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  1. kickedin
    WEll its been 2 months since i seen her and we broke up....some contact here and there roller coaster of thoughts I MISS HER STILL i have talked to a few girls....went on some dates every girl i talk to i compare to her and ye si know its what you do but her classyness her beauty her qulaities our closeness makes me pick these others apart what do i do ? do i do a hail mary and call her....yeah right!!! i am trying to move and accept that it didnt work for the second time but just last week she emailed me about some things to return....she was a bit bitter but she said "of course i miss you too it just sucks!!!!!! this has been a tough two years since i met her and already breaking up once last year this time.......here i am again and i still love her and miss her but dont have her whats wrong with me?
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    so i sent her text basically saying i know she dodged me and went to a bikini contest here the reponse i got "i did that as a promise. i have not been out of bed all weekend until today after 530 i have to go to the drs on monday cause i have pneumonia i had a fever all night that night" i didnt respond but i want to.....any ideas
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    oh and she emailed em the next day telling me she was in a car accident and she was ok .....(like nothing was worng)
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    so through the grapevine....i find out this girl went out that night......i also find out she is having major ex drama.....but that it didnt matter because someone else is making her smile.....so she says i doubt that is "me that is making her smile" but at the same time maybe shes trying to not start anything if the ex drama is way up on the level of crazyness? being rejected sucks
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  6. kickedin
    same girl i guess i should let it go
  7. kickedin
    yea h i guess thing would be to dissapppear.....and see what really goes on.....
  8. kickedin
    i know but i kinda want to lay into her baout the ex.....like whats it got to do with me
  9. kickedin
    2-3 months i dont know
  10. kickedin
    well it we were supposed to go tuesaday she couldnt for whatever reason...SHE ASKED how about weds or thurs i said thursday and it was all set reservations and everything.....
  11. kickedin
    now for as much as we talked i assumed she was done with her ex and i dont know what shes really talking about
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    Im not going to be able to go tonight….first of all im about to leave work right now bc im beyond sick, but its also been a rough past couple with family probs….dont be mad, ill explain later. And the ex just f#$#%ing did it again…..piece of m#%#r f@#$%g s#$t. (excuse me…im just heated….big time!) so i just responded with "ok i hope you feel better" it was to be a first date.........
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    i just am the kinda of guy that likes to jump right in
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    met this girl a month ago alot of texting back and forth......asked her out 3 weeks ago she was sick...met up one night at a club thought she blew me off but her friend was sick and she called me at 5am just to apologize so i made plans for tonight.....she said it wasnt good for her and she asked how about weds or thurs..... i had plans for weds so i made it thursday....now this girl for some reason isnt much of a caller on the phone.... but she'll text me like crazy......i sent her a small box of choclates today at work....she went nuts thought it was so gentlemen like etc......she didnt call me after work i texted her she was getting her nails done we texted back and forth for a bit alot of teasin i said can i call you when you are done?...she says i am runing late gotta get something to eat then get ready cause i got out of work late......i guess shes going out or something and she said : i'll try to call you in a bit" now to me it seems like shes interested but not interested when we do talk its fun......shes a very pretty girl who happens to be a nice girl too.....but i know shes got a million guys chasin''' her and is recently out of a bad relationship 3 months ago as i am too i am impatient and nervous cause i dont want to blow this before our date on thurs night.....but like last night i had to call her back after she called me when i did she didnt answer and she texted me that she was at her friends house and would call me later she didnt..... i just dont like not feeling important..... am i impatient expecting too much too soon......
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    i havent been around in awhile.....as you guys last know my ex sent me a letter in the mail and i responded back like a gentlemen she told me she missed me terribly and cryed in her pillow at night....and then she says to keep her little teddy bear that she has had since she was a little girl......very sentimental to her and us.......i said thanks but he's still yours....meaning i will keep him but when you want him hes yours thats was the 11th.....in the meantime her brother and i have been on rock ground because i asked him for space from all this after christmas.......after 2-3 weeks of not talking he calls me a leaves a voicemail stating that he has the money he owes me and after talking to his sister she said that i said i had stuff to give her in particular her bear...... so in confusion i emailed her andsaid your bro called and said this whats the deal if you want your bear back just say so.....she then proceeded to do a 180 on me saying that if was cutting her brother off (which i wasnt and imade that clear to him) that giving her bear bacl that meant so much to her would be no big deal.......she then leaves me the option to do whatever i want i respond explaining to her taht i dont know what your bro said but i clearly am not cutting him off and i dont know why that is being stated when in fact i tried numerous times to mend something that wasnt broken with him.......she jumped at me saying i wasnt facing teh truth and i ran from the oppurtunity to clear the air because she said he ripped her because i gave him my version of our breakup..... i said to her look i dont want to fight with you and i dont know why your tone has changed towards me from 10 days ago all i wanted was clarification from a confusing voicemail from your brother.... she goes on to say well when people argue they cant communicate they parts ways....i respond if you feel you need to draw a line in the sand with me on every level go ahead i dont want to argue with you i just want peace so after all the gut wretching emails back and forth and yet again realizing her bi polarness needing to be right all the time......i drove over and dropped it off while she was at work with a note saying i dont want to fight i dont like drama......if you wanna call to say hi, grab coffee etc great......if you want to rip me accuse me or argue with me leave me be ........that was that her brother stopped by my office later that night i told him the bear was taken care of....he said " her wanting the bear back has nothing to do with her feelings for you she cares for you and she knows the sentiment it had for both of you" i said its taken care of i dont need more drama..... then he gave some stuff she had of mine shirts etc..... uggghhhh....................
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    we went out for 2 years planned to get married i even sold my house.....we broke up on thanksgiving weekend
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    well its about 5 days since the ex emailed me and said she missed me yadda yadda yadda you guys read teh letters i feel like i definitely was set back i ask myself ? self? if she misses you and crys in her pillow at night why hasnt she called you? did she just want to see if you would contact her ? or is she just that messed up? and doesnt know what she wants and doesnt want to let go completely? i misss her bottom line but i wont call her on contact her it just sucks
  18. kickedin
    bi polar i think you are close
  19. kickedin
    pretty much...and everyday even though i miss her i work on me
  20. kickedin
    well yeah and then she came back in may on her own then we broke up after thanks giving......divorce wrecked her
  21. kickedin
    oh i did.......but she sent me a letter i guess i am just being a classy gentlmen i havent done anything since
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    i responded with a neutral all is well email from her intial letter in the mail and this is what she wrote back to me, original letter here------( ) i am confused......i responded and told her that i missed her too and i still have her bear and she responded back to keep him(a little hope i guess she gave) lol Thanks, xxxxxx: ) This means so much to me. I have been doing well, as I said. Well in a new sense (finally refusing to get comfort from a person to heal me....and recognizing that God really is the ANSWER). There's one thing I did not write in the letter; and that is that I miss you. I miss you very much, xxxxxxxx. It was so incredibly hard letting go....but maybe now you know that with YOU always making it hard....I HAD TO BE EXTREME ; ( I don't have to remind you how close we were. xxxxxxx, I'm so afraid I'll never move past the feeling we shared. But, I have to accept that. Perhaps God has more important plans for me. It's such a relief to read this. Letting you go was sooo hard b/c I had to risk recognizing what may be happening on your end. It's mind-torturing!!!! But that's what God expected from me. A lot is happening to me. I am coming alive again, xxxxxxxx! Even though I cry soooo much at night in my pillow- I am feeling empowered again (do you remember that strong, happy me?) Anyway, I'm glad you're getting on in a good way, too. Praise God. I prayed so hard for you just this morning. Keep in touch, xxxxxxx. xxxxx PS Do you still have the little Bear? Or did you burn him by now?
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    i responded with a neutral letter....out of respect and she responded with a confusing letter....i have since left it
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    i really loved this girl as you guys know......i would like to be with her but i need to work on me and she needs to work on her....... i am confused i know leaving it go is safe but god i loved her sooo much
  25. kickedin
    I just got this via regular mail...... xxxxxxx, i hope all is well in spite of us never having that talk with my brother(who is hurt and dissappointed) i am accepting how these weeks unfolded. i know it hasn't been easy for you i guess everyone knowspretty much i still choose to deal w things in a different way-i guess. i am praying for you still as i SAID i would i am praying that god will comfort you as he is me-one day at a time...i'm not gonna lie(cliche) it still hurts thankfully i feel like i am being restored to how i was once.....a spirited,confident,joyfull,fearless, and stable girl(the way i was a long time ago) many good things are occurring in my life- i believe they are blessings and my health, my job are good and my family and friends have been supporting me with prrayer I'd love to know how you are doing, i dont want to say the impression i get realizing my brother was cast aside as your friend i'd RATHER BELIEVE YOU ARE OK and growing as much in spite of all WE have been thru i needed to start THIS year off RIGHT i have a letter for your mom i never wanted to involve her or put her on the spot during times like these i dont think thats showing sincerity or caring rather i prayed about it and this is what i feel is on my heart i 'm sending this to YOU out of respect for you YOU have the CHOICE to read it to her its for you to decide i know i did my part and that was taking the time to express to her my gratitude, my apologies, my best wishes. i believe you know that i TRULY cared and loved her i prayed for her and still do and always will i hope you WILL let her HEAR how she touched my life and how dear she will always be to me please consider sharing it with her thank you well theres so much more i could say but i'm sure YOU'VE heard EVERYTHING from my heart i just cant bear to feel the sting of you ignoring what i would say and spreading around other things it is too painfull for me frustrating etc . i believe in my heart that one day....some day you WILL choose to recognize and admit that i WAS real i was l-o-y-a-l i was sincere and most importantly the one you could have TRUSTED more then any other maybe then we'll cross paths and smile and appreciate what we gained from the bond we once had i guess you can consider this my last and only option for closure take care xxxxx you'll ALWAYS have a piece of my heart, xxxxx ironically i did text her brother 2 days before to rekindle our friendship...no response.....i kind of want to respond with a light upbeat letter...i dont know what do you guys think? it seems she isnt putting her self all the way out there but enough to keep the lines open and the letter she sent my mom was touching so now what i havent done anything yet and i dont think i shouldnt respond because i am classy.....
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