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  1. Chibby33
    SECOND NIGHT last night. I'm on my way to liberation baby!!
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    Thanks TOBETTERDAYS. I feel exactly like you right now. It's been a month and a few days since my fiance packed and left. For 3 weeks he was wishy-washy about the break-up. I finally said to myself that I am tired of waiting, wondering, and yes, hoping. So when I finally got my closure from him, I was surprised that I didn't cry. I wasn't as sad as I was the past weeks. Bottom line when I received closure, recovery started to set in. I FEEL GREAT now!! And yes, keep NC going. Others may heal slower but the word is "healing." I still think about him, but that's just it: THINKING. Like the way you think about your old pair of shoes - absolutely no emotions attached. Amazing how months ago I couldnt breathe at all and was just hoping for the day I will live again. I guess it's like having your tooth pulled out - there's pain but it will heal.
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    No we were outside on the deck but the thing that made me give up on my fiance twice before was that he likes to look for issues and then sulks for days - I cannot have that kind of atmosphere around my daughter. But she witnessed him packing and leaving. She's tough though. I apologized to her for letting my him enter our lives and mom was not thinking. Her response was "______ who??"
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    UNHAPPY BIRTHDAY - Morissey I've come to wish you an unhappy birthday Cause you're evil and you lied And if you should die I may feel slightly sad But I wont cry
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    You are right - the frustration was brought out by my partner. Especially when I do everything. Like the time when I found myself washing the dishes at 11pm while my ex fiance was downstairs in the family room, laying down on the sofa, legs crossed, and watching tv. Ggggrrrr!! So I guess my emotions are normal, it's not like I erupt out of nowhere. Thanks!
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    My fiance left because I lost temper for the first time after 1.5 years of being together. He was the type who kept everything balled in himself and not talk about issues but sulk for days. Anyway I became fed up one night, I stood and threw my lawn chair over the deck. Well the chair's leg gave him arm a nasty cut; I apologized and felt horribly bad but he said he didnt feel safe around me anymore. So he left and broke up with me the next day. The break up was depressing although it also set me free from a high-maintenance relationship. He came into the picture with so many problems and I was there the whole time pulling him out of his issues. He thanked me before he left for all the help I provided and he said that I saved his life. I'm ok now but my concern is the temper and anger I released that night. I have an 8-year old daughter who's been my rock since she was born. But I fear that sometimes I easily lose patience on her when she doesn't listen to me. We pray everynight and I always ask for patience. How should I control my anger? HELP! I want to to change before I get worse.
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    THANKS! I know he will try to pop his cursed behind in my dreams once in while but at least my mental state has made progress last night. Wow! Really feels rewarding.
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    1. my house is all to myself again 2. my money is all to myself again 3. my time is all to myself again 4. no one smokes in my master bath anymore 5. no more toe nail clippings on the floor 6. NO MORE DRAMA!!
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    Hurray!! I woke up this morning and realized my ex wasn't in my dream anymore!! It's been over a month since he left me, 2 1/2 weeks NC (he has sent me 2 texts but I never responded). Although I still woke up in the middle of the night, thought about him, but just exhaled and whispered "go away. . . " Is this what you would call "recovery?"
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    Noooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! Back to square one. Try again - at least you know how uncomfortable it made you feel.
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    I'll tell you this. When you've lived alone then have a partner move in with you, i guarantee that you will miss having the place to yourself. When my fiance left, I felt so alone in a large house - went so close to selling it. But then I realized I dont have to adjust to anyone - it's my domain, every corner of it. Am fortunate to share it with my lil daughter so i'm really not that alone (tired of watching Disney Channel though).
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    Yeah well right now there's a person working at the dump who's reviewing to become an Accountant.
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    No not yet. Dont feel like responding really - might open up the communication road. Why did he send the text anyway? Messing with my head? What was his purpose really??
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    PERFECTION Scout!! Love it! Thanks pals!
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    Hahahah! I love it! yeah my ex husband said (yes we're still great friends!) if he insists, tell him to "go to the bookstore and invest on your own CPA book - have a nice day."
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    Short review of my drama. Fiance packed and left a month ago. SInce be moved in with me and my daughter, he has not spent anything on utilities, food, etc. That's ok, am ok now (really!), been on NC for a week and am loving my single life!! Well he sent me a text: "I need my CPA review book and the rest of my clothes. PLZZZ. Thank u." Ok, 1. He has not touched that CPA review book since I bought it which was about 2 years ago. So I threw it away when I cleaned up my house. 2. Besides the 2 pairs of socks, he knows he has no more clothes in my house. He emptied the closet and drawers when he packed. Why is he asking for these things? What do I tell him?? DO I EVEN RESPOND?? I really prefer not to.
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    TOXIC, TOXIC, TOXIC!! I'm surprised you held on for 6 years. You may not be perfect (who is anyway??) BUT YOU ARE STRONG, dammit! Remove all that toxicity that's still around you - today is the day you are born clean again.
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    Let me ask you this - who broke up with who? Once we find out, we can then establish the reasons behind the "random" sightings.
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    Glad I'm not alone in these types of relationships. What were we thinking??
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    Thanks I'mThatGirl and Rodeo!! Reading your responses made me feel better about my comment to him. Whew! At first I thought I was worse than he was for sending such a reply! I wrote "Pay Your Bills!" because he's now in a financial meltdown for leaving my house (now he pays for rent, utilities, gas, etc). As for me, my money goes to only me and my daughter. No more third parties! I still chuckle for my comment - I'm sorry.
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    HAHAHA! Exactly Red Queen! You nailed it!
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    You both are right. I'm no longer sad but am kinda angry about what he did and how he yelled at my daughter when I was not around. In my defense, such a short statement from me was worth it. I could have done worse but yes it should end. Thanks pals!!
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    Just thought I'd share this immature comment I received. My ex husband James and I have always been great friends after we separated 2 years ago, he moved to another state, we have one daughter. We always maintained good communication. Now my recently ex fiance (toxic relationship, he packed and left us) hated the fact that my ex hubby and I stillI get along - he doesnt understand that James calls only to speak to our daughter, and nothing else. Anyway I had my ex fiance's bills couriered yesterday to his work because I dont know where he moved to and he's not telling me - dont care really. I simply loaded a jiffy bag with his mail, no note, nothing (yes to NC!!). Typed his name on the envelope because handwriting it was too personal. Well he received it yesterday and he sent me a text last night: "I guess I'm not like James. Well thank you anyway." So immature that I balled laughing! Instead of being graceful and classy about the whole thing and simply say "thank you", he had to audacity to expect me to treat him like my ex husband. My response? "Huh?? Uh I think I know that. Pay your bills!" I know I somehow broke the NC challenge but it was too good to let it pass.
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    If there's something you need to say to your ex but didnt have the chance, what would it be? When my fiance left me, I started writing in my journal about how I felt. To those who need to vent and get the anger and pain out, here's your chance to pseudo talk to your ex. Let it all out here and revisit it as much as you can. I believe reading your own messages over and over lessens the pain. Let me start. I wrote this 9.8.06, 12:59am: Wael, still cannot sleep but it's ok because I need to tell you so many things. Now it's my turn to tell you my disappointment. First let's start when you were having all these problems in NY, before you moved with me. I knew the relationship would be cursed. I've been told so many times never to enter a relationship with someone who has so many problems. YOU HAD MAJOR ISSUES with your personla life my friend. But I held on and saved you. Yes Wael, I saved your so many times and did I ever abandon you? Or lose my temper? Yeah so I lost my temper that night - SO WHAT?? BIG DEAL!! You packed and left in front of my daughter so many times and it shows what a weak human being you are. You are a kid, a boy who likes to run away. You're 30 years old but you are nowhere near the maturity level that I am in. As soon as you moved in my house, the place got so dark, messy and gloomy. I am so free from you now and so is my daughter and my house. You will never be able to step your cursed behind in our lives ever again! Go bring your bad luck somewhere else but as far away from us as possible!! You may be good looking but all that will go away because you are lazy, arrogant, and looks will never take you far. You should know that because look where you are now. You may be good looking now but all that will go away along with the hair on your head. You will still be a nobody and you are nobody to my daughter, remember that! You have no claim to her strength and character because I raised her. You have no business around me or my house. I am throwing away any material that is someway linked to you - I do not want your bad luck lingering around my family. Go away - since that's what you're good at. You benefited a lot from me but I never gained anything back. That's ok. I gained the strength to realize what a weakling you are. Your life is a disaster that cannot be fixed if you keep blaming others. But you are too arrogant to even think that there's something wrong with you. I wish you all the best even if i know you will fail because you are cursed! And dont blame God for your troubles because it again shows what an arrogant bastard you are. I am so smart not taking you back. The sun is now shining down upon me but dark clouds will always linger above you. (Still feels as good as the first time I wrote it.)
  25. Chibby33
    Yes Brit me too. I have an 8 year old from a previous marriage - she's a lot stronger than I am and I am very fortunate that me and my ex hubby are still the very best of friends. My recent ex fiance who packed and left could never understand that - I think he preferred that my ex hubby and I always fought. Your kids will keep your head above the water.
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