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you know what andy, i went out with my friends today....we were just hanging out,one of our friend got married, he was with his wife,i was pretty quiet though, since all the places we went happenned to be the same old place where me and my ex used to hang out and also last time where we broke up. I didn't feel sad or never thought about my ex.....only while i was drivin back the stupid radio started MLTR....then the song from young guns. well then it all started coming back again.I didn't bother whether she would be there or not. Anyways, i am sure someday we will get over our ex's. Just keep going and vent as much as you want here......we all are there for each other. Haven't found a better place elsewhere. take care and good luck with your future.

well, i don't think anybody is that perfect out there. Each one of us is dumb, shy or boring in one way or the other..... you just have to like us the way we are. good luck!

no you are not wrong, i am going through the same thing. Your ex is also going through the pain. The pain is there on both sides no matter how happy they might look. just be kind on yourself andy. hang in there.

yup i know now, thanks coach. NC sure is tough.....gotta think right and keep going.

thanks david......hope you also get over her sooner than later. take care and hope you do very well in your future. lol, eddie......its funny sad....whatever i am going thru, its gonna end someday. and i will be posting here the day i am thru with this. take care all.....

Hello everyone, Just kinda surprised that my ex wouldn't even care to atleast mail me to wish me on my birthday. Bday was on 20th feb.....no mails or news whatsover, gr8. I didn't expect a call, i wouldn't have picked it up either, then why do i care much for her mail. we were very good friends first and then dated.I remember she told me that she used to mail her ex's and even people whom she knew and had forgotten. ahhh.....just a very low day for me, sittin at home doin nuthin but gettin sentimental, just on my way to expectin realities of us not ever gettin back on good terms....crap! I will probably be the guy to do NC forever.....

Beatles - Let it Be ============== When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be. Whisper words of wisdom, let it be. And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree, there will be an answer, let it be. For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see, there will be an answer. let it be. Let it be, let it be, ..... And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me, shine until tomorrow, let it be. I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, let it be. Let it be, let it be, .....

If i were you i wouldn't bother much, you haven't even started dating yet. anyways, things can always be worked out, if people are willing to. Good luck...

thats was one big tigerwalk, you did pretty well there......good going, tiger.

never change for anybody, be myself. no blind faiths and last but not least love me first.

gr8 will brobably rent that too, have nuthin comin up lately, very unbusy kinda life now, kinda weiry of my single status ha .....thanks red. tata...

FCtex....nice post, liked it very much. After a month of our breakup my ex accused me of lot of things i didn't do and again told me of being serious, marriage and then running away from her. Although i still love her, i gave her another chance by makin her understand what all issues where there in our relationship and if she was really serious of working it out with me then we could really give it another chance. Her lack of commitment in the relationship was the biggest issue. I think she didn't expect me to react like that and said she wanted to remain single and will go away from my life for good since she felt she was a bad person for whatever she did....Anyways she didn't want to work it out, had lot of reasons/excuses to run away and for being the person she is....so i let her go. I really don't regret goin by my heart although it did hurt me afterwards seein she was scared of commitment....well she has lot of issues to work on. Hope she does well in her future relationships or works it out with her ex, whom she wanted to get back to after 10 months of her breakup even after he abused her on lot of occasions and also cheated on her. She still has this huge soft corner for him. huh...thats what i get for a being a nice guy. take care & hope you do very well in your life.

Thanks for sharing,andy....I liked the post very much. Its on my favorites. take care....

So very true....i was with my parents on bday yesterday had a very nice time preparin food, serving it and orderin some other stuff, just spending some nice moments with them. The odd feelings were there about missin my ex but anyways the day ended with all of us watchin tv and eatin together....just the 3 of us, mom, dad and me. felt really good.... I am single now and i hope to make the most of if it...have lots to do for them and for me. Good Luck Rina.....take care.

hey benny....atleast now keep up with the NC. Even i know my ex may have reconciled with her ex on Feb 14, i don't care much about what she is doin now, since whatever she did to me, she can do it to anyone. My ex being practical would get over me very soon, but i am very emotional so am finding it hard. But am not gonna call her askin what she is upto and i am not gonna give her any chance of hearin from me.We had even decided our family, the kids and wot not. Sounds funny but she ain't gettin me that easily atleast not so soon. Let em realize what they miss in us.... I too have the odd bad days here and there, the urge of callin/contactin the ex. Stay strong, keep smilin...

thanks red10 for those kind words.... I am trying hard.....will try harder. I gonna survive this thing too....no doubt. I just got hold of Coupling,all four seasons, the brit comedy sitcom....hope to enjoy it. take care red. keep u all posted.

hey thanks frisco and metalheart....feelin better now. take care...

yup metalheart thanks, i understand. I won't and can't call her (her phone is dead for last 1 month or so, blessing in disguise one might say), its she who can call me but i know now she won't. I hope she doesn't as she will be doin a big favour to me and for her.Hope she does well. I am happy with my parents, we may go out for some light dinner or may be i will make somethin for them....anyways, its just the odd feelin once in a while that brings in a burning sensation right where my heart is. just going thru emotions, i guess.

yea, thanks....feel like mailin her saying thanks for forgetin my bday, thanks for makin my day. Anyways can't do that, won't that hurt her, won't that make her sad.....i still love her and what a confusin bday it has been for me today. My head is so very heavy. For the first time in my life, its my birthday and it feels like somethin else.

Valentines and my birthday all in Feb..... This has been one really hurtful month for me, and prolli for many others. If ex contacts it hurts, if she doesn't it still hurts..... Strange as it may sound, can't understand why i have to go through all this. we become nobody for our ex's just out of blue.......crap hope she has already forgotten my bday and never calls or contacts today. I have to remain strong enough incase she calls up, i am not takin the call....eh..hate that feelin. although i am with my parents today....i feel sad sometimes , then it goes to happiness, then loneliness...huh am ventin again. God bless all of you...

Thanks for your comments,someguy, Juha and Kissme. I need to work out on my blind faiths.....things like oh this person made mistake, but prolli won't do it again. Shud have made it clear to her on the very first time itself, my mistake i agree. The way the things went afterwards i did really feel she took me for granted whenever she hurt me. I have learned my lesson.....thanks for the forums and the people here i am gonna read this again and again so that it sticks in my head like my lonely brain.ehhh. Take care....

Hello everyone, Yeah its me again, sorry but i had to make sure i was not at fault this time around, if i am then i really might have trust issues besides having to go thru other problems in the relationship. Its about my ex, when she had called, she said that my insecurities about her ex was the reason she thinks really created problems in her mind in the first place. Well i dunno if my insecurities about her ex were right or wrong? But she wouldn't tell her ex about me when we were dating, i had told her once when she was still in contact with her ex thru email. Her ex had engagement plans with her in December( apparently he didn't think she was serious about their breakup) and i used to tell her why not tell him the truth, she said why should i tell him about our relationship, she didn't want him to know about me. I told her once to block him since he used to express his feelings for her thru those mails but she wouldn't do that either even though she used to get upset with them. Anyways my insecurities came true when she breaks up with me and tries to reconcile with her ex but later she changes her mind when she learns he has changed a lot. Well i tried to cut all contact with her after that but then she called up and told me she wasn't with her ex. Apparently her ex was totally furious with her to go out with me, he felt she cheated on him, like having a small fling. Well she told him that he had cheated on her once and she did it too....well at that moment i thought what kinda feelin did she have for me. anyways as one big fool i took her back after she decided we would just be friends and till 2 years won't talk about marraige and concentrate on our careers, i said fine hopin she wouldn't hurt me again, but same thing happens she starts talkin to her ex after some time and even tries to go out with him although her mom wouldn't allow it sensin she wasn't doin right. My trust in her was shaken, thought she was doin the same thing....would leave me for him again...thats when i tried confrontin her about where i stood in the relationship n all but she hung up on me and never called back. Rest u people know... I know i maybe at fault with my insecurities or may have pushed her a bit but i didn't get any assurance from her that she wouldn't do it again, found some real lack of commitment on her part also. I just can't seem to make up my mind, somewhere i feel i was also at fault for not understandin her....dunno why? This time the NC part is strong enough...i am not answerin any unknown numbers or her mails, have removed her from IM's too. haven't heard from her since Feb 9th, she may have reconciled with her ex on Feb 14th, since he had already bought the engagement rings n what not...whatever, i am not lookin back. Thanks for readin....Any insights?

keep going with the NC. Believe me, even when she broke the NC with me, i emailed her back just to make sure she knew what all problems were there in our relationship, imagine she again accusing me of making her feel like she is the bad person in the whole relationship instead of her working out her issues, anyways the point here is we are the ones who always get hurt.....Let them think what they want to. I am again in pain after almost gettin over with her with that 3 weeks of NC. Just don't do anythin from your side, if its over keep it at that. No contact is the only way.

huh...lots of signs. They just came struck me from all places but i dunno why i kept on going... Like when we were talkin on phone, she gets a call from her ex who asks her out, she asks me to hangup to talk with him...ouch. On the new year, i calling her up for wishin her and her phone was keepin busy for a long time....she told me her ex was the first one who wished her and he really made sure it was real special one from him.....huh. and then on some occasions comparin my behaviour/reactions to her ex.....huh the list is huge thou

i have talked all night on phone, found it more comfortable....it became addictive sometimes. I just didn't like the bills part tho....got huge ones. Our mobile/phone companies should give lovers nice offers like night time free talk or free evening hours, could attract more customers i think.