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  1. CustomX
    I've been trying so hard to move on and do thing to keep me busy but out of no where i just collapsed...my heart is beating fast and i cant help it. i just really wish i had her back in my life.....
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    It's been 2 weeks and 3 days since the break up. The last 3 days Ive been feeling good. Now I'm feeling like crap again and I'm hurting bad. I miss her so much again and I'm going insane. I haven't heard from her in a couple of days and I'm beginning to think i wont. We had a 5 year relationship until 2 weeks ago. Now she is with this other guy as soon as we break up and im no longer in the picture not even as a friend it seems like. I never get a call from her asking if im alright. How can somone be so heartless like that and do such a thing to me...
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    Not only am i depressed but i havnt been going to work and im possibly out of a job now because of this. i couldnt call in because if i called and tellt hem i would bust out crying on the phone and i didnt want that happening
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    2 weeks ago of 5 years this christmas my girlfriend broke up with me for the 3rd time. After this i have been deeply depressed. I've been feeling guilty about everything because its my fault. I was driving home tonight from a friends house and i felt like driving the car into a wall at full speed to kill myself. I dont know what to do anymore everytime i think about her with somone else kissing this other guy she is going out with i just want my life to end. Everything i do in my life i fail...i failed as a boyfriend and i failed in school........everything i fail in...i really hate myself alot and just want to die and not suffer any longer.
  5. CustomX
    don't feel bad my life really sucks too. my girlfriend broke up with me after almost 5 years in our relationship and now shes going out with some other guy just after 1 week and 3 days. I'm in so much pain that i just want to end my life. she told me today that shes picking him up tomorrow and taking him to her grandmothers...for thanksgiving =*( i feel so hurt and so shocked i just want to DIE to end my pain and suffering.
  6. CustomX
    well......shes going out with that guy now since last night.... dont really want to live much now anymore.......i hate myself im worthless...its all my fault im a bad person. god i hate living.
  7. CustomX
    no one will come my way no other girls would give me the time of day. im to ugly for people around here.
  8. CustomX
    Its been 1 week and 3 days since my ex broke up with me after almost 5 years of being together! she said she was going to call me tonight but she never did =( this is hurting me so bad because everyday she has been hanging out with this her who she said is just a friend she wants to get to know better. she isnt even upset sad or anything..she seems like shes so happier without me. and im miserible!!! im hurting BADLY seems im getting better then i go right back down in the gutter.....i cannot believe she is doing this to me. she was my first girlfriend and i was her first boyfriend. maybe this has something to do with it?
  9. CustomX
    your not the only one man....im 21 and shes 22 we've been going out for almost 5 years. she met somone else now she said she doesnt think about me much anymore... i just dont get it we wanted to be married to and bam things just happen out of nowhere..i cant explain it. i wish god would tell me why this is happening.
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    Cool.

    CustomX replied to a topic in Getting Back Together

    im in the same situation myself my ex wants to be friends after almost 5 years of going out...i told her i wanted to see her once more and she said i could but i shouldnt pressure her to go back out with me....all im going to do is let out my feelings and hold her and tell her sweety im never letting go of you.....please give me a chance to show you how much i really love you!. dont know if that will work or not but i cant stand not being with her.
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    Hello......basically those girls he looks at are just eye candy and hopfully nothing more. You need to talk to him and find out if he would ever cheat on you with the girls he likes. Its natural for guys to look at other women but looking and touching are two different things. Maybe tell him to stop looking at porn because i know it bothers you alot! And no your not being unreasonable you have every right to make him stop.
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    yes she is young 22 years old she has only had one boyfriend in her life and that was me. she wants to go have fun to and date people she said....ALL I WANT IS LOVE AND TO BE MARRIED whats so hard about that?
  13. CustomX
    My girlfriend just told me today that she doesnt want me anymore for the 3rd time.....now that she met somone else at this club. i really hate my life and i dont feel like living anymore.. ive been with this girl for 5 years. for 3 months she has been lying to me about loving me and wanting to be with me.. i really hate life so much i just want to die and not feel pain anymore.
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    With me i just hate being alone.....especially at home..there is noone to talk to or look at and i hate the fact of being by myself. maybe i picked up this habit by my girlfriend because she lives far away and i get to see her every 3 months and whenever she lives i cry alot and have seperation anxity.
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    I was just wondering if anyone else has this problem too? wherever i go i always want to take a friend with me. I dont like going anywhere alone. and when i do i feel scared and lonely.......does anyone know why i always feel like this?
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    Hey people i need some advice on what i should do for our 5th ann could anyone give me some ideas? i was thinking about a promise ring and i need ideas on how i so do this.
  17. CustomX
    Ive been with this girl for almost 5 years! i wont let go i dont want to...shes telling me to give her 3 months and she said by then we should be back together
  18. CustomX
    Thank you for the support...i talked to her and she says she wants to experiment with other people and if she doesnt have a good experiance she will take me back......
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    My girlfriend broke up with me again first time she broke up with me was in July now she did this last night again...over the phone again! the first time she broke up with me i drove 1500 miles to get her back in my life. then she went back out with me she said she did it because she couldnt stand me upset and hurt. but now she said she cant hold back her feelings and that she doesnt love me like a boyfriend anymore. she said she wants to see what else is out there for her because she said theres always that what if in her mind.She said that though she would like to be married to me in the future because im a good canadent. And also she said i would be alot more mature!. She wants to be able to do what she wants and she said that she doesnt want me to tell her what she can do and not do. im guessing shes tierd of me but...i think in time things will be alright between us again and maybe she will want me back.
  20. CustomX
    First off ill start by saying i'm depressed because of my girlfriend. It seems like she doesnt even love me as much as i love her. She tells me her work is so crappy and shes unhappy where she works that it seems she doesnt like me but she sais its because of her job. she hasnt been the same person after she broke up with me. it really seems im doing all the work to keep the relationship alive! somtimes i feel like cutting my arm up again because im so deeply depressed i dont want to live anymore. please can somone help me.
  21. CustomX
    This is all true. I'm just going through a hard part of my life right now and soon it will pass and make me stronger Thanks for all the support guys.
  22. CustomX
    Everything i do turns to crap im having so many problems right now its not even funny. My girlfriend is far away i have no job i cant find one! im having problems with our relationship..she always seems she doesnt want to talk to me much shes always too busy for me.....i dont feel like living anymore ive been with her for almost 5 years now and this is killing me..i have bad dreams at night im always panicing. My life has come to an end.
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    My girlfriend told me that her love for me isnt passionate like it used to be. We have been going out for almost 5 years ever since 1999 is it normal for the passionate love to go away because we are so used to each other? or am i doing something wrong? she said its because i dont have a job and im not showing her im responsible and mature. could this be the reason that her love has been fading ? please help im about to go crazy.
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    Thats what i really want to do is join a gym...true i did some things that i shouldnt have but im not perfect and she said she wanted that!...she also did things to me too and i took it! she yells at me and makes me upset and cry and my mom said she hears it when we talk on the phone. She hates going to the stores i like going to but i have to go clothes shopping with her! SHE WONT EVEN GO INTO ONE OF THE STORES I WANT TO GO IN. And thats best buy! she said i take too long in that store but shouldnt i get to since i let her go in her stores? Anyways im going up north to visit a friend for a week maybe ill be better then.
  25. CustomX
    Thats really hard to do....i dont want to stop talking to her because i care for her soo much..but if she calls me i will talk to her... i just dont understand why she threw away something good! I was soo good to her i loved her i never cheater on her i called her everyday i was home all the time when she wanted me to be, I never drank did any drugs i was the perfect boyfriend! we talked about moving in together getting married and having kids later on. Right now its very hard to accept what is happening to me because I have to tell my heart that it cannot love this person anymore and that its not going to be loved back. The past couple of nights i wake up in a sweat! waking up knowing im alone and shes out of my life. We talked everyday on the phone for 4 years! and now stopped its not very easy and i hate it!
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