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hey guys, i am fighting back, but not with my fists, with my mouth. its the smarter thing to do. if i hit back than i would become the bully. i would be at the same level as her, and i dont want to sink that low. have you ever been bullied? i have, a lot. i said that b4. i dont want to be that person that they look up at while crumpled on the floor. the taste of blood in their mouth, a hideous and terrifying glare coming down from the cause of all that pain. i dont want to be that face, that pain. i know how it feels and even as bad and aweful as jen is, even she doesnt deserve that. no one does. ttyal. byez.

well... hmmm let me think, toggle... this is so hard! oh yeah... maybe you didn't realize... US! We all care about you so much, look, you said so your self that you couldnt believe how many people have viewed and responded to this single post! Your living with your eyes only half open! open them up ALL the way and realize what you will , yes you will, be missing! dont do this. if you became more aware, then you'd realize that this is not something to be thrown away!!! ttyal. byez. think about it !!!

hey guys, your all soo right with your assumptions. today mrs ledger brought me out of class to talk. i told her what happened and she told me what was going to happen. until they decide what to do, jen is suspended for the rest of the week. (yay!) some time next week me jen and the school "phyciatrst"... (i still dont know what exactly her title is...) are going to be stuck in a room together to sort everything out. i dont know why and im not to crazy about it bc thats what happened w/ me and that other girl last year and it didnt work out... but any way, mrs ledger also told me that if jen does not drop it and move on then she will be expelled. so thats pretty much it for today. im gonna be ok for the rest of the week, not that i wouldnt have been, but hey, better safe than sorry. ill ttyal. byez.

you'll want to read this! Hey guys, today was the breaching of the breaking point.... ... or pretty close to it. but before i get to that story, i'll fill you in with the details you've requested for. im just a freshman in high school, so the girl who beat on me last year is no longer involved in my life. the current pain in the butt is also a frshman, shes a skinny little toothepick, but has been involved in many bloody cat fights. the beating i took last year was at my "best and only" friends house... so the school wasnt capable of doing anything about it. in this scenario, her threats and close encounters happen at school, i wait for my ride for like a 1/2 hour after school, so i wait with some other kids in one of the class rooms. so anyway.. its some waht of a long story so ill tell it like a dialogue... k=me, j=her. k? i walked into the classroom after with my stuff and set it down. and she walked past me j- high waters! high waters! k- ....... get over yourself. who gives a *@ if i have high waters? i dont care no one cares. so get over yourself and back off my case. she ran up to me and stuck her face up to mine j- how dare you talk back to me! you dont swear at me, you do not raise your voice to me! then i whispered k- whos the one thats raising they're voice jen? j- im allowed to raise my voice, you are not! so dont act like you can be like me, because you can not! k- you are not superior to me. you need to get a grip andd shut your face for once, just once! j- excuse me, i am superior to you, i thought we covered this.\ k- your sadly mistaken. get over your self. then she got so pissed. she turned bright red and the turned around and pranced to the other side of the romm sayin j- i need to vent! talk to me people! i sat down to tie my shoes and in the mean time her friend megan (m) walked in and started talking to jen. j- she talked back to me. she b*&%#d me. m- you didnt! your in deep *@ now! k- i dont know what i did. i didnt do anything. that set her off again. she got soo mad. she ran over to where i was sitting and leaned over me saying j- if you dont shut your face ill punch it. k- you think im afraid of you. you wrong, im not afraid of you. m- id shut your face if i were you. shell beat on you soo bad! k- she'll try, she wont j- you want to bet? k- im not afraid of you. so back off. and shut up. j- if your not afraid then why did you got to mrs. ledger?? your terrified. k- i know this is hard for you to comprehend, but just hear me out and bear with me... there were 2 possible scenarios... either way you'd get in trouble, the only difference is that you'd be in a world of pain in one of them. j- oh you b*%! your asking for it! im going to beat you so bad you wont be able to talk at all! k- you can try. you wont hurt me. then ppl started to gather around uswhispering to each other "they're gonna fight!" and "oh you're gonna get the *$ kicked out of you" so i turned and walked away. she followed me, and naturally, so did everyone else, hoping they'd get to see a fight.... j- if your not afraid of me than face me! then she grabbed me and turned me around shouting at me to take my best shot. k- im not afraid of you. you're all talk and you know it, i know it too. you can try, but you will fail. im nto going to fight you, i dont want to hurt you. then one of the math teachers ran over and pulled her away telling her to knock it off. i went to check and see if my ride was there, and it was so i went to get my stuff. when i got to the classroom, and grabbed my stuff... m- where are you going? running away now? k- no my ride is here. m- i bet it is. k- ill take that bet. if you dont believe me, than fine. you can, if you want, get up off your #$% and follow me. you can wtch me go get into a car. when i went to go walk out the door, jen was there, 3 girls were grabbing on to her, holding her back. she was strangling to get free from their grasp... she looked like a cat trying to avoid getting dunked in water... she got free and started to follow me. she was reaaaaaaaal pissed. she waas ready to fight. i was heading towards my ride and to sahke her (which was sucessful ) waved. she bolted back inside... lol* so i was safe.... i learned that she ios suspended for 2moro, bc she skipped detention today.... i told my dad about it and he immediately went in to talk to sum1... idk who... i didnt want him to, but he insisted. so thats what happened today. i wont have to wrry about her tomoro, so im . any advise on what i didnt wrong or should have done or should do will be helpful! ttyl. byez.

Hey guys, thanx for the advice again. it helps a lot, but im still uneasy with the whole situation. last year i got beat up real bad... and even though i told my parents, it was as if they didnt hear a word i said. and that's not even the bad part. the worst part is that the whole beating i took, the whole time my "best and literally only" friend stood there and watched. she didnt do anything at all. i know that if i get beat rhen no one will be there to help me like last time. and ill be left to defend myself. im also afraid that her friends that sometimes masquerade as mine will join her in the fight. i was talking to them and one said: "look we dont care about your ass, we care about her's. so dont expect any help from us." thanks again for the advice, ttyl guys. byez.

Today was a good day. it was an A-day. it would of had to put up with this girl during lunch, but the greatest thing happened, about a 1/2 hour b4 lunch the electricity went out at school. it was soo cool. we got to go home. i was really releived, but a lttle upset because i was pumped. i wasnt going to fight her or anything, but i was ready to ignore/tell her off. i wasnt going to let her bother me today. but since the power went out, i got to hang out with 2 of my few friends, joke around and stuff.... i actually enjoyed the day. i wanna say thanks to you guys for your advice. it helped a lot. ttyl. byez.

hi lil_unique_me, I dont know much and ,ay be a little too young to help a lot, but when i cant get my priorities straight, i think about this quote:

hey guys, dont get me wrong or anything, i have been standing up for myself and talking back to her. thats what gave more fuel the the fire she was starting. she was soo upset. the school has been informed, and my parents have been following up with their course of action. i went to talk to the "school 'phyciatrist'"... im not sure what her position is so thats my guess. i feel a lot better, but now everyone seemsto hate me. people have been throwing things at me in class, someone stole and tormented me with my ipod. i saved up for 5 months to get it and they almost broke it! that girl is still talking trash to me, and everyone thinks im a wuss for what i did. i know the worst is over, but i still feel aweful.

please help, sorry its long, the point is stated at bottom though! Hi guys. I have an issue. one that i've neverhad before, andi'm scared. Any help or conoslance would be comforting. I'm lonely a lot. i know it, i accept it. i do have a few friends, but its not like they call me or anything... they're just some oneto talk to..... So during lunch today, i was sityting where i always sit, with my "friends" kim, sarah, and katie e. then this absolutely aweful 24/7 girl walks up and demandsthat i give up my seat to her and her friend. i said no. i always sit there and besides, there was an empty chair right next to me. well, she wasn't happy about that, so she got realmad and continually demanded my removal from my chair. i still said no. then she got soo mad. she told me to get up, she was gonna beat the &*#@ out of me. i still said no. she continued but i ignored her. so she grabbed the chair next to me and dragged it to the opposite side of the table, right in front of me. then she spent the whole lunch yelling trash at me and plotting when and where she was gonna beat me. first she planned that she wasgoing to beat me the moment i got up but then decided to "beat" me after school so none of the teachers would know. i got soo scared!!! i waited to get up from my seat until she left the cafeand then made a dash to the guidance office. i couldnt find my counselor so i found the sophmore counselor... she tool me to the director of student so and so... i toldher everythingand she copied down names etc..... then i went to gym. since i was late i was in the locker room alone... i admit i cried. i cried soo hard. then headed out to the track...... ..... ... during gym ppl weretelling me i was soo "screwed". they were saying "omg!" and sarah said "your in deep %&*#. you dont F&*# with jen. cos she'll F* wiht you." this only made me more terrified. when i got to my next class, the school phyciatrist was there, waiting for me. she wanted to talk to me about what had happened. so i talked toher for a while and then headedto my locker afetr dismissal. Jen was soo mad. she had heard that i had snitched her, and she was so angry about it. i knew she wouldnt pull anythingnow, but that didnt stop herfrom glaring at me and following me around while i was waiting for my ride. just when i wasleaving she started to chase me, saying hey! im notdone with you yet! come back here! and on and on with more threats. im so afraid, i dont know whatsgoing to happen, but i do know this: theres a strong girl pissed at me. i have no friends to defend me. and im weak. please help me im soooooo scared.

Exactly sebaot! it's called Murphy's Law But thats only for the superstitious. Yes, bad things do happen, but there's also ying and yang, everything's balanced. theres an equal good for the bad. i hope things work out. ttyl. bye.

Ouch. Sorry to hear about that just jeff. first, you'll need this: ______________________ /|||||||||.................|||||||||||||\ ||||||||||||................|||||||||||||| \||||||||||................|||||||||||||/ ---------------------------------- A band-aid.... may not have come out that well, but it looked good when i was typing it. I can see that something happened. Something serious, that me, being a 14 year old, would not understand. But i cane say, even though you've probably heard it before, you're going to be ok. i've expierenced the pain of being dumped, or abandoned... although i admit it wasnt as severe. i was devistated. i thought i wasnt gonna be the same again. my parents began to worry because i shut myself up. i didnt talk, i didnt do anything. but then i met this guy, who couldnt be any greater. and now.... we've been dating for 2 years. and im so unbelievably happy. so much happier than i was when i was with the other guy. it can happen to you to. good luck. ttyl. bye.

Hey, This is always the hardest thing. It's great that you two like each other in that sense, and your friendship is a great thing, don't disregard entirely in hopes of reaching the next level. My advice for you is to continue like you've been, don't be pushy because it'll only push him away. If you truly care for this guy and you want a lasting relationship, than take your time. patience is hard, but it is a virtue. Believe me from experience * i know that if you are patient with him (and your self!) then things will workout for the better. Good Luck with you and your friend. i wish all the best. ttyl. bye.

hi Stupid4Her, sorry to hear about you problems. i actually have a fear of that happening to me. im goin to be moving soon. and it'll be an hour and a half away from my bf. im only 14, going on 15 so it'll be a while till we could see each other. im woried so much but i think i can help you, even though i cant relate very well. i think you should ask her how she feels. it won't hurt what you may or may not have, if she loves you she'll tell you happily, if she doesnt, then she'll tell you that. it may hurt, but then you'll know that you can move on. she may seem like "all that" but i felt like that about a guy a while back too. i moved on and now i'm soo much happier than i probably ever could with that other guy. i hope it all works out. ttyl. bye.

hi Toggle. how are you? you have stopped responding to my private messages... its starting to worry me. the reason you havent been hearing what you've been wanting is becasue we care about you. no matter how many times you ask, no one here will tell you how to cut yourself. we want to help you, not hurt you. please write back to me. you started to become a friend, but know i dont know where your head is again. please write me back. and STOP HURTING YOURSELF. it only hurts us to know that our attempts to make someone feel better are failures. ttyl.

Hi ndl24, Ithink you should email him. did you have fun when ever you were around him? even if you didnt, he liked you and as you said had fun when you 2 were together. i heard from a friend that guys never truly stopliking someone.. but im not entirely sure about it so dont be depending solely on that. Life is short and everyday we are getting older. email him and let him know not only how you feel now, but how you felt before. if you really truly like this guy, then he should hear these thingsfrom you. "Life is not about the breathes you take. Its about the moments that take your breathe away". Think of that and even tell him that if you want. i dont know whether or not ive been of much help, i tend to ramble a lot. and i am youngerand less experiebnced in thesematters. good luck.

i havent ever dated more than 1 person at once, but it was done to me once, it made me feel really aweful, for a really long time too. but i got over it eventually.

sorry for caps, but you needto get it in your head that ending your life is not the way out! I dont mean to be blunt but there so many things in this life that are taken for granted, foresaken. Dontgive it up. i wanted so bad at one time, but imstillhere and sooo happy. dont throw it away. im not telling you whatto do. im telling you that there are soo many things you can do with your life dont end it. everyone has the potential to do what they want, if you kill yourself, thats your choice. that'll be what you be remembered as. that'll be what you did with your life. no one will want to remember that. no one will want to remember you. there soo mucvh more i could say... PM me. feel better. ttyl...

Hey S8r55, Im sorry tohere that matters arent improving with your girlfriend. You should go talk to some one.. similar to the authority of my high school counsellor. tell them what youhave been so bold and brave enough totelll us and if he or she sees what i see, they'll feel for you and try to helpin any way they can. you care so much for your girl friend, its evident here. she cares for you too, do the right thing for both of you.

hey again, bwilliams is right. Life is short enough, dont make it shorter than it already is. i hope you feel better and go back on this decision you have made.

hey toggle. dont even talk like that. please. dont even. cos even though it seems really crappy right now, things will and are going to get better. they did for me and they will for you. dont give in to these feelings, cos they're nothing. dont give up... because these feelings are nothing. they only seem big and strong. but they are nothing, they'll come tumbling down, and you'll be a-okay.

Hey, i agree with everyone's opinion in this matter. yes it is her body, but when someone is hurting themselves, their free will should be restricted at least a little. help is definitly needed. shes hurting herself... (stating the obvious... sry) you can help a lot. you really care about her. instead of telling her you should ask her if shes cares as much about you as you do (obviously) for her... then she'll stop. my PE teacher told me once to tell my motyher that. (except it was for her to stop smoking...) she had been smoking for soo long, but she stopped after i said that to her. i hope you achieve the same success. good luck and i hope you and you gf are happy again some day.

hi. "conversational tips"... i need them! i have ... issues. i cant start a conversation or say pretty much anything at all. im a loner.. or what ever you call it... my parents keep saying how they are worried about me. but i dont know what to do to console them... b/c i dont know how to fix this problem. help me out. please. ->

AMEN micheal... lol* listen you dont want to off your self this to shall pass. i used to feel the same way. at the same age too. but im still here and sooo unbelievably happy. try to concentrate on the good in sted of focusing on the dark and depressing things. bad things happen, i know it. the past 5 years for me were a complete hell. so many people care about you and though it may not always seem that way they do. look how many people are responding to your posts... we care.

hi toggle... i know how you're feeling right now.. ive felt that way before. i wanted ot kill myself 2 years ago because life was becoming soo absolutely miserable.. and intolerable. but, as you can see im still here im soo unbelievably happy right now.. i know times are hard for you right now, but dont give in.. i know that you've probably heard so many people say never give up and you shoudln't. i'm 14... soon to be 15. i have a whole in front of me and i can do what i want with it. so can you. you can do what ever you feel like doing... but dont do this. think of your life.. think of yourself... do you really want to be rermembered as the one that offed yourself? ppl wont want to talk about you b/c of your death.. they wont say "hey, remember when..." or nething like that. there wont be that happy memory. nothing. so think about it... b/c this too shall pass. it worked for me.. im still here. and HAPPY. you can be too.

i just started high school, which is a big thing for me: a fresh start and a break away from all the misery of my elementary school years... anyway... im so happy that friends! !!! !!! people want to be my friend, and i am sooo happy about that b/c i never had anyone there who was really a friend.. yesterday though my dad officially got a job on the other side of the sate, which means we'll be moving in 3 months or so... i love finally having true friends, but im not sure whether i should become that close to them, after all, it will only make saying good bye harder... i dont know what i should do: grow close and have a mournful good bye? or should i go back to being my usual self, lost and alone, and leave looking forward to getting away from this place and hvaing friends that i CAN get close to until what ever happens after high school?? i dont know what i should do... if you have any form of advice, or just a simple opinion, feel free to say it. :scramble: