lostNheartbroken

The best things in life come at a high price right? I met a girl last summer who I was attracted to, but more so than ever before in my life with any girl before. I had just come out of a 3 year relationship from age 16-19. This girl was from Europe and had to go back when her visa expired. I kept in touch with her via email through the fall, winter, and spring. I asked her last summer when I was with her if she had a boyfriend. She told me she did not. Stupid naive me believed that and thereforeeee let myself accumulate a lot of feelings for her I otherwise wouldn't. I always find out if a girl is in a relationship and if she is, I do not try to come between it. So this summer she comes back and we meet. She works a lot and we see each other 1-3 times per week. As of when she came back the only thing I'd ever done with her is give her a small kiss when she left. When she came back I didn't try to kiss her for the first month, nothing, we just went out and had a great time with no physical activity whatsoever. I just feel my absolute best when I'm with her. So on her 21st birthday we're sitting on the beach having a serious discussion. She tells me she has something she has to tell me, but she's afraid I will hate her if she tells me. I ask her what, and she says, "Last summer you asked if I had boyfriend, I told you I didn't, but I did, I had a boyfriend back home, but when I went back after meeting you things were very different". She goes on with, "Last summer I was here by myself, but this year, my boyfriend came too, he ended up coming here with me". I didn't really say anything for the rest of the night, just sat and thought and she looked upset. After thinking about it over the next week I figured that to prevent myself from being heartbroken once again I had to end it. I picked her up as I had said I would the week before from work. I took her down to the boardwalk and had a talk with her. I spilled my guts and told her I couldn't see her because if I continued to see her I knew I would fall in love with her. She looked upset and we went through the whole life is so complicated etc. this was her first boyfriend and they'd been together for 5 years. She said it was so hard to break up with him because her parents loved him, they had been together so long, and she felt bad leaving him here for another man. She went on to say she felt like she loved me more, as things had changed after last summer. Fastforwarding a month ahead to now. We've gone out every chance we have, I guess it hadn't sunk in fully what was happening. She calls me here at work almost every night when she gets off work, and I'm in love with her. Even in my 3 year relationship with the girl I "was" going to marry I never felt like I do towards this girl, really. I mean just little things, like when I look at her I just want to go buy her the most beautiful dress to look stunning in, corny little things like that along with so much more. Now when we see each other we end up making out for hours, haven't had sex, she's not going to as long as she's with her boyfriend. At the same time I have a handfull of girls who think I'm just the greatest thing and want to date me and are beautiful, but I just think about the girl in the relationship. I mean it's so complicated and I really don't know what I'm doing with her. She's from a different culture and where she's from the women don't leave their men, it's looked down on and she's kinda scared of her parents. She's said several times that she wants to move with me, I'm moving in 2 months...but it's not guaranteed. I'm really distressed and though I know there are plenty of women out there I'm just stuck on this one...I don't even look at other girls, I have no interest...I feel broken, confused, and like my heart has been yanked and smashed. Everyone who knows me says I'm the kindest person they know, the most handsom, etc, but it's a curse, I'm not interested in any girls except 1. When I'm with her I feel complete, I have more energy than I've had in years, I think differently, and I try to be the best person I can. I treat her like my little princess, only she's someone elses little princess. When I think about her boyfriend I feel empty and don't want to see her, but after thinking about not seeing her I feel as though I'd miss the best thing in my life. Anyone have a helpfull hint or some advice? It's affecting more than my emotions as I need to move for a business endeavor, but I feel so empty when I think about leaving her.

What makes women so cruel? Here's my story. Last summer I met this amazing girl who was here from a small country next to russia called belarus. I went out with this girl several times and every time I found myself so happy and falling for this girl. She went back to her country and we kept in touch through email. Three weeks ago she came back here and called me. We met and went out together on our days off. Things have been perfect, but I've felt something strange. I tried to kiss her one night and I found myself kissing dead lips, she didn't kiss back. Confusion is all I can say to explain what I felt. So I've never made another pass at her since. Friday was her 21st birthday and she spent it with me, I gave her flowers, took her out for a night on the town and we had a wonderful time. As the night was winding down to an end we found ourselves sitting together on the sand at the beach with the waves coming up to our feet and things were perfect. Then she said she had something but she felt I'd hate her if she told me. I was curious since I don't hate anyone, and why would I hate this girl who I dreamt about nightly? So, she goes on and says, "Last summer you asked if I had a boyfriend, and I said no," I respond with, "mm..hmm...?". So she goes on to tell me that she does have a boyfriend, she's been with him for 6 years and this year he is here with her and actually the apartment I'd just picked her up from is where they live together..... She went on to tell me that he was her only boyfriend and 2 years ago she was so in love with him, but after last summer (with me) things changed, when she went back to him things were different, and she said now, when she thinks of him, she feels nothing. Needless to say my world was shattered, my heart taken from me, and my emotions set astirr. I didn't really say much after that, I just sat and watched the waves crash and thought about 1 million different things. We walked and before getting to the car I took her on another rollercoaster hoping it would lighten my mood. I took her home and she asked if I'd pick her up the next day (saturday). I told her maybe. And of course when the next day rolled around I did go pick her up. I wouldn't let myself get down throughout the entire time we spent together. While on my boat, I brought up her boyfriend and said, "You have a boyfriend, what the heck, I was so sad when you told me you had a boyfriend". She looked at me and said, "It's not good? You want me to be your girlfriend?" and I said "Yes," and she said jokingly, "well I could have 2 boyfriends," then she said, "No, I'm a good girl, but things will change". Today she wanted to go fishing so I took her out in my boat and we caught some fish and took a boat ride out to the dolphins and watched them jump around the boat for a while, then I took her to my house, cleaned the fish and cooked them for her for dinner. After, we went and played put put golf and I took her home. She wants to see me tomorrow when she gets off work. But I'm not so sure... I don't think it's good for me to spend all my free time with her, because when I drop her off at night, she has someone to come home to, but when I get home I have no one, and I want someone. Do I tell her this or just stop seeing her? I'm so confused I don't know what to do. It's so strange because when I'm with her, I'll look at her and she's already looking at me, then we both smile and laugh and look at each other again, then look away. We have a mutual friend and last summer when she left she emailed him saying she was in love with me but she didn't know me too well and was scared maybe I would turn out to not be nice. I can see where she'd be trying to get to know me as best she can before dumping her boyfriend, since they have been together so long I'm sure anyone in that situation would be scared to give up something they know(current bf) for something so uncertain, such as me. This is just the tip of the iceburg, but I'd rather not bore everyone, so I think this should be enough. For those of you who have been in a similar situation, any advice for the amorous individual such as myself? Is it better to continue a relationship with her in hopes that she'll be mine or do I just go look for someone else? This isn't just an ordinary girl, she's wife material. But I can't wait forever....

As I wander down this path of life in search of a mate I've found nothing but disapointment. I've been spending all my time trying to meet potential girlfriends. Each day I go out and initiate conversation with every young lady I can, this turns into around 5 phone numbers daily of girls who can hang out in the near future. Usually only 2 of the 5 don't flake out. Of the ones that do come through, they turn out to be nothing more than sloppy seconds. I mean girls who sleep with 2-3+ different guys each week regularly. I love having sex, but with these girls who are "easy" I have no interest, if a girl has sex with me within hours of our meeting I just think of all the other guys who've been so "lucky" as myself. My friend set me up with this girl who he said was a senior and 18 year old, Im 20, and I went out with her for a few weeks. Finally she told me she was only 15 and I was shocked and told her she needed to date people her own age, as will I. I like her a lot, but she's more of a little sister than future wife, and yesterday I find out that over the weekend she had a threesome with my friend and his girlfriend. Man... So, to counter my disressing situation I take a lot of drugs (herb, powder, scramble, crack, you name it), but now I'm feeling really burned out both mentally and physically. I'm usually the most outgoing, spontaneous, charismatic, sweetest, laid back guy who everyone loves, girls always tell me I'm so cute, gentle or hilarious. Older ladies always say I look like Donny Osmond, girls my age say I look like George Clooney. I'm also a big dork. Am I wishing for too much to want a girl who hasn't "been around" this day in age? By "been around" I mean slept with more men than the number of years in their age? Or is it no big deal?

I'm 6'4 and for me height doesn't have anything to do with the way I feel towards a girl. If she's as fun and spontaneous as myself, what's height matter? Heck, I'd date a midget if we hit it off. I'm skinny and hairy, I'm not going to judge someone for something they can't control.

Thanks for each of your imput. I never really thought about the danger side of things girls are faced with. I'm the most gentle kind person to everyone regardless of appearance, age, race, social class, and I love to experience life. I'm really shy when it comes to initiating conversation with strangers so I was actually proud of myself I built up the courage to just stop and offer a ride to 2 beautiful young women. I'm usually so terrified of rejection I don't take chances, and this rejection just really hurt. I never really thought of a fishing trip as anything more than a fishing trip. Today I took my friend's girlfriend out fishing all day and we had a blast, caught tons of fish and it was great. Usually, if I'm in my boat and I see people fishing from shore I'll pull up and invite them to go out. Even today, I pulled into my boat slip and took the fish to the cleaning table. A kid who I've seen fishing from shore several times came up and watched me clean the fish, I started talking to him and tomorrow we're going out fishing. He's 14, we're in a beach town designed around having fun and thats what I'm doing. If I spent all my time worrying about getting laid I'd probably feel pretty crummy. The biggest thing that really gets my blood boiling is guys who keep pushing girls into situations they don't want to be in. Even my friends sometimes push things too far and I stop and tell them, in front of everyone, "dude, back the bleep off". Even last week we were hanging out with some guys in their 40's who were drunk. A girl my friend knows was walking by so he called her over. She came over and one drunk guy said, "I remember you from the bushes", the girl said, "Okie dokie...you guys have fun" she then turned and walked away. Needless to say this guy had more than a hangover the next day...multiple aches and pains due to the way he was removed from the property. I respect others as I assume they will me. I was just really bummed about being rejected. But hey, someone who likes me will come along sometime and I'll have other things to think about...

Hey guys/gals, I have a question about women. Last night I was cruising around town with my friend and we saw 2 beautiful (stunning) young women walking so I pulled up to them and asked if they'd like a ride. They're from out of town and wanted to find a liquer store at 1:30am to buy some jack daniels. At first they seemed really surprised and didn't really want to get in because they didn't know us. Finally, Booka the lab puppy in my backseat caught their attention and they decided to ride. So we introduced ourselves, talked about where we're from, what our majors are in college etc. After stopping off at the liquer store I drove them to where they were staying. On the way back they asked us for our phone numbers and gave us theirs. They're down here for the weekend and we talked about going out in my boat today. They were pretty stoked. In their parking lot we said our goodbyes, the older girl (they were sisters) said, "Ok guys, I'd invite you up to our place but we just met you", to which I replied, "Gotcha, no problem, you girls have a great night and enjoy the jack daniels". We talked about hanging out while they're down here to which they seemed genuinly interested. So today, I give them a call, I get the younger sister, I say, "Hi, this is (my name) from last night". A really cheery voice says, "Oh hi! How are you"? Then she asks what my friend and I are doing. I told her my friend was working on his truck and I was just hanging out. I asked what she was doing and if she wanted to go out in the boat (as we'd talked about last night). She said they were shopping (imagine that), then she asked her sister, how long you think we'll be? She then said they'd be about 2 more hours and asked if we'd like them to give us a call when they finished. So 3 hours go by and my friend gives them a call. No answer. Hmm we wonder... So we go about our day and a couple hours later give them a call again. No answer...So a couple hours later we decide to just go out ourselves. When we're out in the boat we decide one last attempt. We give them a call and again no answer. I can take a hint...but wtf. Why do girls ask for your number and volunteer theirs if they aren't interested????? I mean, if they'd have just said "Sorry, not interested, or no we don't want to hang out" or something along those lines I wouldn't waste my time thinking about them and planning my day around taking them out. I understand it's easier to avoid than confront, but common...

Hey man, the gym and diet is about the only thing that will help. I too have the same problem and last summer went to the doctor to see if he could slow my metabolism down. He said to go to the gym. I've gained 15 pounds so far. I'm 6'4 and used to weigh 140...now I'm up to 155. I eat more than my obese friends but nothing happens...

I'm into everything outdoors especially on the water. This girl scuba dives, I scuba dive, this girl loves boats, I love boats, this girl loves surfing, I love surfing. Last summer she went on a road trip with her friend down the coast to florida on a surf trip. Just her and her friend. I'd say that's no typical 15 year old girl. However, our relationship will be as friends at least until she's older. Blew my mind, I never even thought to card girls, just thought if things seemed right there wouldn't be a problem. If she hadn't told me she was so young I'd never have believed it.

Actually I went to college after I turned 16. I just turned 20 and have been a landlord since I was 18(2 single family homes I bought and rented out). Most of my friends are upwards of 30 and one just had his 45th birthday, once again, this was a first and at 17 I was wigging out. I know it's wrong, but I wanted to hear other people's opinions...I've tried everything once, except this, wanted to know if anyone actually had a successful relationship in a similar situation. Obviously she's still developing and will be a different person 3 years from now from what she is today.

I've been hanging out with my friend and his girlfriend lately. My friend is 19 and his girlfriend is 16 which is the age to consent in my state. Anyways, we're hanging out and his girlfriend brings her friend over and my friend tells me she's 17 and wants to meet me. So we hang out and have a great time, a really great girl who has a lot going upstairs. We had everything in common, I mean everything. I just turned 20 in feb. I wasn't sure about the age difference and even said several times I wasn't sure how it'd work with her being younger. I've been out with her several times and we've been talking on the phone every day. I've been so happy. Everything she says is what I'm thinking and I've never connected with anyone like this. She's not a super model, but I thought she was quite a catch. So last night she calls me. She tells me her friend (my friends g/f) told her that my friend told me this girl's 17. She started off saying that wasn't exactly true, in fact, she's only 15! OMG Looking at her as a 17 year old I was falling for her big time. Why is life so complicated? I'm not some sick pervert who tries to get with little girls, in fact I haven't dated anyone under 21 in over 2 years so this has been quite a shock. I really dig her, 5 years from now this would be no problem, 100 years ago this would have been no problem, today, it is a problem. Anyone been in my shoes before? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.

I just met this really awsome girl but not sure what to make of her exactly. She's the first younger girl I've ever wanted to date. Actually, I haven't dated any girls under age 21 in 2 years, I'm 20 and this girl is 17. She's just as dorky as me in her own unique way and I've never had so much in common with anyone I've met before. She's not a super model but I'm totally stoked with her as her attitude and personality more than equal things out. So anyhow, I met her through my friends girlfriend, we've hung out a couple times and things have gone great. For some reason though, things are moving snail pace slow. My friends girlfriend is good friends with her and tells me that my girl is always talking about me to her at school, about how great I am and so on...but however, yesterday when I laid out a super gentle kiss on her she kissed bacK, lips moving, I felt a little bit of tongue, then she kinda just stopped and I stopped. Then when I took her home she gave me a 3 millisecond peck on the lips and told me she wanted to hang out this weekend, we made plans to take my boat out and chill. She lets off these subtle hints that make me think she's diggin me, but not sure. She seems somewhat distant...physically that is, mentally we're rockin. So what's up?

All my ex girlfriends are older than me. After breaking up with my high school sweety I took time off from dating and just kept falling into older women. Havent dated anyone under 21 in a couple years, I'm 20 now. I usually look for intellectual women.

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Forgot a couple other key points about this girl. She gave me gonorrhea, then 2 months ago before we broke up she gave me trick. I've only had sex with 2 girls in my entire freaking life and this girl just kept bringin the diseases home. Ever seen anything quite like this?????????? I'm so bitter I won't trust another female for as long as I live.

Hi all, I've posted a few messages on here about my ex. She used me and it took me 6 weeks to find out the truth. I took her on a trip accross the country, spent lots of money on her, made her the center of my world for 6 months and what did I get out of it? Her ex roommate is my good friend and he told me what a slut she was. He said I almost caught her one time, I called her when she was having sex with another guy, she booted him out and I came over 10 minutes later and never suspected anything. He told me for a 3 week period she had a different guy over each night, and even some nights 2 or 3 different guys. This is at the same time I was doing everything for her! My friend said he was going to have a talk with me but at the time it looked like we were breaking up anyway. I really felt over this girl but just finding out that everything I had with her was a lie makes me mad. She owes me money and I have all the film from our road trip which I paid every cent of. Drowning in despair, all doped up, I went to her work yesterday to let her know she owes me money, she will pay me money, and she has no right to the pictures from the trip, she wasn't faithful to me, and she used me. When we got back from the month long trip I got her home in the early evening. She went out clubbing and brought a guy home and had sex with him 2 hours after we just got back from our trip!!!! I told her she was a parasite, a slut, and some other things. I was really doped up and it was the first time I actually stood up to her and didn't believe her lies. Now I don't know what to do. No contact other than to go get my money she owes me. I just want to delete the last 7 months from my life. I want to delete her from my life.

Going down on a girl I love is my favorite thing in the whole world. I love it. First time was with my first girlfriend. We dated for some 7 months, both of us virgins, then one night on my couch she had a skirt on and I kissed down her body, then from her calf up the inside of her leg to her ___. The only reason I can see for not wanting to do it is if there's maybe an odor, which I've come accross myself before, try taking a shower and washing well with soap prior to having your b/f go down. My favorite part is the twitching and the sounds and watching my girl get off. And the girls LOVE it. I guess it really depends on the guy.

I was in your exact situation last october. You should be stressing. In my situation I ended up with gonorrhea. This was only my second girl I'd had sex with in my entire life, it's an eye opener. This girl looked exactly like paris hilton, was super nice, very beautiful, I never dreamt she'd have an std. I ended up taking the girl to get the morning after pill. We dated for 6 months afterwards (I'm a moron who likes to help people). Even after treating the std I still have pains in my genitals...wear a damn condom...nothing hurts more than getting a chlamidia/gonorrhea test, q-tip down your penis for 30 seconds... Another thing to remember, it takes 6 months for hiv/aids to show up on the std test, so always wear a condom, I have to go in sometime this month to get my hiv test, it was my mistake and I hope I've paid enough for it already.

My ex girlfriend has been with more girls than me, in long term relationships as well as short term. When I asked which she liked more, men or women, she couldn't decide. She said women know exactly how to please a woman and she said it is the exact same feeling towards a woman as towards a guy... It's no biggy to fool around with other girls if you're a girl, most guys will actually find it exciting.

Just have a question for all you young ladies out there. I live in a beach town and in another month there will be thousands of beautiful girls walking around here. I was thinking of buying some flowers individually wrapped, driving around until I see a few nice looking ladies, walk up to them, introduce myself, tell them they are beautiful and give them a flower. Then depending on their reaction take things from there. Sound too desperate? I'm not really desperate, I just thought it would be really different. I guess the success of this would rely on my appearance and how I handle things. Yay or nay on the cornometer?

I've had the exact same problem. Is it all or nothing, or do you find some median. In my situation, I think I need to forget about her and find a new relationship, then if I have a solid relationship with someone else, I not only won't get jealous over the exe's new b/f, but I'll be confident and I think that the friendship between the ex then would be a really solid friendship. Going from lovers to just friends in 1 day is just too frustrating when you still love the other person.

omg, forgive my grammar please, seriously hung over...

I just want to say I've never felt so confused in my entire life. My ex g/f dumped me 2 weeks ago, I waited 2 days, we hung out for couple hours, then we didn't talk for 1 week. Wednesday afternoon she calls me and asks if I can help her move. At this point I really miss her so I volunteer. I go over, things are fine, we pack things up, joke, hang out and things feel really good. I noticed many times when we were laughing she'd look at me like she used to when she wanted to kiss me, and I could see her trying to restrain herself. Finally I don't remember why, but we were wrestling around with her girlfriend and my ex had her lips less than an inch from mine so I let her have it, she paused, then gave me one of the best tongueless kisses ever. She asked why I never came to see her, I told her because she dumped me "hence" that's usually a sign to stay away...all these I took as good signs and I felt great, best I'd felt since breaking up. Then come over the guys, 5 guys come over looking for the girls with arms full of cases of beer. The girls tell the guys they're moving and can't hang out so the guys leave. Yesterday I, thinking that maybe after the day before the ex may want to hang out, she'd mentioned it the night before head on over. So I'm driving and as I get close to her house 2 of the guys from the night before are walking down the girls street. They didn't know which house was the girls, just the street, so they were looking. I stopped and talked with them, we burned a fatty then went to the girls house. We made plans to go to these guy's apartment. Couple hours later we're hanging out at these guys apartment and the entire night the ex doesn't look or talk with me. Later in the night she's all into it with one of the guys roommates who just came over in the middle of the party from jail, was in jail for the last month...a little earlier we were walking and the guy from jail and I were talking and he was talking about how awsome the girls are and how there's enough to go around if I just hang out for a little bit and he's saying all this s*** that really bothers me. At the same time when we get back to the apartment, he's all over my ex, and she's thinking he's genuine. I really don't understand how 2 days could be so different. One day there was mass attraction, the next day I just feel like a total and complete moron. Is this the typical relationship after breaking up????????????? I feel sad now and really wish I had just stayed away from her. I don't think I should try to see her again, what do you guys think?

Thank you for all your posts. Yesterday I saw her because I needed to get the 16 rolls of film from our trip. I usually have great perception and can nail people's personalities after watching them, but love is blind, I really did confront her many times asking whats up, telling her that I had never seen a girl act like this in any relationship. She'd respond by letting me know I was foolish. This is the second gold digger I've been with. I'm really bummed out. I feel really heartbroken because she was the most important thing in my life and now she isn't. I also feel used, which actually helps me because I can try to talk myself out of feeling for her. The biggest problem is I moved here to OC Maryland with her and I don't know 1 person here other than her. I really would have married her if the border patrol had caught her on our trip (yea she's illegal). The one thing that kept me from marrying her is I own a couple houses (3 bdrm, and 2 bedroom) which I rent out, have a decent car and boat (paid for) and had that thought that maybe that's what she was after. I saw her yesterday and she acted all yippy skippy towards me, and says she'll call me, but she never will. She never did when we were dating. Thanks for your posts, I feel a bit better after letting all this out. Wish you guys the best.

Anytime you have a person in a relationship forbid you from doing something you don't have a relationship at all. People are free, even in a relationship either person can end it at any time, there is no early termination fee, other than broken hearts. There is a difference if he sees you kissing other guys or flirting with other guys in front of him, then he has a right to ask whats up, but not forbid...you are right.

My life just made a drastic change yesterday when my girlfriend whom I love more than anything in my life informed me she didn't feel for me as a man she wants to be with romantically, but rather a friend. This after 6 months together and a 16,000 mile road trip accross the entire united states. I should mention this girl was russian, and I am american. As it turns out, for the past two weeks, she has been trying to make me hate her so I would end it and we wouldn't feel as bad. Unfortunately, I cant take a hint and instead my heart has been ripped out of my body, replaced, ripped out, and so on. It turns out I was used. She liked to be with me because I would buy her things, take her on trips, take her out in my boat, too many things to list. I was (am) madly in love with this girl, thereforeeee I always tried to see her or talk with her. Instead, around 3-4 nights every week she would go to different clubs and come home around 9:00 the next morning. This was the beginning to our end I believe. She was upset when I said I couldn't be friends with her for a while. If I still love someone and have those feelings people in love have, I can't just instantly drop my feelings and go from lover to friend. Up until she dumped me she was my best friend, but she was also the woman in my life. Won't it just make me feel worse if I'm instantly on friend status before I've let my feelings for her go, and she's with other guys in front of me? Anyhow, I was the only person trying to have this relationship, I see that now, before yesterday I wouldn't accept it. She never said anything to me about not being happy or anything, she just made herself unavailable, which led me to be confused and hurt because then she'd act like I was foolish for thinking she didn't want to be with me. Our breakup yesterday was something quite strange. We took a walk on the beach, sat in the sand, held each other and broke up. She cried the entire time, held me and we talked. Of course I didn't feel the full force of the breakup until she left my car and went in her house. Now I really have a bad image in my mind of women. They talk about how they want a nice guy, and how bad all the men they've been with are, yet when you are that dream guy, after a few months it seems you build their self esteam back up and the drop you for the same guys. I really am disgusted with people. People are ruthless, they take advantage of people for their own gain, they lack compassion, they make other people not want to live, while they don't feel pain, or remorse. I really don't see a reason to go through this, when is something not worth while? I believe its when the bad outweighs the good, is there not more bad on this planet (in this life) than good? I really don't like to do anything now, none of the things which were important in my life have any meaning now. I'm empty, I'm broken, and I'm done...