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    Meaning when you begin a relationship. How long would you wait until you are comfortable. exe 3 months
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    Just curious about how long you wait before feeling comfortable with sex. Please note if you are male/female.
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    Hickies or kissing the neck gets me but hey everone's different. But I sure it's safe to say that most guys love getting kissed, or a light suck on the neck. Good luck.
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    I actually despise the AA program. It works for some people and good for them, but they think that it works for EVERYBODY. But it doesn't. Just because it worked 100% for them, doesn't mean everyone has the same thought process. and BTW more tha haf the people in those meetings are BS'ers. I know that for a fact.
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    Actually my dad DOESN'T have an addiction. It's my mother, two aunts, two uncles, and grandfather. My dad is one of the few in my family who has had no history of addiction.
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    I just had a talk with my father, and he told me that I'm thinking too deeply into my problems. I need to try and find a way to get my mind clear. It's very hard, I've always been a thinker. No matter what I do. THe only thing that really keeps me from thinking is playing guitar, and writing. For some reason I'm just not in the mood to do either at the moment. I'm basically feeling like my life is just meant to be an example for a nightmare of a teenager. I feel like my life is from a "Lifetime" movie. I think about others and just imagine them seeing my life on a movie and saying, "God, I wonder if there really are people like that out there." It disgusts me. I'm tired of the angst, and my belligerent attitude towards moral rules. I guess I just need time and try to set my mind into another place. My brain is in a rut at the moment and I can't stop thinking about the same old crap.
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    Just don't expect him to sleep over. He doesn't mean anything by it. I doubt it's because he isn't into you. I'm sure he just got tired of the same patttern over and over. Just give him a little patience.
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    To list everything I have been addicted to... Coke, Meth, Oxycottin, Xanax, Cutting, Sex, Gambiling, Weed, Cigarettes, Gasoline, Drinking.
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    Well I lived with my mother for the first 15 years of my life. For as long as I can remember she was addicted to meth. I started smoking weed at age 12, and cigarettes at 13. I started experimenting withe very drug I could get my hands on around 14-15. Social Services had me move accross the country to live with my father because my mom had "emotion/physical abuse, neglect/abandonment, and drug abuse" towards me. So I moved to Virginia, and I stopped everything cold turkey for a little over a year. I soon wanted to move back with my mother, because she had rehabilitated, and I had never lived in the same place for a whole year and it was killing me. All together I've lived in 15 different homes, and went to 13 schools, and I still didn't graduate. I dropped out last year, and got my GED. About a year ago, I started smoking weed again, then I got caught. I continued even though court was giving me regular drug screens, and I started cutting myself as well. Well when I finally got expelled from school/dropped out, I ran away to New Mexico, where I had entered myself in a half-way house. I ran from there, and went to an old city I used to live in. There I did various drugs, until finally I was ready to call my father and come to the only place I could call home. Well I've been here for a little over a month, and everything was going well up until about a week ago, when I started huffing, and cutting. For some reason it seems to be a pattern for me. I try to find triggers for me, but I really can't pin anything down. Everything was PERFECT 2 weeks ago. Then I guess...idk. I just started huffing, I got caught doing that so I started cutting. My dad just saw the cuts this morning and blew up, saying I was ruining his life. I feel really guilty for letting my father down time after time. I told him that I can just stop, and not do ANYTHING, but he doesn't believe me, and he has good reason not to. I think that if I start hanging out with my soon to be girlfriend, then I will stop, because it seems like the only time I'm not doing this stupid crap is when I have someone to care for. I feel like I need responsibility in order to be responsible... wow maybe that's it?
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    I agree. You shouldn't have to choose exactly what your parent(s) wants you to choose. My brother's girlfriend broke up with him because her mom said he "wasn't rich enough". I think that is total BS that parents controll who their kids date. BUT... Sometimes you really have no controll. Your parents are supporting you, and depending on your age, CAN kick you out. They do have the right to give you any "lawfully reasonable" rules. Which can include dating. I think you should continue talking with your boyfriend, and when you meet make sure you take a friend or two.
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    I have an addictive personality, and I know this. Almost my entire family has/had some sort of addiction whether it be drugs, alcohol, or anything else. I've found myself Getting off of one thing and turning to another. I can't stop, and it's killing me inside. I feel liike part of me wants to drop everything and stop forever, yet another part of me ignores it and I do things without even thinking about it. What the hell is wrong with my mind? I feel like my mind is out to get me, like it's against me. I have a strong will to quit, but at the same time it's weak, because I always run back to it. I feel like if I'm not doing something harmful to my body, then I go insane. I probably am insane. But to hell with meds, psychiatrists, ect. How do I stop addiction? By the way, please don't say to substitute it with "Reading" or "Running".
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    That is pretty weird...
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    Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.. Orderliness results were low which suggests you are overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense too often of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion results were very high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity. trait snapshot: messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture
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    BTW I LOVE that song by Linkin Park...actually it's my favorite by them.
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    Thanks a lot guys, appreciate the positive feed back. Confidence boost really helps. But honestly, I always thought my poetry was crap. I love KTS's poems A lot, and Slightly Bent, your are very cool. Those are my two favorite poets on this site, and you both have different styles. Yet, as long as you can capture your emotions, and paint a picture for the reader, who cares what style? All three of our styles are different, yet we all love each others poems. Odd.
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    Late night walks. Rain. Nature. Life. Past. The sky. Simplicity. Music influences; Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin. Mostly them.
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    "Serenity" Cool night walk, crisp air chills the skin. Moonlight warms the soul, Stars tease the eye. Another summer night, walking a quiet path. Crickets play their good-night song, Planes fly overhead. Cars roll towards destination, fireflies dance in darkness. the midnight breeze tenses muscles, stillness relaxes body. Painful memories long forgotten, Joyfull bliss awaits. Waits with patience, arms wide open. Beaten pavement, black as night, silver-blue moon, shines above. Transcendance through fateful reminscence. Lonelyness long departed, such as the beading sweat. Caused by the heat of the moment, burning desires at best. Fulfillment steals the place, of emptiness of heart. Now I walk this quiet path, once again with ease. Returning to this worn out road, my destination glows. How could I be blind before, and walk those twisted routes. What once was crooked, straightened now. Testing waters of uncharted seas. No more distorted truths be told, honoring your wishes. Now walking home tonight, I left my troubles elsewhere.
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    Oh I see. That's really good. You should read mine and tell me what you think
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    Yes Zeppelin is amazing. I understand your concern for his well being, my girlfriend is constantly motavating me to stay sober, and it's because of her that I HAVE stayed sober (for the most part). So I think it's great that you have so much concern for him.
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    Wow. that was quite amazing. The way I interpreted it was you take advantage of other's weaknesses. Correct me if I'm wrong though, just my own interpretation
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    My bad, just seemed you guys were coming off as she's doing the wrong thing for questioning the fact that her bf is using. I apologize, and understand that everyone's opinion is equal, and I, for some odd reason, thought mine was superior. I really apologize, but thanks for putting me in check. I'll shut up now.
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    You guys are making it out that she is being the bad guy (girl!). No one is wrong in this situation, all she needs to do is wait for any signs. What I said in the first place. You are not wrong for questioning his word, after all he is the one, telling you how much he enjoys it. As for her "wanting" to do the drug test...she's asking US for advice, not critisism on her relationship. Ease off a bit, just because you don't think there is anything wrong with smoking weed, doesn't mean everyone should feel that way.
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