nresteiner

I hear you, but it was different with my ex. I ruined the good in me, she just helped the process along.

I think I saw you today, and my lack of dating success is getting to me. We got into a relationship, and you were my first everything, so I have to start over again. I thought about what I didn't like about you today, such as how you treat those who are close to you, how you use people for an ego boost. Regardless, there are times when I wish all of our plans for this year panned out. Going to a wedding this weekend, hopefully I'll meet someone there who'll let me forget about you. I'm angry and pissed that I allowed me to lose myself in you, and that you seemed to enjoy it at first. It's been SO damn hard to get back to where I was. It comforts me to know that I'll find someone who loves me so much, maybe not soon, but I will.

As pathetic as my last posting here was, I have something new to say to my ex: I'm moving on. I'm happier than I've ever been. And I was strong enough to decline when you wanted to throw me some table scraps. I don't think you would recognize me anymore, and I'm glad. I finally love myself, and I'm a different man than the one you knew.

I miss you so much, and even though I was the one that ended our relationship, I'm scared I won't find someone who loves me the way you did. I wish you the best in your life, it just hurts to know that I probably won't be a part of it.