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tell them to go f#$% themselves, tell them there alcoholics and youre not so there just jellous, only reason you even droped the plate is probly cuz you were nervas they were watching you.

Thank you sweetdreamer, much appreciated.

It seems like my friends only want to remember the old me, dont even know if there really my friends anymore im so confused and iv known most of them since i was 9. I dont even know what im asking, maybe its me,every relationship in my life is messed up, my sister is turning 18 soon and i still cant relate to her, my father and i until pretty recently would get in fist fights, i went to a program recently to help young adults get there lifes on track and the leader says our parents hold us back, that mine are "bible thumpers" and i hide who i am because.... until it explodes in a drunkin rage, but i have become..i rely on my parents so much, i was kicked out of high school because i was facing stat rape charges which goes back to my girlfriends parents finding out we had sex and they were on the board of decons at the church my parents worked and we went to same school that i had just switched to my sinior year and moved to new city yadda yada, so my parents lost there jobs and i droped out to avoid the charges, I lost myself big time somwhere in my life and i dont know what to say or do im a loser, i used to be smart, iv drinkin it away, i lost my socail life and so had no exersize i became bulimic! I have a hard time to this day almost 5 years later understanding what the hell happened to me i was messing up b4 that like a lot of kids do who party more than they should insted of study, but now iv gone from extrovert paty hardy play ball till 3am, to affraid to leave my room! i need help, this sight is enotalone but i have the filling i am and thats not even half of it, but hey if you have anything to say to me im all for it. i do lift weights and watch my weight some and i think im good looking but its not cutting it i have no reall self esteam i fake it, i fear my sister growing up and gowing to school and me just becoming this nasty old nobody who never even got along with her in the first place, i fear so much, help me. me lost.

No way! im 22 and i wound do it

thanks everybody

I am 22 years old and i drink every day I havent done it that long but it might be going on 3 years, to me thats not as impoprtantas somethings b4 that it was weed mostly, u know, or maybe you dont live in california, and i dont care what you think its better than alcohol, problem is who can afford it, and yes im sure its better just to be sobor, anyway i havnt worked in a while because of alcohol, im not even sure what started it because i feel like my brain is "wet" i cant think anymore i havent worked in a year i have become affraid of life, alcohol is the devil you dont even notice things it creeps up on in your life sometimes, other times its damn ovious, yeah i cant spell, anyway i think it comes down to FEAR, i think i started drinking when i became affraid of the situation, the "TRuth" i was in, i didnt like it at all and trust me it was bad, anyway i think i started to drink reality away, problem is now i realiz it, and i cant get reality back cant stop, and it sucks. help me you cant only i have the key just like only u have the key, you have to choose like or death period. Life is not a game. I wrote this in response to somebody but if u have somthing to say to me even tho what i said i will be appriciated i could use som advis other than my own. help me ! and others

I am also 22 years old and i drink every day I havent done it that long but it might be going on 3 years, to me thats not impoprtant, b4 that it was weed, and i dont care what you think its better than alcohol, problem is who can afford at, and yes im sure its better just to be sobor, anyway i havnt worked in a while because of it, im not even sure what started it because i feel like my brain is "wet" i cant think anymore i havent worked in a year i have become affraid of life, alcohol is the devil you dont even notice things it creeps up on in your life sometimes other times its damn ovious, yeah i cant spell, anyway i think it comes down to FEAR i think i started drinking when i became affraid of the situation the "TRuth" i was in, i didnt like it at all and trust me it was bad, anyway so you i think i started to drink reality away, problem is now i realiz it and i cant get reality back cant stop, and it sucks. help me you cant only i have the key just like only u have to key you have to choose likfe or death period.