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So, my boyfriend is away at college right, so i went out and got him a card (to mail to him), and i bought me some lingerie...and i thought it was sexy...well, i took some pics, and emailed them to my boyfriend...and he doesnt like it...what a way to feel like complete ...he even asked how much i paid for it and asked if i could take it back...makes me feel just wonderful...when i was trying to do something that i THOUGHT he would like. I should just take everything back and never do a damn thing for him again...what to yall think?

I didnt realize how sad I was going to be...seeing him everyday, almost all day...being able to do everything with him, then suddenly...tomorrow he is gone...3 hours away. Thank God I will have my friends there for me, what we all wouldnt do without friends...and just think about him, there by himself in a new place without his friends and family. This is going to be such a big change for him and I. I plan on moving in with him as soon as I get a car. I am babysitting 3 days a week for $25 a day, and I have $730 saved in my bank account. The only thing is, I cant get a real job, my mother takes me where I babysit because it is on her way to work, she will not help me get a car(i cannot get a real job without a car), my brother just got out of rehab for drugs, and yet they help him and buy him stuff everyday. She keeps telling me she wants me to move out because I am 18 (never had a car by the way) and she says I dont anything around the house, while my brother sits around all day...and i do help around the house...she tells me I come and go like I want to, and that i act like I am "queen bee"...she is wanting me to share my room with my brother, and last time I did, he stole $1000 worth of stuff for drugs. So, yeah, my life is practically crumbling. My boyfriend is leaving in approximately 10 hours, my mother is being an absolute b****, and I have no car...if only I had a car I would be right there with my boyfriend, because of course I cannot move in with him without a car...I cant rely on him everyday to get me to work and school...when he has to be at work and school, and he cant just support me without a job. I really dont know what I am going to do. I have been looking for cars, and I cannot find one that isnt messed up for $1000. I guess I will be babysitting for the rest of my life without my boyfriend, no school, or anything...I dont know what to do...any suggestions?? Thanks for listening to me vent

okay, i dont know if i told yall, but we got back together shortly after breaking up. Well, Thursday night we had a conversation on how he wasnt ready for a relationship, which he isnt...we broke up tonight, and i didnt even cry, kind of had a relief. we were together for a year and 7 months. Okay, the thing is, I will have to see him every week day because he has to pick me up from school until i graduate on may 20th, which is a long story...anyways, I know when i see him im going to get emotional, and i dont want that, i want him to think im not stressing it, because im not running back to him again. I want to get over him and move on. I need to also get something to keep him off my mind and have a good time. So how do I do that? Anyone have any suggestions? Please help!? Thanks!

OKay, if you read my last post, it was about chatting with a pyschic. Well, now it has me worried. I was on my period with my boyfriend and after we had sex it has just about stopped and is brownish. I should have been on my period for about 3 more days. I have had sex with him before and it just about stop when I was on my period. Does anyone know what can cause this?

okay, i dont know if you all believe in pyschics, but march 1st was my b-day and i got a free chat with one for 10 minutes...she tells me this.. [3/5/2006 7:06:14 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:06:19 PM]Raven birthday [3/5/2006 7:06:20 PM]ash15 good, u? [3/5/2006 7:06:21 PM]Raven [3/5/2006 7:06:24 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:06:24 PM]Raven well [3/5/2006 7:06:28 PM]Raven can I do for you? [3/5/2006 7:06:30 PM]ash15 this cost money? [3/5/2006 7:06:35 PM]Raven is supposed to [3/5/2006 7:06:44 PM]Raven you seem to have gotten the free bday 10 min [3/5/2006 7:06:49 PM]ash15 : oh ok [3/5/2006 7:06:56 PM]Raven can I do for you? [3/5/2006 7:07:14 PM]ash15 what does the future hold for me? [3/5/2006 7:07:20 PM]Raven in general? [3/5/2006 7:07:24 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:07:29 PM]Raven : ok just a moment [3/5/2006 7:07:31 PM]ash15 about my boyfriend [3/5/2006 7:07:35 PM]Raven first name? [3/5/2006 7:07:37 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:07:42 PM]ash15 john [3/5/2006 7:07:47 PM]ash15 we call him sam [3/5/2006 7:07:49 PM]Raven [3/5/2006 7:07:51 PM]Raven bdate? [3/5/2006 7:07:59 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:08:08 PM]Raven : ok [3/5/2006 7:08:27 PM]Raven general for you [3/5/2006 7:08:31 PM]Raven shows to do better [3/5/2006 7:08:38 PM]Raven a raise or an increase in what you have [3/5/2006 7:08:44 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:08:51 PM]Raven with Sam seem to get closer [3/5/2006 7:08:55 PM]Raven of cups [3/5/2006 7:09:01 PM]Raven is a deepening of affection [3/5/2006 7:09:08 PM]Raven is some travel shown here [3/5/2006 7:09:11 PM]Raven : probably in summer [3/5/2006 7:09:14 PM]Raven be a move [3/5/2006 7:09:16 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:09:17 PM]Raven be a trip [3/5/2006 7:09:26 PM]Raven are at a new junction in your life [3/5/2006 7:09:29 PM]Raven new threshold [3/5/2006 7:09:36 PM]Raven celebration is coming [3/5/2006 7:09:41 PM]Raven : probably late spring or early summer [3/5/2006 7:09:44 PM]Raven a party [3/5/2006 7:09:50 PM]ash15 kind of celebration? [3/5/2006 7:09:57 PM]ash15 : oh ok [3/5/2006 7:09:58 PM]Raven celebration [3/5/2006 7:09:59 PM]Raven [3/5/2006 7:10:01 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:10:02 PM]Raven shows me a party [3/5/2006 7:10:09 PM]ash15 about family? my brother? [3/5/2006 7:10:15 PM]Raven : one warning [3/5/2006 7:10:20 PM]Raven careful about birth control [3/5/2006 7:10:27 PM]ash15 you mean? [3/5/2006 7:10:37 PM]Raven mean pregnancy is a strong potential for you [3/5/2006 7:10:39 PM]Raven be careful [3/5/2006 7:10:45 PM]ash15 : ok [3/5/2006 7:10:55 PM]Raven brother is going thru some changes [3/5/2006 7:11:09 PM]Raven shows a lot of shifts here [3/5/2006 7:11:13 PM]Raven needs to be honest [3/5/2006 7:11:14 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:11:18 PM]Raven seems to be covering something up [3/5/2006 7:11:20 PM]Raven : or denying something [3/5/2006 7:11:23 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:11:31 PM]Raven that can ultimately get him in deep trouble [3/5/2006 7:11:37 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:11:41 PM]Raven has potential for a happy future [3/5/2006 7:11:46 PM]Raven he needs to stop lying [3/5/2006 7:11:51 PM]ash15 right [3/5/2006 7:12:27 PM]Raven doesnt understand [3/5/2006 7:12:28 PM]Raven be careful and make sure of birth control [3/5/2006 7:12:33 PM]Raven : pregnancy is a strong possibility [3/5/2006 7:12:39 PM]Raven right now [3/5/2006 7:12:41 PM]Raven dont need it [3/5/2006 7:12:47 PM]ash15 i really dont [3/5/2006 7:12:54 PM]Raven take good care to protect yourself [3/5/2006 7:12:58 PM]ash15 about my parents? [3/5/2006 7:13:03 PM]Raven parents arent happy [3/5/2006 7:13:12 PM]Raven is a lot of stress there [3/5/2006 7:13:12 PM]ash15 what [3/5/2006 7:13:15 PM]Raven be money [3/5/2006 7:13:16 PM]ash15 there is [3/5/2006 7:13:20 PM]Raven be marital troubles [3/5/2006 7:13:26 PM]Raven they show a lot of tension [3/5/2006 7:13:29 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:13:30 PM]Raven a possible split [3/5/2006 7:13:36 PM]Raven lot of anger there [3/5/2006 7:13:44 PM]ash15 : oh [3/5/2006 7:13:49 PM]Raven to me [3/5/2006 7:13:55 PM]Raven they need to learn to talk to one another [3/5/2006 7:13:58 PM]Raven than shouting [3/5/2006 7:14:00 PM]Raven : or shutting up [3/5/2006 7:14:03 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:14:05 PM]Raven talk around the problem [3/5/2006 7:14:10 PM]Raven dont address it directly [3/5/2006 7:14:10 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:14:15 PM]Raven it makes things worse [3/5/2006 7:14:17 PM]Raven : pushes them apart [3/5/2006 7:14:22 PM]Raven could wind up either separated [3/5/2006 7:14:24 PM]ash15 about my brother, how many children do you see for him? [3/5/2006 7:14:25 PM]Raven : or divorced this year [3/5/2006 7:14:29 PM]ash15 : oh [3/5/2006 7:14:30 PM]Raven at least [3/5/2006 7:14:32 PM]Raven more later [3/5/2006 7:14:41 PM]ash15 many will i have? [3/5/2006 7:14:44 PM]Raven sure hon [3/5/2006 7:14:48 PM]Raven choose your future [3/5/2006 7:14:51 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:14:54 PM]Raven isnt something that just happens [3/5/2006 7:14:55 PM]Raven now [3/5/2006 7:14:58 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:15:01 PM]Raven could wind up pregnant in a few weeks [3/5/2006 7:15:04 PM]Raven choose wisely [3/5/2006 7:15:09 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:15:20 PM]ash15 else i need to know? [3/5/2006 7:15:21 PM]Raven will have at least two.. possibly three [3/5/2006 7:15:26 PM]Raven to take care of yourself [3/5/2006 7:15:29 PM]ash15 : ok [3/5/2006 7:15:37 PM]Raven you can help it [3/5/2006 7:15:40 PM]ash15 : ok [3/5/2006 7:15:45 PM]Raven take care [3/5/2006 7:15:48 PM]ash15 [3/5/2006 7:15:49 PM]Raven have a good night [3/5/2006 7:15:50 PM]Raven [3/5/2006 7:15:53 PM]ash15 2 okay, this is where i am complete scared!! the pregnancy part...the part that mostly scares me is the part where she says that right now pregnancy is a possibility...me and my boyfriend have always used the pull out method our whole 1 and a half we have been together...a couple of nights ago he cummed in me, and i was on my period when we had sex, so we figured it wouldnt matter...yes, its nasty...but i need help, im scared to death! can people get pregnant while on period?! I believe her because she hit the nail on the head about a BUNCH of stuff! Like my brother, he is in a lot of trouble right now, in rehab and all, and my parents do have a lot of stress...and im worried about them divorcing now too!! Does anyone believe in psychics?!? please help!!! im worried!!!

Good advice Ice!! I rhymed, lol..but out of seriousness...that really is good advice. No, it isnt easy to get over someone...it takes time. Keep yourself occupied, be with your friends...and when you are with them, you will realize that the world isnt over with, friends are always there for you...and you ALWAYS have fun with them. It will take your mind off of the pain...and when you are alone at night, i know it is tough, just hold your head up and keep thinking to yourself, "I can do this, i can have better, i am worth keeping and if he or she isnt with me they arent worth it anyways"... and you WILL find someone that will treat you right...you never know, they could be right around the corner!!!

Gary Allan- The One Keith Urban- Making Memories of Us Lonestar- Amazed George Strait- I Get Carried Away George Strait- I Cross My Heart John Michael Montgomery- Home To You John Michael Montgomery- I swear

I am seeing several posts about songs lately. When everyone gets depressed, and like to listen to a sad song to help them cry and get it all out. Post your songs you listen to to help you get through your emotions...when you have problems with your relationship, a break up, parent problems, etc... Several songs that I have are: By the way, if you know the artist, please post their names too, incase someone wants to get the song and listen to it. Country: George Strait- Today My World Slipped Away(old) Randy Travis- I Told You So(old) Keith Urban- Tonight I want to cry(kinda new) Danielle Peck- I don't(new song) Rock: Staind- Its Been Awhile(old) Everlast- What its Like(old) Nickelback- Far Away(new) And there are many more. I am curious as to see what other people put.

When I am depressed I for some reason listen to sad songs...I dont understand that, maybe it is just a way for me to cry and let it all out. Then after a while I will listen to songs about (say for instance if a boyfriend broke up with you) the guy wanting you back, or im over you type songs. Songs during depression I believe help your heart to heal and make you realize that you are not the only person going through this situation, there are many others, and songs are based on real life, most anyways.

Im not quite sure where to put this post, but i was wondering if anyone knew what was wrong with me. My boyfriend and I had sex last night, and while we were having sex, i got this horrible cramp, but we kept going...and now I am still having cramps. This is not my first time, and this never happened before. What can be wrong with me?? Thanks!

anyone else want to give me some advice?

yeah, i have been thinking that, its just so hard. I dont know what to do. The thing is, I will still have to see him because he has to pick me up from school, and i have to stay at his house until my parents gets off work, or he gets off work to take me home...which is from 11:30-3ish

okay, if you read my last post, my boyfriend and i broke up. well, we have been talking about getting back together, but i needed to quit being so negative all the time. Well, I cant stand it, he told me he was going to do what he wanted, but i cant. Like, we spent every single day together when we were together, ALL day. Now, I only see him for like an hour a day. He told me this weekend he was going with his friends to a bar and drink. I was fine with that. I then asked if he cared if i drank this weekend and he told me, "why do you always have to do what i do?" and i said, "me and one of my friends were planning on doing it since sunday"...and he was like oh, and didnt want me to do it. Its like I am only around when it is convenient, and he is trying to be able to tell me what to do, yet he can do whatever. It seems like he is just trying to say he will get back with me and making me wait until he decides hes "ready" to get back with me. It seems like he just wants to be able to tell me what to do, yet he can do whatever he wants. I love this boy with all my heart, and i tried so hard to get back with him. I dont know what to do, but im not waiting on him to make up his mind if he wants to be with me or not forever. I just cant do it. While he is out having fun, im sitting at home not being able to do anything, when i could be out looking for someone who could treat me right, and agree with me, that there should be boundaries for both. I told him we werent having sex any until he decided what he wanted...yet he still tries. No I have not given in on him any, im serious about that. He has porn problems and is addicted to it, and he told me he was going to be looking at porn, which is fine, but i still see that he uses it EVERYDAY, its out of control!...I dont know what to do. All i really want him not to do is abuse the porn, cheat on me, and just treat me right...he hasnt even been spending much time with me, what should i do? PLease help!

thanks a lot everyone! Im headed to bed now, im hoping for a better rest than i had last night. By the way, I did talk to him about 20 minutes ago...and it was like a friendly conversation...and at the end when he was telling me bye, he send me a picture of him hugging me...it hurts, but tomorrow will be better, im sure...i am just worried about tonight. Thanks a lot everyone!

Well, yesterday we broke up, and it has now been over 24 hours since i last saw him. Today was hard. I had times where I was happy, and then all of a sudden my stomach felt turned upside down..everything made me think of him...EVERYTHING. someone asked in my last post how long we were together, we were together for 1 year and 4 months. Well, at 5 this morning, I woke up, and started crying again...put a hot rag on my eyes because they were swolen from crying, and laid in the bed until i finally fell asleep. I woke up again at 9:00 a.m., and I couldnt go back to sleep, I tried to call my friend, but she was at church, and another friend was still asleep. So, I just went and sat with my dog and my bunny and cried and talked to them (i know, its stupid, but dogs cant talk, and you can tell them anything, without hearing them say how stupid you are, and they know something is wrong, so they just love you, and you dont have to worry about them telling other people what you say). Then about at 10:45 a.m., I went and got in the shower, got out and called my friend and she was finally awake. I got ready, and went over to her house. She didnt know we broke up yet, so I told her the story...we hung out. My parents came over there and we went riding 4-wheelers. Me and my friend went riding around, so it was a pretty good day...but now it is night time, I havent heard a word from him, and im lonely. My head is killing me, and I just need someone here with me, someones shoulders to cry on. I am so used to having my boyfriends shoulder to cry on...I am pitiful, i just want to die, I feel like this isnt going to ever end, and my heart hurts...I wouldnt never put this pain on anyone, and I hope that everyone is doing fine and not having to go through the same thing I am, but I know they are. I though he was the one...