redrose85 Posted September 12, 2011 Share Posted September 12, 2011 It's September 2011 and my undergrad degree is finally in sight. I'm #3 on the waitlist for a class that I must get into in order to have enough credits to graduate, so I am going to be sitting on the edge of my seat for awhile... I need to get in. This particular class is going to be a huge change for me, as it is focused on speculative and experimental fiction. In my time in the writing program, I've been focused on non-fiction and journalism, so it definitely is daunting to find myself in a fourth year fiction class surrounded by people with novels on the go. Being a novelist is something that I do not have a desire to do at this point in my life, but I know it will come later, when the time is right. For now, I'm focused on reporting and editing. My goal for myself is to focus on today. I am a worrier and a planner by nature, but there is no need to worry about what we cannot control. I don't want to wish my last year of university away. I want to drink it all up, make this years' paper the best one yet, and stretch my boundaries to discover new things. I need to accept what I cannot change and be joyful for others, instead of envious. Everyone's situation is different and we often never find ourselves where we "thought" we would be. That doesn't mean we're in the wrong place-- not at all. I lost sight of the fact that the man I love more than anyone else in this universe, asked me to marry him-- not because I pushed (as he assures me) but because he really, really wants to. And that is enough. It's more than enough. It's really special and I am really lucky. If the wedding means a lot to him, then it means a lot to me as well. Yesterday my fiance, myself, and a friend spent the day at a beautiful river, just talking, swimming, and enjoying the sunshine. After that, we spent a good twenty minutes observing all of the activity at a nearby pond. We watched the dragonflies swooping, mating, the snakes catching froglets, frogs sunning themselves on lilypads, and it was mesmerizing. That is what I want my life to be-- A beautiful adventure-- and the only way to attain that is to let go and be present. Link to comment
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