blueangel

They make ME want to start drawing. I feel like drawing a little character beside yours when i view each of them: like a little fairy tapping her wand with a wink in her eye. That or BUNNIEZ JUMPING AROUND! EEEEE!

All I mean is that life gives you nothing but the moment. Love when you're with him. Let go when you're not. Don't hurt the love with fear of what he's thinking or of where's it's going. Always this: only prepare for the future: the worst and the best. But don't live your life worrying. It'll always come slowly, day by day. Moment to moment. thereforeeee whatever is now is the future- if you live it that way. Moment to moment. You are making it right now. ^_^ One lesson I've learned is to not give up on people. Give them the chance to hear what you think and feel. Be strong enough to listen to their reply, be ready. Most of all, don't give up on yourself when it comes to love, to anything. If you had something stronger with him at one point in time, it can always be rekindled...love is like the light on a candle. It flickers from time to time, but you can see it's strong when it lasts through the darkness: the darkness of your moods, insecurities as well as his. Speaking of which, sometimes when I'm feeling a certain way about my boyfriend, I've learned (by opening up) that he's been feeling the same way. My gut feeling is usually sharing his worries because we're that close. But you can't always follow your gut feeling. You have to follow your heart.

and do that too, I'd say also! It's good to articulate and communicate yourself in such a manner that you don't overload with emotions- but with reason. That was a snide comment to make- not one a boyfriend should get away with too often. (he needs you to give him a spanking)

You're holding on too tightly. Let go your grip a little. You can make someone come to you by giving them enough space to. Let it go and focus on yourself- do you love yourself? Because this could be a reflection. You believe others don't love you enough only because you don't love yourself enough. Don't wait on others to tell you that you are smart- "reaffirm" this yourself. You're gut feeling is this: you're with a guy who doesn't make you feel better about yourself enough. Instead, at times, he makes you feel worse- even if he's just joking. I think this has more to do with your own insecurities. Let them go and walk and love with confidence no matter what. Life is short. Whatever happens happens. It'll be alright. So don't hold onto it so tightly.

Don't be overemotional about it when it's obviously unnessary. Simply tell him that you don't like that. Done deal. No need to dwelve into questions about whether he really thinks of you that way (although it's okay to admit that it makes you concerned)

Sometimes, I don 't like a song until I see the music video. That's the same with the Fray song.

Relationships can go to all sorts of places. I'd like to view it as Nelly Furtado does in the song, "In God's Hands." (even though I find her music strange)

We've all been there. You can recognize the pain. Please watch and tell me what it makes you think/feel. Spencer Emotionless-this is a song called Emotionless by Good Charlotte. When I was younger, I listened to it a lot when my dad moved in with my "stepmom" Elaine, leaving me and my mom. It was hard on me to go over to his house. Yeah...I used to listen to his song a lot. The music video to this is alright. It was the best video I could find that matched the song. There were some weird ones. Anyways, another song to close your eyes to, I think. Here's an anime one if ya want! > kouichi emotionless his dad (it's confusing, but I guess cute)

Difficult to understand. It seems like you tried really hard on that one, and you know what? That shows through because it takes hard work to read into it. Next time, just let whatever comes flow through. Don't let your writing be so controlled. Let your writing control YOU. ^_^

You weren't exactly asking for advice about this, but I'll give ya some anyway! I am sleepless when I am physically or emotionally or socially discontent. It takes a very comfortable bed, a unique pillow that I got from my chiropractor, no light, just silence. I have to hold something beside me and put a pillow between my legs. However, I still toss and turn in a light sleep throughout the night. But I have found that when I am holding someone else or they are holding me, I stay still for them. I fall asleep almost automatically when this happens.

You tell us.

link removed I've never tried this before ^ but after I read this post, I came accross it.

I think this relates to a lot of your fascinations- about supernatural and fantasy stuff that I've seen from you. Yet you're interested in a light hearted way which is why they were pleasant around you and gave you lots of food! The fight with the girl may have been you fighting with a seemingly feminime side inside you, a need for intense experiences through emotion that rules what you try. I guess in your life, you've made peace with that- balanced it out finally to where you are less extreme in that area? That's why you and the girl made up and you smiled. You understand more now and are happy...even a little carefree. Your mother shows up in your reflection and then around you- but only her head? are you afraid of being like her, in a mind- brain- mental way? Like, to think like her would lead you to be weirded out by voices and faces who seem dead or not real. It's not scary to you though because you were around them for a long time, so from the previous part of the dream, you feel you know what to expect and aren't that scared of what you once assumed life would bring you. You let it go on some level. You let go fear. Of your mom and the dead, whatever they represent. That's my interprentation! It's based on what I know of you

I didn't want it to end. It pulled at me.

Siraf, that's cute what you did! I think she takes herself too seriously. My mom would have laughed and gone, "oh you caught me..alright...then...bye."

Shh! He listens. He watches. He knows. shhhhhhh

I want one that will tickle my nipples. Know what I mean? Like em small. and furry! (don't mind me- in a weird state of mind right now...sparkles everywhere kinda thing. Like, OH so bright- but how to reach them? actually they're getting in my eye. kinda annoying. I cant see anymore- i am blinded!) yeah, like i said- weird state of mind right now. Weird...it's all...so...weird...

I thought we ended I thought I lost You but now You're lifting me up High in the air Makes me cry when I notice That you're really there Cradeling my head As I start to cry You think I'm depressed But it's all the love I've held inside So much was repressed And then undressed, naked my soul became Again Revealed and vulnerable Under the stars I long to stay with you I see and remember who you are Do you see me too? The game's not over My life's not done He came back for me Even though I'd given up He came back for me After a phone call Now that we're together I'll never let us fall

I think you are overreacting and making a big deal of it in your post, however being reminded constantly of someone you have or had a bond with is normal once you've parted with them. Say this to yourself, "This reminds me of my ex, but so what? I'll get over that when I get over her." In conclusion, this is a temporary thing. There's no reason to be so conflicted within or to want to fight it so much. It's your chance to reminisce happily as a way of moving on. It's okay to cry a little. Deal with it healthily: try not to stress yourself out.

I was talkin to Rozi! But yes, you too! But no, I do not really have a monkey. Thanks a lot for bringing down my day and hopes and all my dreams. Hope you're happy now. -sniff-

I'm just a girl seeking God in her life everyday, I ask for help and guidance everyday. I sometimes whisper "thank you" before I go to sleep at night. Nonetheless, not much signs are given to me- only when I'm reallly down do these things happen, when I'm really giving up. Things become okay again somehow if I am patient. Answers come subtly to me in my everyday life yet I often overlook them as an answer to my prayers...because many times I forget my prayers. Then, when I'm reminded of a past and deep one, I think to myself, "oh wow. It was answered more and more over the year. I didn't even realize." This is what I think though: even if there's not a God, there's something. Something spiritual there- some force I do not understand at work in this strange world.

You comment on everything. If I said, "cheeseballs are just irreplacable" or "my monkey likes to dance" in this poetry section, would ye reply?

I have. I felt a lot of grief and guilt about her. I'm not as afraid anymore. My panic attacks are gone. Plus I've been happier since I reunited with the love of my life, DAN DAN! So yeah...

If you miscommunicate or become unloving or careless- that's an oops. If you cheat, that is like a screaming, crying energy that you feed the one you tell. Still, the truth sets us free. I'd rather be free from the person cheating on me- even if it took a while to get over them. The only way to be free is to know. thereforeeee- to know is always better than not to know. It gets you moving on faster. -Because cheating is too big of a sign that the relationship is not what it used to be. Perhaps in holding onto it too tightly, your grip lessened again very suddenly to release the feeling of strain that you and the other individual caused. Meaning- it was emotionally ending for both or one party before the cheating even occurred. To keep holding onto something that is at it's end is to lie to yourself.

That's how I always act towards my mom. I do everything to try to be pleasing and perfect for my boyfriend though- in loving ways, not uptight ones...just because he is more outside of my everyday life so we get into our own world when together (thereforeeee he is my escape and release- making him automatically a higher priority to me than my mom obviously is). It sounds to me like your partner's worth to you may be the same- but how they entertain and give escape to you has lessened. It could be time to do some fun things with them. (or romance them a little more than usual to get back the spark) This person's wellbeing needs to be a higher priority and I can see from this post that you're trying to make it one. Maybe you are not sharing YOURSELF enough and your own thoughts about your day. Perhaps a subconscious jealousy (of them being so open and you not feeling as able to be) is causing this carelessness with your words and tone. Maybe your snide comments do come from the fact that you are not truly listening to the individual. I would start there, on listening to who they are and being patient enough to become more and more interested. It's like- some people who we are so comfortable with, we also tend to leave less and less room for in our lives (and like I said, less of a priority to charm them and comfort them) because you trust so much that they're always going to be there. You stop really listening to them because you feel like you have them. Well, reality is that we don't have anyone- we can't have people. Love is always the attempt of having a person, if you think about it. Once you stop attempting, you lose them more and more until they're gone. Go on some real dates. Do some fun and unique things. Try to get the spark back> and maybe that will spark your interest again (haha) Maybe you take yourself too seriously and your partner not enough.