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I know...it hurts but like I said I have to look out for myself and my heart. Im realizing it now that he enjoys my company and me laying next to him b/c im fillling in the gap and the emptiness he has...thats just soooo horrible
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Well I have been dating this guy for only one month. I sleep over his house and all. He is a wonderful person BUT doesn't want to be in any relationships. In July his gf broke up with him..not really clear to why but I know he still longs for her though he says that he doesn't. His birthday just passed and he didnt receive a card or a call from her and I know he was upset. On that note...we has a few conversations in where he stated how im "too good" of a girl for him and that he doesnt want to hurt me...blah blah...to me this is a typicl "im not into u line" ya think? anyhow...last night for my own being and to not get hurt once again i left him a message saying how I dont want to get hurt and i think its best that we just dont speak cuz im getting into him too much...which he can sense and he doesnt want that to happen sooo now i regret leaving such message cuz he didnt even call me back or anything! im so sad now! Where are all the good guys nowadays? well he was one but just didnt want what was good! What should i do? I called him today wishing him a happy thansgiving and asked him to call and i do want to remain friends...is it a wrap now...? Maybe it would be all for the best if he didnt call...i dont know im hurting once again! Advise please...
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He said.."I dont want to get into a relationship....
esboogie143 replied to esboogie143's topic in Dating Advice
awwww....thanks soooooo much to everyone who has been there with me from day 1!!!!! and to all who just has an opinion on my issue!! Very much appraciated ALWAYS!!!! -
He said.."I dont want to get into a relationship....
esboogie143 replied to esboogie143's topic in Dating Advice
Thank you fo ur replies...but i just want to ask you why do u think he's still there and tells me to take one day at a time and that anything can happen ??? -
The uy that im dating says that h can tell hat I ge attached to quickly. He got out of a relationship in July just at the same ime my ex competely cut me off and changed his number..anyhow...he already knos that im a serious person so what am I suppsed to do??? H is still there...treats me great and all bt by knowing how he feels an what he xpresses t me should Istay?? Im 29 and he's 28 but I want someone who is on my level in regard to relationships and all... He saiys that he doest look down he road he takes things da by day and or me to do the same...what should i do? I really like him but that conversation chaged my perception of him a bit....an advise???
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Well...I posted about my situation and i must say that he has not contacted me via internet nor returned call...the date went great...we hit it off right from the start...why is everything going sooo wrong for me Im trying to move on in regard to the ex and now look...im sad b/c the guy that i went on a date with is not contacting me/returning my call...wtf!!! I hate this cuz now im going back to thinking of the damn ex!!! ugggghhhhhhh!!! I need serious advise.... Annnnd...during the date he said that he did want to c me again...obviously there was a change of heart! He seemed like an awesome dude but didnt want a relationship which ws understood...i guess he felt that i was the "girlfriend" type something that he didnt want but had to go out like a punk and just ignore me!! any advise would be appreciated cuzz im right back to square 1
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Thnak you all vcery much!! I appreciate each and every comment. I want to say that I went on a date with him last night and he was online this morning saying to him how i enjoyed the evening...blah blah and i asked what were his plans tonight and he had a game and then was going home to study...he's a teacher and is taking an exam thats needed...but whatever i just said good luck on ur game and i will ttyl and he said okay.....sooo im just going to leave it in his hands now...right? i hate this im sucha "girlfriend" i have no clue how to date and whats supposed to occur....But I guess I will learn and as u all said just let it be and let him pursue me... I have to say that he's a very busy guy and is doing alot...he's a teacher , he is in a band, plays ball, acts and does so much more...he told me thats he isn't looking for a relationship at the moment cuz of his schedule but if he senses something good he's not going to pass it by...i dont know...we'll just see..i guess!
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As most of you already know the saga that i have been through i have cosen to go out on my first date since him...I must say it was beautiful! He was sooo nice and respectful and also very good looking. He has a lot going for himself and that impressed me....he made me laugh and by doing that ..thats when i felt the beginning of on the road to healing...I have been depressed for nearly a year...but anyway...the date went great...i felt like a lil kid...i felt like 15 again...it was the greatest...he said that he would love to take me out again....Now here's where the big question comes in....since this is my first date...i dont know how to treat it...i want to call him tho i already spoke to him online...(I KNOW IM NOT GONNA DO THAT) but i just want to ask u guys Now what????? do i just let it be? do i message him when i see him on? i dont know...i need serious advise! Thank you you all!!!
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I need some advice or some things cleared up!
esboogie143 replied to ang3l2004's topic in Dating Advice
I totally agree with DN and for he knows of my issue as well that im still healing slowly but surely...guard ur heart girl u and I are soooo much the same...giving our all to quickly....but remember our experiences in the past are a bit similar...we gave our all and got hurt at the end!!! So guard ur heart and dont rush into anything ...only fools rush in and sadly we good girls fall in!!!! -
can things ever get better for me...
esboogie143 replied to esboogie143's topic in Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend Relationships
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My ex changed his number. Should I take it as a blessing disguise? I found out this morning when I called and the number was not in service I must admit I am sooooo hurt and I did He already has a girlfriend...he's such a bastard and I dont know why I still stay hooked on him through all the mistreatment, grief and tears that he has caused me. Such a sad situation I did absolutely nothing to him and he hates me sooo much! I loved him too much so he said and I just got taken for granted. He cut evrything off (sex) 2 months ago when he got with the chick! I still have the job number but WILL NOT call there!! Theres no reason! I am just really sad and just wanted to vent. Any opinions would be greatly appreciated...thanks to everyone that has helped me from day one through my long journey of heartache!
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7 months and still hurt....
esboogie143 replied to esboogie143's topic in Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend Relationships
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There is no way back into ohis heart! His heart is black! And mine is aching every day and night! Im forcing myself from not calling because everytime I do he treats me like pure garbage! its soooo sad! All I asked is WILL I EVER GET OVER THIS! Im not even interested in any other guy. I met one but he just wants to get in my pants. Typical guy! I hate this I hate the single scene...its sooo not for me! I dont know wjat to do and mind u he's already seeing someone! I know im better than this...so why am i doing it to myself! I got my own place...my own brand new car...im beautiful and have a beautiful daughter! Im just sooo confused and just want to stop thinking of him and having the urge to call him! Someone please help!
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Well….of course as most of u already know I had broken the NC rule…yea I know WHY???? Its been 6 months now and I still miss him terribly…we have seen each other and yes it was wonderful like always. We have spoken here and there whether I had called or for once he called to say "whats up". I honestly don't care if he is talking to someone or not (though I know he is and he just wont admit it to me) but hey I don't care anymore. Yesterday he called me. I couldn't believe it (might I say that he has stopped calling me completely which lead me to obviously think that there was someone else) but anyway he calls to say whats up and he started telling me his dilemmas and all that…and how everything is kinda hard for him…bills…car and all that…I felt bad (because that's just me) we spoke for a minute and then later on last night he calls and asks me for a favor…well of course how did u guess…it was to borrow a $100. At first I agreed to lend it to him then after I thought again and was like o hell no!!!! After what happened last time (which is in one of my posts). So yea I changed my mind and HE WAS LIVID!!! He was like how can u do that…ur the only one I would ask…blah blah…I said go ask ur boys or ur sidekicks….I have to pat myself on my back cuz I have NEVER said no to him though it killed me to. I felt sooooo bad but ya know what I put my foot down. Then we were emailing one another prior to me saying no….i asked y did u leave me in the first place??? I forgot! He replied with I just fell out of love. Sooooo I was sooo hurt b/c remember we remained intimate soooo I really was fuming that's when I told him I cant and wont lend u the money! This morning I called him at work and he said not to ever call him again and that I was a f'in bi***!!!! The moral of the story …this was the first time I said No to him and he pretty much sent me to hell and back so that just proves once again that he is a real scum bag!!!!! I am hurting but I feel good!!! I would rather him think of me in the worst way and never talk to me again and always keep in my mind that for once im not taking his crap and for once have showed some respect for myself!!!!!
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Thanks Brando sooooo much for ur imput!!!! You all since the beginning of my saga have always been there for me and still remain!!!!! I have much love for all of you!!!!
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I hope you guys realize that its been 6days of NC by me and its been the longest since the 5 mths we've been broken up!!! We have spoken/emailed one another and maintained being intimate with one another for the 5 months....so for me it feels as if our relationship ended 6 days ago...ya know? If i didnt find out about the chick and see pics he would of stilll been having his cake and eating it too!!! So right now he definitely would not call me cuz he got busted and knows that it was the end for him!!! I shouldnt of allowed or permitted the intimacy to happen nor the contact since we werent together but hey people make the weong choices in life and like me aare sufferring but definitely have learned!
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I do read....but im probably the worst heartbroken situation that you guys ever heard about...right? I have read some heartbreak stories but damn they are no where near being as desperate and needy for someone like I am!! Its just sooo sad! ANd im glad im venting to u guys cuz i was sooo tempted to call like an idiot!
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Annie24- I absolutely have no time for something like that. In my profession I am busy all the time. When this feeling hits me is when i get home. I have a 6yr old daughter and do not have time for something like that. Thank you for your concern though. I appreciate it!!!
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Thanks DN sooo much!
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no i havent...unfortunately I have no energy or desire to do anything! This breakup really tore me apart.... I hate myself for letting this happen to me!
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Okay 6th day and nothing still! I have anxiety right now so i'd rather type and vent than to call and be pathetic and stupid!!! He no longer gets online or anything....he really has completely shut me down. I know he is soooooo happy that i stopped calling him and he can be sooo stress free with his chick. Though it shouldnt matter i wonder if he's thinking of me and how horrible he was to me at the end...well I know...NOT!!!!!!! I feel so down and soooo sad and mightr i say pathetic for longing for such a bastard!!! I was sooo tempted to call BUT I DIDNT!!! For what? To look like a total pathetic loser after all that he has done plus knowing that he has a girl...i cant and wont do that to myself...i already dug myself into the dirt!!! I need major advice...i have always been the type that though knowing what the right thing is I still have to hear it or read it! I am just sooo sad!!! This heartache has literally killed me!
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Thank you all for ur support once again!!! K...u know I HAVE to say that i'm on the 4th day of NC!!! I cant believe it!!!!
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It was love at first sight for me!! I fell flat on my face in love. Believe it or not we experience so much together and he is only 21. I have been with him since he was 19 and then he was mature. He accepted my daughter and made me sooo happy!!! Just soooo sad!! Thanks for the encouragement!
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Well its been 3 days of NC and NO PRANK CALLS TO HIM!! I must say that i am very proud of myself. It just so happens that i know for a fact that he called me 3x this morning blocking his # so that private appears on the phone. He is the ONLY person who does the private call thing. He called at 8:15am, then at 8:45am then final call at 9:30am. Everytime i p/u the phone he just stood silent.. Honestly, knowing for a fact that was him i was relieved a bit from the NC. It wasa weird. Thereafter I didnt receive another call on the cell... Its hard but i just wanted to tell all that its a big deal to me to maintain myself and finally have some pride and respect for MYSELF! 3 DAYS maybe nothing to others but its sure a very big deal for me! Now i will maintain the "strength and serenity" to make the NC last.... I have to admit its been tempting but as you all say DONT DO IT!!!
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i am still soooo sad!! I just cant find myself to get over him...i mean why the hell doesnt this needy feeling for him go away!!! He called me today to wish me a happy Mothers Day ( he didnt call me for any other holiday..xmas..b-day...) I guess things are a lil less on the edge for him since he moved on so its easier for him...who knows.... I said thank you and when i got off i cryed!!! I hated it!!! He then says that he will call me later...yeah o kay he always says that ....why???I have no clue cuz he nver calls!!!!!! Its just such a pathetic situation that i wish i had the strength to move on...he has!!! anyway...i just wanted to vent...if anyone has any comments or advise or has been in my shoes they are greatly appreciated! Have a good night everyone!