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  1. hoping
    i honestly think u should be happy for her man....honestly cherish every moment with her like its ur last day with her dude......she sounds like an amazing girl...to u and to the world....and u have her.....and alot of us right now right here would love to have that again.... why be jealous of her? u should be so proud....she fell in love with YOU...out of millions and millions of guys out there....but she fell in love with you....u have qualities that others dont have....u have what she wants that no one else has.....but most importantly...YOU are YOU.....what she loves from the bottom of her heart.... honestly, my advice (not much really cuz im only 21) to u is take some time...work on urself....let YOURSELF know that u r this amazing person that this beautiful and amazing girl has locked her eyes on....if u think ur not doing something to ur full potential....go for it....throw urself 100% into it....before u kno it, u'll be alot more happier with urself....and she will be as proud of u as u r of her....
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    and blender i sent u a prvt msg if u want to check ur inbox
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    wow blender.....i was just prayin to myself...hopin god can give me a word of wisdom....and he did just that..... i appreciate it....this is by far the most helpful reply to my heartaches.....when i read what u had to say i all the sudden felt there is a better future...and as hard to believe right now....that there is another girl somewhere out there with all her heart willing to give me her 120%....and me givin her my 120%..... im printing that reply out....and im gonna carry it with me.....whenever i feel down im gonna read it....thanks blender...and everyone else who has given such insights...not advices...but wisdom.....
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    what if shes already seein another guy
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    yeah i find it truly hard to believe that she doesn't miss me at all in such a short period of time......but i guess thats why it hurts so much......and yeah i definitly know i need to move on.....but right now i feel like ill never even get another girl as good as her....maybe its normal to feel that way....i know im stronger than this....its just times like this its unbearable....especially when u hear that someone u care and love so deeply doens't give 2 sh!ts about u in a span of 2 weeks.....i dunno its hard to believe.....and i heard it from 1 of her friends.....but she doesn't know that her friend is talkin to me.....
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    well im just here to vent again......today is one of those days that hurts unbearably......i heard my ex doesn't miss me at all.....its only been 2 and a half weeks after 2 years of her telling me how much she loved me.....and she doesn't miss me at all.......what a stab in the heart.....im so tired of feeling hurt.....im so tired......im trying so hard to improve myself...but whenever i hear things like that....it just brings me right back down the bottom of this cold dark well.......she doesn't miss me at all........
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    not tryin to hijack this thread....but im just tryin to understand my own situation by following urs....when u said ur feelings aren't the same anymore....do u still think about him sometimes? or miss him? even think about the good times u guys had?.....sorry to inquire into it im just tryin to understand my ex as well.... but on the other note, i relaly cant give u any advice becuz im only 21....but i am really sorry for ur situation....and hope u can make it thro....
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    ye im feelin real down right now....and to tell u the truth...im gonna go download that song right now and listen to it.....sometimes its better to let out then to keep it in.....and i think i've been keeping up a front for long enough now....and another song that gets me is called "afterglow" by INXS....
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    wel....its an update...i got the long anticipated letter from her.....and it was really long...... as most of u prob guessed....its over for good.....she said she needed to find herself and she was scared cuz she realized that she was "only living for me"...and she pushed alot of people out of her lives.......and she needed to rebuild the bridges she burnt when she was with me......and asked me not to respond or call....and told me not to wait.... i duno what to take of this.....my mind a blank.....it hurts.....all i can feel is tears just swelling up right now as i type this.....tryin to fight it back.....i just want her to be happy, and if this is what makes her happy....im just gonna have to go along with it.....im just speechless....all i wanted to do was love her....but i guess thats just not possible anymore....
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    well...im not here for pity.....i just thought i vent and rant here....to keep myself sane....i hear ur advices...and im definitly taking it in and workin on it....yeah i've been callin my friends....but again....when i feel a lil lonely thats why i vent here thats all
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    any thoughts guys?
  12. hoping
    oh man....but im a university student living on my own...and most importantly...broke! guess i have to find myself another way to heal...haha
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    amazing song.....i listen to this song everyday!!!!! another song i listen to is "perfect situation" by weezer.....its not as cheerful but u feel empowered....a little bit at least....
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    yeah i hear u guys man....ill work on myself....hard but im sure i can get thro this....only thing is my confidence is shot almost dead by this whole thing....i find myself trying so hard just to keep my chin up and walk up right.....and i guess i have to go make new friends now......its kinda funny how things work sometimes....when i was with her...my phone rings 24/7.....from her and my friends.....now taht she left me....feels like the whole world left with her...my phone doesn't ring anymore.....i dunno....just feeling kinda alone....but the good thing is that i found this website.....so yeah....and just to rant some more.....i feel like i was used by her.......i found her to be very attractive since the very beginning....and have found her attractive all thro out the relationship....and even now i find her really attractive....she has changed a little bit throughout this relationship appearance wise....i've never noticed cuz i guess love is blind.....but alot of guys hit on her now .......and honestly.....when i found out about the other guy....i feel like she just doesn't see me as good enough for her looks....so she has to look somewhere else...well she doesn't have to look anywhere else cuz guys just hits on her everywhere she goes.....feels like she used me to boost her own confidence or something...and as soon as she achieved whatever she was looking for....she ditches me.....for some other amazingly "brad pitt" dude who asked for her number......i dunno maybe im wrong....but i just feel so used.....so hurt.....but again i guess i have to work on myself on that 1.....
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    hey solo with my situation...u think i even have a chance to get her back?
  16. hoping
    alright alright i will....just hurts like a b!tch thats all
  17. hoping
    so depressed.....so i guess my ex did go to see that dude....who lives 4 hours away.....god
  18. hoping
    any suggestions at all?
  19. hoping
    so i've been readin this thread.....but my ex of almost 2 weeks goes to the same university, works where i actually HAVE to go SOMETIMES...lives in the same townhouse complex as me, just at the next row....she has roommates that are some of my really good friends....have same friends...and worked with 1 of her roommates bf who happens to be my best bud since university.....how the hell do i keep this presense/absense thing in balance????
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    yeah ill definitly take these advices......starting this friday....well plans are already set for st pats day so im chillin with those 2 girls already...at least 1 of them....but i've met some new people in this past week and half so im gonna invite all of them out as well....ill definitly give u guys the updates!! and ill also follow up on the "letter" situation if that ever happens....anyways good advice from both of ya'll!!!!
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    man u guys are fckin awesome.....im relaly takin in those 2 last posts by motoboy and solo....thanks guys.....yeah im gonna work on that....but its like i hang out with these 2 female friends almost everyweekend if not every other day....i dunno....ill c it as a jackpot! but 1 of them knows me for like 16 years n knows me really well.....so even when i act happy shes always like... stop dwelling on it, i can see it in ur eyes....and it just blows me off my course ....anyways but thanks guys it really cheered me up....and i feel much more confident already....definitly looking forward to st pats day n the irish girls out there hehe
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    another hard thing is that....2 of my best female friends lives with her....and she can find out anything about me..what im doin...thro them...and im sittin here...knoin absolutly nothing on whats goin on with her....well i kno to adopt the "not want to know" policy....but its kinda tough....i dunno...changin my msn name to "erased and replaced from the diary..."....and listenin to hedley's song "trip"....so depressed...
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    thats what i've tryin to tell myself...but its really...really..alot harder than said...im sure everyone knows what im talkin about....i guess i still c her as mine n mine alone unconsciously....well....on with the NC for another few weeks...
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    well....i guess my worries were not necessary....no letter yet....it hasn't been that long....but tomorrow is the day she mentioned in her emails (those who have read my old posts kno) that she was gonna go see this other guy she met....i wonder if shes gonna go.....arhg....and i just saw her on my way home from schoo (she lives in the same complex as me) talking on the phone...probably to that guy.....im beginning to believe that writing a letter to her was just stupid.....man seeing her just broke my heart all over again....god i need to be free of this sh!t....its been almost 2 weeks of NC except for that letter....sorry for the rant guys...just so heartbroken....god i wish i dind't c her.....
  25. hoping
    well in my letter... i just wrote about this past week and what i have been reflecting on...what mistakes i've realized and the efforts i've put in to see them thro....and basically ultimately sayin with all the mistakes i know, knowing how to reapply myself in the relationship, and knowing for certain what i want...i just want a 2nd chance, as slim as that chance may be.... thats what i wrote in the letter...i know it wasn't pressuring becuz i wrote it in a very rational state of mind....and i just needed to let her know how i feel...since really i have nothing to lose....u kno what i mean... anyways ill post again with what her letter said....whenever i get it....but still the anxiety to see what she has to say is killin me...
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