Yes , so tomorrow probably no exercise outside for me. I will walk around inside .

Do you have asthma?

I am coughing and it burns the back of the throat a bit. I felt woozie after for a bit. Tomorrow is supposed to be the worst day so I might not go outside or exercise .

Is the smoke affecting you while you walk? Hopefully the air is clearer where you are.

Just finished 65 minutes of fast walking, feels good .

Hubby’s promotion message came through for mid July . So happy for him.

Friday is my sweet love’s birthday. ❤️

I am struggling with boredom....Daily life is so freakin tedious....I know I shouldn't complain, everything is going great, work is going pretty well, it's summer, even the YouTube channel is starting to pick up. But it's not enough, there is no thrill, no excitement....Now what? do I wait for my next holidays the next year??? This is so demoralizing. I would like to visit New Orleans again. There was something about this place that I never felt for any other place. It keeps popping on my mind all the time. It's the only place I felt I would like to grow roots there. Not only the city of New Orleans but also the country side and the swamps. I would like to explore the south part of Louisiana more. I have visited countless cities in the US and Europe, I have never said I would like to stay in one place forever. Love at first sight lol. Sure, I had a good time, this plays a role. In an imaginary world, I would marry the Mexican girl and live happily ever after in New Orleans. Ahhh, always in an imaginary world..... Such a pretty cute girl, certainly better looking than most Victoria's secret angels. When God decides to give a gift, damn, it is a pretty good one. And pretty normal, no snobbish whatsoever, 25 years old flower, (very)lucky the guy who would get her. 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Back to reality...........................................

We got my van back yesterday and it works so so much better . At least it isn’t rattling its self to pieces and I am afraid to drive it .

The smoke from our old posting .

We have another bad air quality warning because of fires and evacuation orders about 2 hours from me. I hope I get my van back from the shop today. I want to see how much better it works .

5 provinces and 1 territory having fires. 🥴

Migraine today.

Miracles certainly do. My mom was in a coma a few weeks before I was born and we both weren’t expected to make it . I was born at 4 pounds because my mom was so ill. Yet we are both still here . She is 77 and I will be 57. She has lived many years beyond her parents . Her dad died at 60 and her mom at 73.

I'm hoping for her and her husband and of course the baby's sake that it turns out OK. This baby has been diagnosed with three congenital heart defects. Right now I'm worried about her. It has to be terrifying, but she seems to be doing the best she can. My mother was given six weeks to live when she was three months pregnant with me and here I sit. Another friend weighed about two pounds when she was born prematurely and is healthy and well and in her early 30s. My other friend's daughter was in the NICU for a few weeks but the little fighter made it and is going on six years old. So miracles definitely do happen.

It could still turn out to be ok. I have a niece with a serious heart defect. She was supposed to die in utero. My step sister was even advised to abort her. The doctors chose not to do surgery at birth . She is now a feisty 6 year old. She sees a specialist at a paediatric hospital and they can’t believe how remarkably well she’s doing. They said she is utterly amazing and strong. Eventually she will need her heart repaired but for now they will let her truck on.

It breaks my heart to see my former coworker's posts on Facebook. She's about 22 weeks pregnant with a baby who has multiple congenital heart defects. She's just hoping and praying everything somehow turns out OK. She already has toddler twins and of course needs to be a mom to them, but I can't even imagine what she's going through.

So, I think the decompression time after Hell City needs to come to an end. I don't have any shows for 6 weeks. Next one is HAMF. But, there are 8 weeks until RCTC and 11 weeks until CPPD. Out of the three coming up. CPPD is the one I am prepping the most for. I will admit I don't have high expectations for the other two, for different reasons. HAMF is something I've never done before so I have no idea what to expect. SO it's easier just to expect nothing. But, I am a featured artist this year. And that's a pretty coveted position. So I will make sure I have something really cool to paint live in front of an audience. I will take a lot of prints, a lot of magnets, etc. D is most likely coming with me to that one, so there will be a skunk in my booth, also. I also got my spot for free. Which is convenient, yes. But I am skeptical of any free show. I've learned after almost ten years that you have to spend money to make money. Shows where setup is free usually attract a lot of MLM vendors (Mary Kay, Pampered Chef, Scentsy, etc.) Or the organizers just don't care and let the vendors do whatever they want, pretty much. But HAMF isn't free for everyone. It's free for me because I am featured. Featured artists are treated like rock stars from what I've been told. But being featured, painting live, etc, doesn't guarantee people will buy stuff. I'm sure it's going to be a lot of fun, if nothing else. But I don't have high financial expectations. I also will admit I don't have high expectations for RCTC anymore, either. I did, but that was before the dumpster fire that was Hell City. RCTC is another tattoo convention. People have less disposable income now that the price of everything is going up. So at tattoo conventions they are saving their money for tattoos, not art prints and magnets. So, I'm not expecting much from RCTC. Maybe I will be pleasantly surprised. And it's also a 3 day event... long days... which I have to get a hotel for... and D most likely won't be able to be there. This is all sounding familiar. I've met other artists who've done it in the past and say it's awesome. But that was before all these changes in the economy. I sold almost all my magnets yesterday. I will definitely be placing another magnet order. I can't even express how much yesterday restored my faith in a lot of things. Honestly after HC this year I was flirting with the idea of quitting. After multiple shows flopped in a row I started questioning my future in the scene. Like, if the economy keeps going in this direction what will be left for people like me, etc. And I'm a one trick pony, which made it even harder to think about. All I am is an artist. I can't really do anything else right and I don't fit in anywhere else. But, the price of everything is going up, so I've adapted by raising my prices. I raised the price of my prints by $5 each this year. And people still buy them. I sell my magnets for $5 each and I have a lot of people tell me I need to charge more. I saw people selling magnets for $12 at HC this year. That's a bit much, though. I wouldn't pay $12 for a magnet. I try to keep my prices based on what I would pay for something, etc. I sold two original paintings yesterday. My Rainbow Baphomet and my Octopus sold. I have another Octopus sketched out that I haven't started yet. That makes me want to start the new one. Anyway... I need to go get my lunch packed for work and take a shower and stuff.

So... I am in my PJs relaxing on my bed. I will write what I can about PITC. But honestly I am tired as hell and may not be able to finish it all tonight. Straight and to the point... PITC exceeded any expectations I had for it, by far. This may have been the busiest I've ever been at any show ever. Like... this gives CPPD a run for its money. To put it in perspective, I was at Hell City for 3 days. Two 14 hour days and one 10 hour day. That's 38 hours of vending. PITC was 8 hours long and I made more money than I did at Hell City. There were several times today when there was a line at my booth. My new employee learned a lot about load in, setup and break down. But I didn't have time to teach her much else. She basically stayed off to the side and watched to make sure no one was stealing. Which is fine, not saying loss prevention isn't important. I feel bad though that that's all she got to do all day. But she also wasn't chained to the booth, either. She was allowed to go walk around whenever she wanted. D wasn't able to come, originally... but apparently the Universe wanted him there, because he showed up with his son. Unfortunately we didn't get a lot of time to hang out. He popped in here and there. But my booth was full of people all day. We were talking about meeting for dinner somewhere after, like, all of us. But my helper needed to get home early, so we decided to do dinner some other time. With the money I made today I want to take him somewhere nice. There is a really good sushi place my brother and I go to occasionally when we have money to spend. It's not cheap at all. I would love to take him there. The energy in the air today was just so high. The music was great. The crowd was awesome. It was perfect weather for an outdoor festival. I mean... if every show could be like this I would do them all. The only not so great thing that happened today was when I got there and started setting up, my neighbor on the left side (A soap maker) had one of her tables sitting a good foot and a half over my line. At some shows there is a walkway between every booth. But usually the booths are right on top of each other. I mean, your booth butts right up against your neighbors and you share a boundary. When I got there and was figure out how we were going to do everything, I asked her if she was going to move the table. And she was like, "I'm trying to set up." And I said, "Well, I have gridwalls that are going along this side and it's in the way." And she's like, "I'll move it soon. I'm just trying to set up." Ok, it's not like this was a table that she just was piling stuff up on until she found a place for it. She was setting up displays and arranging the inventory really nice on this table. I remember thinking, "Why are you doing that when you have to move it?" So, a little time passes and I've done everything I can do without putting the gridwalls up on that side of the booth because I'm giving her time. Then it got to the point where I had to put the gridwalls up on that side before we could move on with the setup. So I said, "Hey, this table need to be moved. I need to put these walls up on this side." She's like, "Well how much space do you need for the gridwalls?" I pointed to the very clear line marking the boundary between our spaces and said, "My gridwalls are going right along this line. The table is in the way." And she says, "Well can you just put up your walls so we can see how much space you need for them?" I used my hand to draw a line across the table (I didn't actually touch it, I drew it above the table to show her. I said, "Here's where the lone is. I have a 10x10 paces. Your table needs to be in your own space." And she says, again, "Well can you just put the walls up so we can see where you need them to be?" I had no clue what she wasn't understanding. I said, "I can't put my walls up with yuor table sitting there." And she's like, "Ok can you just take a deep breath?" There's no need to be hostile about it." I will admit I was irritated by this point. But I didn't raise my voice. I didn't cuss, etc. If she thinks that was hostile she must have lived a very easy life where no one has ever gotten angry in her presence at all. I think I held it together pretty well. Most vendors I know would have been like, "What's so hard to understand lady? Get your sh*t out of my booth!" That is like vending etiquette 101. There are things you just don't do as a vendor and one is take up room in someone else's space. We all paid for the same 10x10. No one is any more important than anyone else. Did she really think I was going to just put my gridwalls around her table? Normally when the booths share a boundary I tell my neighbors they can hang stuff on the other side of my grids if it will help them out. But I didn't tell this chick that. Screw her. I just hope that doesn't bite me in the ass later. I don't know who this woman is and how much pull she might have on the people in charge. People get blacklisted over stupid stuff like that. I really wish I would have gotten the interaction on video. Other than that though, as far as festivals go, today was perfect. I wish they all could go like this. PITC reminded me why I got into this line of work. I got the cheapest booth possible, too. And I pulled thousands today. They have a "premium" booth option that costs about what my booth at Hell City cost. I am almost wondering it next year it would be worth trying a premium booth and just not bothering with Hell City. The premium booths are more expensive because they are in spots with the highest visibility. The spot I was in today was considered a lower visibility area. But I was by the bathrooms, which is prime real estate. It means most people there will have to walk by you at some point. By the bathrooms, the food or the alcohol is where you want to be. I'll think about it, do some research and weigh the pros and cons. Yep... more of these guys...

People often think that D&C is perfectly safe to have . Not so. If you have it after a later stage miscarriage you can develop Asherman’s Syndrome which I did after my second D&C. With each successive D&C it is a higher risk. The risk being 30% after a later miscarriage. I already had bad fibroids and then developed severe scaring from the last D&C which finished my uterus off. Not to mention I was left with a severe uterine infection from them not doing the D&C immediately and leaving placenta in my body for 6 weeks causing some necrosis in my uterus.

My husband is going join the Military Disabilities group on base to help promote understanding of disabilities and to help those in the military with disabilities.

I left work at lunch time and finished out the day at home. Today I am still sick. I can't tell if it's one of my two chronic illnesses flaring up (very likely) or if I picked up a cold from someone. I really wanted to do some shopping and take myself out to lunch but not sure if I feel up to it.