GalaxyC

All men think that thin women are better.....every single man in the world would pick mischa barton over dawn french....it's obvious. And that means I am not attractive to anyone. Hence why I am alone and why guys just try to have sex with me and then leave......sex is sex for every single man I have ever been with...they put up with my fat and ugliness because they're getting their leg over. But they never tell their mates about it. they keep it a secret, never call and ignore that it ever happened.

I don't think so.

Well, no one finds me attractive or pretty so I must be ugly, unattractive and obese.

What does having a car have to do with attractiveness? I have never got this?..

It depends on who's giving it.....If it's a guy I like I react sarcastically...If's it a friend guy then I react sarcastically +thankyou. If it's a girlfriend I generally seek more reassurance...i.e. are you sure? or really? or whatever.....

I put my profile on link removed two months ago and I've had over a thousand views,50 odd winks, and about 20 e'mails. Have you got your photo on match? Not that mine is any good or anything but people take more notice of profiles with a pic.

See that was my question....when does it stop being curves and start being fat? Magazines call size 10-12 curvy but is that curvy or skinny? What is curvy? What is skinny? And what is fat? I would love to be a size 10....I consider a size 10 skinny....but if that's what people consider curvey then I must be obese.....

When I was at uni I was in love with my best friend ( a guy). He, on the other hand fancied one of my friends (who had a boyfriend). Whenever he needed an ego boost he would call me and like a fool I would go running and fawn all over him. I felt like utter rubbish for two years....I self harmed, I drank too much....whatever. It's horrible. Do NOT accept it!

you're lucky......I can't even make myself orgasm

I have friends but I don't have anyone I can call up and go out with for coffee/lunch/just to hang out. They all have boyfriends and other friends. If I happen to be off at the weekends I spend it on my own. I never go out unless there's a specific organised night like someones birthday. I wish I had someone to do things with. But I don't. So I just sit at home, watch tv and get drunk.

Sometimes you can work as hard as you possibly can to change and better something and yet you never think you can get there......

Then I would suggest going to hospital now. Just to get yourself checked out. For piece of mind.

I have been into the medical field since I was young. I used to read my mothers first aid books cover to cover regularly just for fun when I was young. I do my dream job now. It took me years of hard work and perseverence to get here and I don't plan on doing anything else.

powerful motivators.....that is so true...when I worked as an auxiliary nurse a particular incident happened which really pushed me to this job and more responsibility. One of our patients was in respiratory distress but it seemed I was the only one who realised or believed it....I asked two nurses, one senior nurse and a doctor to look at him and the dr basically said that he was making it up. I knew he wasn't because I'd spent time with him and KNEW him. 2 hours later he was ventilated and he died 24 hours later. I was devastated. I know I am in the right job for me. This is what I do. What I've always done. I do have a good network of friends in the same position and when we get together we get everything out but I guess I'm not very good at phoning to ask someone to talk with me. I remember my first deceased care....washing the body ect...on the ward. It was strange....I know exactly how you feel. Touching them.....you can feel them getting colder and you feel like you should say something to them even though they obviously can't hear you. I used to put a flower inbetween the sheet and the plastic just as a small gesture you know? Now, out in the field, all we have are blankets. I know that tomorow I 'll feel better about it and on thursday I'm meeting up with my friends so I'll talk about it then. I think it's more because it was my first you know? Once you've had the first of something it somehow gets easier. Thanks for replying to me. It helps to know that someone really understands.

Go to hospital now. Don't wait until tomorrow. The sooner you get treated the sooner you will start feeling better. Is your baby normally pretty active?

I'm doing my paramedic training. I do love this job but I find that the horrid jobs play on my mind a lot. Maybe it's just because I've not been in the job too long.....a year and a half. Before that I was a nursing auxiliary and saw my fair share of deaths but it was different somehow then. Maybe after a few more years I'll be able to deal with it better you know? Right now I suppose I'm, dealing with all my "firsts"......first fatal rta, first cardiac arrest in the field, first peadiatric arrest, first unconscious child, first maternity and so on and so on. I guess it just gets a bit overwhelming at times. I'm sure that in a few years I'll be much better able at dealing with these things. I'm naturally a very caring person and I do get upset at things but I think that only helps me more in this job. It's almost a distraction from my own problems you know?

That's all very well but I have more than most.

Try to stick to natural sugar in fruit rather than artificial sugar in cakes/sweets ect.

I did a night shift last night. One job was a fatal RTA. My first. I keep seeing his face when I close my eyes. He was no more than 50 years old. That's still pretty young. He was the passenger.....the driver was his daughters boyfriend. He had bad facial and head injuries. The boyfriend was drunk apparently. Why do people do that? It causes so much pain. It was on a straight road. People think it's okay to do it but it's not. It's really not. Horrible things happen and that guy has now killed his girlfriends dad and seriously injured himself. At the time I just get on with it and do what I supposed to do. It's only afterwards that I start to think about it and see it and wonder. It took us 20 minutes to get there......you always think what if? what if we got there quicker? Sometimes at work I think "my god I'm a heartless ", but then when I get home and start to relax I get really emotional. I know it's okay to cry for your patients but I wonder sometimes if I am really going to be able to handle this job. I've had a few times where I've choked up at jobs and had to force myself not to cry. And then I feel bad because I'm supposed to be professional and crying isn't professional is it.

Maybe it wasn't passionate because he didn't push your buttons? When you find a guy that you fancy enough the urge to kiss him will overtake your fears so don't stress so much ok?

I've been thinking about this for a little while and my answer is that I'd like to think that I would. When I'm in a relationship I try to be relaxed, chilled out, not jealous, possessive or clingy and so on. But then I know that I have weird issues.....like a phobia of getting pregnant (a huge phobia), issues with my body/weight/self image, I'm crap at sex but pretty good at foreplay, I don't take compliments well, I don't talk about my feelings, I can't orgasm, I get moody sometimes, I'm bossy.......the list goes on.....so when I look at that list I'd probably run a mile.

Love is a funny thing.....sometimes you heart defies your brain and falls for the person you shouldn't. There's nothing to feel foolish about. It happens that way sometimes. But hey, you recognise that it wasn't the best idea and you're being brave and strong and trying to move on, so really, you're doing great.

I was asking for personal reasons. Not to make anyone else feel bad. In future I'll refrain from starting posts. Thanks for your support.

There's nothing wrong with wanting a bit of attention now and then.

I had a friend like Ann when I was your daughters age. Her mother was a freak and was constantly throwing her out of the house, yelling at her and so on. She always called me and my mum (and my dad) on occasions always drove me over to collect her and bring her back to our house. She stayed overnight a lot, we fed her, she wore my clothes, she used our facilities, our phone to speak to her mum......everything. My dad didn't necessarily like it but he accepted it because she was my best friend and trusted me to make my own judgement and decisions. I also had a friend, a boy, who lived on the "wrong side of town", with a dysfunctional family and he smoked, took drugs and didn't care about school. But he was my friend so I and my family accepted him for who he was. What this boils down to is you don't trust your daughter, and nor do you trust your ability as a parent so far to have instilled good morals/values/independence in her. So now, you're scared that she'll go off the rails. Again, as I said, if you've done your job as a parent properly up till now you shouldn't have anything to worry about. There's nothing wrong with placing down a few boundaries but you have to trust your daughter and her ability to make her own friends and be independent within her own decisions. She isn't a child anymore. She is a young woman. Why are you comparing yourself to other families? Are you worried that you daughter won't be "good enough" to keep up with the Joneses? In what way has your daughter gone "downhill"? You keep saying it but don't give any examples??