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The Flawed Mirror He walked toward the antique mirror accross the dressing room. "Wonderful craftmanship, isn't it?", he remarked as he lightly brushed the mirror's intricate engraving. "Verily milord. An exquisite piece indeed.", they chorused as a servant should. "This mirror is flawed isn't it?", he remarked again as he leaned heavily on the seemingly flawless mirror. "Forgive us milord!", they wept in terror as their gleaming eyes examined the silvered mirror face in futility. "I am a flawed mirror, am I not?", he smiled sadly as he traced the hidden cracks among the wooden supports. The servants gasped and averted their eyes. And I just smiled and said, "Soon cracks will widen, and we shall fall..." I smiled as the sound of splintering wood was chorused by the shattering mirror... I am a flawed mirror, am I not? ~ eterna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Not Enough Words are not enough to describe what I felt And friends are not enough to hold the hurts at bay Will is not enough to hold me up and live And death is not enough to ease my pain and sleep Time was not enough to heal my wounds And care was not enough to fill my void Life is not enough when love is dead And I am not enough for where once love was is now Gone ~ Eterna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Hope I They asked, "Why do your art always weep?" I said, "Because my eyes have no more tears." So they asked, "Why do your ink always bleed?" So I said, "Because my heart has no more love." Then they asked, "But why are you smiling thus?" And thus I said, "Because there is no more Hope." ~ ETerna2 ---------------------------------------------------------------- Hope II I asked, "Who are you to drag me up?" He said, "I am you and you are me." So I asked, "Why do you wish to hurt me so?" So he said, "I only wish that you would live." Then I asked, "It will hurt if you are here." And thus he said, "But life will end, if I am done." ~ Eterna2 ------------------------------------------------------------------- sigh* I am back again... the 3rd time now... depression haunts me forever... 765 days and the cracks only widen...

back again... after a long period of absense... I think I'm depressed again... I was almost out of it, almost ... but i think i stumbled and fell, now I'm right where I've started... I dunno this is a good thing or a bad one... I noe the pain, it is still the same after all these times... a familiar face... but I dunno, I'm so tired... I tried very hard to get out of it... I was almost feeling normal, after 16 months... but then it just snap, i just snap... i guess, its still not enough... i'm so tired and hopless now... it is so hard to fight alone... i din see a doc, nor am I on any medication... i dun not wish to, my parents do not noe either, and i dun wanna them to noe either... i dunno... i guess i will pick myself up afterawhile... just it seem even harder this time... i dun see a light at the end of the road... but i will still do it, until I'm utterly expired... but it is kinda hard to cope, when u keep tearing every few minutes or so... and i'm a guy 2 boot... sigh... my will isn't broken yet, it is just that i feel so tired... and it seem so much easier to just sit down ... i wish the path can be easier... i wish i can feel happy... i wish the sadness can go away... i wish someone would understand... but i guess it is impossible to truly feel another's pain... and there is nothing much anyone can help... although i wished for a better way... healing starts from self... just gimme some encouragement will ya? I need to build up my fighting spirit again... sigh* maybe i will rest awhile... anyone has any tips on eating? cuz i realli dun feel like eating most of the time. but i feel hungry, but just dun have the mood to eat. food just dun interest mi much anymore... tried eating all my fav food, but they dun look as nice as in the past anymore...

Rivers flowing accross the plains The same yet changed, the old man says Gushing waters, I felt a pain So deep within, where no eyes lays Rivers flowing accross my face Warm and bitter, with touch of gay Seeping sorrows, through the lace A wound was weeping, through the endless days ~ Eterna2

I know, I knew, but still I flew into the blazing light in view A moth, I am, to pain I flew Head on, blindly, to my death I knew Again again, was burnt am I But still a moth I surely am to death, to death, O'I rejoiced Be burnt to ashes, tears in joy In pain, in pain, a pain I seeked In joy, in joy, a pain enjoyed Your eyes, your face, my fading sight Soon a moth be gone into the endless night. ~ Eterna2

Do waste time pondering over something that you have no control. Just prepare for the future! Death needs no preparation, it is better to be prepared for tomorrow than realise u are still alive and u are not ready for it.

3 more days... it would be exactly 365.5 days to my breakup... i tot i was feeling better... but it always comes back... the hurt nv goes away... and the pain is so much harder to bear to know tat she is happily with another guy... A pain so deep within my heart A gnawing pain the words are lost I wonder why is it that I feels so strange my heart still breaks A weeping wound to bleed nonstop Tonight to feel my one year pain my love is gone my love is gone away and never back again my heart is scarred my heart is scarred forever and never is whole again One year pain be gone like wind For there is more and years to come More years of pain A curse she cast T'morrow comes A new year's pain ~ Eterna2

haha thanks just relaz and keep faith... everything will eventually balance out in the end... it will come, just be patient... dun give up hope... this is truth eternal...

ya tat is so true!!! tat is why we guys always suffer more after a breakup... sigh*

Life goes round and round Good beckons good Evil beckons evil Life after death Death after life All are round and round ~ Eterna2 haha something i just painted life goes round and round, wat u do, u will get ...

This is fantastic!!... some times it is sad tat friends have to part, becuz each have their own lives to live... but sometimes, when u meet up again, even if it has been many years, u still feel as comfortable with each others as in the past... this is the beauty of friendship

very true!!! pity i can't speak spanish, so have no idea how it sound like in its original form

Thanks everyone well, lets hope peace comes to everyone soon...

ya... i agree with u... I may not have these experiences, but just pure imagining wat happening down there... makes me sad... I hope i will nv get the chance... in fact, no one shld experience this, especially children. no more war... I hope everything settle down soon... I still think violence and war solves nothing, no one wins a win, everyone is a loser, especially the mothers and the childrens... on both side... sigh* light a candle for peace... but nothing brings back a son, a father, a brother... sigh*

Cries of peace to go unheard Black is gold, and paid with blood Crimson stained, the desert sand A mother's heart is torn apart I wept for them of soldiers not the dead, the wounded and the lost I wept for them of soldiers caught A mother's pain, a bitter cost All men are brothers My mother's son Peace and not war To kill I can't O'war I hate you I hate you so Soldier am I But to war I won't ~ Eterna2

thanks hahha feeling better now, finished one project 3 more to go and deadline is end of this month...

I curse my fate, a life unfair be chained and weighted by heart's despair I yearn be free of hurts and pain away from all, my soul is drained To hell or heaven, I not care Just a place, for my heart to bare To her, my love, a love insane A love so true, my love so plain A chain to hold, to bind me so A pain so sharp, like blood in snow My love for her, it breaks me so For how could I ever ... Let her go? ~ eterna2 being away for quite some time was (still are) busy with alot of project, and approaching deadlines... I'm very stressed out and depressed... feel like chained down, and breaking apart... plus there is this guy tat keep attacking every single thing i say... I really wanna punch him... feeling so down, burn up... and my heart hurts some more, and so busy to do anything about it... i'm breaking breaking...

Times of Sorrow - Memories of Melancholy Grains of sands, white, gray and black... each and every grain of sand has to fall through this narrow tunnel into the unknown... some are spent, worthless, useless... some picked up themselves and glow brightly, illuminating the strange new world they found themselves in... The hooded stranger thoughtfully stroked the shimmering hourglass he held within his slender fingers. Sandman? The man laughed lightly at the thought and rose as he walks away, fading into the horizon, towards fiery ball of fire that will soon leave the world behind. Darkness beckons ... A gently breeze picked up and twirled around the slender stranger as he glided along the weathered ground, following the setting sun. The bright light that had brought a strange emotion that had brighten his life for several fleeting moments. Strange ... The man of melancholy chased after the sun, hoping to grasp, to hold onto the fleeing emotions. The grains of sands continued falling ... Some glimmered and faded away, while a few blazed and thrived ... the world continued as it had done for millieniums ... A few stray strands of pale silvery hair fluttered in the breeze as the slender stranger flew after his desires... his hope... his sorrows... he keened when finally he fell, for all energy, all hopes had fled from his mortal shell... PLEAAASSSEEE Sun Chase I asked the sun to stop for me, But alas the sun had heard me not, I ran behind, and cried and begged, At last, I stopped, for I needed to rest. The sun to go, to fade, to set, Heedless to my cries, I feel so sad. At last the sun to go, to part, With me, the sun to leave a cut. I sat alone throughout the night, No moon, nor stars, a world not bright. But still I waited, a hope forlorn, The Sun will rise, but our love is gone. He stopped and dropped onto the cold hard ground, a barren place where the soil had cracked under the harsh fury of the blazing sun. It brought life, it brought death. There is no good, nor evil, it just is. Nature ... "Where are you my moon?" "Where are you my stars?" The sorrow-broken man railed at the empty night sky. A night devoid of lights, devoid of love. Only despairs, only melancholy... only memories best forgotten... the man finally collapsed and wept ... Alone I wept The sky is night, so gray so dark The moon alone, with stars around. My heart is scarred, to fall apart dashed to bits, against the ground. The stars around, and yet apart The moon alone, no love is found. So near, so far, the stars they seemed. And still the moon alone I wept. Then, then, a tiny form jumped onto him and gave him a hug. "Oh dun be sad! See, sis aren't crying anymore. It so beautiful down here, so quiet, so peaceful!", little Sara planted a wet kiss on Melancholy's tear-stained face. A slender girl reached for the glowing hourglass in the stranger's hand. "Cara?", he whispered. The girl smiled, and points at the shimmering object. The hourglass was empty. It's time ... The man rose and walked towards the horizon ... to the sun that had set? or maybe not ... Come. Come. Come. the breeze filled the barren land with the echoes of his voice. The two girls brightened and followed behind the strange man... They never looked back.

I love this one. sometimes it is so hard to stand all alone, always.

so very true. so very very true. in fact i dun think i trust anyone anymore.

I really like this one. So sad with a touch of hope. but sometimes, i feel that hope will only bring more pain and disappointment.

Feeling sad today... again... sigh my mood swings are getting pretty unstable these days... oh bummer...

I feel the way u do too, and very oftenly. I think it is the aftereffects of "burns out", i guess. I've no solution for this, really. just try to remember death is no solution. resist the temptations. and with luck it will pass. take care.

Alone Alone he knelt in the freezing rain, braving the storm for a love forlorn. Morose, he knelt at where she lain, softly he weep for she was gone. Alone he knelt with his tears and her, reliving the memories of times before. Melancholy again, he cried for her, crying bitterly as the dawn drawn nigh. Alone he met the sun arise, broken was he when the takers came. Solemn, as the coffin rise, shattered was he for his heart was maimed. Alone he knelt and wept in pain. Alone he wept for all was in vain. Alone was he with sorrow as his guest Alone was he as she took her final rest. ~ Eterna2

hahaa... hell with any theories... in love, u dun follow theories, u follow ur heart! if u feel like seeing her, go see her!

often the affairs of the heart is best dealt with in the simplest terms. planning too much or seeing too much will only muddied the water. Ask urself if u really trust him? decide and stick with the decision. If u trust him, all is good and well, dun dwell on what ur friends had said. But in the future if indeed he really did cheat on u, well, u took a risk and lost and U will have to draw a line. Another decision, to forgive or to break up. Decide and draw a line, if u think he is still worthy, then go ahead and give him another chance. But if u think he had crossed the line, then just break up. Without real forgiveness or trust, there can be no happy relationship. If u dun trust him, then there is really nothing he can do make u trust him, so it better to just break up. A love without trust is not love, it will only bring pain and hurt to both. I may make things sound so cold, but in truth, u must always draw a line for urself and then decide. Otherwise u will only be forever pestered but why, how, what if, etc... All of us can advice all we wanted, but in the end, u are the one who makes the decision. Listen to ur heart, and not wat others say.