Laura Ashley

Heya peeps! I have been thinking for a while now and I was just wondering What is the difference between love and crush. I asked a few people and the conclusion was that they all think "True love" is when you can be with someone and not look at someone else and "a crush" seemed to be where you think someone is quite fit and gorgeous etc... So what do you think? I mean are you a bad person if you are comitted too someone but you find someone else attractive? That seems to be a breaking point in any relationship isn't it? I have never had a boyfriend before, but I'm still young. But It's just that I find some people attractive but how do you know if it's love or a crush? Just needed some brain waves here. Thanks for your time Laura xx

Look! Im not an abused child. My parents just have a bad temper I mean sometimes it goes too far. Im not beaten everyday but I do get hit occasionally and to have the screaming at me! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!

that I don't know what happened to the money. dishonest I know but if I could tell you more I would but I fear no one will uderstand. I seem like a b***t now but I have reasons. I'll explain when the time is right.

Hiya peeps, I told my sister the truth about what happened. She was more supportive than I thought she would be. I was at first a bit reluctant to tell her because I didn't want her to be ashamed of me. She wasn't I told her what happened. I know why I did it but that bit of info I'm keeping to myself because (no offence) but I'm not sure if you'd understand. I'm not one for doing anything like that. I'm a good person. I just loose it sometimes and I'm a real worrier too. I got sick to the stomach when I heard about those to girls that went missing from the uk a little while ago. I think they were Holly and Jessica. (I think that was their names) I also worry about this war in Iraq, and why should I be bothered I don't live there! I wish I wasn't such a worrier. I think it would make me more confident in life. I haven't had an easy up bringing. Most of the time I have to listen to my mum slag my sister off and my brother. Thats so hard for me to listen too because my brother and sister are the most important people in my life. Anyway I feel better. My sister told me to stick to my story and she will stand by me. which is great because I wasn't expecting that at all. Thanks peeps Laura. P.s thanks MarkUK for telling me to tell my sis it helped a lot. I'll keep you all informed and hopefully it will blow over. I hope... Laura xx

but in the end the will find out. the police will tell my parents about abuse. they don't hit me all the time but sometimes they do. What if I did go to the police and they took it further? and how would I explain about the £40? Im 15 I don't think I should be going through this. It was an accident and I didn't plan it I swear. Laura

isn't that abit insulting? I mean it feels like your saying "Join a club where the brainy peoples go because stupid ones aren't allowed!" Its sounds a bit discriminating to me. Some people have a reason for why they aren't as intelligant as they should be.

Look. If I told them the truth I would never hear the end of it. I'm stressed enough as it is with school. They don't know half the stuff I go through each day everyday. I told them I was getting bullied before and my mum yelled at me saying "If you get beaten up its tough s**t because i'm sick of battleing for you!" I'm a natural born worrier. It's too late to tell the bank now anyways because the forms have been sent off. My mum is in a good mood at the minute and do you know how often she's in a good mood???? VERY VERY RARE!!!! I want this to blow over but tomorrow noon it's probably all going to come out anyway when the bank of scotland have investigated the case. Lets face it my life is crudd now so whats the point of trying to make it better when everytime I try things go from bad to worse. laura

because my mum and dad don't know that I forgot to pick the money up! I never told them I left the money in the machine by accident. I took my card but I forgot to get the money! I told my mum and dad there was no money to draw out. So he thinks there is a scam going. If I told my mum and dad the truth they would hurt me. They love me but they are very badly tempered. Thats the problem. when the bank get hold of my dad tomorrow. They will see that I left the money in the machine and that there was no fraud at all. However, its looks like me and my dad are conning the bank for an extra £40!

Hello im Laura, I went to draw about £40 out on saturday and I forgot to pick it up rom the machine. I don't know why I did I have never done that before. I didn't have the guts to tell my mum because she would really have layed into me. She has such a violent temper. So me and my dad (as im only 15) went to my branch because my dad thinks someone has hacked into my account. We filled in some forms and now we have to wait for a responce. The bank in scotland are going to have an investigation going. If they can prove its fraud I will get a refund if not then its our fault that we never got the money. If the result comes back as not been a fraud me and my dad look like we have a scam going. This was never my intention. Im soo scared. My dads calling the police and I have no idea what to do. They can prove the exsact date and time of the withdrawel and its going to be me! I don't know what to do. I if i tell mum she will hit me so badly! Please help im 15 and im soo scared. Laura xx

not the sort to talk about crushes with people. I'm very reluctant to tell my sister. I remember a couple months ago when I was down during the summer holidays me Louse and Justin (her bf) was talking about work. Louise was just messing around and saying that I fancied everyone at work and then as we walked out of the room she said she said "I wouldn't laugh at you did fancy one of them" and she ment it. I wanted to tell her so much but it just didn't feel right. I was destroyed for days when I left Bristol. I still am. I probably wont see her till next summer hols by which time He might of left I hate crushes. I get hurt too many times and because I have never had a boyfriend it makes it even worse!!! catch ya laterz Laura xx

Hiya peeps, Okay I'm Laura and I had being visitng My sister Louise. While I have been down I have fell for this guy. I met him about a month ago when I was down visiting Louise and fell for him so badly. I'm going to sound like a complete b***h but I pestered my mum and dad to let me come down if I agreed to pay them back. But the bad thing is, I didn't just come to see Louise, I came to see this guy that she works with. I love my sister to pieces I really do. I love her more than life its self and can't understand why I have been so selfish. I didn't use to believe in love at first sight but I was proven wrong a long time ago. I'm 16 and he's 27. Am I sick? I mean I couldn't help it. Louise introduced me and he smiled and I was soooo oblivious to everything around me. He's talked to me a couple of times and when I go home on Monday I'm going to be upset because i'm not sure when I can come down again I want to get over him and don't l know how. Please help I'm lost Laura xx

Heya, I know that seems harsh but I want my sister to be my mum. She very much like a mum to me. I see her on the holidays and she does things that you'd expect from your parents she: buys ALL my school uniform listens to my problems without a temper attached helps me with homework and takes me out places (days out or maybe to the cinema) The thing is no matter what I cannot find ANYTHING to smile about. Sky has been cancelled mum and dad have this spy killer thing on so I can't access my fave sites schools back I know that seems petty but sometimes when I have a rough day at school I need something to lookforwoods to and theres nothing. My mum and dad are really self-centerd.My mum gets in a bad mood if I do the slightest thing wrong,she keeps on reminding me that nest yr im 16 and she can throw me out. I don't think I love my parents anymore. They point out all my faults to their friends so everyone thinks im the worst daughter on the planet. Its unfair and talking to them is like talking to a brick wall. They think im ignarent and selfish when I tell them and mum puts on the water works! I'm so fed up with my life I often wonder why I was born. My sister doesn't love mum and either. She will send a seasonal card and a present when its birthdays or christmas or whatever but will put best wishes rather than good luck. I think my mum has made me see a negative side to life and especially wherever me brother is concerned. He has two sons not their toddlers. I hate them both. I hate them crying or when they don't come to me. I know their babys, but I can't stand them. I sound like such a hartless person I know but thats how I feel. I want to be back in Bristol where jenny and her co-workers see me as someone not a something. thanks for reading! laura x

Well....its going to be natural for you to have feelings for girls at what ever age you are, especially now your getting older. Your been very mature about this and thinking about this relationship so thats good. All I can suggest is you go for it, and if she's the right one so be it! if not well you will find the perfect someone! good luck! laura x

not really its hard at my age and my mum and dad wont allow me to have a paper round. I just need to feel wanted.Is that so hard to ask! why can't people in hull weather im at school,home mums work, why can't they see im troubling! sometimes i just need to feel like a someone not a something

Hey people, Ever since I came home from Bristol I have felt at a loss. You see I went down to Bristol to visit my older sister and i did a week of work experiance there. I thought i'd hate it because doing work during the summer holidays would be boring. I really enjoyed it! Infact I loved it so much that I begged my sister to let me do more days the following week. You see people at work saw me as a someone rather than a something!! and I have never felt like that for ages. When people took it in turns to make coffee they asked me!They evan invited me out for a pub lunch. At home I feel sad because i have NOTHING to smile about absolutely nothing! Mum and dad think i'm been ignarent because im being really sulky, but its not my fault! I miss being around people! At home i'm always on my own and I know somethimes it can't be helped but no-one spends time with me when my friends can't. I like been on my own to have peace and quiet and a time to think about things, but not all the time. I didn't grow up with a younger brother or sister so I was use to been on my own and id people interrupt my quiet time I get pissed off quickly. My mum and dad love me but the have a bad way of showing it. Mum keeps threatening to send me back to Bristol to live if thats what I want, but I know she wont and I wish she would. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm crying my self to sleep thinking of the good time I had with my sister and her work friends. Please help me I need someone to understand me. Best wishes Laura x

Hey everyone, I'm 15 yrs old and 3 weeks ago I went down to Bristol to visit my sister who I hardly ever see anymore since she left home. At first I wasn't that happy about going because she fixed me up to a week of work experiance were she works, and I thought "yay fun work during the holidays! (sarcasm)" But my first day was okay. I was a bit nervous because of a new town and new people. My 2nd was great it really was! I met new people and to my amazment they talked to me. They offered to make me a tea or coffee when they took turns, they made me laugh and evan invited me out when they went for a pub lunch! I was shocked because at home in hull no-one EVER does anything like that!! when my 1st week was up I begged my sister to let me go again the next week but she only let me do a couple of days a week! So i made the most of it. I know it seems strange but at home I'm a something not a someone.At work i'm a someone not a something. I thought people at work would have ignored me because im the youngest and im the new girl but the never which mad me feel so special. The smallest things that people did for me meant a lot to me. I sat with technisions and they made me laugh without realising it. I mean one bopped to his music and had a permanent grin to his face,another took the piss out of my sister when she did her touch typing (she looked like a zombie!! another guy swore at his computer a lot when it didn't work.that just made me laugh for some reason! I came home on sunday and I feel empty. I havent smiled I havent laughed evan though my two bestest friends in the whol world came to visit me. I don't feel as though I love my mum and dad anymore! I have never like it in hull and want to move out asap mum and dad never treat my older brother (32) or my sister (31 with the proper love respect the should have. my sister doesnt love mum and dad at all. She will send a seasonal card and put best wishes rather than love from. My mum used to beat my brother up a lot and tried to stop my sister from going to university and told her she was far to stupid to go! mum and dad have changed a lot over the years to what they used to but mum still screams at me a whole lot for petty things like if I have left the doors open. Mum thinks im been akward for not smiling. but i have nothing to smile about! they leave me on my own for hours at a time. I have grown up to hate been on my own but i like my own space and get very pissed off if people invade my personal space. How ever I want to go back to bristol to live I hate it here soooo much I hate more than ever now. There is nothing for me to look forwoods to and I want to be back at work in bristol wher people CARE for me. mum and dad love me but they have a bad way of showing it. They buy me things but I don't want gifts I want to be loved and not to be on my own! I'm not sure what I have wrote mad sense but I need to know what to do. i tried talking to mum and dad but they think im been ungratefull. I wish I had different parents sometimes I really do. mum said if i don't like it here I can go to bristol to stay! I wish she would send me back. I know it wont be fun all the time but i will feel loved. I know mum will never let me go I think she is trying to threaten me but I see it as a okay thing! I expect many of you think im a cow 4 saying things like that but if you knew my mum and dad you'd know how I feel. I miss Bristol a lot and want to be there now. I miss sitting at a dinner table and laughing with my sis and her boyfriend and going to work and seeing people and talking to the receptionist. I dont know why I wrote this I guess I wanted some comfort or advice. thank-you for reading eva though its really boring! love allways Laura xx

Hey Laura here, I'm not use to talking about my feelings with people.The only time I talk about my feelings is when they wont leave me alone and they start to drive me mad inside my head. Well here goes I have fallen for this boy who I really like but the only problem is, is that he doesn't evan like me I feel like i'm being punished because I fell in love and i'm not suppose to. When ever I see him I just want to walk upto him and just give him a hug but knowing I can't hurts Its so unfair Laura

although this sayz laura its gemma (laura is with me now but she's letting me use her account) (gemma)I'm going out with one boy called craig but I'm having a fling with this other boy called Brendan and I don't know what to do!! I don't want to hurt craig because he's so sweet but Brendan is adventuros. Please help because its driving me mad!! (Laura) when you reply to this post don't mention previous posts because their personal)

I thought about what you both said and I agree.I'm meeting them all tonight which is sort of okay. I was just upset that everyone thought Gemma was sorted and I was like a tag along I will find someone eventually but its hard at the moment because I have never had a boyfriend before. I can't talk to my mum and dad their too old fashioned and my brother and sister might take the mickey I'm going to see what happens tonight but I wont push myself and then move on an concentrate on my studies because its gcse yr now! Thanx!

Hey my name is Laura and i'm 15. I have a friend called Gemma who is staying at my house for a week while her foster parents are in sussex. She is real pritty slim,long brown curly hair and all the boys or nearly all the boys want to go out with her, but I wish for once someone would want to go out with me. There is this boy called johnny and i really like him but his friend told me that he likes gemma! I think he does like her because he kept asking about her! I watched her last night while she slept and I just burst into silent tears of envy. I'm happy for her but she has a boyfriend and she's seeing another boy AT the same time while Johnny likes her and no-one likes me! This confusing I know but its the best way I can explain. I g2g coz shes coming! thanx 4 the help

Hey pplz im laura I have recently been chatting to this lad called Jakey on this chat site I go on. I have known him 4 about 7 months now and grown really fond and attached to him. I confessed my feelings for him and he said he felt the egzact same way! only thing is he has a gurlfriend on the this chatroom as well called ali. He said they are taking a break from each other but not really broken up. We whisper to each other all the time and i think hes really sweet and i love him to bitz. But he wantz both ali and me and told me its not possible, he said its not fair. He said if ali doesnt wan him then he'll have me, but if she does want him then he doesnt know what to do! I dont know what he looks like but his personality showz it all. I want to confront ali about us wanting each other but she'z my friend and I dont want to hurt her or loose her a s a friend! im worried she does want him because then ive lost him and i dont want to loose either of them. the room i go in when u whisper no-one else can see what ur doing, and we chat to each other and sayz he loves me and thatim so sweet. I dont know what to do shall tell ali or risk loosing him as a boyfriend?? im going to ask him tomorrow to confront ali and that i'll be there for him but i dont want him thinking im pushing it!? i'll be crushed if i lost either of them but ive been hurt to many timez and dont want to be hurt again. what would you do if you where in my shoez? laura xx

Have you ever wounderd, when ppl tell u ur wounderful and you look nice why u happen to be still single? everybody tells me that im wonderful but I always seem to fall for ppl who are too old,don't like me the way I like them or they are married!! it crushes me up inside im only 16 and I know I have plenty of time to find real love but why does god make us fall for someone who u can't have?? its not fair! I usually cry my self to sleep knowing the person I love I cant have. I don't talk to my parents cause its something u can't talk to them about and if I tell my friends there is a good chance they will blab and twist the truth!! at the end of the day i feel alone and wish for once I could find real happiness!! what would u do? laura xx

Hiya ppls, I was just woundering if you have ever fallen in love with some-one that does not love you back in the same way or they don't evan like you!?!! Well I have and I don't know how to deal with it cause I feel so deprest!! I mean its like a punishment. When you love someone soooo much and you know there is no chance, weather their married,too old for you, or the coud do better. Why does it happen when your going to get your heart broken? laura x hope you ppl that celebrate xmas have a great one and those that don't have nice happy new year!! Sorry if that was phrazed that wrong!! ^

hello laura here, Evan though im trying to drift away from gob alot gemma she still tags along wherever I go. I mean maybe not at dinner time but every other time yeah. I don't want her to not talk to me but just to keep her distance cause she annoys me sooo much. We both saw johnathon on the way home from college/school and gemma said "hi we have come to talk to" and he looked away!! I always seem to have a problem of having a crush on guys that probably don't fancy me back. and it breaks my heart I think he likes me just not when gemma is around. what shall i do? laura x p.s the only reason why he sat next to me in the exam is because he had too.

Hi ppls, my week has been a right nitemare ever since my OLD friend gemma told johnathon (crush) that I said he's cute in her drama class!! but I was in an exam today where everybody sits to take an exam, and to make things worse Johnathon was sat right next to me, and it was kinda embarressing cause he has not spoke to me since gemma told him I said he was cute. and I began to giggle really bad cause of it, I mean how typicle is it out of 300 students he has to sit next to me!! anyhow i think me and johnathon are beginning to make progress of forgetting what gemma said because he spoke to me a little bit in science after lunch, so that made me happy. so now im back at square 1 of trying to get to know him better. I never really knew why I was embarressed about everyone knowing I had a crush on him cause it turns out Im only human and it turns out that my best friend annie fancys him as well! I guess I was scared of humiliation and rejection of asking someone out. I have always had a problem of having a crush on someone that does not fancy me or its someone off t.v that i can't meet! im not sure what to do now, I mean i want to buck up my courage to ask him out. hope I get the chance and he says yes! laura x