FarFromPerfikt

I am stressing, it's true. Why is that I am stressing? It is all money. Money is the root of all evil rather the love but this is my problem...... I just recently turned 18. I am upset with myself cause I just partied around the whole summer with no job. I made a little money from babysitting but used that money to pay to fix up a few things so far for my car. This is where my car comes into place.....I want to get a good job for awhile but my car needs all this stuff done to it before I can drive it. My parents want me out of the house, I just want my car, my dad said I can have it if I get him some money quickly. and show him I have a job and pay for my car monthly.....it's funny they want me out, I dont know where to go. I need to make money quick too mind you....my friend is a stripper and told me to come work with her...I dont know what to do! I just want my dad to be secure with money as he is financially struggling like I am and part of the reason is b/c he has 5 daughters, 3 irresponsible, he makes like not enough money....i feel so sorry for being a financial drain in his pocket that I want to get out of the house...but how in the heck am I supposed to get money quickly so he is happy with me and lets me take my car w/e it is I plan on moving to??? I am really stressing...I talked to my one friend she said I need to cool off, Ill be fine...but seriously what would you do if you need to make some fast cash so u can satisfy your parents..? I am sorry if I am not really making sense...Im venting in a way and I never make sense when I am like this.

I dont think youre acting immature....jealousy all in all is the works of getting someone closer to you I think..if you want to be with him that is.....naturally though my ex boyfriend gets jealous without me trying to make him...so just go about your life I think and youll be fine, he probably will come to you if you ignore him.

Ok so this tuesday I am going to visit my ex boyfriend in his state. And I was really thrilled to do this. We have been talking like crazy. And we last saw each other 3 weeks ago and I thought it was amazing.....before then I hadnt seen him for 6 months! Recently though....I have been thinking that he might kill me when I get out there....or get someone to hurt me..or secretly have a girlfriend there and humiliate me badly.I think it is kind of psycho to think like this...why I think I have been thinking like this is before he left my state we really got mad at each other and I scratched his car that he realllly cherished so he got mad...and then he told me he never loved me..but after all that I think were okay now...especially with all the talking but I feel like it could be staged like hes wasting all his time talking to me to trick me in to going there so he can do something...which is paranoia in the works again?.where have all these bizarre thoughts come from? I also thought he wouldnt even show up to pick me up at the airport....lol I think it is so silly...he told me he wants me to be there and thinks hes "still inlove" but I feel like hes lying.....I dont know why I am acting like this.....when he came 3 weeks ago to visit I felt like something bad was going to happen but when nothing did I felt so crazy.....I heard about paranoia personality disorder...and the symptoms are pretty crazy...why do you think I am acting so afraid like this?

Ok read this Instant message and tell me you dont feel the agony...lol...its like a shakespeare story..I feel like I wont see my ex-boyfriend again...we both want to be together, atleast I hope..but we dont think it will work out...I am so sad and stressed tell me what you would do?? we are two young kids and I dont want to move on. I feel like we are seriously soul mates....I just want to see him again soon....we saw each other 2 weeks ago...and it was amazing.....before then we hadnt seen each other for 6 months but we spoke to each other via the internet and phone a few times.....I am only 17 and Ill be 18 at the beginning of September...how will I beable to plan out all of the important things if I decide to move with him in September?? Like a really good job? Ill need a car?? what about college? actually I dont think Id go right away to college once I got to where he is because I dont know how things will work out...I want to make sure the relationship would be stable....thanks for reading all this... I really appreciate everyone who reads this at Enotalone...you guys are great...thanks for helping.... XHollDollX [7:39 P.M.]: maybe what we need to do is to be patient Mattyj8589 [7:39 P.M.]: patient but what if it dies between us XHollDollX [7:40 P.M.]: what will die? Mattyj8589 [7:40 P.M.]: our feelings maybe XHollDollX [7:40 P.M.]: for u or for me? Mattyj8589 [7:40 P.M.]: both.. how much time you talking about? XHollDollX [7:40 P.M.]: my feelings havent gone away after all this time Mattyj8589 [7:40 P.M.]: neither have mine Mattyj8589 [7:41 P.M.]: i told you that XHollDollX [7:41 P.M.]: less than 2 months, when september comes around Ill make a quick 5,000 dollars at chrisites even though thats not alot and come there, ill come to see you 2 times before that also Mattyj8589 [7:42 P.M.]: ok XHollDollX [7:42 P.M.]: we will see each other again XHollDollX [7:42 P.M.]: I hope Mattyj8589 [7:42 P.M.]: i can handle 2 months XHollDollX [7:42 P.M.]: well no Ill see you in august Mattyj8589 [7:42 P.M.]: aug? XHollDollX [7:42 P.M.]: or at the end of july just dont loose those feelings...lol XHollDollX [7:42 P.M.]: what is that too late? Mattyj8589 [7:43 P.M.]: no i thought sooner but i guess beggers cant be choosers XHollDollX [7:43 P.M.]: maybe july 17th XHollDollX [7:43 P.M.]: well see XHollDollX [7:43 P.M.]: dont be impatient Mattyj8589 [7:43 P.M.]: ok babe but i gotta head out Mattyj8589 [7:43 P.M.]: and i do miss you XHollDollX [7:44 P.M.]: bye XHollDollX [7:44 P.M.]: ok Mattyj8589 [7:44 P.M.]: althought you don't think so XHollDollX [7:44 P.M.]: you know I do. XHollDollX [7:44 P.M.]: you can keep saying that

Okay so i got this from my ex. Does it sound convincing and true? I can't tell they are just words...but tell me from your point of view what you think. thank you. holly am not playing with you i pushed you away so much cause i didn't expext to like you after ohio but i can't stop talkin to you for some reason "love" you are the longest girl i been with on and off also the only one i told i love am sorry for the way i treated you nothin will ever make it up to you that was honestly ohio matt and if you do give me anouther chance by coming out here you will see i am i complete differnt person i want to be with you the only way that will happen is if you move out here with me where i will not be able to mess around if you live with me "not that i want too" which you don't believe but i giess oh well cause i used up all my chances i guess so no more chances for this * * * * * * * if i don't stand a chance then let me know it will be alot easyier to give up if i have the tinyist bit of chance than let me know cause i will expand that into the relationship you have been looking for in me the whole time that i wasn't ready to give you it's your call either you have one last truthful time in me or you don't let me know so i know what to do you are my number one the only one if i don't have a chance tell me i can move on but i don't want to if i have a chance with you

Investigate the details I give you and tell me if you think everything thats going on is true or not...if you know what I mean...I cant figure it out and maybe I should go with my gut instinct for both situations but IM so clueless......so maybe you can tell me what you think Ok so there is a major problem going on with my boyfriend and his ex-girlfriend (theres a bigger one beyond that, I'll get to it later) but anyways she told him she was pregnnt and wouldnt leave him alone abot it....Here are the details/clues that you might if possible beable to tell me if you think shes pregnant or not she said she took two tests, and she was over my boyfriends house he baught her a test but she wouldnt take it However, he threw it at her while his three friends were right there, that I think would be embarrasing....but would you still take the test? she was on birth control, and my boyfriends sperm count is honestly really low cause he drinks alot and smokes, I read in cosmo guys cant conceive when they do those two things...is it true? I called her to investigate it a little more, she said she is like a month already a month in a half ago is when they had sex and theres the jaw dropper, cause I was with him then, I still am but confused but anyways.....this continues to the next problemSo she told me the night his apartment got raided by the police she came over at four a.m. cause he called her. The facts: I was at his house until three and left, but nobody was supposed to come over as the cops advised them that no one else was aloud over and everyone who wasnt intoxicated could go home. so four o clock was an hour after I left, how could she have come over...I'm not really sure. I called the boyfriend an hour ago, he was sleeping and I started yelling cause I didnt know what was going on, why this complete stranger would first tell me she was pregnant and then tell me he cheated on me with her. He didnt seem to have to prove anything to me.....he did just wake up but he didnt really defend himself, he said it's great she got me beleiving that cause now I mistrust him more than ever now because I did have a little trust issue with him right now. He said hes happy with me. To believe what I want to. He doesnt want drama. he said he didnt do it. She said the night they "cheated" he said that me and him werent dating, this is funny and not so funny. I told her when I talked to her a long time ago he told me they werent dating, truth is I knew he had a girlfriend and he left her for me....??? I dont know but the bad thing is we faught that night the police came and I left but called him and everything was fine again I think.Well I left out a lot but anything you can pull out and maybe tell me about would be great....whatever you think. I love you people on myspace, really do. if you need me to clue you in on anything just ask....thanks for reading, and thank you for your input if you resopond....I'm so confused Ive already cried for like a half n hour, almost ran over a person ( I was distracted), and smoke 5 ciggarettes straight....I need help I know.

After a seventh month relationship. There were no "I Love You"'s Infact my boyfriend told me he would never say "I Love You" to me. well we broke up and I was guesing he was right. But then we started going out again and he finally said it. We saw Wedding Crashers together but I dont think that was it but seeing that movie led us into talking about love. See he told me in my car when I went to his house that seeing that movie realized he wanted to marry me , as a joke. I told him it made me crazy for him and I said I love you as a joke. It was quite funny, you should have been there because then I said it in different tones and kept on laughing and then I said "I thought I was good at acting, I should beable to say it as serious as I can" but I made it sound really dramatic and then well....he said those three words....and he said he wasn't acting and he meant it and I didnt even have to say it back. What I really wanna know is why him telling me he'd never say those words stuck with me for so long and then he actually went against his own words and said it? I thought I was too young for those words and he used them. I was thinking that he only said them because I made some joke out of it, (honestly because maybe I was wanting to say them but not too sure) I wasnt expecting him to do that. what do you think? I really do think he wouldnt have said it if I didnt joke about it.....we got into deeper discussion and he said being inlove is relatively the same thing...I dont think so but I guess that means hes inlove with me too? One last thing I have to ask anyone willing to answer......this guy broke my heart after seven months of me feeling like I was inlove with him, why is it and how is it he wanted to get back with me and now "loves" me? I am confused. Why would anyone do that. How do I know he wont leave me again?

Well theres this guy I met about a month ago. Weve spent lots of time together so far. I feel like I finally know him 100% though I don't know EVERYTHING about him . But I feel like we could just start dating any minute...We treat each other like boyfriend/girlfriend but.....we haven't talked about it or made it official....do we even have to say we're "dating"...."He's my boyfriend shes my girlfriend" type thing? I need to figure out a good way to either ask him if we are, ask him out myself, or make him or me say it all on his own so we both know. I don't want to be blunt with it and go "Are you my boyfriend?" or "will you go out with me?" I'm just not like that...I'm sure if I knew him 100% I could say it to him but i don't know how to without making it embarrasing or nerverwrecking for the both of us. He still makes me gutsy inside but in a good way . I really need to find out some good ways for him to say that I am his girlfriend or ask him out so please, please, please help me because my head and my heart are only focused on him right now and not how to ask him these questions lol. No It's just really making me upset that I can't think of a single thing.....HELP.