Kasai

I believe this strongly - It's okay to just love him. Just don't let him pursuade you from school or a career and doing what you want, in order to have kids. Man, I'm in a similar situation... but I'm so inexperienced. You probably shouldn't listen to me.

I often forget I'm supposed to call my bf.... ](*,)

You have to think of it like drugs, a chemical addiction. Except cheaper. If you have the choice to think ahead before you start doing it, it means you can not do it and save yourself more pain. At first it's a release but you'll only go into deppression faster and further. I found that doing it on my knees always scarred much less than anywhere else. Using numerous small cuts is better than deep ones. If you put vitamin e or some other cream on them they heal much faster.

Methinks I'm not going. link removed

Allright, sorry if this is too lengthy, please give me your opinion... so I went for a Job interview about a week ago with Vector Marketing. It's not telemarketing or Door-to-door. It's selling the product (cutco cutlery) to 1 or 2 people in an office type setting. Hours are very flexible and apparently they have scholorship programs. There is pay per appointment, even if I don't sell anything. There's a hundred dollar deposit, which is apparently refundable. Here's the problem, this whole thing has made me suspicious from the start, me and my friend were trying to organize a huge water war (balloons and super soakers, if you live in London Ontario you should come!) But they planned it for tomorrow when the training seminar is. I don't know if I could sell people things this way, really shy and not charismatic at all. They were asking everyone to come to the training. Do you think I should go to the training or ditch? I've been searching for a job since April with no luck, but my friend who's going away for a whole year was organizing it.... and I really wanna go #-o

that's very very true

Wow, that was an amazing piece, I can't believe nobody commented. The rythm , beautiful. The only line that I didn't feel me was 'I am older too'. I'm not a poet tho. So don't pay attention to me. Keep writing

You could try doing volunteer work to beef up your resume. The bulletin in my school is mostly useless stuff, but I rummage through things and have found acouple applications and useful things. I looked up that book online at my cities library page, and someone hasn't returned it on time. I think it's sad that someone looking for work now has to pay those fines.

I'm pretty sure get what you mean, being different inside or out it shouldn't matter. While a different mentality makes it hard to live in the normal way, who want's to be normal, what is normal anyways? Silly normal people aren't normal at all. Rant away!

Err alright, I'm really bad with words, especially bad at poetry. But two of my best friends are really good at it. On of them has potential to go proffesional, and the other read at a poetry reading last friday. Anyways it was all so good I thought I should practice, I've got so many thoughts it's easy to at least do that. Enough babbling, just read the thing. See I came back, for you only you, to hold you I'll save my words for other demons but for now it's us and other stuff that really doesn't seem as bad now. Yunno, I wonder if things might turn out okay for you, afterall, I know if you thought about it you'd deny my... pleasant accusations But for now don't think about you. Just feel warm. Feel the love that no real person could give you. I was packed away all that time, in you mind, it's awful there All you had to do was call out, and I came back. The shadow of your personality, all you wish you could be. Here at you disposal Love me. Comments/criticism welcomed!

Wow, that's beautiful. Repetition can often be the killing point in a poem, imo, but you used it wonderfully.

Why did you delete it? the title was interesting and made me want to read it.

A month is alot, even almost! You aren't pathetic, I'm struggling for 2 weeks here. Maybe you could talk to your friends about it? Good luck. *hugs*

In my opinion, cold turkey=bad, for cutting anyways. You're bound to have slip ups if you try this way, you just have to try taking it a day at a time, and I hope you've tried everybody elses suggestions! PainNsiolence - Good job! 8 months is awesome! You could start your own thread. I'm fortunate enough that I haven't lived through such things. I wish you luck in the future.

I don't know how to help but your probably doing the right thing. However it turns out, good luck. In a relationship you need to consider how the other person feels but you can't forget about you and your needs.

My favorite songs right now are all pretty moving, for me at least, and I doubt anyone else would recognize these Spirit Ditch by Sparklehorse The Grace by Neverending White Lights Center of the Sun by Conjure One

In my opinion you should tell them. If you don't you'll just worry about it more. Your parents would probably be glad you came to then versus being told by a friend. It'll be hard though. Whatever you do, don't keep making excuses because that just sucks. You won't know how they'll feel about it unless you tell them. Whatever your decision, good luck!