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day 70 for me... I still miss her (good times) she facebook called me (weird we arent friends so it doesnt seem like an accident) at 130 am on a friday night(day 60)....I haven't responded because for one it was not even a real phone call and two there was no message or any other attempts on my real cell.... I feel like she was just drunk and was looking for me on facebook or reading our old messages etc... if she wants to talk I think shes gotta make a better effort as part of me wants to see if we can fix but another bigger part of me says shes young immature and doesnt seem to want to put the effort into a relationship.... So I just keep moving forward day by day some days are rough I will admit... Very hard for me not to reach out and say " hey I saw you facebook called me" ...... my fear is that she will ignore it or act like she knew nothing about it and then I think I will feel worse

Not all guys are bad... lol When I am with someone I am WITH them.... no games no bs etc...and sometimes it just doesnt work out.... so we hope that they realize they lost something because we feel the time invested should be a daily reminder but sometimes it isnt

DAY 57 ... Today's My bday and I kinda hoped she'd reach out.... but nothing yet

day 48 ......but I slipped up a bit Friday I was out drinking.... at about 1130 I blocked my number and called her.... she picked up.... sounded like she was awoken from my call...I hung up immediately.....very odd feeling I got because I guess I expected her not to answer or to be out..... then my mind swung around to maybe she was staying in cause shes going out saturday night etc.... not fun for the mind.... any how today is V-day... all quiet and I m ok....

Day 42 for me... been missing her(obviously the good parts) What bothers me most is that she hasn't made any effort worth calling an actual effort and after 2.5 years with quite a few rough spots it sucks to be wondering why below is a link to my story if anyone is bored

Day 2 .... been broken up about 5 weeks we had limited contact over that time some good some bad..... always wants to see my dog lol.... told her last friday i loved her and we could work it out she said she didnt want to..... i didnt hear from her until monday asked to get ice cream then tuesday we went running and wednesday we went out for lunch.and she tried to make plans for dinner later this week and even invited me to a graduation party in middle of june...... i was stunned because i was quite clear on my feelings on friday night and she was clear on hers..... she made all the contact and all the plans so i went with it and thought maybe the weekend gave her a change of heart.... we had fun during these 3 days but the physical aspect wasnt there .... i touched her leg like i normally would and she made a comment that we werent together.... so i said to her i am kinda confused because you knew my feelings friday and i let you be and you are the one that has been blowing me up and trying to see me everyday..... she replied " I HAD NO INTENTIONS OF WORKING THINGS OUT WITH YOU" ----- I just said to her "ok cool!" and walked away ..... have not heard from her since...... so i am glad for the 3 days because it was fun and light and even the last words were nothing short of reiteration of friday nights talk session.... i am in nc because i cant be her friend and i think she was trying to string me along or not let me move on .... she knows where i am and yes i miss her but my playbook needs to change because i am not a back up plan

hey dave.....here ya go thanks your help is always appreciated

what do i do we saw eachother talked for a few...nicely she texted me "nice seeing you and then another saying im glad you are doing well always wanted the best for you i texted her back thanks and the same what do i do i miss her sooo much its her b day sunday i wisher her happy bday last night is it wrong to text her happy bday

made it till thursday........ its been tough as i really miss her.....i have a weird feeling she will contact me again soon.....thanks for the support guys

i think it may be it........if not this girl has to reach out way mor ethen thisi sold my house to buy one with her and a week later she goes nuts........

thanks....she has a way of coming around towards the summer as all my friends say like she did last year......guess she doesnt want my boat packed full of girls...too bad

well i made it to today.......i have such mixed feelings....fear that she in her own childish way is reaching out to me but never enought to get hurt...that if i dont answer that she will send me a " you know what you are playing games dont even know why i tried" email........ i just love her too much and know that she cant give me what i want and vice versa.....it would hurt tooo much to see her....

thats what got me......she broke up with me.....i didnt get that either

does nc work into this situation

thats just it i miss her and love her like crazy...i cant take sitting down with her and hearing how great thinga are and her not wanting to be with me again....its would kill me....but dont you have to start somewhere......i dont know its like i am screwed either way...if i dont answer....its like i am playing games if i do its going to hurt again to knowwe cant be together......

yeah i was thinking she was trying to aleive some guilt too......i am so confused ....](*,)

we broke up nov 25th....... hi xxxxxx- i talked to my brother recently...your name came up- we had a good talk- there were some things i found out from him that finally helped curb my anger w/ you from last month - it was a relief to find out that i was misinformed up until now about something - anyway, i asked him to talk to you about it and some other things- but he has a trial thursday, and i don't know if he has gotten to it so i figured i'd write this to you i don't know if you know this - but your messages last month came to me the morning of one of the biggest days ever for me- i had an interview for a principal's job that night at 9pm preceded by a graduate course that i was to begin teaching to middle school teachers and their principals in xxxxxxx- my nerves were pretty wound up as you can imagine- your messages confused me a lot- but i couldn't respond b/c i just couldn't afford to jeopardize a sound mind for that long and important day- (By the way I was 2nd in the interview...out of 47....good but not good enough i guess, oh well : ) Anyway, that morning, while driving into work and talking on the phone w/ my mom she sensed that i was "off"- i told her what happened, which she responded by saying "forget him, xxxxx...he's not for you"- i asked what she knew and was keeping from me....well, long story short a story which got twisted (evidentally) came back to me in a very disturbing way - i got to work and wrote that email - perhaps you can imagine how YOU would have felt and maybe understand why i went off on you - i was so upset! well, since then (and only VERY recently) i found out that the truth was twisted - it really doesn't matter to me as far as what you're doing these days - (well, to a certain extent of course) what bothered me is why you would attempt making me some kind of false hope in what you were really doing during that time that we were broken up- i thought you were playing two ends for the middle and that the TRUTH of what you were doing w/ your time was never going to be revealed - it's really not important anymore, i guess because it's MY feelings that you may not ever understand - but I do hope you can accept my apology here....it wasn't my fault that I got so angry : ( we weren't talking and so I had to go by what I heard anyway, i hope you are well these days, xxxxxxx- i really do - of course i remembered you're birthday last friday and sent you silent wishes b/c i did not want to cause any confusion or emotions on your special day....maybe you still know the real me and how i truly did always TRY to do the right and bigger thing - But...I do wish you a belated Happy Birthday! I hope this year brings you great things - you deserve them (and it's your last year in your twenties....finally! lol) well, sorry if this bothers or disturbs you in any way! i just want you to know what happened and why i was so angry with you- take care, please! maybe one day we can sit down together face to face; catch up; share where we're heading these days - we never did get to do that, did we? ! when i was finally ready for a talk you weren't....etc. well, i am willing if you want that respect that you always said our relationship deserved - i don't know - pray about it.... as usual, I'd be willing to share the REAL deal in what's going on w/ me....and I'd love to know how you're doing (especially since my brother is trying so hard to salvage his friendship with you! us talking amicably may make that more possible....for i know we can try to be considerate and strong and gracious : ) well, i hope your family is well - i do pray for all of you as i promised i would! i heard your shop looks great and that all is well....i'm sooo glad, xxxxxx.... i really want to see great things happen for you for you will always occupy a place in my heart : ' ) take care, xxxxx i am really confused...because it seems like she reaches out and then covers her but...like shes testing to see if i am still here...... what shall i do

lol i can see that

her name isnt that common.......and when we first broke up the first girl i talked to......yup same name...i just have a gut feeling i will be hearing from her soon......intuition scaring me

thanks.......i just feel my life will never be the same we broke up same time last year boy was happy when she came back...i dont think shes coming back this time

lately...my ex's name in many ways has been in my face whether its someone i meet....i saw a boat named after her......tv........walked into gym her friend says oh my i just texted xxxxxxx......it s like i cant get away from it shes always on my mind...its been 3 months is this normal

from 11-04 until 1-06...broke up she came back 5-06 until 12-06......

i'm struggling......i had a late night text to her about a month ago.....she sent me an email ripping me....tellingme to leave her alone.....now mind you 3 weeks before i sent that she sent me an email how much she missed me and ctied every night.......when i do it....wham.....its been NC since.....my birthday passed and nothing... i talked with her bro yesterday ....i guess the girl i have been hagning out with has gotten back to her hence maybe why the tone change in her... i dont know....he was like you know i am sorry that things didnt work out....(he asked if i was dating again...then he brought the girl up which we are only friends anyway) i said dude its been hard.....he said she askedhow ou are doing etc....and she does miss you... i laughed my life is hell once again i am struggling to get back on top of my business.....get my emotional sense back.....the girls i talk too....they are a waste i am moving out of the house i sold for her.....(moving in with my brother)....i am hurting

walk away!!!

i snet her a late night text....and the i apologized for it in an email the next morning.... i said i hoped you are feeling better...... her response: "I was sleeping…like I said and you never believed, I am sick. But thank you anyway " (she seemed mad at me for that) my response: "didnt say i didnt believe you girl.........it just didnt feel good to feel disregarded when i actually was excited to have dinner with you.....and it seemed you werent interested because you didnt reschedule.......trust me jenn i did want to get to know after you convinced me how different you were from other girls......hopefully this was a misunderstanding and we are both just having a bad few weeks lately wanna try again" her response: "yeah we can but for right now I need to worry about me, and I have been going thru some stuff and I just need to get my head straight" that was yesterday.....we emailed a bit today i called her around 530 she said she was about to tan and she would call me back...she did we talked for like 10 mins.......about how she doing she wa syapping about some ex drama and then telling me some good stuff about some modeling shes doing...asked me what i was doing and told me what she was doing........shes going out with some friends... she said call me later if you want...... i dont know what my next move should be if at all.....