bubzley

hi iam writing this thread for help, i know i need help, i need hope too. I have just cut myself and well its not like all the other times.... that i dont really enjoy doing it but it helps. this time i really liked it and made 2 new razors to cut with now i just feel like i cant stop... i dont know why i hate my scars... and i hate the thought of other people will see but i just cant stop please help me. normally i only cut really badly when i use serepax but this time it didnt matter. i cut bad and deep anyway. i need help im scared il go to far... or hurt myself to badly and end up with too much blood or stiches or something... and today im like angry at the world which im normally not an angry person. but even today when i went to see my counseller that only person in this world i half trust.... i snapped at her hardcore and this isnt like me.... can anyone help?... i dont know whats going on and i cant stop cutting...

I apologise for my reply to your thread. . . as i didnt see there where two pages ooops.... still do the candle thing she;ll love it

Maybe she has been sexually abused in the past and she didnt like the experience but liked the attention... and that could be maybe a part of her erotic fantasys. . . and maybe the part where she feels dirty afterwards is because she had done those things that caused trauma to her but she liked it at the time. . . just a thing to think about... i could be wrong and sorry if i am. but just let her know that she feels special to you and at any random time like when she least expects it say you love her.... try when you two go to bed... buy like 5 candles and put the near the bed. . . light them of course and just cuddle how and tell her how much you love her... she may then realise that you do love her and its not all about the sex and she can trust you and feel safe having sex with you without thinking your using her. . . just an option but it may just work?

Hey.... i know almost how you feel. . . . . . . my fiance lives 10,000 miles away too im in australia hes in england. . . but the thing is were planning to get pregnant when he comes over in 8wks and hes staying for a month. . . . my best advice is this has obviously happened for a reason and well y dont you stay in NYC until the child is born and he just visits constantly of course it will be hard but if he comes and stays for a few months so youve got the birth of the child and the first month of its life with him there. . . and maybe look into the option of bringing the child with you to australia once its born. . . and just have him visit very reguarly then he wont have to give up his job and you wont have extra expenses at hand. . . but the choice is yours and his but yours mainly. . . word of advice, GO WITH YOUR HEART!!!

Hey i hope you dont really want to die.... i hope you just want things to get better and easier... You seem like you have a big heart... by looking at your picture and you would be greatly missed... god forbid anythink ever happened to you... YES it is EXTREMELY DANGEROUS to take that many pills.... and think about your father.... he obvisously doesnt want to die... because he is taking those tablets but if you keep taking them he will run out and wont have any left.... you are valuable and very important to someone.... whether it be a family member a friend or a complete stranger.... your still important. Its ok if you dont want help... i understand... but at least talk to someone even on here.... for a way to vent atleast....Take care... Please stay strong XxoooxX

Im living with the same people i lived with when i was younger... i have just returned like about a month ago... Yes i am still being abused... but i dont show it. In anyway or show anyone... i keep it bottled up but i need help and this was the safest way i could see of doing it as on the internet noone really knows who you are and hopefully they wont judge you.. Yes i have spoken to a counsellor before... and i once told the police about one thing and its still taken 6yrs and nothings ever been done...I am 17yo and i will loose any support i could have when i turn 18 because thats how the system works in australia... I need help but Im so scared to tell anyone and im so ashamed its not funny... i hate being me!! I feel so alone and im sick of crying and cutting....

Ok well ive been abused sexually mentally physically and emotionally, my mother didnt want me at the age of 8 mnths so she gave me to people wh abused me also, and then when i was in contact with my real mum she killed my 4yo brother.... its almost his death anniversary. Every week is a new drama in my life... im just so over it.... i dont want to feel this way anymore and im sick and tired of cutting...please help

OMG... I know exactly how you feel im in a group girls home in australia...i have an eating disorder also... and sometimes i get on close obs too, although its relly hard when u get a worker u dont trust... but one day everythink will get better... i care bout u but not in a creepy way... just have hope girl things will work out

i believe u are being abusive..... try not yelling when ur driving try going to coounselling....try telling her you love her and try not getting upset about her mum.... it will all help.... just get rid of that temper it tends to scare people

Hi everyone, im only new to this.... but i was wondering if anyone can help me. I feel very scared and alone and dont have anyone to confide in, almost everyday i think i would be alot easier just to end it all.... i cut almost everyday also, im so scared and alone and dont know what to do.... like i have so many problems i just dont know where to start....please some one any advice please help me...

Well your already trying to seek help.... WAY TO GO!!! But anyhows yeah why dont you call one of those kids help lines type of thing and just talk incase your worried about seeing a therapist.... but yeah just have hope and start thinking positive before you go to bed.... you wake up in a better mood i promise.... take care and let me know how you go maybe i can help?

No thats right when your feeling that way think how lucky you are.... there are far worse people than yourself.... but that doesnt mean your problems are any less hurtful they are but you and get through them and deal with them and life will get better....

hey tainted_soul, i cannot agree with you more!!! My opinion may differ from others as being a cutter of 5yrs and still to this day a cutter. For some people its an escape, a relief, a way out, a numbness, a pain they fee they deserve, an anger they cant let out. It can be a wide range of what the reason is for someone to cut or self injure. But i dont believe it is a mental illness as such like BPD, thats garbage its simply a coping mechanism for some people thats the only way they know how to cope and thats there survival mode... I was very annoyed to read what sigh wrote, its stereotypical people like that as such that push some people over the line between life and death.... i understand the point to somewhat but the way it was spoken about was harsh.... And if a "CUTTER" or "SI/ self harmer" is reading this..... there is hope you will make it through in the end if you do have hope and if it is the only thing you can control try thinking of other things you may be able to control. Like everytime you feel like you want to self harm write it, or think about how you feel after and does any of it go away, then think of a new coping skill you can use over time it gets easier.... HAVE HOPE.... but yes neva_black_n_white it may be a control thing for some people but for others it may not be.... i hope this helps someone if theyre in need, and remember someone somewhere cares about you, and everyone is worthy!!!