kickedin

thanks guys......i think i like the security of it...i cant take an email saying "i realized this and that or i met someone" rather just not know if she needs something let her call i guess

i blocked it after our fight.....and now that we broke up i wonder if should unblock it since i told if she needs something i will try to be there ofr her.......or just leave it so if its really important it forces her to call....mid you this girl loves to communicate over email even breaking up...

well i think nc is good but when you go through a roller coaster ride like i did for 2 years enough becomes ENOUGH and i want to move forward or close the chapter i know what i want and unfotunately she doesnt want to move forward.....as much as it hurt to get my answers instead of leaving it be which to me was selfish and causing me anxiety ...........if its meant to be it will but i have to consider a lesson learned i miss her but she needed to reciprocate which she didnt or couldnt and a one sided relationship will never work no matter how much you love eachother

read my posts i have dealt with the same...its hard because when you take a break you miss eachother and never deal with issues....dont convince him just tell him you respect it and you need to move on......i did it after not wanting to but the anxiety was killing me

i know shes confident on being alone....i am respecting that totally and letting go this from a girl who two weeks ago says she wants to be alone in a 4 page email we have t day together and she wants to plan a june wedding...we were supposed to be in ny tonight...and now this talk about a turn of events.....i feel bad that she is so wish washy

thanks well at this point in my life i am starting another business wanna build a house and get out of debt totally....so i have goals i wil miss what we had but am realizing you need to have all the pieces to a puzzle to make it complete......she is an honest girl and i trust her that this is what she needs...

hang in there i am in the same boat

it was killing me the suspense i didnt like how i was left hanging so i texted her interested in a friendly cup of coffee she texted: no thank you just not good for me anymore and im trying to move into a new phase of my life maybe some day but not now please take care xxxxx so i am thinking ok leave me hangin some more.......i texted her so i guess i should move on without you in my life then? i knew she would dance in circles......never closing a door she texts: dont know wht the future holds for me but you need to do whatever you need to do so whatever you mean by that then do it i texted: ok xxxxxx i respect how you feel just hope your "new phase" isn't cause you met someone else like you did last january (she met some guy he she became friends with nothing serious) before we broke up) she texts: i swear on my sister the only man in my life is my god and i am learning to survive without anyone else to blame but myself regardless do what your heart leads you to do xxxxxx take care i text: my heart led me to you but it got returned to sender thanks for clarifying that cause i was confused i will always be there if you need "ME" sent another text: the first part was supposed to be a joke with lol after sender at this point i am thinking that she is done and might have been pissed at the context of "ME" meaning like if she wants to have well you guys know lol so i waited and sent one final text: xxxxx, i wasnt taking a shot at you with my last text and if you do need me for anything just call and i ll try to be there as best i can please be carefull no response and i dont expect one..thanks would have been nice and to break up on our 2 year anniversary(actually its tomorrow) is crappy but i think she is dealing with major confusion that is tearing me up and we arent right and i dont know if we ever will be i will cross that bridge if it comes up she was very special and i dont think she likes to be divorced at 34 and never had kids......kinda depressing

just woke up and really sad.......you know if she was thinking i hated her why wouldnt she call me ...i read her text over and over and it doesnt make sense its like she never said i am glad you were a part of my life too or i was thinking about you or i hope you are ok too.......not even answering my question that she is ok......what the frig? and now i am wondering whats really going on........as much i want to chase her i know if she cared things would be different...to me her text was cold and all about her........ i am so lost frustrated and hurt!!!!!!!!!!!

i broke it....... 7 days

thats deep

i am still unhappy but better i had a rough day she was going to a wedding....so i texted...."hi just want you to know that you were a big part of my life for the last 2 years and i hope you are ok no matter where we are at this point; i am praying for you now i didnt think i would get one because of how bad she went off on me and two cause she was at a wedding and had a miilion reasons not to answer so 35 minutes later i get this...... "hmmmm thought you hated me after i went off on you glad you feel this way i pray for you too take care i know she is confused because of all the stuff we have been through which i cant handle anymore.......i dont want to read into her text good or bad cause i can do both i think i just like the fact that i feel that i got what i was feeling off my heart at that moment even though i was strictly nc...but something just pierced me today to do it....... opinions? oh and i didnt respond

i feel the same here

i just keep beating myself up.......i want to call her and talk i know shes goin to a wedding tonight alone, we were supposed to go to ny on sunday for the night as we do every december it would have been our 2 year anniversary....we havent spoke in 7 days nothing at all i am hoping and praying that her being at a wedding and our anniversary shocks her back to what shes losing but thats just me hoping and holding on to a dream that i should really let go.....

sounds like my chick

shes just such a good girl but i dont like where i am it

your right i fell in love with how she was during her marriage vicariously through my friendship with her brother and what she could be to me after the divorce.......i will say she is messed up though its ashame

she was my dream girl my best friends sister...imet her once in 94 and again in 99 when she was married..i said to her bro " i marrying your sister" he said shes married i said well shes gettin divorced in 2004 it was on.........so my dream came true but what a dream ot hasnt been and i think ijust dont want her to give som guy what i have been longing for

just doing it...is what everyone says....that you dont need to announce it.....its just that our last contact ended ina bitter unwarranted fight whether it was an excuse to get away or not i dont know but i dont like how it was left....i blocked her emails so she is forced to call or see me...because she always has a habit of writing a long break up email and gettting off her chest because she isnt strong enough to see me and do it to my face

true being available when she wants has gotten me nowhere...she knows shes got me so..... but i feel what i was going to write was neutral

guys you all have been there for me....with my emotionally unstable girl.....its ashame but i want to call her and say something like " i know you are fearing getting married again and our arguments have been over surface shallow stuff....so i dont want to be at odds with you ( a girl who i care about) i understand we are not seeing eye to eye on our relationship and the fight we had was unwarranted i just dont like how i feel......but i care for you and it is evident that you arent ready for this relationship or mariage no matter how much we feel for eachother...i dont want us to hurt eachother more then we have to the point wehate eachother.....so take this time to examine your hurts your fears your pains maybe your dreams but i know that i cant live hurting everyday wishing things were different....i am sorry things are this way i am not blaming anyone here just sorry that two people who were once crazy(and still are) eachother cant "get it right" at this point in our lives so I am stepping away for now(whether or not i have that choice at this point doesnt really matter) and if our hearts lead back to eachother so be it if not so be that too. Thanks for making the good times together great memories" but then i feel like a fool....and lack a backbone....and she would expect it.......i dont know i am so confused i know shes going to a wedding and i am gutted to think if a guy asks her to dance.......and they hit it off......just cause shes mad at me or think it is a sign or somthing....ugggghhhh!!!!!

wake up and wonder how can she do this? is it worth giving her time in my mind i know shes messed up but why should i hurt for her...

i just want to stan dmy ground at this point if she comes back around i love her and i know i need to do it

You Are Correct....i Think If I Leaver Her Alone And Get A Backbone And Say No......she Will Realize I Am Not A Yo Yo