hektik02

you know, i've been down that road and know how it is. i know how it feels when your mind is set a certain way and for some weird reason you cant change it. i never wanted to have to take medication to help, but some people do. i learned on my own on getting out of this "gutter" of self pity. your first step is to love yourself. you have to be able to look in front of that mirror and truly love yourself.i promise you if you can do this you will feel much better. if you can without lying to yourself believe this you will become one step closer to happiness. don't worry too much about what other people think, in a few years time you wont even remember them and they will have been a mere spec in your rearview.

I'm the kind of person that runs from a problem as long as I can (which makes it much worse) until I HAVE to face it or somone MAKES me. It's pretty sad. I just realized this tonight which is the funny thing. I'm not very dependant and am going to work on this. For a long time I'd been wondering what was wrong with me, and it truly was this simple. I know this is not the way to go as it breaks you down as a person and probably will make you irresponsible as well as gain other negative characteristics. I also avoid problems and try to run to something for comfort when ever the anxiety kicked in from worrying about it. First it was my ex-girlfriend. After that it was drugs. One needs to face their problems before the habit can get very horrible that it could cause psychological problems. I'm telling you this can I can foresee it in myself.

I definitely can say I have that same problem. It's really strange cause I never was like that before. I guess the long term effects of society and our celebrity worshipped nation had something to do with it. Anyways, I can relate with what happytown had to say, and plan on giving it a try.

Man, I definitely feel for you. I've had pretty much the same thing happen with me. She was my everything. I had no friends or anything, she truly was everything to me. I felt as if she was all I needed for the rest of my life. It ended and she had that same sound of boredom in her voice when I said those exact things you said while I cried my heart out. it felt cold. I really sympathize for your situation. When you know you've done so much for one person and they turn around and spit in your face like nothing ever mattered. I honestly think you should just forget about her as soon as possible after what she did to you. To do that to somone who loves them is just unexcusable. Just know man that you aren't the only one this has happened to and it's not the end of the world.

Believe it or not, you aren the only one feeling like that. my exgf broke up with me about 4 months ago. im still not over it. it was my mistake to attach myself to her and cling on to her for dear life. i had lost all my friends and she was all i had. i built myself around her life and she knew this. she decided to leave me anyways. it was a bad break up and i tried to call her on thanks giving and we talked for a few minutes. i tried to call a few days later and she wrote me a msg saying that her life has been so much better without me in it and to stop calling her. so i called a few times and wrote a few text messages preetty much beggin her not to throw away everything after we had known eachother for 7+ years. and thats been it. i was stupid to revolve my life around her and when she left it hit hard, really hard. like you say the fact she doesnt care and shes moved on, it really makes you feel pretty down about yourself i guess. it just hurts me and i cant stop thinking about it so much cause it felt like she was the best thing that ever happened to me and now its gone and she doesnt even give one piece of * * * * about me after everything. i try hard but theirs days when i break down and just want to call her, or i goto her website or some stupid ish. ive become so weak and pathetic it amazes me.

Man I Freaking Envy You For Telling Her That. Lets Just Hope You Can Stick With It.

Wow man.. Its kinda spooky how closely related our situation are. the whole she has me on her messenger list but i blocked her and sh1t like her going to college and tryin to break up with me over some BS. Although our "relationship" lasted a year longer from the first time she attended the dorms. When she first went to the dorms, same sh1t happened with me and her. She said she wanted to see what else was out there and it pissed me off I guess. I just said whatever and ignored her and she later came back to me. I heard later she tried to get with a guy and gave him oral on the first night and he never even talked to her again. So in my mind it was like If he didnt ignore her and they got together we would not have gotten back together. when we were together i was always thinking about sh1t like that in my head. anyways. as you know a couple months back the next semester started. this time we broke up for good. she said she didnt feel the same about me anymore. she was pretty much dating guys within a day after we finally broke up. and yea it pisses me off that when we talk she just tries to talk all normal like we never had anything. after all that we told eachother and sh1t. i dunno it was hard. my mistake was i kinda revolved my life around her. so when we broke up i fell HARD. but im just realizing i was happy alone before and i can be happy alone again. and you are sooooooo right about the whole immature thing. she threw words around that she shouldnt have like nothing. that alos pissed me off. she was the first person to bring up marriage and joke about the day i put a ring on her finger etc. almost like she brain washed me in a way. haha, anyways its been about 2 months. She turned into such a crazy b1tch I couldn't believe the arguments we had and the way she treated/talked to me. but yea in the end i guess you are right. i can just hope she matures one day and will find what ultimately will make her happy. haha, just looking back i wish i never got with such a crazy girl. oh well.

Hey I read the post. He is'nt being racist. What he means is being banged by a big black guy with a big huge wang, and the point being she will have better sex with a bigger wang cause thats how some guys percieve girls when it comes to sex. Some guys just think girls want really big wangs, cause when you watch pornos and stuff you tend to get that idea.

I seriously doubt it's cause he is "TOO BIG". After 4 months, no matter how big he was it shouldnt continue to hurt during intercourse. Their is a thing called Dyspareuina where pain occurs in the genitals before, during or after intercourse. In women, dyspareunia os often related to vaginismus, a condition in which muscle spasms of the vagina prevent intercourse. This ussually occurs when their is fear is present or you are experiencing high levels of anxiety. This is clearly psychological though. If you think its not related to you then disregard it. My girlfriend experiences pain during sex but not enough to cry but enough to not enjoy it (she tells me she only has sex to make me happy). And I would not consider myself too big. If it continues you should probably see a doctor or maybe even a psychologist.