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  1. Hello, Recently I have noticed patterns of irritability and anger. I try to control it, but each time I fail. Yesterday, I lashed out at a woman at the Drivers License center because she was very rude to me. I was so upset afterwards and cried in my car because I’ve never stuck up for myself like that. Although I did that, I let it get to me the rest of the day. There’s other situations where I feel angry and I want to blow up, so I go into a quiet place to cool down and take deep breaths. I do consider myself to be communicative, but sometimes I feel like I am not heard when I express myself, which is probably why I feel angry. I have noticed that some situations in the past have made me an angry person. I didn’t always use to be this way. I was always the nice person, but I’m now the complete opposite and have a zero tolerance/patience level. My anxiety has worsen and I let the small things get to me. I want to know if anyone is going through this and if you can give me any helpful tips to control my anger? Thank you.
  2. We don’t live together anymore. K.
  3. I don’t get my sister sometimes. We are extremely close, but sometimes we don’t see eye to eye. Whenever we get in an argument or disagreement, she insults me and my character. For example: there would be miscommunication and she would insult me by saying “well you should have listened in the first place” or “that’s why you’re failing at _____”. I am confused because what does me failing at something have to do with our miscommunication??? I am not sure if she is trying to upset me but I’ve had it with her. Then shes the one who gets mad and stays quiet, ignoring me for hours or the rest of the day. Mind you, she’s almost 29 years old acting like this. I am younger than her. Sometimes, I don’t like to get on her bad side because she would act like this. I do tell her that she needs to stop behaving like this and communicate better. I am tired of being nice and trying to break the ice to get her to talk and be in a better mood. Who stays mad for hours over something so little??? She “brags” to me that whenever she gets mad at me about anything that she blocks my number for hours and that I am the only person she ever blocks. And when she feels that she “forgives” me or is over the situation, then she will unblock me. She says it like it’s an accomplishment to her sometimes, but in the back of my mind I’m like “are you f—ing serious??!! How can we have a better relationship if she feels like she can’t express herself in a gentler way to her own sister? I don’t insult her back because the last time I did, we got into a physical fight and I have been working on controlling my anger and to not regret what I say in the heat of the moment. She’s always been this way and I don’t think she’ll ever change, sadly. My thoughts is to just distance myself from her.
  4. I have my own room. I agree, I do believe fighting is not the answer. She initiated it. But okay
  5. I Never said felt sorry for myself. But okay since you think you know me.
  6. I live with my sister and mom. After I graduated from college last year, I returned home to save money for my own place soon. Today I realized I need to leave immediately. My sister and I (who is one and a half year older than me) got into a physical fight over something so stupid. She was so mad because I “yelled” at her. After that she started throwing my belongings. I told her not to keep throwing my things and she didn’t care and started calling me names. I was very calm to the point where she pushed me to just yell and scream at her. She always thinks she’s right about everything and sees nothing wrong with the things she says and does to me. Over the years, she thought it was okay to always get me to do things for her and for her to bully me sometimes. After I yelled at her, she provoked the fight and started to hit me first. I did not want to fight her. I only wanted to talk it out. My mom broke us up. Sometimes I think that they are more on each others side, especially since I’ve been away from college all these years. I wish I was back in my own place. I feel so lost. I left the house. To clear my mind. There was only one trusted person I could think of to call about this. I feel so alone sometimes that if I wasn’t living, they wouldn’t care. After the fight my mom acted like it never happened and was on the phone with a friend. I’m confused as to why she wanted to fight. I feel like she wanted to do that to make her feel better. Because afterwards she was silent and acted like it never even happened, like she felt satisfied for getting that off her chest. I’ll never forgive her for that.
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