Qut81 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I want in...I NEED to do this. I just emailed him again. Link to comment
LemonCheesecak Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 This evening is going downhill. Peaked for a few days there, and now I sink into the inevitable pit of self loathing and despair. C'est la vie. Link to comment
lauramed Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 All I can say is that this is one of the worst days I've had in a long time. Link to comment
FriendnorFoe Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 its raining outside, cant go for a walk, dont have any friends to hang out with let alone talk to, its hard to figure out what I should do with myself Link to comment
dmhoff Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 A few hours left of day 2. I'm hurting pretty bad right now. Today is the first day he hasn't tried to call me at all. I always knew I was 'hanging on to the edge of the rope he was holding' our entire relationship, but I guess I hoped maybe, just maybe, he'd try to call me begging me to come back and that he can't live without me, like he's told me over and over again "I could never live without you in my life!" I knew he'd have no problem and that it was all just talk that he knew I'd want to hear. I know with out a doubt he is totally fine and going about his day without a problem, and actually having a grand time knowing he doesn't have to call me tonight. I guess that's half of my hurt, knowing he could give a s**t as to what I'm doing, how I'm doing, or if I'm even alive! Nearly 5 years of daily conversations, hours long, and then POOF! Nothing! Incredible how a person can be so cold! Dana Link to comment
Qut81 Posted March 26, 2009 Share Posted March 26, 2009 I called him....*sigh* that lasted what? A few hours...Im pathetic. I called bc I just wanted to say hi. He told me he would call me this wkend. I doubt it... Link to comment
Lieutenant Dan Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Day 4 - Had a really bad day today. I found out my would have been roommate next year, isn't going to be my roommate anymore. Grr. I almost caved today to ask him if he would still be able to drive me to and from our college on our breaks next year, but figured it can wait. Besides it's only been 4 days... Whatever. A part of me almost wants him to date someone else. To get it out of his system and maybe realize what he had. I actually thing that if we were ever to get back together, we would both have to date other people. Seeing as how we never really got the chance to date others since we were together for so long. I'm feeling better about the friend thing. Someday, without a doubt, I know it'll be happen. It should be nice. I need a good shoulder to lean on when I get homesick at school. I know he'll be there for me, in a strictly friend way. And that's ok with me. As long as he's there for me every now and then when I need a reminder that there are people that care about me, even just a little bit. Poor boy. I know he's hurting, I wish I could make it better. I've got enough hurt on my shoulders though. Such a sad thing to have happened to us :sad: Link to comment
nomorelovish Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Starting NC today. I feel like its almost futile because I have to call my ex in a few week to sort out some money issues, and there is no way around it at this point, so there is already an expiration date on this period of NC for me. I'm going to do it anyway, so wish me luck! Link to comment
ScorpiGal83 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Day 3. I was feeling pretty damn good. Then I had to go and dream about him last night. Very cliche dream to have - about us getting back together. Argh! But I also dreamt something weird about a haunted elevator and the ghost was a little boy calling out for his "Papa". I do tend to have weird dreams though... so I was glad it wasn't all about the ex! Felt * * * * ty so I deleted him off my MSN and blocked him on facebook. *sigh* Just keep telling yourself it's for the best, Nayamaus.... Link to comment
nomorelovish Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 I just deleted my ex off of facebook too. It's liberating to not have that temptation there anymore. Just remember, a few months from now if you still want to add him/her back the option is always there, but for now its the best thing to do to start healing and moving on. Link to comment
ScorpiGal83 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Less than an hour after I blocked him I got an email from him. "Hi, It makes me pretty sad you blocked me on facebook. I wish you wouldn't decide to hate me but I guess I have no say in that." I don't hate him. But I don't wanna break NC just to tell him that. WHAT do i do?? *sigh* Link to comment
JohnGalt Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Less than an hour after I blocked him I got an email from him. "Hi, It makes me pretty sad you blocked me on facebook. I wish you wouldn't decide to hate me but I guess I have no say in that." I don't hate him. But I don't wanna break NC just to tell him that. WHAT do i do?? *sigh* Hi Nayamaus, I've been following your story and I'm sorry you're having to go through this. I know how tough it is. I know that you still love him, but in this situation you should not respond to his message. It isn't that you hate him...it is that you want to heal. Blocking him on MSN and facebook is the first step and you're doing great! If he's noticed those small steps already, then maybe he'll miss you after sometime and come crawling back...but don't boost his ego by responding. Just stop talking to him until he indicates he wants to get back together. Good luck. Link to comment
ScorpiGal83 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Hi Nayamaus, I've been following your story and I'm sorry you're having to go through this. I know how tough it is. I know that you still love him, but in this situation you should not respond to his message. It isn't that you hate him...it is that you want to heal. Blocking him on MSN and facebook is the first step and you're doing great! If he's noticed those small steps already, then maybe he'll miss you after sometime and come crawling back...but don't boost his ego by responding. Just stop talking to him until he indicates he wants to get back together. Good luck. Crap! I just responded to him because in my other thread I started about this email he sent, the other posters seemed to think a short reply explaining why was in order. Anyways I replied to his email with: "I didn't block you on Facebook because I hate you. It's just something I feel I have to do." I guess it's back to Day 1 of NC for me!! Thanks JohnGalt. Good luck to you too - NC will slowly but surely help us through this Link to comment
eva76 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 is she resigning because of you? i don't know is she resigning coz of me. He did'nt explain and i won't ask any further. I think if asked him bout that he'll trick me for being guilty or anything else, am I right? Link to comment
lauramed Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Day 2 He called the other night and before you know it I'm answering the phone. It's just so automatic that I can't stop myself. I am proud of myself however. He wanted to stop by and I know why but I said no. First time I have ever done that to him and I"m sure he was totally shocked. I'm done acting like a puppy who licks up the leftovers that he throws my way. So I may have broken no contact but in this case I think the results were probably better than not answering. So I'll be ignoring his calls for a while and then will finally tell him that if this is all he has to offer me then he needs to move on and leave me alone. I mean really....he thinks he's going to stop by whenever he gets the urge to have sex with me but without a relationship. Then as far as I'm concerned he can go pay for it. Feeling a little better today, of course went out with friends and got pretty tanked last night so I think I'm still feeling the effects of the wine. But it was good to go out and laugh. Have plans for tonight and tomorrow night. Helps to stay busy and having things to look forward to. Link to comment
dmhoff Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Day 3 for me...kinda/sorta actually. I don't know. Last night I was feeling horrible, then ok, then horrible again. It all so unreal to me! OH crap! He just text me saying he misses me! Link to comment
LemonCheesecak Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Day 7 Right, I'm angry. But its because today, for NO reason, I'm in a fantastic mood. I feel hyperactive, sociable, and just full of new vitality. The only positive thing to happen today however is a presentation I had to give, relief I suppose. Who knows. But it annoys me that I can flip between two extremes over the course of one night! Link to comment
BrokenheartUK Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 It's Friday night AGAIN, I can't wait until the time comes when I don't dread the weekend. I just know I will be thinking about my ex and her boyfriend having sex tonight Link to comment
brazilgirl21 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Broken - For me I'm starting to dread the long weekends we'll have in April. It's like I will know they will travel together! SO hard to accept and not think about it... ! Link to comment
LemonCheesecak Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Weekends are definitely the hardest. Too much time to think. My friends always seem to have prior arrangements at the weekends which leaves me on here. Quite amusing though, I never thought I'd hate the weekend coming round! Link to comment
createhappiness Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 8 months post break-up and after several countless attempts at NC (ex contacted me, i kept answering) i'm at day 9 NC that i am 100% committed to this time. doubt he'll contact me again after i sent a nasty email to him to leave me alone i haven't felt so sad/depressed since the first couple months after the break-up. god help me.... Link to comment
CoCo2009 Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 .................................. Link to comment
LemonCheesecak Posted March 27, 2009 Share Posted March 27, 2009 Harsh, she uploaded a new photo of herself on Bebo so of course I can see a preview on my homepage (I haven't deleted her, which has proven to be a mistake but I didn't want to cause a conflict). She's had a makeover and looks * * * * ing gorgeous. Hurts like hell. Link to comment
Anon21 Posted March 28, 2009 Share Posted March 28, 2009 Today has been really rough. I really miss seeing her, having her around, being with her. I have no energy these past few days. Link to comment
brazilgirl21 Posted March 28, 2009 Share Posted March 28, 2009 Today is VERY VERY tough. It's Friday night and I feel COMPLETELY alone in the world... I know I'm not, but I just feel alone. I don't want to go out, I don't have the energy. Link to comment
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