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  1. NikE-ElitE
    i cant understand why i get so depressed over girl problems with my gf, football camp has started and it seems to lessen the pain somehow but i wont get into details but she is drastically hurting me and it to say it simply and briefly makes me want to die i have already tried to kill myself once and landed in a coma for 3 and a half days so i feel that its not hard to do that again except i hope i will die next time i try if i do living just isnt worth all the pains in the asses that come with living please help show me how to deal with probs and i do weightlift and get a ton of good heavy exercise but they dont numb the pain anymore
  2. NikE-ElitE
    i dont know really what to say buy my gf sometime expressed deep true love for me and other times it seems like she doesnt give a care in the world, like it seems alot of the time when we are together she doesnt want me to touch her period, i mean what the hell! like the rest of the girls at my school well a lot of them have told me that they are attracted to me and want to be with me but i dont like them and there ready anytime for me but the only girl i want to be with and love wont even let me hold her in anyway! and she says things to me that are borderline joking and serious that really hurt me and she seems to not even care, and the worst part of all this is i cant stop liking her. i dont know what to do i wish i could leave her torment cause it effects everything about me from my sports to how i do in school how i treat my mom cause of my bad way iam in after dealing with her, why is she seem to be sooo cold and everynow and then she just seems to be the sweetest girl alive and seems to love me whats up with her? any opinions this is really driving me into the ground
  3. NikE-ElitE
    all the pressuure seems to close in on me, from school, from being expected to accomplish great things in sports my mother is crazy she is always yelling, my depression, the fact i put myself in a coma before with pills in a suicide attempt, feelings of emtieness and the feeling that iam hollow. every day is horrible, thier just battles after battle after battle after battle after battle... no one would expect me to be suicidal or be depressed, why would i be i have everything! friends , a girlfriend who loves, outer strength, but i dont know all and everything has a good side and a bad side when u do what i have done in sports and life it seems that u r expected by all to keep doing this until u fail or die and if u fail you are now worthless and meaningless to everyone. i dont know thats just what it feels like and some things i havnt metioned because iam far too tired to go into detail about everything. iam sick in the mind i want to die and... well theres a bottle of pills sitting id say.. about 2 feet away from me theres relief about 2 * * * *ing feet away from me. maybe everyone will think differntly about me when they are notified of the fact that iam dead. iam just to tired of fighting uphill battles with everyone and everything iam spent and dont know what to do and thats why i posted this short and typical cry for help, maybe someone can adivise me on how to deal with overwhelming problems well thier overwhelming to me
  4. NikE-ElitE
    damn, this is making me so sad to hear your story. It weighs on me constanly i just wish i could go down to austrailia and woop the monkey * * * out of all those people giving you crap and ill re arrange your ex's face if you want me too. Please iam begging you dont please please please dont kill yourself i know the pain your in ive been there damnt i tried to kill myself and put my self in a coma for three damn days, but i lived through it and iam stronger now than i ever was. You are just going through a horrible storm in your life but no storm on this world lasts forever unless God says so. I cant stress the importance of releying on his grace in love to get you through this. IT'S THE ONLY WAY OUT OF YOUR SITUATION! So i want you right nowa when you read this to recite this prayer to the father in silence- lord iam at the end, i cant go any further please settle this please give my peace of mind. amen also get a bible now or when you get your hands on one read this verse and commit it to memory- Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the lord, the creator of the ends of the earth , nethier faint nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak , and to those who have no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall uterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew thier strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint, -Isaiah 40: 28-31
  5. NikE-ElitE
    ok i have been where you are, to everyoone i seemed fine and that i had everything, friends , parent , record athlete at my school but i wsnt ok. I needed a attitude adjustment and in a weird way that came through when i tried to kill myself by taking pills. this showed me how much i have and that we all need sometimes to fall completely to start raising ourselves. Thes trouble will never completely go away but what doesnt kill you makes you stronger, wiser , and tougher. The feeling that you feel that it seems like your to tired to go on and you want eternal sleep is a hard thing to get out of but if you want help yull get it and yull survive with the help of God ull make it. Ill pray for you, that yull have peace of mind. Your in my thoughts...
  6. NikE-ElitE
    ok you all wrong ita ll depends, but what works for me is to plan exersise after breakfast lunch or dinner after you have let nature call. But i know its hard to do this so eating a banana and drinking a lil water before exersise is very healthy just dont try to eat to much or drink to much is the key. and eat healthy for the love of god and stay out of mc donalds.
  7. NikE-ElitE
    ill promise to wait one more day, and pray thats how i got through my other problems ( read my other posts in suicide if ya want details) but if things get too bad i tend to get suicdaly low or get low enough to cut myself which i havent done for a long time , i remember days when i could just let my frustration out when i lift weights or run till iam too tired to do anything but now the pain just is too strong all this on top of everyhting else is so hard to deal with. I know i sound immature right now saying ill kill myself over a girl but theres alot more to my story that iam to lazy to go into detail about right now
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    blue angle you are very wise but seriosly you really need to know more about what your preaching before you go shooting your mouth off.
  9. NikE-ElitE
    blue angle you are very wise but seriosly you really need to know more about what your preaching before you go shooting your mouth off.
  10. NikE-ElitE
    i have got into a relationship for about 3 days now with a girl that i have been friends for about 3 years and it seems to be backfireing on me. it seems like she is not taking the relationship serously sometimes and sometimes it seems like she is. I feel almost like killing myself again over this , its so sad that i let my emotions be so totally controlled by her. Iam a strong driven person in my life except for when it comes to her. All her friends say she likes me and i should ask her out but now it seems so fake. please i need advice on this iam at my end , please reply...
  11. NikE-ElitE
    Hey i just got into a relationship with a girl ive been friends with for about 5 years and we just started going out right out of a slight fight or i should say uneasy and awkward feelings , but i want to have a deep relationship with this girl but i dont know how to get closer to her to have a stable relationship whith her please please help this is the girl of my dreams (it least for right now) i really need some advice on how to get closer to her thank you tons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!](*,)
  12. NikE-ElitE
    if a girl you like wants you to go to her house, well THEN GO! you might miss out , she might be tryen to getcha!
  13. NikE-ElitE
    crap i just relized what a horrible job i just did in spelling in that last post lol any who cares
  14. NikE-ElitE
    sh it , iam a weird guy well heres one of my experences, the girl who has been a friendly angle to me and has been showen sighns of attraction to suddenly jump on me later in the party and in fun kick my * * * but with pretty riskay flirty touching to let me know she is seriosly intrested in me, well that has happened to me before and it was so fun. giving the guy is fun in personality and not a jackas s, lol also dont do this if it would be awkweirdly out of the idea to do so , it pretty much depends on the enviorment. later...!
  15. NikE-ElitE
    fphew! Wish i could help, but this problem is just way otta my league. but i think if i was somehow in your shoes i would get a friend to sorta test her exe." hey heard you like that one girl" or " i think my friend has something of feelings for you" ahhh [sh itCOLOR] * * *, yep i suck at advice in this situation....god iama [jack as sCOLOR] * * * * * * anyway dont count 100% on that advice anyway this situation i think will be one you will remember as a fun one for a long time! well later update me on wats goen on lol. iam acurious guy
  16. NikE-ElitE
    hey, i just want to know what physical features do you adore the most in a guy you like. Thank you tons.
  17. NikE-ElitE
    also heavy exersing will make the pain go away, al you need to do is apply yourself to it
  18. NikE-ElitE
    Hi please read this before you make any, decisions. Please accept the fact that every one at one time feels this way one day or another, and every possible problem you are facing right now has been overcome before. I cut, i tried to kill myself, i have felt your lows i assure you of that, and it seems to other people that i have everything. read my posts and see in detail what been up with me but i got through it you can too. your just running a race in first place but you are tired and want to quit im i right , but there will come a time when you reach that line and can look back on the distance you have overcome. If you can please express to your parents that you are having trouble in dealing with this iam sure they care they just arnt expressing themselves in the right way, please get counseling and pray, pray the lord will bring you piece of mind and a way out of this. i know yull be looken back on all this someday. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, please send me a message and let me now how you are doing
  19. NikE-ElitE
    thank you all i have calmed down a lil i will coninue for now jus hope i can make it its os hard wish it was over
  20. NikE-ElitE
    i cant cope with all the pressure and pain weather it be from trying to continue being a perfect athelte which may seem like a problem people would like to have(trust me it eats your mind from the inside out) or dealing with a girl that iam so crazy and cant stop thinking about, those are a couple of my seemingly minor problems but when you live them to the extreme extent that i have they are overwhelming impossibly overwhelming and it seems somtimes the only peace i get is when i sleep, i try to follow the teachings of the christ but it seems whenever a problem occurs it always brings this soul which presents itself as an unstopable force to its knees. There is a fifty percent chance i will be to tiered tonight to continue on tonight and theres a chance i will do what i have done before go lift weights till iam to tired to crawl and i close my eyes fall asleep on the floor and wait till tomarrows demons return to do battle with me... please somone tell me how to cope iam almost ready to die(about a foot from the edge and cant take another blow) please somone help me i want to look back on this and look at it as another competitor that i laid to waste in my wake.
  21. NikE-ElitE
    hey if you want to post i might still be here, if i dont then you know iam gone just when my life seemed to just starting to brighten it all folds back to black iam so sick of this... its not worth living just to * * * *ing deal with all these * * * *ing problems time and time again. there is a gun about an arms length away from me i will use it on my head after i give my ex all my atheletic awards which are all patheticly of no importance i dont even know why iam doing this, this will make a good conversation tomarow at school, one one will see it coming how could somone so seemingly strong fall, he cant fall they say this should cause people to think of the pain and demons i deal with,.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
  22. NikE-ElitE
    shysoul, you sound like a very well rounded and set person i respect that. but giving up on my sports would kill me just about as fast as a bullet through my head. I wish i could understand how life is worth it i just cant see how all this hell is worth going through i dont know how and to add fuel to the fire the girl that causes some unimagineable pain just noticed the gashes on my wrist today(everyone changed classes) and she it seems is almost afraid of me now how can i blame her she probly just didnt see that coming espicaly from me...
  23. NikE-ElitE
    i dont want to write a book in describing my problem so ill try to make it fast, i have everything it seems to the outside going for me , iam a record holding track athlete , i have plaenty of friends , i was a starting runningback for my team which almost won the championship, but all this doesnt help me, i just tried to kill my self a few weeks ago and i put myself in a coma for 3 and a half days from overdoseing on pills, now iam on medication(doesnt take away pain) and every now and again i talk to some one i have not told and kids at my school. i just cant seem or dont know how to deal with all the pressure from my school, trying to hold up my image as a perfect athlete, extremley devestating problems with a a piticular girl iam all for, all my past pain from my parent divorce when i was very young, abusive father, and total loss of my confidence in myself and god to get me were i want to go in life, iam thinking about overdosing again on pills in a few days but this time i wwont call 911 when i start to get the effects of the drugs no matter how scared i truly iam. plz send any feedback this is one of my last options.
  24. NikE-ElitE
    OMG there is somthing driving me insane, there is a freaken huge * * * * drive in me to be with a girl in a good relationship i just dont come accross many chances, i dont know why iam a star athlete at my high school iam in top shape but just a lilttle shy in asking girls out not talking to them i have many girl-friends but no companion how long will this pain last what things can i do to be in a real relationship? plz help](*,)
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