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oh, i know it has something to do with a chemical imbalance (something my ex thought was BS...he doesn't believe in depression being an illness).... but i've tried sooooooo many meds...gah...the frustration

omg, that is one of the sweetest stories i have ever heard!!!! It's the kind of thing that happens only in movies. YES--ask him! ask him! wow....that story put a smile on my face

awww... im sorry I know exactly how you feel. I ask myself the same question everyday... I'm not religious at all...so it's not like there's really a god concept to me. I believed in god years ago because that's how i was raised...but then i just kept getting crapped on more and more and I can't figure out what my purpose is... We're both still young... we both can make something great of ourselves. I know it doesnt seem like it, because it doesn't seem like it to me either... Just do what makes you happy. What are the things you enjoy doing? try to keep your grades up so you CAN get into the school you want to go to... Once you move on from highschool, a whole new world is opened up...

In this state, you don't need a prescription for the morning after pill. Which state do you live in?

wow, that's fascinating... I don't think I'd take it WHILE in a relationship, as it may make things more complicated. However, I think I'd take it if single, just for curiosity's sake. I've cheated in the past and would be really interested to see if it would call me a cheater.

okay, calm down... how long has it been? Within 72 (i think) hours, you can still get the morning after pill... Call planned parenthood right away and talk to them. I understand-everyone makes mistakes... While it is very well possible, it's unlikely. The fact that you're ovulating right now doesn't help though....

BC, you're exactly right... I just feel obligated to say I Have such a great life. On the outside, it would appear perfect, I realize this. The things that make me happy are sunshine, the beaches, world travel, and culture.... unfortunately, I don't have the funds to travel the world and engulf myself in culture.. so snowy western michigan is going to have to do.. I'm one of those people who hates to date... i love being in a stable relationship... This obviously is not the reason I'm miserable, but I believe it contributes. I loved my ex...but it was apparent we weren't meant to be. It sounds ridiculous, seeing as i'm only 20...BUT... i feel like I should be finding someone to settle down with. I was talking to my roommate about this last night and she said she feels the same way... but then I think to myself, I'm only 20 years old. BARELY not a teenager. Granted, I'm not saying I want to get married soon, because I don't. But what I do want is to find someone I could picture myself spending forever with. And, I know... don't go looking for someone... they come to you, right? And I dont, i just go with the flow on things like that, but I can't help feeling empty....

I really wish i knew what i was so upset about.... I just feel like curling up into a ball and not emerging until the weather is above 50.... hell, above ZERO! It's been in the negatives lately and I hate winter

Oh, and one thing... I hope you all don't think I'm ungrateful... Because I AM VERY grateful for everything I have. I just feel like something major is missing...

Oh, I know... I've been in therapy for 5-6 years now... I don't know where I'd be without it.

that's the thing--it IS wonderful...I have no reason to be so depressed and unhappy... I don't understand I feel horrible for writing all of that just because I KNOW I am so lucky to have everything that i do have...

the mirror thing isn't a bad idea...maybe if I just say it over and over and over in my head it will get through...

I apologize for that being so long and pointless in advance and thank anyone who feels like reading it.

This is going to be more of a rant than anything but I just feel like rambling.... so I apologize in advance... Why do I have my life so much? I have wonderful friends, a wonderful life, wonderful parents, great opportunities.... And, yet, I feel like there is something HUGE missing. I am constantly depressed (I fake happiness really well...), have been on every antidepressant known to man, been in therapy for years.... I have no motivation to do anything. I attend a very good university, I do decent in school...but I hate going. I Never want to go. I can't get myself to go. I've been trying to find a job, but being winter in a college town, there really isn't much available. I've applied at a million places. And yet... I'm constantly getting criticized by my parents, my roommate, and before we broke up, my ex... No one really can understand why I'm depressed. Hell, I don't have a clue why. I had PTSD for a while, but that's subsided. I don't really even think about the fact that I was raped anymore. That happened 6 years ago now. Just a distant memory. Nothing bad has happened in my life, aside from my break up but I was miserable before that too... WHAT IS GOING ON!??? I hate everything. I Hate my life and I have no idea why... Everyone (okay, my parents and ex, who i don't talk to anymore) says I never do anything... I go out at least 3 times a week, I get my work done, I probably skip school more than I should, but I get done what has to be done, I try to exercise (swimming), I'm trying to find a job... What more do people want from me? I just constantly feel like crying.. (By the way, I do have seasonal effective disorder, bipolar, severe depression and bad anxiety) Does anyone know what I can do? Anything... On a side note, it's coming up to the approximate one year anniversary of when I tried to commit suicide... Last year I was even worse off... the doctors said I should've been dead. (yes, i got help. After trying it a second time, my dad had me admitted... he's a social worker and got it court ordered, as I refused).... There's obviously a reason I'm still alive. But why? All I wanted was to be dead. Just for everything to be over...it's pretty bad when you can't even kill yourself right... sigh... I'm not feeling suicidal or anything, this isn't what this is about...so please don't be concerned in that aspect. But I am afraid it might come to that... Everyday, I just feel more and more helpless and hopeless....

I have this problem as well... Nothing really gets rid of it, but Eucerin Calming Cream (about $10) helps. You could have an allergy to something. Did you switch laundry detergent? Or maybe using a new soap?

^^^ Exactly what I was going to say. Great drunken minds think alike How long has he been there? Did he just transfer?

i've been with guys who've come within a couple of minutes and those who kepe going forever (like an hour)... it seems like the ones who suck most in bed last the longest and the most amazing come quickest. Would I rather have a few minutes of amazement or an hour of bleh? A few minutes!!!!

ohhh and handisnacks..... i'm *this close to running to Meijer right now...*

okay.... i LOVE lunchables... I totally don't care what anyone says...

Yeah... I agree--- you have to tell your mom. Tell her your suspicions. Don't say "I think dad is cheating" but something more like "*enter sister's name here* saw dad at the bar the other night with a few women... i thought you should know...."

It totally varies on both the girl and the guy. Some guys look really sexy with it, but it makes others look like a child molester. Personally, I'm not much of a fan of facial hair... 2-day stubble is reeeeeeeallly hot in my opinion... Mustaches are creepy...

wow, that's so exciting!!! Congratulations and good luck! You'll do great and make a wonderful, caring and nurturing mother.

Yeah, i agree with blackhawk... i think it's pointless and boring...

YES! Great idea...maybe bury her under it?

ohhhh, I am sooo sorry I know how hard the loss of a pet is. In my opinion, it's just as hard as losing a human. Like southerngirl said, the fact that you rescued her and gave her such a great year is amazing. You made her life worth living and gave her a safe place to raise her babies. You make the right decision. I know ending a life may not seem like the right decision, but she was suffering and now she's in a better place Again, I am so sorry It takes a lot of time, but every day is better than the last.