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Dude, sorry you are having a rough time. The exact same thing happened to me 9 months after we split. She had got involved with another guy and had been living with him 600km away. She was supposed to spend Christmas with him but came back early and hated the place and they fought so much. She said she didn't even know what he was to her and that that she is just having fun now. When she called to meet up I also was off guard but went up to be a stubborn guy and to prove my metal. I was cool too. She was drunk and acting childish and plonked herself in front of me and wanted to talk about the relationship. I said to just leave it in the past and look forward, forget the bad, bitter breakup and remember the awesome stuff we did together. She insisted we chat and like you, when I indulged her she just brought up the past and was nasty to me. It was like trying to reason with a kid. On Christmas day I got and apology sms. What the other guys said is spot on. She is contolling and manipulative. She is also trying to pick a fight so you blow up and then she can say "See, I am right in leaving him!" As long as you remain cool, she doesn't get the satisfaction. She is probably young and thinks she knows everything whereas you sound like you have had some good life experience before. She needs to have a guy cheat on her or truly break her heart before she looks deep within her core and says "Who am I and where did I go wrong?". Then, and it may be a few years down the line, she will contact you and realise you were a catch. By that time you will not be thinking of her and will probably be married with a dog. This is exactly like my ex.

Hi all I am back here again 1 year after my heartbreak. Background is below: Since then she is apparently with her new boyfriend still. Some of my mates have met him and say he seems like a decent bloke. They did long distance (600km) and see each other on weekends when they can. The other night my mates showed me a text from her that said she had pretty much made up her mind to relocate there next year and has to decide by end March. This weighed on me because I have been doing so well lately and tried not to ever ask about her. In between the pasted link episode and now she wished me happy birthday, I wished her happy 21 and she replied with thanks for thinking of me and stuff. I have also revisited lots of other exes - 1 from 18 months ago, 1 from 7 years ago and 1 from 12 years ago. All 3 of them and I are on good terms and ended up kissing with them telling me I am such a good kisser. I have been lightly involved with many but none have provided the spark that I once felt...and if I never feel that again I will never commit. So, this weekend I was week and last night I texted her a friendly one asking how her life has been and she should let me know how she's doing sometime. She texted back and told me "In the words of (my name) rather not contact me". I had sent one like that after our meeting in the pasted link above. So I sent one back saying I thought we were past all that, it's a pity and thought we were on good terms. She replies and says that the reply birthday text was a general one sent to all and life comes full circle - you get what you give. Night. So I just said to soften her heart a little because it has so much to give to the world. Night. I mean come on. If she was really happy in her relationship, she would have just been polite or not replied. Look, it ended nasty from both sides but let's be mature...it's been a year. I suppose she is just being nasty still because she either holds a grudge forever or is just not giving me what I want. She knows I am a fun, bubbly easy-going person who has lots of mates and no enemies...so by her doing this she feels "on top". Darn. Maybe it's just the challenge I love. I will have to give it more time and I WILL keep trying to make peace. Any advice? Thanks

Kellbell, just curious, did he ever try and come back again after you were firm with him?

newts, she ended it...and it hit me like a bombshell. I think DN is probably right. I just can't be a friend with someone who I wanted to marry and then who booted me. DN, I am trying to understand myself more now. I have a great career and a lot going for me but I have chosen to be single 7 months now so I can rediscover myself. Before that I always had a girlfriend. Poco, I am not into games. I put all my cards on the table and if you don't like that then sorry. The only reason I didn't want to speak about the relationship was to safeguard myself. I didn't want old feelings to resurface and to keep things light. Oh, she also keeps mentioning an email I sent her months back. One of those ones that you should write and never send...except I did. It poured out my heart to her. She keeps saying that she has re-read it again. Why not just delete it?

Hi fairie and thanks for the quick reply. You sound very mature for 19. I also think there is a bit of a power struggle but I have been very good about admitting fault and have told her so much nice stuff about her. I really do want the best for her whether it's with me or someone else. She hurt me terribly but I have never felt something like this connection before. I thought this was the one. I shouldn't even think about a reconciliation but I reckon we could work if she had had her fun. It's like running a marathon and hurting so much after and then your muscles heal and you come back for more the next year... I forgot to mention she texted me at 20h40 on Christmas day: "Merry Christmas. I'm sorry for being a * * * * * the other night. I hope you had a good day with your family. T". I'm not worried about the self-esteem thing. I am a very humbe bloke but I have no problem speaking to people and I feel I could hook up tomorrow. However, I am just biding my time until I feel ready to give fully to someone.

Hi all I am a very logical person (engineer) and like to try and figure out why people do things. It can sometimes eat you up as there are not always logical answers. Anyway, a girl I dated broke up with me at the end of March. The relationship was intense (probably a bit much for her - she is 20, I am 28) and we had a special connection. The ending started well and ended nastily (emotionally driven stuff). We didn't speak for ages. Even now the contact is rough and from her side only. She got involved with a guy 600km away about 3 months ago. I have dated lightly and met loads of girls but have chosen to be single for a while until I am happy with who I am. Recently she went up to live with him and ended up coming home early. From what I have heard they fought a lot and need a break from each other. She hated it up there. So I get this call asking me to join her and our mutual mates. I wasn't going to go but I did because someone said I should make an effort. She avoided me most of the night and was drunk. When the mutual mates left she plonked herself in front of me and wanted to talk about the relationship. I told her 'no' it was now in the past and let's just remember the good times and carry on. She insisted and when I indulged her she proceeded to rip into me and tried to make me feel bad about myself...saying I have low self-esteem, can't sit still, need to focus on myself and stop worrying about others for a change etc. She also went to my ex-ex's work and said something nasty to me about her (we dated 5 years and are mates now). It just drained me. I think about it now and it's insane because I think afterwards that I should have said this or that but I just kinda get sucked in by her. We both have very strong personalities. She sounded really confused about some stuff and contradictory. Since the breakup I have seen some nasty side to her but she also has a smile to die for and a beautiful caring and gentle side to her and I love that in a girl. My one mate says I should make more of an effort with her but I don't feel I can for fear of rejection (still have deep set feelings for her but keep it to myself). I call and the phone is not answered or similar. Is she just trying to make herself feel better by tearing me down? Is she not giving me the rest I need in just letting go of the guilt I feel for the bad breakup? I hate holding grudges but she does hold one. My other mate says the new guy was just a front to make me jealous and when that didn't phase me she tried something else to push my buttons. He says she has lots of issues now - more than when we dated. Does she still have feelings for me...or just taking out her frustrations of the new guy on me? I mean why call me? I asked her this. She said she wanted things to be normal around mates. Why doesn't she act civil around me then? I was until she brought up the past. I can tell you we had 1 issue...trust. Pretty important in a relationship I know. I suppose at 20 everything is someone else's fault, you can do nothing wrong, you are spoilt, you don't know much about love yet. It was like trying to reason with a kid. Any comments guys? Why does she do this to me? She has probably heard that I am out enjoying myself and getting over her. I was cut up for ages but I feel like I am just turning the corner.

Hi guys my full story is here: link removed Hi guys It's been about 6 months since the split. We only dated 6 months but it sure was electric and the connection was intense. Felt I could marry this one. She is young (21 in March, I am 29 in Jan.) and when it ended we briefly reconciled and then it ended with confusion from her side and questions and lies about a married dude. Well I finally called her after some periods of SMS games which I was allowing to mess with my head. She came over to a pub and we caught up. We said some thank yous and apologies and got stuff off our chest. I battled to sleep that night but after that it was cool because I felt like the animosity between us had gone and a weight had been untied from my neck. I sent her a single message the next morning saying she is doing great and still looks hot and she knows my number if she ever wants to chat. Thanks for being brave and coming over to mend a fence and take care. About a week later she texts to say "U said the other night that you weren't over me. I am not really such a great person. There are better people out there than me. Go fish night." I didn't reply. I do over-analyse stuff which is wrong – guess because I am an engineer. My take is that she: 1) is still feeling guilty and wants me to get another girlfriend so she can feel at rest 2) was wanting me to say "no I like you". It's not like I am crying myself to sleep every night. I am fishing and she will have heard from my mates. The other night I was out at a pub with my mate and she came in with 2 friends. My mate said to finish my beer and we should go. Instead I went for a pee and passed by her table. I refused to let her ruin the evening and I just wanted to be normal. Spoke to her 2 friends for a while and said to say hi to T from me when she got back. She immediately came over twice in the evening to our table and spoke to us. Conversation flowed so well and freely and I was really chilled. I noticed she was wearing the ring I gave her. I know that doesn't mean anything. She just liked it. I hugged them all goodnight and there has been no contact since. Look I was a mess when we split because I made her the centre of my life then POOF – gone. . You feel like a ship without a rudder suddenly. I was also so disappointed with the way I handled the break-up because it's so not like me but with all the confusion and emotions it was hard to suck it up. I like to try and be a good guy, see the good in everyone and every situation and most people generally enjoy spending time around me. I feel healed now – like running a marathon and feeling so sore at the end and then going back and doing it all again next year because you forget the pain but there is something you like about it. I haven't felt happier in my entire life. I am working out, feeling great and talking to loads of girls. I know she has issues but gosh do I have a soft spot for her. I wish that we could try again some day. She just needs time to grow up – 2 years maybe. I am not going to wait around and I think I should just be chilled because that's what she likes about me. My mate was her youth pastor and is talking to her and she says she just wants to have no issues. She apparently doesn't talk to this married dude any more and his wife has had a kid. Last night I popped into a pub for my mate's birthday. There was a gathering of mates but we share a mutual circle of friends. Gosh it was so awkward and different to the other night. It was like we were both pretending that we were fine and then she hugged everyone goodbye and I had to make the effort to say hi to her before she left else she would have just gone. I just wanted to say "Hey, whatsup?" If nothing ever happens then she has taught me a whole heap of stuff, the main things being that my ex-ex of 5 years was so so wrong for me, that there are loads of girls that would get with me, not to get to into girls too easily and not to get with the first girl straight away and then try and make it work at all costs. I have taken this very seriously and read up so much to try and improve myself. Any advice at this stage?

Hi all I dated a girl who I loved dearly and when we had sex she said it was her first time. We are broken up now (big broken heart) and I think back a lot. I heard that girls bleed if it's their first time. Either that or it is really sore. She just told me it was only sore for the first stroke and then felt great after that. She lied a lot to give me a good girl image. I am not experienced so I wouldn't know. Was she telling the truth? Thanks

I was supposed a mate at a pub last Wed. He was tired and I ended up speaking to another one. Him and his girl recently split and we were chatting. I felt this burning desire to right the wrong with my ex and so called her and it was amazing...she picked up. I spoke a whole lot of stuff straight from the heart and then she came over and we chatted. It was a bit awkward at first and then we seemed to gel like old times again. We said some thank yous and some apologies and caught up again. Whew and the head got racing and the heart got pounding again. In the end her 2 male mates came over and started joking around by our table. I said it was time for me to leave. Plus the new boyfriend was calling. I wished her all the best and said to call if you ever wanna chat. I will leave her now because I respect the fact that she is in a new relationship. I am not jealous. I just want her to be happy in life - whether that involves me in some way or another is up to her. That night seemed to race by and I couldn't sleep properly as the mind ticked over, but I have to let go 100% and focus on ME and take any lessons from the relationship, fix them, learn from them, not worry about her. There IS a reason for this. That I am sure of. But I feel as if a weight has been untied from my neck and the anomosity between us has gone. Next time we bump into each other we will be able to see each other in a different light I hope. I like to be mates with people so I see this as a step forward in my life. I was a bit p!ssed that the new boyfriend had called right in the middle of our convo and the fact that she had asked these guy mates to come as backup. If she had any respect for me she wouldn't have done that. Almost like she wanted to hurt me. I just sent her a text wishing her well with the new guy said I knew she would choose well and to call if she ever wanted to chat. I won't call again. She also denies having ever cheated on me or kissing the married guy. Yet she told a mate of mine in mid-June that she had only done so after we broke up. She then says she only told him that stuff because she was on a high after kissing some other guy. She also claims that the married guy's has just had a baby which I'm not sure is true. I actually don't know what is true and what is rubbish anymore. I question myself and whether I am the fool. I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore and my self-esteem has been sent reeling...and I think she likes that. Part of me suddenly realises that this girl lies so much that she doesn't know what she even said. I take everything at face value and only when I sit back after the convo do I actually think "Hell that was such a lie but her reassuring way told me otherwise at the time". Yeah still think about it a lot but I have learnt so much from this. I would love to badmouth her and say that she is a cheating, lying, manipulative, seductive (she knows what guys like to hear), adultress who has no respect for me or my feelings and the way she hurt me. However, I am not like that. I do like girls with issues and a challenge though. However, a girl like this is just insecure and young. Whether she will change with time I am not sure. I think she will marry someone with a big heart but right now she wants to be this tough independent unemotional gal. Whew, and the mutual circle of friends makes it hard too even though we have not seen each other until this meeting you just keep hearing titbits like broken down telephones. Thanks for listening...

Hi all Has anyone had a similar experience. I have spoken to loads of people and have found the following: - My mate Lance´s ex came back after 6 months NC, she apologised, he accepted and they are engaged now. - My mate Dwight´s ex returned 6 months later, drove 600km, broke down, begged for him to get back - he was with somebody else and told her where to get off. - My mate Lauren got back together with her ex after 6 months (they are split now but mates after some time passed). - My mate Jordan went back to his ex 7 months later (also split now). - My mate Dave and his ex got back together after 6 months. Is there any pattern here? I know it depends on loads of things (duration of relationship, how it ended etc.) but is 6 months the time when exes usually can start communicating...ie they are healed up? Any comments?

Why does she want a reaction or to mess with my head? Is it a one-up-manship, to see if she can still play me, to see if I still will reply and feel for her. Does it give her some sort of power or revenge?

Hi all We broke up the end of April. She was my everything and we got on so well for 6 months, there's no denying that. In hindsight she is still young (20 ) and probably wants to explore her options and felt a bit smothered. The breakup was sudden, brief period of friendship, a weeks reconciliation and then she called it off. It took a nasty turn and there were nasty exchanges from both sides and now she "hates" me. I tried calling and messaging a few times after some periods of NC but got shut down in the process. The latest has been 2 months of strict NC. I have only heard titbits from people. Loads of people have seen her by accident but I have not. I have been working out in the gym, paddling, swimming and going to Church. I visit enotalone often and have learnt so much about myself, life and relationships in general. I treated her like gold (except at the end in the breakup when I did some stupid stuff) but I don't think she was ready for a committed relationship. Well Tuesday night at 11:30pm I get a message from her friend's phone saying "MUCH LIKE SUFFOCATING!" It woke me up and I knew it was my ex that wrote it and I just thought she was trying to mess with my head. I ignored it. An hour later a reply from my ex's phone "Sorry about that sms. It was just words to a song. Sent it to loads of people." I ignored it again. The next day I mentioned it to a mate at work and he said that was words from a song. So after a Google I found it was a song from Chevelle – Send the Pain Below. - Was she venting at me when she heard this song? - Was she drunk? Probably if she was with this mate and at this time. - Does she still have unresolved feelings with me? - Was she trying to re-open contact with me or tell me something? - Why even bother to apologise? It's not like I took the first message seriously…and I am sure she didn't send it to loads of people from her mate's phone. I know I am probably making a mountain out of a molehill here and it makes no sense to analyse the what ifs...this is not really consuming me THAT much but I do think about her every single day. Look she hurt me SO badly when she left so unannounced. I was really devastated and a mess. Now I am a lot stronger and more of an individual in all aspects. I went through a mad stage where I kissed about 10 girls and had feelings for about 2-3. When I got involved with one I had to cut ties because it was moving too fast and feelings for the ex came rushing back. I was spilling my heart on this new girl and it was not fair. Right now I feel like my heart is closed and I would rather wait for that someone special and just work on me. If the ex were to come back I know it would have to be with a lot more direct and less cryptic signal. However I think she has a lot of pride. She doesn't like to appear emotional and puts on this tough front. I have never seen her cry. She is hanging with the wrong crowd and I know she will return to her Church circle of friends one day. You see I was her confirmation leader about 4 years ago. A mate said to me once, give her space – what is 2 years in the context of a lifetime. When she left she said she was confused so that's why I am leaving her alone to work stuff out in her head. She has probably heard from my mates that I have been flirting in the past and stuff. I have also made a plan to go overseas for a 6 month attachment for work so she can see I am trying to move on. I feel good, my complexion is great, have got new clothes and am thinking clearer again. However, I can't lie and say I am completely over it because when I think about her deeply I get this gut-wrenching pain in my chest. Can't say I am yet indifferent whatever the future holds. I know that if we were ever to chat I must forget the past, listen to her loads and move at her pace without being a doormat. Thanks for listening. The lyrics to that song are attached – pretty cryptic song as well. Not sure what it means either ?? CHEVELLE - Send The Pain Below Lyrics I liked, Having hurt, So send the pain below, Where I need it. You used to beg me, To take, Care of things, And smile at the thoughts, Of me failing. But long before, Having hurt, I'll send the pain below, I'll send the pain below. Much like suffocating, Much like suffocating, Much like suffocating (I'll send the pain below), Much like suffocating (I'll send the pain below). You used run me away, All while laughing, Then cry about that fact, Til my returns. But long before, Having hurt, I'll send the pain below, I'll send the pain below. Much like suffocating, Much like suffocating, Much like suffocating (I'll send the pain below), Much like suffocating (I'll send the pain below), Much like suffocating! I can't feel my chest (chest, chest), Anymore, Drop down, Cause I am, (?) I can't feel my chest (chest, chest) (RAHH!!!.) Drop down! (RAHHHHHH!!!.) I liked, Having hurt, So send the pain below, So send the pain below (Much like suffocating) (I liked), So send the pain below (Much like suffocating) (Having hurt), So send the pain below (Much like suffocating), So send the pain below (Much like suffocating), So send the pain below.

Hi all. My story: I had an awesome relationship with a girl of 20 (I am 28 ) and that ended when she dumped me at the end of April after I treated her like a princess. Big heartache but finally coming out of it. All through the breakup I confided in a mate of mine who is neutral to our circle of friends. Lots of emails, occasional texts and calls. However, all along I saw it as just being mates, as I'm sure she did. She really helped me a lot and I can see she is an awesome girl. She also went through a similar situation but 11 months ago where her guy cheated on her and she ended up in a bad place too. We joke a lot about people we meet and stuff. We send serious and joking mails. However a couple of weeks ago I told her I had met some awesome girl 'A' and we were hanging out. She then made an arrangement to pick me up and take me to a bar and then drop me back with 'A'. She then socialised with her mate next door and came over later. When I chatted to her then 'A' got jealous and was all over me. I apologised to her that night and the next day and she played it super cool saying I must have fun and take a year off like she did and kiss lots of girls. Before this night it never even crossed my mind that we were more than mates. I have since told 'A' that there is no more between us. I also emailed 'S' and said I think we should hang out more and in the group and stuff and then if something develops it will. She agreed and said that's exactly what she wants. She also said there must be no pressure else she runs. Our group of mates met out on Wed. and everyone kept asking me what was going on between us and that there is clearly attraction from both sides. My sister is mates with her and said that she likes me a lot she just wants me to be totally over my ex before anything happens. I suppose she is being cautious because she has seen while helping me how much I loved her and how slowly I moved on. Problem is there have been SO many setups and when I try and catch her eye or make a connection it seems like she is trying to play it cool or something. My dilemma: This is the type of girl I could marry and I am sort of scared of settling into that right now. Part of me wants to party some more but I don't want to lose this opportunity. She has been single for 11 months now but I can see she is ready for something. I am not sure whether I am. What if she meets someone? Everyone knows that it will be good for me and is saying not to let the opportunity pass. When I get in a relationship I treat girls well and I am faithful. Problem is now I don't know whether to make the moves now or to just sit back and take her cues. If I appear too keen it might send her running like she said. Yesterday was the first time I didn't get an email or sms back from her. Normally when I like a girl the spark is instant and it progresses quickly. In this case I think we are both just being protective because of our past. Some people say go big others say back right off and she will come to you if she likes you enough. Advice?

Hi there Well I can relate totally to your situation. I had a girlfriend of 5 years and she never trusted me - right to the end. She kept hinting at it and I tried to convince her otherwise that she had no reason to worry but eventually I reliased she was not for me and ended it. Then, 3 months ago my gorgeous girlfriend of 6 months who I did everything for, was a breath of fresh air, an absolute dish and princess, so affectionate, kind caring and everything I could ever want in a woman DUMPED me out the blue like you. After posting on this forum someone said something like "Sounds like you never trusted her." At the time I didn't believe it but looking back I hassled her a lot about her smoking behind my back when she told me she had quit. I also questioned her weird relationship with her married climbing partner. She have me reason to because she said she would like to kiss him and stop there. Her and his wife never got on or spoke either. Eventually she broke it off and I never thought she would. The best advice is to do no contact. Delete her number off your mobile now. I know you are in a pit of despair but you have to do it to stop you doing something you regret when you get angry with her. Stay away from alcohol and get into the gym. I went through the same stuff and I sent some stuff that I regretted the next morning and I think I have ruined any chance of a reconciliation. I had a mate and she dumped him, he stayed away with no SMS, call, stayed away from places she went for 6 months and then she returned and now they are getting married. Look I know you are in agony now but she knows your thoughts for her. If you do nothing now she will start to wonder how you have got on so easily with your life again....and MAY call you. You have to be strong there. Keep contacting her and begging and wailing and I promise you that you will screw it up. If you have another chance, work on the trust. I know it's easier said than done because you are in a mire and this lady is a goddess, your world, the one you thought you would marry but DO IT BUD.

Thanks barryttt, nice to know that someone is in the same boat as me. How long have you been broken up? How is it going? Do you still love her and want her back? That is the goal right? You are burning up inside but you have to act happy. In my case I work at a big corporate and I maintain a policy of "Never dip your pen in company ink!"...for the very reason that I like to keep business and pleasure separate and if we ever broke up it would be terrible. We seem to be staying off each other's turf. She is at a local pub drinking beer and socialising almost every night. I am at nightclubs and see some of her climbing mates that I greet but try my best not to speak about her with. I think it's best to stay off each other's turf for a while. It only sets me back. The other night I get a text asking me for my mate's new number. Now I know she has it already and they don't talk - so she is just wanting to set me off thinking. I wait about 20min and thought about just sending a business card but instead sent the number and said I was just washing the sweat off me in the bath. She replies "Is that supposed to make me horny?" I knew this was faulty since she had just sent me a nasty one in the day. I replied saying no and it was just the reason I didn't reply straight back like I usually try to and what would make me think I can still do that? She then responds with an even lustier one. I reply curtly. She then says her friend took her phone and SMS'ed me. So I say "Hi Bxxx, hope you are well". She immediately calls as she now doesn't want to bring her female friend's name down. I answer and hear she's at the pub and she says "Tell him it was you, tell him it was you Gxxx". I hang up...not in the mood for any more games. She apologises later and I said it's OK just to look after herself. Night. She says "Why do you care". I say I do like a brother not a lover and I know she will dothis for me. She says "I will do nothing for you. Why do you think I will?" I mean why even waste your money with this rubbish? Not sure why she called. If it was out of impulse or emotion to save her friend, to hear if I was out, how I sounded. Who cares. But it certainly sets you back a bit and thinking and doesn't help you sleep. The next week my friend and I go to that pub and I know she is there 'cos her car is outside. My heart is beating SO hard that I cannot even look at her. I stuck to the restaurant section and on leaving I notice she is at a table of 5 guys...I tried not to look again and walked out...but gutted inside. Later I get an SMS saying "Same SMS again?" Either it was sent to the wrong number or she or "Gxxx" were just playing around again. I ignore. Perhaps I am clutching at straws but love and hate are very close. I think she did really like me but at 20 I think she is scared of committing to me only and wants to travel, see what's out there and stuff. I think she had strong feelings for me but is running from something. She told me she is angry at her own feelings. She was in my confirmation class about 4 years ago so she was trying to let all her Church mates know she was all innocent but wants the climbers to know she is all streetwise. I hated that. When she is caught out she cuts people out her life...just like that. She has done that with a good few...but is still very woo'ing if she needs them back. So, it's NC for me. If she SMS'es I will be curt or will ask her exactly what is her motive for getting in contact. If she wants to communicate I want to talk...no more games...I am not into that and I am 28. I am exercising a lot and hope to be able to give off a glowing, happy look if I see her. It's tempting to try and ask her mates stuff but that will also show I am not over her. Oh, one last thing...her one mate said my ex's way of dealing with her feelings is to not speak to me. Also, my housemate said she is too young for any relationship. She tries to act big but still watches cartoons 'n stuff...in 3rd year varsity! He said she is running from her own feelings and is angry at herself and if she had to sit in a room by herself and think she would break down. She always tried to act tough around me and I never saw her cry...when she was about to she just walked away. Despite all this I still love her SO much but I have to move on. Some days I feel like I am in a pit and other days (like today) I am on top of the world. Cheers, thanks for reading.