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Thanks lady00!!!

Thank you alll soo much!!! And of course i am the girl (which u all already knew) and i have not gotten the heart nor strength to give up on hope though I KNOW I better...cuz im only hurting myself more and more EVERYTIME!

Have any of you ever been involved in a relationship and ended it because you wanted to experience life??? Have you then treated the ex like crap for no reason...every time she would call you/or try to contact you??? Why wouldn't you tell her that your seeing someone? Though its not serious...but its just like a chick on the side that keeps you occupied...my biggest question...why wouldnt u be honest? She still turns you on and are intimate with her once in a while!! Do you think of ever getting back? Thoughts please....or anythinthing relating to any other situation in regard to the ex and you wanting to move on but she's still there and you knows she's a good girl but just dont want to be in a relationship nor want to be tied down?

thank you ALL FOR YOUR COMMENTS AND CONCERNS...VERY NUCH APPRECIATED ALWAYS!

i am hysterically crying right now...i am sooo heart broken!!!! He called me this morning and asked me...u called me last night? I was like yeah...i couldnt sleep...he then said nothing and like annoyed! I asked him if he wanted to hang out today and he said no that he just wanted to chill. Why did he even call??? Im in the worst situation EVER!!! And i just dont know how to get OUT OF IT!!! My mind , body and soul is not allowing me too. I try to think of how this chic was calling him or whatever or start thinking that they are hanging out BUT ITS NOT WORKING! Its making me want him even mOre!!!

I thought that too!!!!!!! THATS WHY IM ALL F'D UP IN THE HEAD!!!!

He is not the one that is initiating this AT ALL.....I AM!!!

I just needed to vent. As most of you already know and must I say have been very supportive in my sad situation. I just cant move on AT ALL!!! I saw him yesterday (yes...i know WHY????) and of course we were intimate with one another. I just cant help it . I have no control AT ALL over how i feel for him. What a heartbreak...I know...I just tear myself into pieces everyday but NOTHING is taking this feeling away. I want him more and more each day knowing that im not gonna get him back. How pathetic is that!!! I am just all messed up!!

Thank you all soo much!!! I dont know how people get past suc a situation like mine. You guys are all right in what u say BUT its me that has to try to be strong..im sooo weak when it comes to love. I hate it!!! I know that if i were my friend or should i say if i were to step out of myself and look into my situation rather than being in it i would literally be cursing myself out and telling myself to do all the things u guys are telling me to do!!! Its really hard but through it all...i really dont want to let go dont ask me why....i hate him for sooo many things he has done to me but i love him for all the other things prior to him being a jerk. I feel like i need serious help in trying to get over him!!! I guess in time my own pace will tell me! Thank you all again for your concerns, kindness and support!!!!

Well last Friday night I went out with my girlfriend and at the end of the night I called him and obviously he didnt answer. Mind u this was like 3am...so it went to voicemail and I checked his messages (i know BAD MOVE. There was a message from a chic. She said: Hey sweetheart its *** give me a call bye.. I was in a shock. Now this is when psycho me came into play mode... When i got home I let him have it on a message that i left for him....I was like o its all good with ur new girlfriend blah blah blah...i just went off . He then called me the next day at around 2pm and was like what the hell are u talking about i was like dont f'in play stupid...i went off and i said who the **** is amy he was like what about...i said what about ***? U guys talk to each other...she calls u and all that...he was like yeah she has my number but *** ( a friend of his) is in love with her . Mind u ...she was also messed around with his other friend too. So what does that make her...yes a scank! Anyhow...he was saying how i know him better than that...and i was like no correction i dont know u at all anymore!!! He asked everyone of his friends if they saw me in a club...what does that say...He has no clue about anything. He thinks i saw someone and they told me something like to start some crap. Anyway...he was like u know me...first of all im not scewing anyone nor am i seeing anyone then he got back to just leave me the hell alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now yesterday he wmailed me asking if I can give his taxes to my acct....b/c his parents havent done them yet...youcan write back or call me...thank you...(his name).....so me like a MORON responded to his email and was like ...yeah .....i can mail it to him and he will send it back...thats all!! He didnt respond ....BUT i called his cell this morning knowing that it would be off and there goes another message from last night at 11pm...hi honey its amy call me back bye! Yup! So when i got into work this morning I sent him an email saying this.... I wasn't thinking straight yesterday when I read ur email asking me if you can give ur taxes to my acct... I must say that no I cannot do it. I want you to ERASE my email address from ur directory. Why dont you forward ur taxes to ***(girls name). You know her right...? The one ur into ...the one that calls you sweetheart,baby or honey...or whatever else...yeah that one...Please do not contact me ever again. You FINALLY got me to feel exactly how u wanted me to feel. I have grown out of love for you and thereforeeee do not have any left. I pretty much have no respect for you anymore. The ABUSE is finally over. I am realizing now after many months that u have moved on to someone else...and that I need to cut u off!!! I hate that it took me sooo long for me to realize but ur *** did it!!!! Please celebrate that I dont love you anymore b/c of ur mistreatment to me. Once again PLEASE BECOME OBLIVIOUS TO WHAT WE ONCE HAD AND TO WHAT WE WILL NEVER HAVE AGAIN AS FOR UR WORDS IN WHICH YOU HAMMERED INTO MY HEAD OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND AS FOR MY HEART THAT HAS BECOME NUMB AND EMPTY FOR YOU!!! HOPE SHE FULFILLS UR EVERY DREAM AND THAT U EXPERIENCE EVERY SEXUAL THING WITH HER!!! ***PLEASE FORGET ME!** MIND YOU HE HAS NO CLUE ON HOW I KNOW ABOUT THIS CHIC!!! I KNOW THAT ITS HORRIBLE ABOUT THE MESSAGE THING BUT ITS THE INSTINCT FROM WITHIN ....AND IM ALWAYS RIGHT!!!! I must also say that IT DOES NOT CONCERN ME BUT WHEN HE LIES ABOUT IT AND SAYS HE DOESNT WANT TO BE WITH ANYONE YADA YADA....THATS WHY IT HURTS SOOOO MUCH! WHY WONT HE TELL ME He now calls and he says THERE IS NO *** (THE GIRLS NAME)...He cursed and all and I just hung up on him. Sorry for the long story. can I please get any advise now though i know there is no help for me at this moment

I personally wouldn't meet him. I must ask beside just wanting to be "friends" is there any other reason for the meeting. Are you ready from within to meet him? How long has it been since the breakup? That plays an impt facto because if u have not seen him in a while then hopefully all the feelings and emotions dont return and if so you will be right back to square one.

"Does She paly ya" ...THAT MEANS DOES SHE CHEAT? THOUGH UR NOT TOGETHER IT LITERALLY MEAN S IS SHE W/ SOMEONE ELSE....IS SHE "PLAYING U" LIKE A DAMN FOOL AND OUT WITH ANOTHER GUY...THATS EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS BEING ASK

I call? I have anxiety and im soooo tempted!!! Please help!!! Though I know whats right its hard to do it! My heart is racing and its inching toward the phone!! PLEASE HELP!!!!

Thanks all...well its sunday and im still hanging in there,,havent call BUT HAVE TEMPTATION TO!!!! ITs sooo hard but im holding my ground! thanks guys sooo much!!

Thanks very much!!!

all i can say is thank you sooo much!!! Your words are heart felt every time!!

Thanks guys....i really appreciate it! And I must say that I cleaned my whole house...lololol my house is immaculate!! So there goes that! hahah But anyway...i will keep u guys updated! Thank You all!

Though everyone has been very supportive in this forum but you two have been outstanding to me!!!! You guys always come through for me...its like you both actually look to c if i have posted!!! Im so happy that I have people like u to support me!! Thanks again!!!

Yeah its me. Im back and im having soo much anxiety right now. For those of u who are not aware of my situation u can read my latest posts, I have the urge to contact him. BUT I KNOW...I WONT!!! I dialed his number but thank god it didnt ring and went straight to voicemail. I cant take it anymore...im desperate for some advise. Im trying to keep my hands off the phone!! Though I know that at this point there would be absolutely no reason to call him b/c he doesn't want to get back together but as u recall said "I wii miss u" im still sooo angry by that. Anyway...can someone please help me right now in going insane!!!!!!!

You guys are simply the best!!! Its u guys honestly who has made me a bit stronger and thats why I have not contacted him nor do I have anydesires to. He has hurt me tremendously and im not gonna lie of course i think about him and i yearn for him...I mean its natural to do so but i know for sure that my fingers wont be dialing his number!!! Once again I appreciate and respect you all!!! I will keep u guys updated! Thanks for caring!!!

awwww.....thanks!!!

No...he didnt say that he misses me he friekin; say I WILL miss u!!! What a friekin' bastard!! im sorry but just thinking about it makes me sooo angry cuz obviously by saying that he's saying (no i still dont want to be with u) but i WILL miss u!!!! GO TO HELL!!! SEE...IM SOOO HAPPY THAT IT MAKES ME ANGRY!!! That gives me the strentgh to not call him cuz if he's not making an effort to keep me then its worth it to leave him! Sadly it is!

Just wanted to vent that I am still very sad since he last called me apologizing for everythin and simply saying that he'll miss me. Within my heart I feel like there is no turning back and he has gone away for good! its just sooo sad!! He has let me down and im soooo sad along with being angry and everything else mixed in. But I will not call him for there would be no reason to Just one sad situation that has me with anxiety and with thought after thought! But what can u do!! absolutely deal with the pain and move on...do u guys agree? I know thats a stupid question

Thank you all!! Im sorry but im just speechless with everything! All I can say is thanks for all ur concerns

Thank you all for ur well taken advise. I have to think about this thoroughly about my situation and will reply later on with what I came up with with regard to him and my actions. I am just a little confused right now.