kickedin

still going....i di d text her brother who is my friend to drop aline and say hellow after 2 weeks nc.....its not his fault...hes in middle i miss her still

you guys are great......

i just might do that

well thats why its here first i repsect your guys points......thanks

i know maybe i was just venting......i am in sd's challenge....i thought maybe this would just jog her with no pressure

its been hard these past few days....i want to send her this email i know it is sappy but it isnt asking her for anything and basically says if we are meant to be we will be but not know any votes to send it how are you i know it has been some time....i miss you i miss us....i know you dont feel that way anymore and i dont know if you ever will again maybe i wont either but i just wanted you know i dont hate you i love you......that will subside in time i am sure as i know thats what you are hoping for....i know you loved me to your best ability at this time whether it was enough or not we arent together by your choice... i loved you to my best ability and gave you what i could at this time, i know i have some things to get settled in my life and you know what they are......i wanted to give you everything but it just wasnt possible and sadly enough you didnt want to wait around for me to follow through because you though that i always let you down.....i dont hate you for it just wished you worked with me a little longer i feel that we are meant to be but i am accepting the fact that you chose this path of being apart and moving on maybe you will meet someone who you think may suit you but i doubt that someone will make you feel the way i did and god forbid if you were ever to be intimate with someone(i dont know how you could let someone else touch you?) or maybe you need to get a taste of whats out there.....to see if you can find better but i know in my heart we were meant to be close like we were i just think our timing was screwed up i know that neither one of us wanted to hurt eachother and things did happen that hurt both of us.....i am sorry for all of it if we do meet again at this point it would be great if others come into our lives then i guess we werent meant to be....i dont know just been feeling alot of emotion lately about you and i didnt want to meet you just to say goodbye because you already did that......i was just concerned about you because of christmas eve all in all babe i miss you..everything....from the little kisses to our texts to our coffee with whippy....our little romantic dates.....our hopes....and dreams........to the way you used to look at me deep into my eyes and mine into yours.......to the way we would talk about our little daughter to be all of it.... if i could change it all including your heart i would...but i need this time to get me right .....and if we have the one true love that you said we were on may 212006 when you came back to me then it will still be there when the time is right....until then

still going....it hurts i miss her is sending a card bad?

thanks guys i dont hate her i thought baout unblocking her school email only just in case she wanted to send something i know she wouldnt send anything bad

i know .....i dont think she wants to hurt me i just think she got in tooooo deep with me and knows this is hurting me but if she doesnt want it what are her options? stay in it and be unhappy aor leave hurt me and eventually we will both be happy? she is just so wishy washy that sometimes i feel that she will come back as soon as i deliver on my promises i made about my career.....kinda of proving my word instead of talking which was happening...(i guess she saw me making empty promises)

i know....it just sux but letting go has been so hard as it is the second time around alomst the same time last year....and for four months that she was gone i thought about her everyday then she came back....in may and here we are again

ok today is horrible i miss her terribly been having dreams all weekend....i want to unblock her emails just in case she does email she wont think i am a bad guy........as much as i want to callher i know that will be ugly its raining work is irritating me my brother is on my last nerve and i am not happy i guess missing her and her closeness is really eating at me i miss it all!!

i am still going strong

it has been since 12/26 since we spoke and thanksgiving night when i last saw her boy does time fly!!!! i woke up friday morning really missing her and last night and today has been hard i ran into her brother's girl yesterday... she asked how i was and that i should call my friend i just told her that i needed my time and it has nothing to do with him.....she asked me about new years kinda fishin...cause my friends saw my girl out and they told her that i didnt go out....so i guess shes having a hard time believing that....... we were supposed to have that meeting before new years to say our goodbyes which i did cancel and said i would be out until this tuesday i half thought she would hve called wondering why i am not rescheduling.....kinda weird we are both silent on this one....even though its over neither one of us are making any moves to do anything except giving eachother the respectful space.........why you ask? well i think she knows shes unstable and i know i need to get my crap together.....so i think we both subconsciously leave it be without concreting anything and if we meet other people in this time well then thats that.... am i talking bs i dont know i am just hustlin to get me back to where i want to be financially stabiltity wise etc.......alot of the reasons pertaining to us not moving forward and breaking up.....

i think he expects a first time marriage wife and you seem to be the second type "i wont settle for being submissive" granted maybe he is a bit much....sorry i am just bitter because my ex was divorced and we planned on getting married but she wanted what she wanted with him it was well we were young and in oir twenties now i am 34 i dont want to go backwards in life......

my girl lost faith in me....it killed me i had a rough patch i am 28 own a business and starting 2 more i bought a 2 million dollar building and she still thinks i am unsettled......it killed me.....most people envy what i have accomplished at 28 she laughed at me because i carried a mortgage on it or i have 2 boats .....i am struggling now but digging myself out of a hole....... i resented her for making me feel worthless yet everyone else just sees it as a cycle of business at least he apologizes and is niceenough to communicate....appreciate that and communicate better with eachother

thanks guys

i am in.....i havent contacted or heard from her since dec 27

its hard but you deserve more after all that

i am trying to be strong.....it just hurts to think how close we were.....she is battling something....i cant be apart of it because i was being blamed.....it just sad because we were once so close

well it has been since the day after christmas since we spoke and thanksgiving night since we saw eachother...i cant believe how much time has passed i feel somber today because i am so busy i havent really thought about her i miss her i hate that she just walked away we were supposed to meet last friday to talk and say our goodbyes and cancelled that thank god.......i havent heard anything since although i am getting blocked calls everyday since new years(she saw my friends new years) and i dont know what to think i guess i gave her the impression that i would get in touch with her after this past tuesdat when i got back in town to set up our meeting......but i am not there is nothing to say...its over her emails are blocked so she cant send any so she would have to call or write..... i guess after all this drama i just miss her when we were good......who know what the next few weeks will bring>

i dont know her well so i could call her on this bs but i will let it ride i guess nad move on if she calls i guess i will deal with it then

ironically i have herin my phone as dont answer

one on monday two on tuesday one today and each day they are around lunch..... i have a gut its her but i dont answer and never a voicemail

you are young.....take that for what its worth

keep the faith some guy will love you for you if not screw him