Hey listen, what you have to do hun is stop llooking back, just forget him, dont even have him as a good friend. tell him how bad he has been treating u. I kind of know how you feel, once i had a boyfriend i really loved him soo much, i felt like he was the one, I was 14 at the time, but i really felt like wow wit him like it was the special guy rite from my dreams. his parents where Russian and didnt believe that he should go out with me, they stopped me from seeing him and it was hard because he kept commin back to me but i had to tell him never to come back again, because i didnt want to get him or me in trouble. i was so depressed i almost commited scuiside. And even know it still bothers me, i get flash backs and i feel wounded all over again, just dont remember him, just go on hun, trust me, in about an year you not gonna remember, its better then just keep on ruinin ur life.
peace.. keep me posted