ExoticDance Posted March 13, 2017 Share Posted March 13, 2017 Hey guys, I hope you are all well? Here's the thing, I'm new to all of this but I've spent a long while racking my brains and many sleepless nights searching for a solution.. So I thought I'd turn worldwide to search for answers... So imagine this, an 18 year old girl with the world at her feet, a horse, money to spend on whatever she wishes, friends around her and family for support. That 18 year old girl was me. I was an exotic dancer. I met a guy (21), I'm now 19 and I no longer have a job because of it and I'm financially struggling... Here's the issue, my boyfriend is very paranoid and not for one second would he allow me to work back at the club, even though he's aware that I'm about to lose everything even my home... I'm completely aware how bizarre this situation sounds but I could really do with some advice. I've been with my boyfriend for 9 months now, he was fine at the start, you ladies know the crack and even you guys, perfect to start with and then the true colours make a rude announcement out of nowhere!!! He started to get paranoid and controlling, telling me what I should and shouldn't wear and making me feel low and accusing me of wanting every guys attention because I wore make up and got my nails done. I wasn't allowed to look out of the car window on journeys, he just made me feel quite disgusting within myself. I lost all of my confidence, we couldn't even watch a movie without him being paranoid. I started getting anxious and panicking every time I saw a guy in the street, even when I wasn't with my boyfriend. We argued every night without fail for 6 months straight, it drained the life out of me. I lost my job through being late as he would keep my up till 4am when I had work in the morning. I'm currently unemployed and I have no way to earn money quick enough apart from returning to exotic dancing. But how do I possibly tell him that? He has a short fuse and I'm scared of him when he gets angry. He doesn't like me spending time with friends and I don't get to spend as much time with my beloved horse who means so much to me! I guess I just need some advice guys, anything really would be welcome! I'm just a beaten down, lifeless mess at the moment with no light at the end of the tunnel! Thank you all in advance and I hope you are all having a lovely evening/day! xxxxx Link to comment
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