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Aww awsome! good luck then! Take care, Miya xx

Just incase it's not obvious to me .. how come neither of you has made the first move?? I mean surely if you both are crushing on each other then you must want something to happen?? Miya xx

Hiya, Crushes can last for as long as you let them (thats my opinion) If your looking to get over a crush though, I try and find a new one because otherwise I always find they become obsessive. Miya

Interesting thread! I have to go with practically everything Kleopatra71 said, exept for the girlfriend and the father part. Miya

Hey, I also like "I'll be there for you" from the episode FRIENDS? the lyrics are so cool and I always think about my friends when I listen to laters xx

REM - Everybody hurts. I can relate to that song. Here are the lyrics: When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone, When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on. Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes. Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along. When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on) If you feel like letting go, (hold on) When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on. Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends. Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand. If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long, When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on. Well, everybody hurts sometimes, Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes. And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. (Everybody hurts. You are not alone.)

thanks so where do i go in order to speak to someone professionally?

Hey everyone, Erm, I suppose the idea of me writing this post is to try and get out a load of feelings out that I tend to bottle up. The thing is, I'm 17 yrs old and well, I can't help but sometimes occasionally feel worthless I mean, I'm a nice person and I have a great personality that people take a liking to, although, I sometimes feel people take advantage of my flirty, out going and bubbly personality. Have you ever wondered why people who say they care about you, end up hurting you? Even if it's not intentional? I'm having a tough time with college at the moment, I mean I'm in yr 12 and I'm finding that having an ambitious future, is hard work. I realize good grades and high degrees don't come to you on a silver platter, although life seems to be giving me a hard time. I really have my heart set on being a biology teacher. I mean it's the career I want to take, but when I spoke to the career adviser, it was like she was saying I'm not good enough. On the other hand, I'm having a really hard time at home, I mean I had a bit of a rough argument with my sister (who's 32). I went London over the weekend, and she thought I was putting myself in danger by walking past a pub I mean, I'm 17 for God sake! I know how to take care of myself and how to be responsible. My mums been a little moody with me because my dad has gone to London for the week due to a business meeting. I know she misses him, it's natural, but I'm not born to take the blow of her temper (which by the way is a non physical temper) I'd usually talk about personal issues like these with my close friends, but you know, I don't have a close friend who I feel comfortable talking to. It's just I don't think they understand or I don't think they could relate to my situation. Sometimes, I just wish people could stop bugging me, and just leave me alone. I just want to be left alone. I remember a few weeks ago when I felt utterly depressed and non existent, and I was coming home from college and I was stood at the crossing, anyway I saw this funeral car stop, like right in front of me, and it had a coffin in it. I know it's not nice to stare, and I swear I wasn't being rude, but I saw my reflection on the window of the care and I kinda got lost in thought. All I wanted to do was trade places with that person, since they deserve to live a life that I don't. I'm not the worlds best person, I don't have any morals and I look at the world completely differently from anyone else my age. I look at life more synical aspect. I remember having a talk with someone about marriage (not that I was talking about getting married lol) and I explained, that the reason I don't want to get married is, is because I know full well I couldn't keep my promises, and I can be a self centered person as well. So as you can see, I'm hardly mother Teresa. I don't know whats wrong with me, I just feel depressed all the time and I feel so empty. I don't see a reason as to why I'm on this earth. (No I'm not having suicidal thoughts) Can anyone offer any advice what so ever to help me pull through? I just want to remember what it's like waking up in a morning and smiling because of the day I have ahead of me Thanks and take care! Miya

I have a phobia of spiders,dark,birthdays,clowns and small spaces. spiders scare me, the thought of them crawling on me with their hideous legs freaks me out. I have been scared of the dark pretty much since I was a little girl, I'm okay in my room, but anywhere else frightens me, I always feel spooked out by the dark and the atmosphere in the dark. Birthdays, wel this my most embarrassing phobia, I even wrote a post on this last year. I havr this thing where when it comes up to my birthday (like an hour away) I feel faint. I wont go to bed. I feel like in a way my soul inside is dying, that after midnight, I'm not the same person anymore. It's hard to explain really. Clowns I'm scared of because I hate the way they look, their just big, bright, bold things that attract a lot of unwanted attention and I hate that, they make me feel so insecure. Small spaces make me feel trapped and I get anxious about the small space, it's as though I'm enclosed in a tight area with a lack of oxygen and I get really sweaty and panicky about it. Well those are my fears anyway

Sorry for ranting, just at the time I felt so angry about everything, I didn't me to lash out at everyone It's just so frustrating being my age .. I just don't know how to deal with all these new feelings at once and it really gets me down. Thanks

Hi all! Well this post is so I can release a few things that are bothering me. Okay so like next weekend, I'm going down to London over night with my friend as a late birthday present, and it it like anyone and everyone is intereferring! All I want to do is go and not about anything, I just want to have some time alone to do whatever I like when I like, but is that going to happen? nooooooo! I have my older sister coming to meet us and stay over night with us to mae sure we're safe (and yes I appreciate that on some levels), I have to be escorted everywhere My sister doesn't want me taking a suitcase because it means lugging it around everywhere, so I have to take a bag with me instead. I can't meet people down there from this football forum I'm a member of because she doesn't trust them. (Yes I can appreciate why she is worried on this as well, so please don't lecture me) I don't even want to go now, I have to put with doing stuff to make everyone else happy just so I can a peaceful time. Why can't people just back off and leave me alone instead of asuming that I need assistance. I don't even want to go to London now, I don't want to see my sister there, I don't want to meet up with people on the Sunday morning and I don't want to be escorted everywhere I go and be told what I can and can't take!!!!!!!!!! I mean it, I just wanted a pleasent weekend away because I have just had a crap time coping with things this year, college, parents ect .. I can't do anything now a days without people pestering me and nagging me! I am in a difficult time in my life where I need some space and can't get it, and if I complain it means I'm having a teenage tantrum! You know .. sometimes I just want to lock myself away in my room and never ever leave it, I just want to be left alone and for people to stop pestering me and hurting me. Thats never going to happen ...

Hiya! I'm so sorry to hear things haven't turned out the way you want them too. I just want you to know, your not going to be alone all your life, your still very young. I know I'm only 16 and never had a proper relationship, but I like to think that somewhere out there, there is that one right person for everyone and when we finally meet them, they will be well worth the wait I'm sorry I can't offer great words of advice, but I hope I have at least been able to give you words of comfort. Take care! Miya

okays .. well until I find a good therapist or had an appointment with my gp .. what do you recommend I when I find myself in a public place?? I feel embarrassed that I have this problem because I shouldn't feel this way at my age. I have tried relaxing, but the thing is I have a weak heart as well and my breathing can become quite heavy, sometimes I find myself breathless even talking (if feels like I have been running for ages) I'm hoping this isn't connected to my paranoia .. thanks! Miya

I have a daft question .. is seeing a therapist expensive? Also how do I go about finding a good one? I get so paranoid! I don't know why! I'm going to London in a couple of weeks as part of my birthday present .. and I'm meeting a couple of friends down there, and I feel utterly paranoid! I have to go to a pub on the sunday to watch a football match .. an I'm scared stiff! Me and my friend are a bit nervous actually. I don't know why I'm scared! I have nothing to worry about!?!?! My friend is a little annoying and loud at times and I get paranoid when she's like it, it's because she draws attention our way and I panick so much. I'm always like it .. I want to know why people aren't talking to me, what people think of me etc .. I get really paranoid because I always get men staring at me and that annoys me because I want to know why Thanks for your help!! Miya

Heya everyone, I have been meaning to post this for a while but never really got round to it. The thing is I'm a really paranoid person. I feel like getting more and more paranoid each day. I'm constantly worrying what people think, how I look, if I'm being to flirty and loud, if I'm being too quiet and shy. It's as though I don't know how to act in different situations. I don't know what really brought all this on. I haven't always been paranoid. If I meet new people I feel nervous and can't relax myself, so when I see my friends being quite relaxed I get worried about it. I love my 3 closest friends to pieces, but when I'm with them ... I can't help but feel paranoid because their very out going and lively .. where I just like to be the quiet one .. Can anyone relate to this? Or can anyone suggest a way of getting over it? Thanks! enjoy the rest your day Miya

Heya, Have you spoke to her about this? Why don't you invite her out and say that you would like to spend some time with her, say you need to talk to her about it. Have you fallen out over something? Ring her up and ask her if she fancies a day out .. like shopping or the movies or something .. just mention you feel a bit left out that you want to know if you have done something you offend her (even if you haven't) Good luck!

but i don't fancy him! i just wanna know if he fancies me because i want to know why he's persistently annoying me! I swear to you .. i have spoke to my teachers but their not taking me seriously. i'll irriate sam back, but i don't want to stoop to his level. whats the point ..

hey! first up! I tried ignoring him! I aren't stupid and it was the first option I tried! Tell me then, how you ignore someone who comes up to you? who prats about with your computer, who pokes you, who says your name randomly? I don't talk to him unless he talks to me first. I count him as a friend since he isn't moody or blanks me out or is really nast to me. When he's not been a complete pest, he's actually alright and we can have a laugh and joke about things. I have told teachers, one of those 3 teachers I mentioned in the original post was the head of my college. No way am I getting a restraining order, that is extreme, it doesn't have to go that far. I don't mind him bugging me on free periods, that i can deal with! but not in my lessons.

Heya everyone, I feel really stupid writing this post but I really need some advice. I'm a 6th former at college and I mentor a boy in yr 9. He's a really sweet boy and he confides a lot of his bullying problems in me. The thing is whatever he tells me, he wants to make sure I keep it to myself and no-one else has got to find out about it. It's the one thing he's adament about. If he tells me any information that could put him or anyone else in danger then I have to report it. He's having problems with this over yr 9 boy, he's picks on James (the boy I mentor) calls him names, hits him, picks on his cousin in the lower years. However when I offered to sort it out for him he said he doesn't want me envolved. He's worried about losing me as a mentor, getting in trouble with his parents and that the bully might buly him more. James told me next week after school he's going find the kid and beat the crap out of him. I kow James and I think he will do it but he doesn't want me to tell ANYONE. I really don't know what to do?? If I tell a teacher he will be very angry and will think I'm breaking his trust even though I have his best interest at heart. I have no idea what my next step should be. James is well awar of the consequences and I have asured him it will get sorted if I deal with it but he's determined to not let me?

thanks thats alright .. i appreciate your replies anyhow *hugs*

ahh right yeah sorry, well I was thinking of anyone and everyone lol .. I thought of buying a couple of boxes of ferrero roches's and leaving one for someone, with a little ribbon around it and a small poem or card etc .. I dunno I'd appreciate ideas though

Heya So how is everyone? Well it's coming up to Valentines day and I feel really down about it. It's just on Tuesday theres going to be all soppy love films on tv and theres going to be couples everywhere outside, and I just can't help but feel really left out. Anyway I try and do things for people, like write them a card or leave them a little gift. Anyway I like doing sweet things, and I have ran out of ideas. I usually leave a chocolate (ferrero roche ) with a ribbon on someones desk .. but I want to do something sweet for someone. I don't want it to be a romantic gesture as such. Just so that people feel happy .. I really love seeing people happy. Any ideas? By the way does this seem like a weird thing? Because it's not meant to sound creepy. Thanks, take care, Miya

I will be glad when it's over personally. I don't think I would be celebrating valentines day even if I was in a relationship.

Noooo - see the next day I told him lol .. sorry I should have made that point clearer. I just hope now he doesn't think I was stalking him Miya

I dislike valentines day, for me it hurts because I have to watch someone I love be with someone else and it can be a really hard thing to accept. I like Kellbells suggestion though of doing something for others, I'm going to think of something nice do to. I remember last yr, a young pe teacher of mine had split up with his girlfriend, and so I put a rose under his car wind screen wipe. I'm hoping now it doesn't seem like something a stalker would do .. I just wanted to see him smile because I hate seeing people miserable. I hope you allhave a better day then expected everyone! *bigs hugs to all* Miya