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I wasn't yelling I just typed in caps...and BTW...i can do that...she's a friend.....

I agree and thank you for that comment. BUT I must say that though its right...I still act like the way i have been acting. Im alone right now also on V-Day and yes it sucks...But i will need sooo much more strenght to not call him!!! I hate myself for feeling this way!!! I just hate it!! How nmuch more do I have to take to get it through my head that I am better than that and COULD DO SOOO MUCH BETTER!! I APPRECIATE ALL OF YOUR COMMENTS!!! YOU GUYS ARE GONNA HELP ME RECOVER!!! I KNOW IT!!!

I am once again back at square one. My ex-boyfriend had im'd me after saying all this bull that for me to never call him again. text him/email him. He had decided to leave me because he wanted to live his life. If you read my last post you will see the whole story. Anyhow...he im's me to ask how im doing after3 days...I must say that I really was so excited that I saw his IM but then again after I had answered his question which was what r u doing today? Just because he was curious..I gave him the whole run down of what i wsa doing...I really regret that I even answered him. He has treated me like crap for no reason he has cursed me out and all that...and when he feels like having any contact with me..I like an idiot fall into the trap. it hurts sooooo much. Its Valentine's Day and he is happy living his life while im depressed without him. Its sooo hard to let go!! PLEASE HELP ME!!! I CANT EVEN FUNCTION!!! Ileave him messages because he doesnt answer my calls and he calls and tells me to GET OVER HIM AND MOVE ON WE WILL NEVERBE TOGETHER AGAIN!!! BUT THEN HAS THE NERVE TO CONTACT ME WHEN ITS AT HIS CONVENIENCE! I AM SOOOO AND HE HURTS ME MORE AND MORE EVERYTIME ANYTHING HAPPENS WITH HIM!!!!!!

I am 29 years of age and have suffered a heartbreak that has torn me into pieces. I have been taken for granted and treated horribly just because he wanted to "live his life" and let go of me. Its been very hard and still is hard. I have to say that he just turned 21..(i know love took a toll on me) We really fell madly in love and i must say age was just a number to us at the time. Anyway...he broke up with me with the excuse that he was too young and needed to live his life. I have a 6 yr old daughter in which he accepted and loved. Well we have been broken up for 2 months already and I still cant let go. I call him and he humiliates me and tells me to leave him alone and all that and I STILL HAVE HOPE I hate myself for that. I love him so much. When we dont speak because I dont call then hecalls to see whats up because he wants to sex me and I fall right into his trap . I pick up the phone with the hope that he will say something in regards to getting back together. PLEASE HELP ME!!! I AM IN THE WORST STATE AND ITS GETTING WORSE INSTEAD OF EASIER