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can't I just put up a free for rent sign in my avatar? that would make it easier.

says the man who robs cradles.

True that. So were you this wise before you got old or were you old before you got this wise? (j/k)

Nuh-uh. Go into more detail plz. Men are from Planet X. Are they different when they're around me vs. when their around other guys?

Okay, let's say that I have a network of casual friend/acquaintances more than anything else. I only started to get better from the depression about 5 months ago. Just 2 months ago at the beginning of March, I was still reeling....So everyone I know now? Completely new. Sometimes I want to quit, because it would be easier to. Abuse robbed me of everything.......everything. I stopped talking to a good friend of mine too during that time. (The one that's most like me - She is so sweet and a great person). And we only recently started speaking again. GAH. I lost everything because of that loser.

When they are together? (I've never been privy to conversation between two guys =() Only about girls they like right? or about any or all girls in general? Grrr. Just wondering. And how much detail do they go into? What do they talk about?

paws off buster! *socks you* j/k. note to self: if u want friends, u MUST stop punching ppl.

oh yah. everywhere i go, i introduce myself, ppl give me their number. but nobody sticks u know? nobody i really care to stay in contact with. is it something wrong with me? like i dont know how to build up a social network? or is it because it takes time or what? or i just haven't met the right ppl? or been in the right places? am i too critical? not critical enough? half of the time, i'm not even sure im emotionally available. why does nobody really stick?

Boo. I don't have enough good friends. And I know why. Growing up I used to be a well-adjusted, happy, popular well-liked kid. Ringleader among my cousins, played pranks on the neighborhood boys, 3 best friends.....etc. Then, went to new school. Bullied, racist comments. GAH! Lost self-esteem, self-confidence. Was damned if I did something, damned if I didn't. No way to win. Withdrew into my shell - (Ex: My best friend from previous school came to visit and I ignored her the whole visit). Jr. High, High school. Emotionally unavailable. Didn't bother connecting with others. A few BAD friends. Ugh. Didn't really like anyone and didn't care. Driven. College - First bf. Met many Jerks. Abuser came along, 6+ years of my life. That REALLY wiped me out. Totally. Had no money, no job, almost lost my family, dropped out of school, got straight F's, I Seriously messed up. Lost ALL friends. Isolated. Abuser didn't want anyone to get to me. (Not even his family, he tried to cut me off from MY family). He is a piece of....$#%. Met another jerk. Where does that leave me? - I have good social skills, better than most. Am told I am friendly, open, talkative. Can be rather aggressive if I want something. Very comfortable with men. (despite Abuse). Shy around girls. (Can't bond with them, very polite). Yeah, sure I have some friends. (Depending on what you consider a friend). All NEW. Reconnected with some ppl from past (they all moved away), met some new ppl. Met a bunch of men at previous work who I thought were nice people until it turned out that they all just wanted to sleep with me. (Losers!) Strange. I should have thought I would be the type with a lot of friends. But here I am. What to do? It's really hard to hit rock bottom at my age and literally have to come up from nothing.

Mmm, dreaming about a hunky man? how fabulous. now, g'nite.

as long as it didn't make me cross-eyed, that would be kinda cool.

hey wow, i could have written something like that. took me a long time to learn that if a guy doesn't treat me right, i should say "hey, u wanna see the back of my door?"

look down and say OOO, do you have a package for me? ok. kidding. dont do that. how about...."HANG 10"

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when u say mistress. i think mattress. ok. j/k. i dunno...anything that costs a good amt of money wouldn't be too bad.

let's have a group hug! well, the article just told me im an onion. how pleased am i? now. peel me. and hug me. before i make you cry.

depends if u want a furry pelt or a naked pelt. i suppose.

DUDE. didja justrealize thatcha justanswered urownquestion? first, nc. second, lc. third, friends. four, i love you baby kisskisskiss. my opinion.

High emotional energy makes you want to tackle him like a football flying accross the finish line. And that's what makes it great.

do you give them big toothy grins like ur about to eat them? WRONG. a nice what's up, how's it going. RIGHT.

i dont know about internet dating. how do you really know whether you have a connection with a person through internet? i prefer to see them upfront in person. *boink* pm1: can i have you? *boink* pm2: give me now. *boink* pm3: you are mine. pm4,5,6,7,8: *grope* *smoochies*