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I think the watch idea is a pretty good one. after all, those try to cover up too much tend to be the most obvious. i knew when my friend had self harmed because she used to wear a sweat band.. (wasnt the brightest idea when it wasnt her style - she was one for coordination *smiles*)

Smiles. i can relate to it in such a scarily amount of ways.i really like your poem. it surprised me, i wasnt sure how you'd write (sounds like a silly comment)but your really visual. i like that quality.neva

OMG. my boyfriend is like your girlfriend. well was. i can completely understand where your coming from *waits for the hate mail* but i do understand what your feeling. its almost as though its not that you want to cheat but you just want someone to show you what you show them.its annoying, i knew he loved me as much as i did him but he just never showed it. but when i compramised the relationship, well brought up the issue i knew he couldnt, wouldnt lie. he did care. but i was just so frustrated that i could literally wait weeks and not hear a peep.he thought he was ringing at an inconvenient time. he thought but never said.it broke me.BUT dont cheat. its not worth it.i can understand though. so so well.

Im only 18 and i think back about times when i was even smaller than i am now *smiles* i think its fabulous, im just a bit gutted i cant remember earlier than about 5 *giggles* oh how ill miss that later on... i wonder if... when you get older it begins to get harder to remember .. like when your 25, only remember from when your 8. thatll be unfortunate *sad face*fab times being a kid, id relive it. that i would.

I think its something that you need to take some time over. I guess it depends on what your looking for in life, what could be lost but more so gained. I think that its more considerate to end something now though, than to give hope to something that isnt going to come.Your not harsh for moving on, so long as you show respect, he has been honest with you. Something he could have easily bipassed.neva

that was amazing. gripping and encapturing. i really liked it. i have nothing against age and dont tend to make judgements, but i was just amazed by everything that youve captured in your poem (gainst the typical 13 year old - harsh comment i know but in a weird way a compliment) its amazing, beautiful. the harsh truth. i like it neva x

i think my mums worse and she does use sun block. she seems to use factor 5 and think the world will be good to her... we on the other hand seem to think shes baking herself!dont get me wrong, my mum is conscious of her health, and doesnt usually spend as much time as she is doing in the sun. its more, a way of doing something while i need silence for revision. stupid really.just, she enjoys the sun a little too much.i know shes conscious of this mole, im just not sure whether shell do something about it, thats the scary thing.

sunkissed.thanks. i thought there would be elements like that that outlined cancer. Kind of confirms what im scared off. stress.thanks.thanks iceman, i dont understand why we dont have regular check ups. ive never heard anyone in my family mention it, i guess for the women in my house my mums always been concerned with breast cancer and has us check. But i think she seems to bipass skin cancer.silly i know. i cant justify it, but its just how she is.thanks

RayKay - thanks for all the information, i think i was naive to alot of the facts you told me. It makes me more conscious of ensuring she goes to the doctors now. Shes just scared of the doctors (seems to little but its a major issue for her, which i understand) so i guess ill have to show her the importance of it.I think thats why i needed to ask on here.Thankyou very much. ill take a look at those links and try to gather enough evidence i guess to explain to her the significance.thankyou.

smiles** at the 43 seconds comment... you must have it down to a T!! lol. **smiles at you**i think i was probably about 14. I dont think its all go after that. it seems to be one of those things that crops up and then you think "ill try this out" or show more interest.. i dont think i was like... "again, again." after the first timeBut nows a little different.As for setting. Im not sure. ill let you know next time.Sometimes im just frustrated do the setting comes later *winks*

Thanks. yeah, it has changed like you said. ill make a comment then. i guess i just needed someone elses opinion. thanks Dako.. so i need to be stressed (obviously because its my mum *smiles*) but its quite common aswell?Thanks again.Neva

I really like your poem, its been a long time since ive seen a ab, ab rhythm going on. i like it. different to others.. smiles** nice work. neva

Hey. cancers a really scary thing for me. im sure im not alone on this one. ive lost my grandparents to cancer, and seems to be quite an inherited gene to my family. which makes me a little on edge. i just wondered if anyone could enlighten me a little on skin cancer. my mums one of those people who loves to soak up the sun, and whilst its sunny at the minute and i have some scarily obsessive compulsive disorder of silence whilst revising shes been exposed to it alot. she relaxes outside, but its not just recently, shes always been one to top up the tan. but ive realised that she has a mole on her skin. she says shes checking on it, but i know that its changed. i just woundered if people could help me out with the ins and out of skin cancer. i dont want to be jumping the gun but im more than half percent certain somethings not right here. and thats more than enough to get scared and querey. just trying to keep calm before i bring it up again, and know the facts you know? neva x

Ive in an on off friends with benefits at the minute. Its fabulous when were together, we have the perfect friendship and it wasnt something planned or premeditated. We were quite close, wed cuddle, hold hands and jokingly kiss each others cheek or head or whatever all the time.. and then one day it sempt as though something came of it. nothing happened when the other was in a relationship, and whenever something sempt to blossom for us then wed stop.. so.. BUT there was a point where he decided hed confess to have strong feelings for me .. in a point where i was sorting a situation out, and i didnt recipricate those feelings.. but that was later reversed... and now i dont have feelings for him hes just a great friend. BUT hes decided that he thinks that this will turn into something more. its very difficult to hold off on emotions. alot of ours is based upon control. neither of us like the other having the upper hand if you get me? so i mean its intense, the most amazing thrill and well a great time but it can be tough on the heart strings now and again.. you know? your sharing alot with someone.. so, its bound to be! neva x ps. i wouldnt change it though!

Smiles* thanks hubman01. Thats really amazing of you. alot of consideration to actually do it. *smiles* ITS PERFECT... smiles.thankyou *very big smile with appreciation*neva x

I don’t see how you can anticipate The results to a game that hasn’t yet been set I don’t see how you can predict a loss When you haven’t yet met I don’t see how you can predetermine the destiny To something that cant be defined I don’t see how you can set a course Let alone when the course is mine I don’t see how you can anticipate a reaction When you haven’t yet given something to react to I don’t see how you can manipulate and create all these situations All to achieve what you want to do But I do know its because I let you Leave another to slip by I can see it’s the way I chose the road to take All this to keep you by my side But I know that that’s because I believe And I cling onto what you say I have hope in your words of “I love you” Because I have trust that you wouldn’t lie On THOSE words that you say

thanks. smiles** cant say theres anything too special about the words themselves, its just what you get when you put down how you feel.but thanks. hehe. i really appreciate it. i noticed you have some stuff on here, might take a look. smiles.thanks for the comment me x

Captured. I really liked that piece. Makes you think. Or atleast im sad enough to go away and contemplate shouldnt have admitted that. I like your work. neva

smiles* thanks. i doubt it will end. its a bit of an up, down, stop, start sort of thing at the minute... maybe ill add a few when it feels right! x

this was in verses... four lines... but i dont think the site really appreciated it for some reason... i tried altering and re-entering the spaces and everything where they needed to be.. but no luck. sorry neva x

looking into the eyesof those who drain lifefrom others who only tryto succeed at what they dream forlistening to the wordsof a man who struckdeaf the remarkable beingwho created rhythm to soundtouching the handsof him who removedall dignity that lyeupon the innocents entiritysmelling the odourof he who took awaya smell that captureda moment that passedsenses conquered and overwhelmedby the controlanother can maintainover those who let them

smiles* thanks. those rersponces were pretty mind blowing. im surprised an answer was concocted from the words i writ. im impressed. lol. but yeah, im not really sure, words cant justify how i feel..im not involved in the one singular thing. but this one thing is or has been my LIFE, its been structure, its been my lies. its been everything. good bad... amazing.. horrific.. every angle, degree.. everything.but now ive realised that well its almost like an inanimate object. its ... aww i dont know... i feel disgusted in myself for realising it. thats the hard thing. its like.. i dont know it really is denial. im getting to the nitty gritty and i cant even write it.. im like welling up and avoiding..but its got to the point where i know that everything about this thing is broken, corrupted, im holding together so many pieces with so little energy left but i continue to strive on this hope..its aww, i dont know. its an ending that hasnt been defined yet. and im just gagging for it not to be..but at the same time i know it so im trying to move on but i cant because its not ended.its just truly i dont know.. im caught in it.i feel bad for feeling good. how pathetic?draining. neva xthanks for the responces.. really. x

its the immense feeling of failure.... that cant be justified with any emotion.. or words.. or anything its giving your all to a cause that wouldnt even notice your trying.. its the actual belief that your doing good when people dont even see it.. its loving someone who you knows loves you but just wouldnt ever give you the key (thats not even some stupid faily tail thats created .... its just the corrupted ending that people seem to sensor out) its feeling exposed and being laughed at for the trust you gave in order to expose the real you

thanks... i think youll find thats the effects of a man. smiles x

thanks. i think ill do that. smiles*