting rid of my blades tomorrow, wrapping them up tightly, putting it on the ground near my local catholic church, and attaching a note 'i was addicted to cutting. god didnt save me.' [im an atheist, and the church i used to attend is greedy.] ~X

No, it wasn't too deep. Although, wherever I cut now hurts a bunch. My friend used to be a cutter as well and now has shoulder problems because of it. Another friend has muscle problems, too. The three of us can't figure out anything by ourselves so I thought I'd post a bit on here. Thanks! ~X

I stopped cutting a long while ago. 8) But today I ran a lot at practice. It was colder than normal, and during/after running my legs [where I cut] were aching so bad. I've been told that cutting destroys muscle tissue. I want to know: Is this true? How much or how deep did it destroy? Can I build it back? [if so, with what? vtiamins & crap or just exercise?] I was a dumb kid..I thought cutting would save me. It just hurt me and I lost a lot of friends. Still pains me to this day. I can't go through the day without staring at my scars and being shocked of their reminder. If not for anything else, don't do it for your future.. ~X

If my dad hits me, can I hit him back just as hard? I have no problem doing this, but would it legally classify as abuse? Would this put me at a fault if it were taken to court?

WOW... that poem is amazing. i love it!!!! you are so talented with words, dearest. i just dont like the picture it paints in my head..very graphic! you rock my panties ~ecksy[/b]

WOOP! i got all the way here without my mousey! score.. i love it. esp the form..like there can be only one word on a line, thats awesome anywho, COMMENT YOU HOES!

I agree with DBL. You seem better than your ex, and your friends were probably right. But you're way better than cutting. It's tough, I know, but you can make it through. Your friends and family will forgive you, even if not immediately. They still love you. ~X

when you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears and I held your hand through all of these years but you still have 'hold of me ..those dont really respond to your beautiful poem, because i am here for you, but i am listening to it and it reminded me of you [plus, amy lee is hot]. this poem is awesome, keep up the fricken awesome writing! i love it!

i've been sitting here for and hour and a half now, just scratching myself with knives and poking my arm with a pen. i popped a blood vessel and now its huge. i scratched up my legs and now they're just big red lines. i realized it was going nowhere, and i still have a 10 page report due in the morning. ugh.. 3 friends of mine know i cut, and they all generally feel the same way about me. they say i should see a counselor. but there is no way i could even meet one..my parents think im an angel. and i cant see any school counselors, because 1) they know my parents too well, and 2) i have too good of a record to mar by simple guidance visits. all 3 of those friends have gone to counseling and came out better. the thing is, it would cause a lot of trouble in my family. my dad would never even go because he doesnt need something as silly as a nudge in the right direction. my mom would probably end up getting a divorce, if she could sign any papers between bouts of tears. and i..well, i would wind up feeling worse than i started, just because of my parents. plus, if word got out at school, i would never be able to live it down or pretend to be so happy-go-lucky as i have been in the past. right now i am feeling so much stress that i want to puke. so i was thinking that if someone read this, i might feel a little more at ease. thanks if anyone read this.. ~cris

i really need to know asap... so any help would be appreciated!

PHONE SEX. HOW DO I DO IT? thanx DETAILS WOULD WORK NICELY...

hey guys..lets get right to it. i've fallen for my best friend. this is bad. its just..every time i'm with her i feel these urges. i mean, of course she is my best friend, and she knows i am bi. she's bi too. i dont want to ruin everything between us, so i havent done anything about it. when i see her sometimes its just like 'wow, heres this beautiful girl. and i cant do a thing about it.' maybe its just a way of testing myself. is there any way to shake myself of this feeling? thanks

if i were her, i would give the baby up for adoption. even though i would rather like to have an abortion, i just couldn't imagine killing another human being. it would be like killing your best friend or your little sister or your boyfriend. its just..wrong. but this isnt about abortion views, its about your friend. if you two really are that close, you need to tell her how you feel. let her know that whatever her decision is, you will stay by her side. good luck! ~X

my best friend will not stop talking about this guy she likes. at first i was happy for her and optimistic because i know everything will work out. he likes her too. but now its just going overboard. literally, there is not 30 minutes where she does not talk about him. it's driving me insane. and im afraid if i tell her how i really feel about this, then she will just consider me jealous [im in the middle of a breakup], and she wont have anyone to sort out problems with. i guess that was just a rant, but if anyone feels like giving advice or anything, go right on ahead. peace easy 8) ~X

well, it doesn't really matter. since i was the shy one, i let the guy initiate the contact. it let me know that he was into me, so i returned the favor and now we're dating. just go with the flow and make sure you both are comfortable before doing anything. 8) take it easy [ps] don't worry. however you touch, she'll notice for sure. just keep it gentle.