Aktrez

I am lost... I am lonely... and I truly feel that I cannot be happy this holiday season. I have tried EVERYTHING to feel better.... however, nothing has helped.

MrMister, please PM me. I was bulemic in high school, and now work with the National Eating Disorders association to help people like your friend conquer their eating disorders. I would be happy to help you try to help her!

My dad was in a motorcycle accident last year, and this brings back a lot of memories.. thanks

Oh.. no no, these are MY choices for the perfect man.. I'm asking you who yours is..

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I guess my question to you oldguy is, why SHOULD a couple get married? If the man is also atheist (so there is no religious reason) and you have lived together for over 4 years, what is the benefit of actually signing a piece of paper? It doesn't stop anyone from cheating, it doesn't really solidify anything except now it is financially harder to break up. Your opinions would be greatly appreciated.

Believe me, you wont' be going to jail for credit card debt. There is no debters prison.. Personal experience. They can threaten, but there is VERY little they can legally do. It will just ruin your credit.

I just wanted to add that this statement is so very important! There is a big difference between Faith and hope. Those that know me know that I am very stron on this topic. Do not have hope... hope makes that knot in your stomach even tighter. It makes you wake up every morning and wonder, think about what your partner is doing. It causes you to not eat and lose interest in friends. Faith is something that your heart has. It is something you can hold onto for comfort and still go about your life. It's something warm and something there. Not something to hang your dreams on.. but, something to live your life with. Thank you for the post Smusher!!! I just wanted to jump in on that line and add my two cents.

I just DRASTICALLY colored my hair. What is your opinion? Blonde Before... Brunette now.... image removed

I found my poetry book, that I have kept throughout my life, today. Some of this is very emotional for me. And some, I couldn't even bear to type. But, here are a few: The Memory I sit there remembering your beautiful eyes. the tears well up, so I look to the skies. The thought of your friendship is so very dear. I close my eyes and wish you were here. The sweet scent of you close to me. Your loving smile I long to see. I sit here remembering the battle you faught. I want to hold you, but know I cannot. I will never forget what you meant to me. You hid your true feelings so I wouldn't see. I want you back, to be with me here. I remember these things, and then... shed a tear. The Face I looked out my window today and there I saw a strange face staring back. I was scared. This was not a familiar face that I have known. I studied it. It was different. A stranger? The comfort I had known slipped away. I waas afraid. The eyes seemed so sad.... Bitter..... Filled with fear. It made me wantt o reach out and help. So, I reached out my hand and touched the glass. The being on the other side did the same. I looked deep into it's eyes and saw the image of a little girl. She sang... Danced... Laughed.... Without worries... without cares. I began to cry. So, I turned away from my reflection. Who Said this Was Fun The heartbeat quickens You can hardly breathe The sweat beads up You try to leave The muscles tightend Your eyes are glued tight The fists are clenched You shake with fright The words are stuck Your lips won't move The fight has begun You're going to lose The words pour out You aren't being heard The words, again You're misunderstood The body comes closer You're frozen in fear The bodies connect You shed a tear The pain stops the words You cry out in vain The motion continues You're feeling more pain The motions now cease You lie on the bed The body receeds You feel like you're dead The acting begins You have to lie The lines are thrown at you You're in love with this guy? The horror is over You pull out of the yard The pain is still present You've let down your guard The night is now over You can't believe what was done The pain's just beginning Who said this was fun? The World of my Dreams As the light fades into darkness; And the sun disappears from the sky, I lie in my bed and think of the day; And slowly I close my eyes. And I dream of a world that is colorblind; Yet colored with vibrant hues. A world that only knows winning; Where no one has heard the word "lose". And I wish I could stay in this glorious place; As the moon disappears fromt he sky. But sadly I say a heartfelt farewell; As I slowly open my eyes. Yet I know I'll return when the day is through; To that wonderful place, where it seems; No harm will befall, no bad things exist.. The World within my dreams. Light It starts as one tiny point. Branches off into rays in all directions. It comes in all colors. And illuminates the way. It brightens up the darkness; and makes day... day. It gives comfort in our sorrow... And radiance in our glee. It makes creators out of dreamers.. And a dreamer out of me.

thank you Av... Honestly, I have not weighed myself in 3 months. Dead serious. I don't weigh myself because I KNOW that I go nuts with it.. believe me, it's just how I look. Busy? ha ha... well, that's not a problem. I work 9 - 6 as marketing coordinator for an entertainment company, I'm a member of the Sweet Adalines Barbershop Choir, I run my own pageant.... busy is NOT a problem. Thing is, I don't need to just sit to think about it. I see it in my reflection when I walk by glass, or when I get dressed in the morning. Or when I sit down, I feel it. It's not something that I have to think about.. it's a part of my every day being.... Even when I am at my busiest.. I think to myself that I am not happy... Carbs kill.. seriously, I was on Atkins for almost 3 years... if I even LOOK at bread I gain 10lbs. And to be honest, when I did try adding them, I would feel great at first.. and about an hour later, I would TOTALLY crash! Now, with just fruits and veggies and such.. I feel SOO much better and can go a lot longer. You know? No excuses folks.. I know this is something that SHOULD be resolved in my head.. but, I have NEVER found a solution that worked for me.. ya know?

It's not that I"m hungry... I'm not hungry.. I'm forcing myself to eat. Diet has been 2 weeks now.. but I am just having SUCH a hard time with patience... I'm going in the OPPOSITE direction from where I want to be going. I excersize for an hour every day... I'm on about 1200 calories.. no bread or rice. But, I am eating veggies and fruits. I eat an apple EVERY morning... and lots of salad and veggies. I just feel like I've lost control of my weight loss.. you know??

Having a rough day today... This diet doesn't feel like it's working and I'm really starting to slip. I am so close to falling into old habits. Need some advice.. someone to talk to!! Thanks.

Day walker, this is not the case. You should express how you feel at all times! If you hold it in, you never know what you may miss out on in life! It's very possible that she has always felt the same for him and maybe thought he didn't like her, or they were just friends. Or, maybe she just never thought of it that way! The fact that she is now confused, means that she is thinking about it! Don't give up hope hon!! Just be there for her.. be he friend.. don't pressure, and see what happens.

Girl, I do the SAME thing! I feel like I can't air my issues to my boyfriend, and I have to get them out!!! So, who else do you go to? Because of this, my co-workers and friends all hate my current boyfriend (as do the people on this board who followed my posts about our situation) I agree, I too do not know what to do about this! I mean, if you let it fester... then it's just going to eat away at you! That's how I feel! I have found friends from eNotalone that I keep in contact with all the time, these are the people I try to vent to and seek advice from now. Since they don't know both of us.. and can give me advice without the harm of hurting my boyfriends feelings if they meet hiim.