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Well I had my wisdom teeth removed a little over two months ago and they were really hard to get out I guess. But I still have not gained feeling back in my chin or half my lip. I'm really unhappy about this but I do not know what to do. I tell my mother and she just says "you still don't have feeling, huh?" ugh... i could go back to the oral surgeon or whatever that did it but they couldn't do much I assume. I mean I wish I could make gobs of money for ripping someone's teeth out and damaging nerves. So I'd like to give a big thanks to the doctor that did it and let him know I really appreciate him effing my face up. suggestions would be greatly appreciated. thanks, .ins

Well if there are people you hung out or were close to... I don't see any problem in contacting them over the summer to do something.

I haven't contacted anyone from high school. If you didn't talk to them during high school I'd give it some time before you start contacting them to see how things are going... if ever. You may want to wait for a random encounter with the person or even a class reunion. I have had numerous situations where I could speak with someone I didn't interact in high school with at college. But I never do it because we have all been asked "how are things going for you? how's school? how's life?" so many times after graduating from high school. So unless you have something really important to say to these people I wouldn't think twice about going and exploring the big new world that is college... and try to close the door on high school. Now I'm not saying forget all the good times you had, but what I am saying is you have your group of friends from high school... so make those bonds stronger while you can. You don't have to feel obligated to contact the people in your yearbook unless they really mean something to you. There are some exceptions though... there may be that person that everyone liked and kind of took under their wing... we had a few people with medical problems like this and i still try to maintain contact with these people because they have a special place in my heart. other than that I suggest keeping the good friends you have and trying to make brand new ones when you go off to college. But that's just my .02 Good Luck!!

So about 5 months ago I met this woman that I really ignored despite IOIs. Well I began dating some other women and never really paid her much thought but then I began talking with her briefly every other day or so. So then I get the shallow idea to lead her on thinking I may want something. Well she gets sort of pushy with things about last week and she had a pretty awkward discussion with me about relationships, friends, and sex. But then it turned to stuff about me. So she willingly spills her guts to be about the topics above, but expects me to do the same in return. So I just tell her I'm coming off something else and not really sure what I'm doing. She then asks if I have the guts to ask someone out or if I'm gay. I've been asked the latter quite a bit so it doesn't phase me. But I don't know if she is calling me out by asking me the former. I honestly do not care because it has been my goal to get friendzoned with this girl hard since we began talking... but I'm becoming pretty attached and she tells me she feels it's good to be really good friends before two people become exclusive. I really do not know why I'm posting this but I find it really sh**ty that I was ultimately being mean to someone at first by leading them on but now I'm becoming attached. I guess we all learn the hard way. I do not even know what I'm attached too... I mean she is not really my type and lacks a ton of personality, but we always find something to talk/joke about. any critical comments are welcome but I really know what I did wrong. Some people I should just leave alone.

keep going with it. but try to make it different and throw in some twists. you can't just describe a good day for someone who is having trouble because many of us know what a good day feels like. Twists are good and will keep us coming back for more. The only reason I continued to read was because you didn't throw anything out of the ordinary in there... and I was waiting for it to pickup. That has a lot of potential for character development and the ability to pick up the pace and bloom into a good story. So keep going I tell you... keep going!

there is a numbing solution in them... he can't feel anything... and you may not be able to either. we didn't like them.

Lift me up into the sky To the needle shaped clouds They gives me what I need to consume Take in the light, warmth, and solitude They only thing that can replace you As I do this I regret little But it's funny how I question so much When it's not in me and you're not around I don't know what I live for… So I make myself float. And wish I could drown.

Either way really works as far as pursuing/being pursued. I just discussed this with someone tonight actually. She wonders why I haven't intitiated anything and I just said I do not feel like "wearing the pants" right now... if she tried to initiate something I may go with it though. But due to my current situation and mindset I do not feel the need to pursue anything.

i've did it recently and met someone from there. went pretty well but it was still kind of awkward.

My life seems so empty. To make my reasons bold I'd like to find the angel that sent me She made me always do what I'm told. But if I could find her She'd most likely leave For what she brought here that day Isn't what I've continued to be I've remained true to myself Untrue to many But the lies I have told Haven't hurt any They were only jokes To make her laugh But now she's gone But now if I could only take them back For my humor it reminds me Reminds me of her And now when I do it again Her image will linger In the very back of my mind Her eyes big, hair so soft But I'll never have her So I'll just sit and wish away time

not so good right now and if someone can just talk on aim for a bit i'd really truly appreciate it.

nevermind... figured it out... sorry for wasting the space.

I went out with this girl last week. We hit it off pretty good so I called and asked her for a second date. She said she would let me know... so I shook it off. Now she contacted me and I'm lost on what to say... is she interested or just playing me? She isn't bringing up going back out, and I'm not either because I'm so very unsure. input would be appreciated!

I'm looking 20 years of age right in the eyes and just finishing my first year of college. My friends are very minimal and I too care greatly about my friends. As I am almost always looking for someone to spend time and be happy with I know that I cannot fret and worry about it. Being 19 and 20 we have our whole lives ahead of us... you are bound to meet many great people through school if you are able to open up socially to new individuals. But being scared of what is to come education wise and career wise is pretty accurate for myself and my other friends. I've recently switched from being an english education major into wanting to go into physical therapy. You're not the only one with a traveling mind that makes you worry about many things. Just know that other people do too... they just may not be able to put their fears into words as you did. I just suggest remaining dedicated to your schoolwork and setting some goals and everything will pan out. Do not attempt to throw away a time of your life that could be the most fun from a social standpoint. Good Night, -.ins

Tell your mother many places will hire you just because you HAVE a degree. I know many insurance companies do... sometimes commitment matters to companies more so than content. EDIT: if you are happy and content with a history degree than go for it. I wanted a degree in history back in high school and felt so passionate about the subject... but i let someone sway me away. don't let this happen to yourself.

just emotional ranting helped. i just seemed confused about a situation with a girl. i just tend to overanalyze alot of things as well.

And as I sit here alone Searching for that drunken summer someone I know I will never find them Yet I still glare into the sun When the day is done and the night has faded The clouds quickly consume the moon The stars you may ask? They'll die soon. Just as everything dies Under the cool winter skies But it makes me wonder Yes, it makes me think How one man so great Could be pushed to the brink He was so brilliant and bold And had an eclectic tongue I for one, wish I could have known him Or at least lived under the same sun But although Nick Drake is gone I carry him with me everywhere I go His words… warm like the summer sun… His image… soft like the winter snow…

I've talked with a couple friends and now I'm feeling lots better. I just needed to let something go. I have no idea what. i wasn't really sick but my stomach was in knots and I was pretty dizzy. ridiculous how bad the mind can make one feel.

Don't think it's dedicated to anyone as I am seeing no one.

very good... easy conversation and lots of jokes/banter going on.

I had one of the better times of my life wednesday night... since then I have had a huge knot in my stomach and pretty much an empty mind. I'm just totally spent on something. It may be where I live... or my lack of a social life. I don't know when I meet someone I really seem to hit it off with them but then I just feel empty when we split ways for the night. i'm just completely spent on my situation right now... i don't even know what my situation is. i never will consider hurting myself so no on worry about that. i just have a void that i really need to fill and have no idea how.

I didn't get invited in... but I'm so for certain she had a good time. And the hug at the end was good I couldn't bring myself to go for the kiss... maybe next time? dunno. this is all really new to me.

Well I went out with this girl a couple nights ago and there were zero cases of awkward silence but everything I was asking her she kept spinning it back to me. I feel like she got to know me very well, despite my humor (which was funny), but I didn't get to do the same. She constantly kept complimenting me and turning around my questions/compliments... at the end of the date we hugged and she said thanks. She wasn't like yearning to get out of the car or anything. do I call her back or was it too one sided? I know she had a good time because it was constant laughs and smiles shared by the both of us.

So tomorrow I have a date w/ someone I've talked to but never met face to face. I'm pretty psyched up and excited I just hope that doesn't really show. But I have like no funds right now. I hate to use the credit card for something like this but looks like I have no other option. No real reason for posting this but the last time I went out I had a really nervous feeling about it... turns out she wasn't all there anyways. But this time I'm really glad that I'm going out and trying to have a fun time. any tips would be great.

if you bring the words girl i'll bring my mind and if i decide to show you the world navigating it together is a must a river runs through my backyard. everytime i look at it, i just want to get closer because the current is strong, it reminds me of us we can't go back, because like the river we keep progressing and conforming to nature. this is the beauty of you and me and if i can't show you what i want i hope that you'll still be the one that i crave for because sometimes that river gets violent... but that's what the banks are for. extremely bored and just trying to make something out of nothing here. take care.