OptomisticGirl

I wish we had a pole dancing class near us (nearest one is 30 minutes). I'd be the most uncoordinated person there but they say it's a great form of exercise without feeling like you are exercising. Your trip sounds lovely!! Hubby and I are currently at the airport coming home from our city getaway (we came back to New York for a few days). No hot sex on a tree though - I wish!

hahaha! I have a pair of Tinkerbell PJ bottoms... now every time my husband and I get down while I'm wearing them I won't be able to stop laughing thinking of Lo's description.

Maybe you just haven't found the career for you yet? I don't see anything wrong with stripping/exotic dancer per say, I know a lot of girls I graduated high school with danced to pay their way through law or medical school. It's obviously not a first choice option but hey. What about your current job attracted you to it?

Hm, I'm actually the same way Mylotia. I'm not OCD when it comes to cleaning but the 'everything has its place' part of it. And other weird things like all the hangers have to be facing the same way in the closet. I guess maybe I do have the cleaning bit but that's just for me. I have this weird thing of before we go on vacation I mass clean (while trying to pack, which always ends up just stressing me out more) because when I come home I want to walk into a spotless house. It's weird. And I'm the same way about outbursts. Only 18 year old OG is still 26 year old OG. My husband and I have endearingly called them Mad Cow moments. I'm a relatively level headed person but sometimes all thought flies out of my mind and I just loose it. But I've learned through the years stress is my biggest trigger for those moments. I don't handle stress well and that is how I manifest that problem. I don't think it was so much you came home to an unperfect bedroom but the stress just kind of built until it bubbled over. It's something I think I will always have to work on. L knows that crazy side of me and accepts it and knows that if I've reached that point, I am beyond stressed.

I'm sure it has something to do with the fact it was 97 F here today (36 C), hahaha

I absolutely love your writing style by the way! I love autumn. It's my favorite time of year. Christmas is my favorite holiday (my husband literally has to lock me away from my 25 boxes of Christmas decorations because by Sept I'm ready to decorate!) I was burning a pumpkin spice candle last night and I just can't wait for those chilly autumn nights!

I'm one of those women who can't wear heels. I wish I could. I see heels on Pinterest and I LOVE how they look but I walk like Bambi taking his first steps when I wear them. hahah.

Our relationship will get better when she starts acting like an adult, and more importantly a mother. There's a lot she's done that has negatively impacted my 4 year old nephew and I can't easily forgive that. Hopefully with some time apart your sister will realize the error of her ways as well!

Isn't it thrilling to take negativity out of your life? I didn't take my sister off my FB but I blocked her. I'm sure she knows I blocked her but she has yet to say anything!

It def. leaves you with a sense of confusion when someone close to you knows this happened and yet does nothing about it. I tell people I never actually ASKED my mom to choose between him and me because I've always been the strong one in the family, the one who puts others feelings in front of her own. I witnessed the abuse my mom was put through when my dad was physically violent to her and I justified never pushing her more with that. Aside from what he did to me, he was good to my mom, and after what she had been through with my dad, I didn't want her to loose that. But years and years of therapy showed me that the fact is, she should have put my feelings before her own. She asked me one time, years ago (my ex was in basic training so probably 2006-07) for details. I gave her vague outlines but I apparently ended up saying something that I only could have known if it had happened. And she still didn't leave him. I have very little contact with him now but he still does play a part in my life as my mom is still married to him. I'm not sure what I will do when he dies. I healed by disassociating myself with the events. I can remember every detail but theres really no emotion when I think about it and therefore there is no emotion when I think/look at him. It's a very weird thing. I know I won't go to the funeral but there is more because I couldn't hide my joy at him finally being out of my life and my mom will be grieving. And there I go again, right? I def. think we survivors should talk about it. As Vic said, if we don't, it just remains silent. I think it's deplorable what they are trying to do to you. It's just like attacking you all over again.

I know that pain all to well. My stepdad abused me when I was a kid and my mom is still married to him. I really dont have much to say, I just wanted to let you know you are not alone.

^ for me personally it's not about beauty, it's about feeling sexy. I know I'm a beautiful, but I struggle with the sexy part. But yes, you've hit it on the head none the less.

I love boudoir photography, just another way for a photographer to be artistic. When I was thinking of doing it for a wedding present for our wedding the photographer I talked to said a lot of women do them after they have lost a lot of weight or even after a break up. It's nice to think self esteem should come from within but for some, that extra outside of confidence is the stepping stone to inner self confidence.

Perhaps she isn't as okay with an open relationship as you thought?

Is about to finish Belgarath the Sorcerer and I just ordered Polgara the Sorceress.

I knew a woman who withdrew her entire life savings and left it in her purse - which she left in a local resturant bathroom. She was VERY lucky the person who found it return it all without taking any.

I have only dreamed about dying once. My entire life only once. I think it was because they always say if you actually die in your sleep, you die in real life. Kind of shocks the system I guess. It was within the last year. I was pulling into a parking lot - for whatever reason - and all of a sudden someone yanked open the car door and shot me point blank in the side of the head. What was strange was as it was happening my first thought was 'really? This is how it's going to end? I won't get to see L again....' but I was still consiouse as I slumped over the steering wheel. And then I woke up. I researched it a little bit and dying in your dreams can mean a new sense of direction, starting something new. Only time though for me.

The universe is a funny place.

The auto correct on my Droid hates me.

Have you thought of other means to have a child Victoria?

I agree with Sherry Vic. Even if I were to lose my brother and sister (God forbid) my best friend is in every sense and form, my sister. Her child is my niece. Blood is a great thing to have, but there are so many other ways to have family. He will have a best friend in life who he will be extremely close to. Will never take the place his brother could have been but he won't be alone.

Yeah, you have to previously have talked about that before going in to it. If she's okay with this rough approach go for it but don't spring it on her. Talk to her and see if it's an okay situation before hand and make up a safety word JUST IN CASE. * hair pulling * hand cuffing * holding her hands/arms down * doggy (fast and hard) * smack her butt * nibbling/biting * up against the wall * oral while one of you is standing * just bend her over something and take her Mk some of those are more 'kinky' then rough but same concept some what. Dirty talk during sex is HOT too.

I can honestly say I have never had a breast orgasm. This is something that will have to change in the future. lol

When we went on vacations you always wanted to eat ice cream. I always said no.. it would hurt my teeth or I wasn't in the mood for it........... Why in the world did I not just eat the ice cream with you????

I went almost 20 days without calling him. He called twice during that time to chit chat and on the 2nd call said he missed me and a bunch of other stuff. I broke and called him Sunday night and ended up going WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY down hill but, starting over. I still need to talk to him about getting the cats and bills... it's hard to do NC when you lived with someone and you still have so much stuff to deal with. We still need to exchange stuff... I don't know if I can do true NC until all this gets resolved and he is NOT making an effort to do it.