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  1. LemonCheesecak
    That last one is incredible. I'm entranced!
  2. LemonCheesecak
    It's not necessarily the text itself I struggle with, its just that it requires a fair bit of input and dedication and I usually have trouble finding the time to put that effort in. But I'm anticipating this crazy speech now.
  3. LemonCheesecak
    I've tried twice but I keep getting distracted about half way through and give up. Starting again this week though, only book I brought home with me for a reason. 1984 is great though
  4. LemonCheesecak
    Your façade is dripping I see you now. Love it! And good to see a fellow Glaswegian on eNA, I was starting to feel lonely!
  5. LemonCheesecak
    Oh dear....I've heard his new music...its not bad, but its not Korn. That was the most unexpected "reinvention" of a person I've ever seen....seemed to come from nowhere. I'm reading The Catcher in the Rye, for the first time ever (I don't know why I haven't to date, I'm almost ashamed of myself).
  6. LemonCheesecak
    That was fantastic! Captivating from start to finish
  7. LemonCheesecak
    Haha if I'm honest I'm waiting for the moment where I realise I've ripped off some song I like. It's happened before! I'm glad you like it though
  8. LemonCheesecak
    I made it to day 30, and broke it, but I'm fine with that. It's my birthday, and we overtook her in the car on the way for a meal out so she just texted to say she saw me and wished me a happy birthday. I just sent my thanks and told her I had a busy night ahead. Nothing wrong with that I feel good
  9. LemonCheesecak
    Day 30 Hooray! I've made it at last. Now to get up, get out there, and have a great time. Life is nothing but limitless possibilities and I can follow any path I choose, with or without her.
  10. LemonCheesecak
    Day 29 Tomorrow is the big day. Although I don't even know why I'm counting anymore, its not like I plan to break NC once I reach 30. If anything its just proving to me that she never did want to be with me, and she's doing fine without hearing from me.
  11. LemonCheesecak
    To save creating a new thread, thought I'd just share a fragment of something I found in my notebook. Must have written it on awaking one night, cos I don't remember doing it. Folding, unfolding, you fold and unfold Follow the motions, do what you're told Strings to the puppets, the threads that they hold An injected life in a solid stone mold
  12. LemonCheesecak
    Day 28 Not good today. Think I saw her at the bus stop right outside my place (I can only begin to imagine why) with what looked like her flatmate too. I only caught a glance though, didn't want to make eye contact but I'm 90% sure it was them. It hurts because this is the first time I've seen her since the middle of February, and part of me feels guilty for just walking by like that. And I'm a bit shaken by it. Alas, Sunday is day 30, and also my closure day. If she forgets the date of my birthday (like I think she will, she was never one to remember anything related to me) or just doesn't bother to wish me well (we're supposed to be on good terms currently) then she is nothing to me.
  13. LemonCheesecak
    Do you read much before bed? I tried doing that back when I was still thinking about her at those times and it helped a bit.
  14. LemonCheesecak
    Day 27 Oooh I can almost smell it. And it smells of sweetest honeysuckle. Can't stop me now
  15. LemonCheesecak
    Day 26 Getting close, but today is generally rubbish. Oh well.
  16. LemonCheesecak
    Haha I appreciate the compliment but everything I write seems cheesy and contrived to me in reflection. It all gets put in the notebook though, where I'm forbidden to edit.
  17. LemonCheesecak
    I feel you FriendnorFoe, except I can't even watch our favourite shows yet 3 months down the line. I'm almost afraid to. I realised a while ago that I was mourning the loss of my closest friend. I choose to look at this as a positive sign though. Shows me I'm capable of real healing and that I'm only human after all.
  18. LemonCheesecak
    Thank you! I don't actually know where a lot of it came from, or what it means, but I guess that's just an indicator of a truth not even I know.
  19. LemonCheesecak
    Continuing a recurring theme.... Only you know where this ends Only you know, my friend Because we travel on, unravel from The things we fear, what we've become There's no more time for compromise No, no more time for vacant lies We learn from what we've learned before No need to question anymore Just drive... These words are shameless, words are pure But only words, and not a cure No use in finding answers, you Know where this journey takes us to The end... So sleep my friend Just sleep Around the bend They keep The answers to all that you seek In voices still afraid to speak Voices of ghosts
  20. LemonCheesecak
    Ah there's plenty more to come, especially now coursework is out of the way. You too, I love your imagery. You have a true gift.
  21. LemonCheesecak
    Day 25 I am alive.
  22. LemonCheesecak
    Wowzers. That is all
  23. LemonCheesecak
    It's a good sign when you don't appear as active on here as you were before I've been riding the waves of indifference the past fortnight and I'm glad just to have that. And there are good days every now and then. People breakup all the time and the world keeps spinning, so its best not to get left behind.
  24. LemonCheesecak
    A little ditty I wrote in the early hours of this morning, again putting pen to paper and seeing where it took me. Another day I awaken underwhelmed and all alone Beneath the grey In empty space between these walls that once was home I'm starting to fade... The morning rain Washes off a little skin, exposing bone But it's OK It cleanses deep inside of me, and I'll I've known It eases the pain... It's far too late For sympathetic shoulders to rest this head of stone I cannot wait On a solemn sun to rise above this sea of groans I'm leaving today... Might add some sort of resolution stanza when I get a chance. Too busy writing a stupid report to concentrate right now, but I've got a few ideas I'm mulling over. My head was chaotic this morning, I've even started work on some children's poetry that came to me out of the blue!
  25. LemonCheesecak
    Day 24 Too stressed out today to care about here. Organising the conditions of me returning to my summer job, got my date booked, now I just need to book a seafarers medical because my certificate expired, at a cost of £71.50 to me. ARGH! Also mustn't conflict with my exams next month.
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