hers Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 Oh my gosh, Sherry, I'm so sorry. How far along were you? You don't have to answer if you don't want to. I'm sorry to hear that though. Link to comment
nresteiner Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 Oh my God. I'm SO sorry redrose. You're in my prayers tonight, and I'll be thinking of you. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 Oh Sherry. I'm so, so, so, so sorry darling. *hugs* Feel free to message me any time. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 28, 2011 Author Share Posted October 28, 2011 I don’t know for sure... 6-8 weeks probably. Life is so weird sometimes. Instead of setting up a nursery upstairs, we have a roomie up there. Now that I’ve had some downtime today, I feel sad because I’ve had to stop and think about it. I would wholeheartedly accept and embrace a little one, but it wasn’t meant to be. I feel like I’ve failed. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 You haven't failed Sherry, not in the slightest. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 28, 2011 Author Share Posted October 28, 2011 Thanks hun. Last night we both had a cry over the weirdness of it all. We talked about our plans again and just kind of let it sink in. Alex said his first thought was, was it a boy or a girl. That was a hard thing to hear. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 28, 2011 Share Posted October 28, 2011 I think it's def naturally to think 'what was the baby' and everything like that, it's part of the healing process and everything. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 29, 2011 Author Share Posted October 29, 2011 Today was an okay day. Despite being on campus all day, I didn’t get a whole lot done. My instructor was very underwhelmed by my first draft for the kids’ book. We seem to have very different ideas. I was going for something very simple and illustration heavy, but she wants me to stretch myself and create this whole storyline. I understand where she’s coming from though, so there is much more work to be done. I can’t concentrate. I went to a true story slam tonight and I’m so glad I did. It was fun! We’ve all been so stressed and overworked that it was so nice to laugh and munch and support those brave enough to get up in front of the crowd. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 29, 2011 Share Posted October 29, 2011 Ah, I liked the simple version! Kids don't want to have to read a whole book - they want pictures! lol Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 29, 2011 Author Share Posted October 29, 2011 I hate, hate, hate, having to see friends going through breakups. It’s always the ones I never expect! These two had been engaged for 3+ years and just never quite made it to the altar. Sad. There are no guarantees in life. None. I feel like garbage today. Couldn’t get to sleep until 1... up at 5. Feel sick and tired. I made coffee (on a timer) but I can’t stomach it today. Must today be the day I visit family? :S At least there is a halloween party tonight and my mermaid should be done. I looooove it! Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 30, 2011 Author Share Posted October 30, 2011 Oh mylanta. Got up, went to work, got to work....they had cancelled my shift without telling me. Went home, tried to sleep. Napped till noonish. Alex and I both had an awful night. We went to a family lunch/brunch dealy for my grandpa/grandma's birthday... visited with relatives and got asked “when’s the date” over and over and over. Oh, and the, do you have a job lined up, when do you grad, what do you want to do..... Oh man. We left feeling just absolutely exhausted. I know they don’t know, and they mean well and are curious, but we’re processing a loss, and processing having his brother suddenly living here, and, just too much right now. I told Alex that if I had a dollar for every time someone asked when the date is, we’d have the wedding paid for lol. On the positive side of things, my niece now calls Alex uncle Alex. It made me so happy to see them playing together. He’ll be a good daddy one day Going to a halloween party tonight. Sweet relief! BSing, little bit of booze, and costumes! Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 30, 2011 Author Share Posted October 30, 2011 Party was boring. Had more fun on our “double date” Tomorrow after I’m done work, Alex and I are going out for dinner and a movie. JUST the two of us. Thai food, and then Puss N Boots. Seeing pregnancies and babies on FB is hard tonight. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 30, 2011 Author Share Posted October 30, 2011 Thai restaurant is closed, and I got home from work at 3:30 to find Alex polishing off a fried chicken meal. Fantastic. Not impressed. Also not impressed with the South Park booming through my walls. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 31, 2011 Share Posted October 31, 2011 someone forgot date night? Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 31, 2011 Author Share Posted October 31, 2011 Yup. I made myself a nice seafood dinner and am spending the night doing homework. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted October 31, 2011 Share Posted October 31, 2011 ouch. In fairness, I have forgot date nights as well :s Link to comment
redrose85 Posted October 31, 2011 Author Share Posted October 31, 2011 Having date night with Shawn hahaha. We’re watching premonition and he’s making popcorn. It’s nice having a guy in the house who actually lets me have the remote! Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Bittersweet seeing all of the adorable babies in costume today. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Awww. Alex pulled me into his lap tonight and said “I miss you.” He found a nice restaurant for us to go to on Saturday. Link to comment
OptomisticGirl Posted November 1, 2011 Share Posted November 1, 2011 Awww. Alex pulled me into his lap tonight and said “I miss you.” He found a nice restaurant for us to go to on Saturday. Awww. L had me in tears again tonight.. gah, I can't take much more of this! Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Worst hangover. Ever. I feel like death. Everything hurts. I only work 6-10 tonight but I don’t think I can do it... Bad, bad, bad Sherry. I deserve this hell, I know. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 1, 2011 Author Share Posted November 1, 2011 Just watched this episode of Drop Dead Diva that made me cry. It was so sad/happy! Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 2, 2011 Author Share Posted November 2, 2011 Got up at 6:30 this morning to do homework/newspaper. I work at 1:30.... LOL Alex is already up and gone. His company is sponsoring a technology award tradeshow today. He’s got new fancy pants... he’s also got a very nice bum I told him we had better get him an engagement ring to fend off the ladies who will be taken in by his lovely butt. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 2, 2011 Author Share Posted November 2, 2011 It’s a bit tough to always have someone else around Alex and I. His brother is certainly welcome here and he’s being a great guest, but I’m finding that the two of us rarely have time alone and it’s affecting us a bit. Link to comment
redrose85 Posted November 4, 2011 Author Share Posted November 4, 2011 The good: Got a raise! The bad: Got denied this promotion my boss lured me back to the store with. I’m not upset, just a little bit...disappointed because she decided this based on one night. It’s all good because I do not want to be in charge/responsible for the noobs. Link to comment
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